The protagonist always says he loves me

If he went any further, he would fall, he knew.

But Chen Ci couldn't help but took a step forward and was stopped by the cold railing.I want to go to his side, hold an umbrella for him in the rain, want to get rid of the annoying fog, and smooth the wrinkles on his brow.Between life and death, of course he is the most important.

Chen Ci supported the railing with both hands.He was a little scared and trembling with fear, but the voice in his ear kept urging him, from a childish voice to a clear juvenile voice, and finally to a crying voice.It seemed that if he didn't take this step, the other party would cry anxiously.

I haven't seen him cry in my memory yet, Chen Ci thought to himself, it's best never to see him cry.

Support the railing with both hands, and use your upper arms to support it.Chen Ci's body hadn't lost his balance when his waist and abdomen tightened suddenly, and he was strangled back suddenly by his iron-like arms.

The strength of that stretch was so great that Chen Ci had the feeling that all internal organs were dislocated.Before he could recover, the other party let him go.

"Being with me, is it so difficult for you to accept?"

Chen Mi was standing on the edge of the roof, wearing a simple T-shirt, his hair was disheveled, it looked like it hadn't been taken care of, and there was no style at all when it was blown by the wind from the tall building.His hands were in his trouser pockets, trembling a little because they were too tight before.

If he didn't know that he never cried, Chen Ci would have thought that he had just burst into tears when he saw the red corners of his eyes.

Chen Mi smiled, "I'm so sad that I want to look for life and death, it seems that I was really wrong."

Chen Ci said, "No, it's Nightmare..."

"Oh, and it."

Chen Mi's pupils reflected different colors in the morning light.This was the first time Chen Ci saw the star-like brilliance in his eyes when he was sober, so bewitching that he was so enchanting.He just glanced at the woman possessed by the nightmare, and the woman screamed and collapsed on the ground, not breathing for a moment.

He walked up to the woman, and pulled his fingers upwards, as if pulling out a transparent entity.There was a sound like tearing silk, and a faint gray outline was slowly torn apart in the air.

Chen Mi didn't show any expression on his face. After the outline completely dissipated, he wiped his hands slowly and said, "I've solved it for you. Let him come over."

"Let...who?"

"Kong Zhou." Chen Mi frowned in disgust, and stretched again, "Doesn't he need this kind of performance for a new exorcist like him? This is my gift money to you."

Chen Ci felt that he understood every word he said, but he couldn't understand the meaning of it.The morning breeze blew the corners of their clothes, and they looked at each other silently.It wasn't until Chen Mi walked around the woman and turned to leave the rooftop that he realized that he might want to leave.Once you go far, you may not turn back and leave.

This made him feel inexplicable fear.When he left the villa this morning, he hoped that the two of them could be separated for a while.But he never assumed, what would he do if this period of time would last several years, ten years, or even a lifetime.

"Chen Mi!" Chen Ci shouted anxiously, almost breaking his voice.

Chen Mi stopped, looked back at him with squinted eyes, and then smiled knowingly.He walked towards Chen Ci slowly, his footsteps could not hear the slightest impatience.

"It's time to say goodbye officially. Thank you for not letting me get wet in the street, thank you for taking care of me for so many years, and thank you for giving me a good experience last night. I don't think I will ever forget it."

Chen Ci couldn't tell whether what he said was right or wrong, whether it was ridicule or sincerity.When Chen Mi uttered these words with his lips parted, there was always a half-smile expression on his face.Chen Ci thought in a trance that the innocent young man who would cling to him and act like a baby, and hug him as uncle probably only fits in memory and fantasy, and the cynical and indifferent person in front of him is the complete and real him.

The boy who has recovered his original appearance is more beautiful and colder.It was a flickering ice and fire, a distant star that he could not reach.

Chen Mi stretched out his hand to cover his eyes, and they were very close.Chen Ci's heart was pounding, and he vaguely thought of the young man's slightly hoarse voice in his mind.He said his heart was beating so fast.

When the noses touched, Chen Mi turned his head, paused for a moment, and pressed his finger lightly on his own mouth, and then printed Chen Ci's lips.

"Break up kiss."

"May you grow old with the one you love, and may I no longer be obsessed with my heart and make mistakes."

Chen Ci hurriedly grabbed his collar, but the smooth material didn't stay between his fingers.Chen Mi's figure evaporated into the rain and mist, as if he had never appeared on the street on that rainy day many years ago.

Chen Ci covered his lips in despair.This feeling is...

He used to think that he knew the synopsis of the plot and could easily find his lover. He found Kong Zhou, but Kong Zhou was not.He thought that being moved by Chen Mi was a betrayal of his lover, he tried hard to suppress and deceive himself, but he made a mistake.He thought that he would never find his lover again in this world, but in fact, the other party came to him long ago.

However, he was pushed away again and again.

He thought he had a chance to win and was full of confidence, but in the end he looked back and was just a complete idiot.Fate made an innocuous joke with him. It was he who resolutely went the wrong way and insisted on refusing to turn back.

"Ding!"

"Ding! The mission is judged to have a 97.4% probability of failure in the end, exceeding the warning line. May I ask the host to reopen the mission in this world?"

Maybe he was too angry to vent, Chen Ci's heart was blocked like a stone, but he was still calm in the face of this emotionless notification.

