Canghe

I hadn't dreamed for a long time.

After my father died, my dreams were full of blood that couldn't be concealed.Hearing the sound of iron horses and swords, seeing the shadows of swords and swords, the sky is full of yellow dust, iron hoofs are stepping on the bones, and the father has a horizontal knife in his hand, killing decisively, whipping the enemy's head.Blood splashed on my father's face, and the wind blew my father's hair to cover his face. I couldn't see his face clearly, and even my memory gradually became blurred. I only vaguely remembered his hearty smile. The desert frontier echoed in the sky above the General's Mansion compound, accompanied by the high cries of goshawks, piercing the sky.He looked at me, and the low voice "He'er" floated in the dream, repeating it over and over again in the dream, I ran after the direction of the voice, and listened to what he said behind him, but he disappeared into a blurred fog No matter how hard I try to catch up, I can't touch the corner of his clothes.Finally, I was tired and stopped, as if standing on the water, seeing my own shadow with mottled tears on my face.

"Chop—" the executioner's voice penetrated the dream and pierced into reality, panicked, trying to stop the falling knife, I heard the sound of the tip of the knife sinking into the skin, coming through muffled, vibrating one after another, connected to my body The heartbeat also fluttered together.The blood gushes out and is hot, but it feels like a bucket of ice water has been poured into my heart.

The surroundings darkened, and I vaguely saw that I was sitting on the highest seat in the Jin Mansion, Mi Zhu was standing beside me, and Cang Lan called me "Young Master" behind me, I turned around, but saw Gongsun's silent face , in the snow, a frighteningly white snow.It seemed that something was broken, and I heard a crisp bell ringing.

"Ahe" who is calling me, "Ahe, come quickly" who are you...? "...Gongsun?" "Ahe, come quickly..."

Gongsun...?Gongsun!

"Gongsun..." I ran towards the direction of the voice, but only found nothingness. "Ahe, don't cry." Gongsun seemed to be smiling in a trance, in the snow.

"I'm sorry..." There was a coolness in my ears.

I don't like dreaming, it's easy to confuse dreams and reality.The person in the dream was so beautiful, it made me mistakenly think that I was still a carefree young man in the general's mansion, running amok in a world, before, Gongsun avoided all troubles for me, and later, Cang Lan took care of all troubles for me What happened to me, my father hadn't been executed yet, and my mother was still there. At that time, the General's Mansion was my home.

The later me lost the sheltered world. The later me, the world is so big that I have nowhere to call my home.The remaining people are no longer old friends, they are enemies.I am still Jin He, but there is a new person inside. How can it be hard to cool the blood after drinking ice for ten years? It is better to become a heinous person than to be riddled with holes. At least I can protect the person I want to protect .I say so to myself.I still said this to myself until the day Gongsun died.

Gongsun is dead, and the arrow is on the string, so he has to shoot.Gongsun couldn't die in vain, what Gongsun took away was the former Jin He, the former Jin He through and through.From now on, everything is seen by those eyes in the sky.I keep saying this to myself.

That day, Ni Zhu sent me a piece of warm jade.It belongs to Gongsun, I recognize it.That piece of jade was given to him by myself when I was young, so many years have passed in a flash.

The jade is very beautiful, but the lines are a little unclear.There are some blood stains on it, it should belong to Cang Lan, Cang Lan is really a kind person.But this kind of emphasis on friendship is also very stupid. After a person is dead, what's the use of keeping these things, but it will only increase troubles.Cang Lan, what a fool... Stealing jade should be very difficult, so it's hard for him.Now it should be raised in the house for a few months.Fortunately, there is nothing he needs to do recently.The capital will not be peaceful in the near future.I just hope that all matters can be settled before New Year's Eve.

I am Jin He.The world is so big that there is no place for home.It is better to be a heinous person than a riddled person.

I have always thought so.