Autobiography of a beast

It must be the most painful thing to have to separate immediately after you have made up your mind.

Recently, one of my subordinates told me that I was a bit strange.He would always stare at one place in a daze, and then start laughing, which actually looked like Hanchun.These words startled me, I hurriedly dismissed him, touched my face, and couldn't help thinking of the kiss that the deer left on my face that day.There was a suspicious smile on the corner of his mouth again.

Forget it, I miss my own man, so what happened to Hanchun.But in this case, I just dare to think about it in my heart.

You must be ashamed to say it out of your mouth.However, once I have such thoughts, I can't restrain them. I miss him very much, and although I don't have the time to meet him, I want to meet him every day, hug him, and kiss him.Thinking that I, the majestic general of the northern border, can be so sticky sometimes, which shows that the world is unpredictable.

I finally endured for a few days and the affairs in the army were almost dealt with, so I hurried up the mountain with a bag of mung bean cakes to meet the person I was thinking of.

He is easy to find.Back and forth is only those few places.And the most frequent stay is the small hillside where we often chat together.When I got up the mountain, I lifted my feet and walked there quickly.

Unsurprisingly, he was leaning on the hillside and closing his eyes to doze off.

At that moment, the sun shone on his body and surroundings, casting a layer of golden light on his whole body, which really looked like a beast.Looking at the scene in front of me, I can't help but think of the day we first met, he was lying on a high hillside like this, and the sunlight shining through the forest was shining on him, that's when I had my first love. heartbeat.

I admired the beauty in front of me for a long time before he finally opened his eyelids unhurriedly.

"You are so vigilant, aren't you afraid that someone will catch you and eat meat?"

"I know you're here, and I just want to see how long you can watch."

"Look at you, I can watch it all my life without getting bored."

Tsk, listen, it's only been a few days since I expressed my feelings, but the love words came out of my mouth.Those who don't know think that I have been a master who is used to molesting people since I was a child.

Sure enough, the deer's cheeks turned red at a speed visible to the naked eye.After thinking about it for thousands of years, this kind of experience of being molested is also the first time.

Thinking of this, my mood became a little more publicized.

Skillfully took his hand and sat beside him.Suddenly it occurred to me that I didn't seem to have heard him say what his name was.All day long, it was just Xiaolu Xiaolu calling, which used to be reasonable, but now, after all, the relationship is different, and there should be some serious address, so he asked:

"I've known you for so long, and I haven't asked you if you have a name?"

"It's all your mortal stuff. I live alone in this invisible forest. Why do I need a name?"

I always feel a trace of regret and loneliness in his words.I am the one who can't see and hear his grievances the most, so I want to give him a name right now.

After thinking for a long time, looking at the face of the person in front of me, I suddenly felt that this name might suit him very well.

"How about calling Jing Huai?"

"May you be like the star on that day, shining brightly; may you be like the wind in the forest, happy and at ease. May you have a broad mind and a worry-free life." I expressed what I thought in my heart, and his eyes seemed to be moved, what deeper emotions? Then surge.

He hugged me, buried his head in my neck, a drop of cool liquid slipped into the collar of my neck and was absorbed by the clothes.I was shocked. I thought that having a name would make him happy and that it would be convenient to address him in the future, but I never wanted to make him cry.I pulled him out in a panic, looking at his slightly reddish glasses, my heart ached, and I hated myself for making such a start.However, he said:

"No one has ever named me a name" "I love it"

Only then did I feel relieved, just looking at his pitiful appearance, I still feel distressed.Kissed his eyes, nose, and mouth passionately, always thinking of giving him meaning and comfort.So that everything that happened later was so natural.

I savored his rare initiative with my heart, and let him kiss everywhere randomly.

I always feel like not enough and want more.But I also want to see how deep is the thing buried in his heart that makes him dare not take the initiative to ask for something.

He reached out his hand into my shirt, his hand was a little cold from the wind, touching my hot body made me tremble.But I was reluctant to let go of this hand, so I held his slightly cold hand and guided him to walk around me.

Looking at the flushed cheeks and neck of the person in my arms, I felt that I couldn't bear it anymore.I think at this moment I should give him some promises to make him feel at ease, telling him that he doesn't have to be careful anymore, and I will give him whatever he wants.

So I bowed my head and said in his ear what I wanted to say a long time ago:

"I will accompany you from now on, the years in the forest will never end until death."

He kissed me for a long time.I took off my clothes and spread them on the ground, hugged him and lay down carefully, and began to explore his body inch by inch.At first, he was still a little uncomfortable, but as the mutual affection heated up, the movements under his body gradually improved.look at him

The lips under the body were clenched tightly, and the corners of the eyes were full of tears, but he tried his best to bear it and refused to let go. I felt that I was willing to give up everything for him.