He can think that the dual protagonists and the succubus are all jokes played by the system to prevent him from finding a real lover.The other party deliberately teases, although it is annoying, but the one who should be most responsible is himself.It was he who blindly believed in the experience of the previous two worlds, his paranoid refusal to admit his feelings for Chen Mi, and his dullness, stubbornness, and childishness that caused today's situation.In the previous world, his lover appeared by his side from the very beginning, loved him deeply, cared for him from the beginning to the end, cut off the thorns on the road for him, and walked 99 steps for him. Take a step forward, and you can smoothly throw yourself into the arms of your lover.

In this world, Chen Mi had already walked fifty, sixty, seventy steps toward him, but he was still standing still, and even wanted to flee in the opposite direction.No one does not suffer and does not remember pain, no matter how sincere and warm feelings are not responded to, it is inevitable that people will leave the tea and the lights will go out.

If he were Chen Mi, he might have already been unable to bear it.

"What do you mean by showing up now?" Chen Ci heard himself asking.

The system said, "Remind the host to restart this world mission."

"Oh." Chen Ci felt that his mind was spinning a bit slowly, like a highway blocked by too many emotions, "After restarting the mission, will I remember these things?"

"The system only archives when entering a new world, and it will read and overwrite after restarting."

"That is to say, if I restart the mission, I will go back to when I first came to this world, and I will not remember what happened in these years." After Chen Ci finished speaking, he asked again, "Will he not remember?"

The system was obviously stunned for a moment, and immediately said decisively, "Of course!"

Chen Ci saw a bird in the sky fluttering its wings vigorously in the wind and rain, throwing itself towards a nest that he didn't know where it was.The rain wet its wings, and the strong wind confuses its judgment, only to see the black spot hovering in the air, and finally getting farther and farther away.

"I refuse." Chen Ci said, "Since it is not 100% determined to fail, there is still a possibility of success. You have no reason to force me to restart this task. I will not remember what happened in this world. What has happened to help you complete the task?"

If his memory is reset to the beginning, it is nothing more than making the same choice again.Why would he hurt himself and his lover again?

"The system will provide some help to the host." The system seemed to coax.

"Then why didn't you say it when this world first started?" Chen Ci clenched his hands on the railing to make himself more sober and calm, "That's enough. I don't know what your purpose is, but what you have done is enough to make me feel better." I have hated it for a long time."

"Now, go away."

He wanted to say "Go to hell" to them like Chen Mi did when he was in the hospital, that would be enough to vent his resentment.

Facing the unresponsive system and the silence on the rooftop, Chen Ci covered his eyes with his hands and wiped off the rainwater, but more water marks continued to wet his palms.

……

"Uncle Chen, come eat this. I caught it, it's very fat!"

A small fishing boat sailed slowly to the coast of Alaska. A young man on board set up a grill and jumped up and down energetically.He is already 24-[-] years old, and he still speaks and acts like a teenager, without any scruples.

Chen Ci was a little envious of such a mentality, waved his hands and smiled, "No need."

Holding a skewer of grilled fish in his hand, Kong Zhou yelled, "Are you sure you don't want to eat it? There's only one skewer, and I can't bear to eat it myself..."

"Give it to Mr. Qin." Sitting on the bow of the boat, Chen Ci looked at the gradually clear coastline and reefs, "I'm a little seasick and have no appetite."

Kong Zhou sighed in disappointment, and said in a low voice, "Don't feel bad, Uncle Chen, I'll definitely find it this time. Alas, this skewer of grilled fish... Hey! Qin, you are too much!"

Another man on the boat grabbed the skewers and held the monkey-like man in his arms by the way.He nodded to Chen Ci, then took Kong Zhou by the collar and led him to the stern of the boat.Out of the corner of Chen Ci's eye, he saw that Kong Zhou was still wriggling, and after being kissed firmly by a man, he became as honest as a quail.

It would be a lie to say that I am not envious.Six years ago, the Nightmare incident was left unsolved. Kong Zhou got into the core layer of the Exorcists Alliance by relying on his merits in another case, and met Mr. Qin.In the beginning, Kong Zhou complained to him about how domineering and domineering the other party was, and how he squeezed his labor force, but now it has turned into this.

Kong Zhou often comforts him with his own experience, saying that lovers will eventually get married.He also hoped so, but he knew that not everything would go his way.It has been six years since Chen Mi left. The Exorcist Alliance occasionally got some clues about the succubus.

Last month, a cable reported that Chen Mi had appeared in Alaska, Kong Zhou told him, and he put down everything he was doing to rush over.What does another disappointment matter?Looking far away but not seeing, close at hand but not finding, Chen Mi endured for so many years, now it's his turn to taste the bitter fruit.

"If you move again, I'll beat you!"

"Damn it, you really dare to one by one"

The sound of fighting at the stern was blown away by the sea breeze, and Chen Ci showed a very shallow smile.

The smile froze at the corner of his mouth, and he saw a person wearing a bright red warm suit on the ice-covered coastal reef, sitting quietly and fishing.Xu Shi heard the vortex of the fishing boat, afraid of disturbing the fish that was about to take the bait, he flicked the fishing rod, the silver line was drawn sharply, and a salmon was suddenly lifted into the air, its body and fins still swaying.

The freshness of life and the cruelty of death coexist harmoniously in this salmon desperately trying to survive.

The fishing man tightened his line, dropped it carelessly on the bank, lowered his rod, and turned calmly toward them.