Sapphire case

38.

Gu Sheng didn't remember how many times he woke up, and likewise, he didn't know how many times he fell asleep in a daze and lost consciousness.

The sound of the wind on the horse's back seemed to be whistling in his ears, and the blood light and the sound of the collision of swords and halberds in the dream overlapped with the reality for an instant. He woke up sweating profusely countless times. And he stared blankly at the empty sky above.

Even, when the consciousness is blurred to a certain extent, whether waking up or not is confused with hallucinations.

Gu Sheng was a somewhat cold-blooded person by nature.He was born so little able to relate to what the world calls good character.

This point has little to do with what he experienced later. If he has to say it, he has finally learned to disguise himself with a gentle and humble appearance.

So when he shot and killed Shen Wenchang and his mistress for the first time, it can be said that there was no wave in his heart.

He didn't spare his life, and when he decided that he should do it, the gun in his hand was already loaded.

Gu Sheng has always had a very clear understanding of himself. The real Gu Yan has always been fixed on that fiery New Year's Eve seven years ago. His biological mother pushed him out with the last strength of her life. The scorching heat of the burning fire was close in front of him, but the cold and strong armor rose from around the young man, finally enveloping him layer by layer and engraving him into his soul.

And he is indifferent and isolated, like a soldier who has gone to the battlefield, treating human life like nothing.So his hand will not shake when he shoots, and his trajectory will always point to the deadliest place.

The overly realistic hallucinations rolled up the most embarrassing memories over and over again, crashing into everything like a tidal wave, and all the love and hatred that had been sealed for many years finally caught a gap between the star and reality.

——If he is really such a person, why did he kill Shen Wenchang?

He only cares about avenging his extermination, why should he care about the murdered grandparents?

Did he forget something?

What did he forget?

He obviously didn't forget anything, as long as he closes his eyes now, every moment and every picture of that day and night, like a nightmare with every frame intact, suddenly reappears, so clear that one by one can be seen dead face.

But everything in his memory is so blurry, it seems that only at that moment, only the mother's bloody eyes and the pain in the fingers and palms are infinitely magnified. That ignites, and then it runs through the whole body.

... It was the earliest and clearest hatred in Gu Sheng's life, which aroused a person's most terrifying and deepest determination, and instantly covered all emotions.

What he has never dared to face directly, even to himself, is the... heart-wrenching sadness that was overwhelmed at that moment.

Gu Sheng understands people's hearts so well that he realizes so clearly that only fierce hatred will support him as a spine, supporting him to understand the hidden truth of being blocked, and even want to kill the culprit.

…and grief cannot.

He forgot his sadness, or rather, he deeply hid all his emotions at that moment except hatred and anger.

This can be hidden, even turned a blind eye for years, but it cannot be erased.

In Gu Sheng's bones, there was still that kind of simplicity and gentleness.

Just like when he left his studies and devoted himself to drama without hesitation, he just likes it purely and is willing to devote his whole life's energy and enthusiasm to treat it, just like that, he can't turn a blind eye to the suffering of others.

What he has done is the sustenance of the sorrow hidden deep in his bones and blood, and it is also the projection of his deep pity for his own powerlessness back then.

Before winning Shen Wenchang's vote in the game, he had been funding the revolutionary forces in the south.

This is a kind of farsightedness and far-sightedness that Jiang Cheng thought of many years later. In Jinzhou before 1930, even the revolutionary trend of thought was suppressed to the point of being unable to hold his head up. There was almost no anti-separatist struggle in the whole country. , but Gu Sheng has been doing this for many years.

Gu Sheng's initial thoughts probably didn't have a lot of family and country feelings, but the result of his deliberation and final compromise with reality:

The massacre of Miemen that year was under the information blockade, and there was no head and no debtor. It was probably caused by the collusion between the warlords and the Japanese. rest in peace.

It's just that Jiang Cheng never expected to come to him, and everything from that year gradually became clear.

He still remembered the severe pain when he was forced by Jiang Cheng for the first time. At that time, he didn't know that Jiang Zhiya was the real culprit who sent Shang Yunfang to the Japanese, and bloodbathed the Gu family in order to hide the truth from the Song family. Jiang Cheng didn't have much impression either - at that time Jiang Cheng had just finished two years of exile and returned to Jinzhou to inherit his power.

Gu Sheng clearly understood what happened, but subconsciously denied it again and again. He couldn't believe that such a thing would really happen to him one day, and the man used a certain part of his body to break his insistence. His strong body has already cut off all escape routes.

Song Zhao's idea of ​​passing away in the bet between Gu Sheng and Shen Wenchang is not wrong. Gu Sheng is proud of his full confidence in his own abilities. Unavoidable difficulties.

Yes, that's why - Gu Sheng has always believed that he has a choice.

The choice of self-protection in troubled times is the choice of never giving up your faith no matter what.

And Jiang Cheng, with a destructive posture and an almost unshakable overwhelming force, easily pressed him under him, and told him condescendingly that he didn't.

He was ridiculously wrong about the matter.

There is nothing in this world that can't be accomplished by the power of the sky, and there is no wish that can't be fulfilled by the overwhelming position.

They were born unequal, and Gu Sheng never had a choice other than to obey.This has nothing to do with his will.

