Irreplaceable

Since I didn't know the specific situation, I didn't dare to force my way in.

Cheng Yi had no choice but to block people downstairs, but this block lasted for two or three days, and he couldn't block Shen Zhiyuan.

The initial impatience calmed down, and Cheng Yi, who had calmed down, began to feel that something was wrong, as if something had been ignored by him.

So, he found the neighbors of the Shen family, asked around, and finally got the answer.

"You said Xiaoyuan, that child hasn't been back for several years. When he was studying, he was a good and obedient child. I don't know what happened afterwards. He didn't even go home. Alas..."

Amid the neighbors' sighs and regrets, Cheng Yi bid farewell and left.

That's right, he just remembered belatedly, Shen Zhiyuan came out to his family because of him.

After coming out of the closet, Shen Zhiyuan went to look for him, since then he had no home and could only rely on him.

So, how could Shen Zhiyuan come back to his parents' house?

However, what have you done?

Cheng Yi's eyes were red, and he lay on the steering wheel in pain.

He still remembered the promise he made at the beginning, saying that although Shen Zhiyuan lost his family, he still had him, and he would always be by Shen Zhiyuan's side.

However, he just said that casually, and he didn't do it at all.

How casually I made the promise at the beginning, but now I feel so heartbroken when I regret it.

After knowing that Shen Zhiyuan did not return to his parents' house, the clues were cut off.

Originally, Cheng Yi thought that he could find someone easily, and then came back together.

Unexpectedly, he went back to Beijing alone.

……

The lights in the room were not turned on, and the light in the evening was not very clear, only a little bit of light from the flickering cigarette butts.

After Xu Ning opened the door, he almost thought he had entered a smoke hole.

He fumbled to turn on the light, then hurried over to open the window, and couldn't help shouting: "Cheng Yi, are you trying to suffocate yourself?"

"How can it be? Isn't there a gap in the door? Otherwise, how did you get in?"

Cheng Yi was joking, but his expression didn't relax at all. In just a few days, his condition was already extremely bad. Just sitting in the dark, smoking one after another, he seemed even more decadent.

Xu Ning couldn't help sighing, walked over to sit opposite him, and asked, "Where is Zhiyuan? Didn't find it?"

That's right, if someone is found, why is Cheng Yi still in this state.

"Xu Ning, I really don't know what to do."

Suddenly, Cheng Yi covered his head in pain.

After returning from Shen Zhiyuan's hometown without success, he didn't dare to neglect any more, and immediately ordered more people to look for him.

However, don't talk about the whole world, just talk about China. In such a big place, it is not easy to find someone, let alone someone who wants to avoid you?

Countless searches have ended in disappointment.

Now Cheng Yi has to admit that he has indeed lost Shen Zhiyuan, and it is very likely that he will not be able to find him.

How could he accept such a result?

Xu Ning frowned as he looked at the painful Cheng Yi. This was the first time he saw Cheng Yi like this, as if the sky was falling.

With Cheng Yi's temperament, even his best friend since childhood would not show weakness easily. The reason he is doing this now is because he is really uncomfortable.

Xu Ning had no choice but to say: "What we have to do now is to think carefully about where Zhiyuan will go."

"I don't know." Cheng Yi replied hoarsely.

Thinking about it carefully, after living together for five years, Shen Zhiyuan has always remembered his preferences, every little thing will be clearly remembered, why has he ever cared about where Shen Zhiyuan likes to go?

Thinking of this, it was undoubtedly just another stab at his wound.

Xu Ning thought for a while, and said: "In my opinion, Zhiyuan won't leave too far away. His temperament determines that he can't let go of too many things, and he won't just walk away. Think about it carefully, There's something he can't let go of."

When Cheng Yi heard this, he seemed to be awakened, but after thinking about it for a long time, he only thought of Shen Zhiyuan's parents. Although Shen Zhiyuan never said anything, he knew that Shen Zhiyuan couldn't let go of his parents.

"Could it be that he went back to see his parents? But I went to find him, and he didn't come home at all."

"Well, Zhiyuan stayed in two cities for a little longer. One is his hometown and the other is Beijing. It is really impossible to search more in these two cities. Let's find a way."

Next, it was another aimless search.

Even if the scope was narrowed down, no one was found.

Cheng Yi didn't dare to stop for a moment, he was afraid that if he relaxed a little, he would never find anyone again.

During the long search, the only thing that could comfort him were the two rings prepared by Shen Zhiyuan on his birthday.

Shen Zhiyuan kept his own one, and Cheng Yi also took it with him.

As if the two rings can be together, it proves that they can also be together.

One night, Cheng Yi couldn't take it anymore thinking about Shen Zhiyuan, so he took out both rings.

He carefully held it in his hand and looked at it, imagining Shen Zhiyuan's happy and gentle appearance when he was preparing the ring, and couldn't help laughing: "Xiao Yuan, don't be angry, okay? Come out, okay? No You are punishing me like this, I can't take it anymore, can you teach me a lesson face to face?"