Thinking about the first time for the person in my arms, it is inevitable that he will feel a little uncomfortable. After I finished, I carried him to the wooden house where I used to live. I wanted him to have a good rest. This kind of thing, take a good rest or something.Nature doesn't exist anymore.

The two of them stayed together all night again, and watched him eat something the next day, and it took a while before he had to leave the hut in the forest and go back to the army.

This time, I was even more reluctant to let go, so I thought it was time to find someone to replace me.There are so many years in this mountain, I can't bear to let him here alone.It always stings me to think of the look on his face when I mentioned the old days.Now that I have this kind of relationship, I can't leave him alone to guard a mountain forest in a boring way.

Going into battle to kill the enemy is for the safety and joy of the people you care about, without any disturbance.Now, the family in Kyoto does not need me to worry about, and the person in front of me really wants to be with me forever, how can I let it go?

With a plan in mind, the whole person relaxed a lot.Although it is really difficult to find someone who can take over, fortunately, there is still time for me to choose slowly.can always be found.

Recently I can't help running into the forest, and sometimes I even stay overnight in the forest. The subordinates in the army can't get in without my order, and naturally they can't find my whereabouts.The time in the forest is unbelievably beautiful, probably because of having him by his side, the flowers all over the mountains and plains are much more beautiful than usual.We will talk and laugh like before, and we will do things that only the two of us can do. Every day is very leisurely.

This year is the best moment of my life.

The news of the war came during this picturesque and beautiful time, breaking the stable life of nearly a year.This time the border countries gathered all the troops in their respective countries, ready to give it a go, success or failure depends on this battle.

I reluctantly parted from Jing Huai, and before leaving, he gave me a gift, saying it was for protection.I didn't suspect him, and put it next to my underwear.After everything is ready, go to the main battlefield.

"Look at this battle, they really fought hard this time." The irritable old man shouted in the tent with his usual loud voice.

I touched the ear next to him, and said helplessly:

"I provoked the battle a few times, and then lost so many times. It's time for a rabbit to lose face, and it's time to prepare for a counterattack."

"Heh, just them, even if you give them 20 years of recharging their energy, they may not be able to break through our border defense."

I glanced at him and said nothing:

"Don't underestimate the enemy at any time, you have to restrain your temper. Are you ready?"

"Don't worry, you're ready, you're safe, just wait for the other side to blow the horn first if they can't bear it."

"Well, keep an eye on them, I'm afraid they will take advantage of the night."

"Okay, I will tell you to go down."

Watching them walk out of the tent, I touched the amulet in my arms, thinking, this is the only battle, if I win, the opponent is unable to gather a decent attack, if I lose...

But bad things often come true when they are casually said. It was night, and the enemy took advantage of the darkness to sneak in from a trench in the northwest corner of the camp and set fire to the grain depot.

Fortunately, during the day, they ordered to be more vigilant and to strengthen patrols, and the fire was stopped in time, and the loss was not too great.However, when the enemies on the periphery saw the fire, they rushed up like mad dogs as if they had received a signal.Immediately, the sound of yelling and sprinting pierced into people's ears covering the sky and the sun.

The first fight did not stop until the sky became bright.Looking at the casualties all over the place, I can't help but think of my first year in battle. My eyes were covered with blood, I couldn't see the way forward, and I could only think about fighting.

We will definitely win.Like before, a sure win.

After resting for two hours, the second round of fighting began. This time it was even more violent than the first time. The killing intent that was blocked by the night before showed their fangs one by one.The sound of the drums of war gave birth to the fierceness in the bottom of my heart.Enemies are cut down one by one, and new ones are added endlessly.

The swords and arrows fell endlessly, covering the sky and covering the ground, so that those under it could not see the light of the sun.

It's nothing more than a thousand knives swung at once, and a thousand arrows fired at once.

In the end, we seemed to have become puppets with nothing but killing intent in our minds, and only stiff and repeated slashing, doing mechanical movements.

The battle lasted for three full days, and both sides breathed their last breath.It seems that the other party is exhausting us with the intention of hurting both sides.

My father told me that every battle is a cycle of life and death.Either the person in front of you falls, or you fall.Only when you gather enough strength before the battle, with the belief of victory in your heart, can you swing the knife in your hand more powerfully.

Yes, I believe, they must be the ones who died.It must be us who win.This is not difficult for us.

"Go to war!"

Yes, not difficult, we won.

But anyone will stumble, let alone the other party is trying to take your life with all their strength.If you are not careful, you will give the other party an opportunity.

So until the poisoned arrow hit the heart and fell to the ground, I was still thinking, we won.It's great that I can go back and be with him.