The piercing pain in his body spread all over his body from below, his breathing became difficult and sluggish due to the squeeze of the heavy object, his consciousness and his body seemed to be torn apart, Gu Sheng unconsciously wanted to curl up, but his body It was stretched hard once.

The hot and humid air brushed over his bare shoulder blades, lingered around his neck, and finally enveloped the edges of his ears.

The man's deep and hoarse voice was panting, and came up like a nightmare: "How dare you... Gu Sheng... Gu Sheng, how dare you? Huh?!

"Do you think I dare not kill you? Huh?... Do you think I'm really reluctant to kill you?"

He was put on a simple wooden bed by Jiang Cheng. After Jiang Cheng took him away from the Huheng battlefield, he took the transport plane that Jiang Xu had contacted before and went straight to the north of Beijing. The chaos in the south of the Yangtze River, the news of Jiang Xu's killing has not yet reached Jiang Zhiya In the ears, but the most important undercover was killed, Jiang Zhiya learned that it was a matter of time, Jiang Cheng did not return to the Bieyuan in the suburbs of Jinzhou City, and found a place to stay in the embassy in the concession.

He hid Gu Sheng.

Under Jiang Zhiya's nose, in this land of Jinzhou that has not yet changed hands, he hid his past lover who was carrying his brother's revenge.

He didn't know what kind of mentality he was doing this. He concealed the news of Jiang Xu's death from Jiang Zhiya, and kept the young man by his side privately. There were always suspicions in the past, but it didn't get to the point where Shen's father and son wanted to die. He couldn't say how he felt when he saw Jiang Xu fall down, sad?Distressed?Can't believe it?

...probably just a huge shock, and then nothing, nothing.

The only emotion still came from the person who drew the gun and killed the man at that moment. Gu Sheng's gesture of firing the gun was ruthless and cold, as if the same scene had been rehearsed countless times in hallucinations, no less than the scene of seeing a ghost in daylight. The shock remained in Jiang Cheng's heart for the rest of his life.

He put Gu Sheng under house arrest, just like what he did at the beginning, he forced the young man who was destined to belong only to him to open his body to him, revealing his most vulnerable inner wall, and he felt the other party's body twisted in his hands Trembling, tears filled Li Wushuang's eyes.

Like him, Gu Sheng couldn't tell why the tears flowed, he seemed to have been emptied of everything, and Jiang Cheng couldn't help it, he could only wipe him with his cheeks and lips when he got close to him again and again.

Everything is back to square one, and nothing has changed except time and place.

Gu Sheng's body with his back facing him was thin and thin, with clear bones on his back. Jiang Cheng tried his best to hold him in his arms, and the young man who was exhausted from torture was also powerless to resist.

The air is stagnant and viscous, the poorly furnished room is dark and dark, the mechanical clock that has long stopped freezes the time here, the leaves of the green plants sway gently under the light source at the only vent, and the magnified shadows flood into the entire room like a tide .They never seem to have had a real bond before, only one is infatuated and the other is avoiding it.

He heard Gu Sheng say softly: "Then kill me."

Jiang Cheng was stunned.

This kind of astonishment didn't even look like it was caused by a sudden explosive incident from the outside world, but it suddenly emerged from the bottom of my heart and hit my heart hard.

Jiang Cheng took a deep breath as if he couldn't breathe well, and raised his upper body to look at Gu Sheng's face.

Gu Sheng is still good-looking, the kind of beauty that you will never get tired of looking at thousands of times, just like the rare and finely crafted masterpiece of the creator, every time you look at it, you will sink into the abyss.No matter what his or her own circumstances are, whether they are on the verge of death or not.

Beauty will not fade with the withering of life, it will last forever in people's memory and word of mouth, and Gu Sheng is such a vivid example.

His eyes were half closed, his pale face was expressionless, and there was no trace of speaking.

If you wipe off the cold sweat all over your head, trim your short hair or put on some red lips, it will still be the face that can be directly printed on a poster and turned into a small portrait held in the hands of Miss Jinzhou, Jiang Cheng His fascination with him was much more than those of those women, but this time he was horrified to realize that such Gu Sheng was blank, just like a perfect sculpture filled with plaster.

Something vital died, and he didn't care about the appearance anymore.

Just when Jiang Cheng was convincing himself that the voice he heard just now was just an illusion caused by too much nervousness, Gu Sheng repeated it again.

He said, "Kill me."

Jiang Cheng's heart fell straight down, and with a loud noise, thousands of pieces were shattered in the blink of an eye.

He heard himself almost trembling and said: "What?"

"Jiang Xu is dead." Gu Sheng said.It may be that his sentences were too short, and his words were floating, and the slight sound slipped by, but he couldn't hear the embarrassment and hoarseness of being forced to be tortured on the bed for several days.

Jiang Cheng was startled, then hugged him even tighter, covered his face on his shoulder, and said in a muffled voice: "...I won't kill you, I won't...you owe me a thousand times A hundred times...give it back to me..."

He wasn't sure if Gu Sheng heard his words clearly, Gu Sheng seemed to have smiled very lightly, and he wasn't sure if Gu Sheng really laughed, at that moment the young man's thin shoulders twitched, Look, Gu Sheng has already closed his eyes.

The author has something to say:

In the past two days, I overheard a line of lyrics, and felt that it was very suitable for Wen Lijiang's feelings for Gu, so I repeated the song for two days.

The lyrics are called: Teenagers don't know love and hate/The most exciting in life