At the end, her voice trembled, and there was a faint cry.

It was at this time that he noticed that there were words inside the ring. In fact, he had noticed it before, but he had never looked carefully at that time.

Now, Cheng Yi took the ring, walked to a brighter place, and saw what was written inside.

There are two rings in total, both of which have the same sentence written: "Cheng Yi, I love you."

At this moment, Cheng Yi's eyes blurred instantly. With trembling hands, he kissed the rings, and then carefully put them back into his pocket...

……

On this day, Cheng Yi drove back to the downstairs of Shen's house.

Clearly knowing that waiting here will lead to no results, but still thinking of trying his luck.

It had been a long time since he had a sound sleep, and even if he fell asleep, he would wake up so uncomfortable that he would face the silence of the room and never fall asleep again.

He is no longer ready to get married, and all the messy relationships in the past have been cut off.

If he could, how much he wanted to go back in time and tell himself at that time, don't be messed up, don't let Shen Zhiyuan down.

However, time cannot go back, the harm done cannot be erased, and those who lost it can never be found again.

Even though he was dying in pain, he still couldn't even see Shen Zhiyuan's face...

not far away.

Shen Zhiyuan looked at the car here, and the shock at the beginning became calm.

He got off work early today, thinking of visiting his parents.

Unexpectedly, what he saw was a black car that was somewhat familiar to him. At first, he thought he had misread it, and took a few steps forward cautiously, only then was he sure.

He knew that this was Cheng Yi's car, no matter what the reason for Cheng Yi's sudden appearance here, most of it had something to do with him.

Shen Zhiyuan turned around expressionlessly and walked away.

What are you doing here?

They have long been unable to go back.

Even if we met, it was just to make sure of the fact that we couldn't go back, and nothing else could be changed.

Shen Zhiyuan just walked a few steps.

A voice that couldn't be more surprised came from behind: "Xiao Yuan!"

Then there was the sound of footsteps getting closer and closer to him.

Shen Zhiyuan closed his eyes, then opened them again.

He didn't turn around, and didn't run away in a hurry.

Even if you are very reluctant, but you have already encountered it, and escaping cannot solve the problem, it is better to solve it once and for all, and stop entanglement.

While Shen Zhiyuan was thinking about this, Cheng Yi had already run up to him.

"Xiaoyuan, I finally found you." Cheng Yi was so excited that his voice trembled a little, and he was in a state of ecstasy.

Finally, he finally found it!

God knows how grateful he was for the moment when he accidentally caught a glimpse of Shen Zhiyuan's back in the car, he was afraid that he was dreaming, and the so-called crying of joy was nothing more than that.

At this moment, Shen Zhiyuan was standing in front of him like this, still with his familiar appearance, a living person, no longer a nothingness in a dream, and no longer the shadow of his own fantasy.

Cheng Yi couldn't control his emotions, he stepped forward and wanted to hold Shen Zhiyuan close to his arms, to feel his warmth.

However, as soon as he approached, Shen Zhiyuan avoided with a cold face: "Why are you looking for me?"

Shen Zhiyuan's cold and heartless voice instantly extinguished Cheng Yi's fiery joy, he was startled for a moment, and forced himself to calm down.

Yes, his Xiao Yuan is angry now, don't rush, take your time.

He went through untold hardships and finally found the treasure, but he couldn't be scared away again.

Cheng Yi wiped his face and calmed down a lot: "Xiao Yuan, you have made me look for it so hard these days." There was even an imperceptible trace of grievance in his tone.

"So I said, what are you still looking for me for?"

Shen Zhiyuan opened his mouth again, the determination in that tone was shocking.

Cheng Yi only noticed at this time that Shen Zhiyuan's tone and eyes were cold, not as affectionate and gentle as before.

He only acted like this when Shen Zhiyuan was really too angry this time, without thinking too much, he immediately began to show weakness and apologize: "Xiaoyuan, I was wrong, I will never mess up again, come back with me, okay?" ?”

Shen Zhiyuan looked at Cheng Yi who was coaxing him in a low voice.

Xu Shi hasn't slept well for a long time, the under eyes are gray and blue, and he has lost a lot of weight, and his brows are more sharp and handsome.

However, none of this changes anything.

He really decided to let go. From the time he left that day, he had already made up his mind: "Cheng Yi, you go back, and don't come to me anymore. We can't go back. Let's just go on and live well. , don’t bother anyone.”

The author has something to say:

I'm really sorry to keep you guys waiting for so long!

It's like this. I went home and sat in the car for a day. Maybe I have a cold. In short, I have been feeling unwell since I got home.

I saw your reminders to update, and I am also very anxious. Today is much better, so I will quickly update a chapter. I will make up the three missing chapters in the next three days.

Well, love you!

I was thinking, how about building a group?In the future, I will tell you about the update related matters directly in the group, so that you don't know anything and have to wait anxiously.