Ask your heart and soul

As New Year's Eve is approaching, everyone who should go home has gone home, and those who stay behind should think about how to celebrate the New Year.

At this time in previous years, Bai Wan stayed at home, and Liu Kong prepared fast food and snacks for him for a week. He didn't have to go out this week, and played games, watched movies, ate, slept and passed the time every day.

Very comfortable, but also very lonely.

Bai Wan is very used to loneliness. After living for so many years, he spends most of his time alone, so he doesn't care anymore.But the Spring Festival is different. The Spring Festival is a festival for going home and reunion. It has been endowed with too much meaning, and those who are left behind will always seem out of place.

Even in the band back then, every New Year, the members went their separate ways, only he had nowhere to go.Sui Feng doesn't have a good relationship with his family either, but he will always go back during the Spring Festival. His younger brother passed away in an accident, and there is only one seedling in the family. No matter what, we have to see each other once a year.Sui Feng had invited him several times to ask Bai Wan to go back with him, but Bai Wan refused.He knew that Sui Feng's family had always been disgusted with the band, and he didn't want to make things difficult for Sui Feng.

At this time, Cheng Yin and Sui Feng had the advantage of being fellow villagers. They bought tickets together, went home together, and returned together after the Lantern Festival.

Bai Wan never told anyone, that was the moment when he was most jealous of Cheng Yin.

Thinking about the past, the past has become as far away as a dream, Bai Wan's eyes gradually blurred, and the chopsticks in his hand remained silent for a long time.

"What's the matter?" Fu Ye always paid attention to Bai Wan's movements, saw him in a daze, tapped the plate lightly, and said intentionally, "It's not delicious? Are you tired of my cooking after eating it a few times?"

"Ah?" Bai Wan came back to her senses, and hurriedly said, "No, no, it's delicious, I'm full."

He was telling the truth, Fu Ye's cooking skills were better than he imagined, not just at the level of cooking fried rice with eggs, as long as they have time to eat together these days, Fu Ye will cook.

"Then what were you thinking just now?"

"It's nothing."

Fu Ye's eyes narrowed dangerously, Bai Wan thought he was going to ask, but unexpectedly he said: "Okay. If you don't think about me, don't say it, I will be sad."

"Pfft—" Bai Wan almost spit out a mouthful of soup.He didn't know that Fu Ye could talk so much about love.He thought that a strong person like Fu Ye would be strong and domineering when in love, but in fact, Fu Ye was very good at showing weakness and accommodating him in everything.

Except for one thing, of course.

Thinking of that incident, Bai Wan felt a dull pain in her buttocks.It's not that Fu Ye's skills are not good, but that his physical strength is too strong, and he won't give up every time he doesn't scream until his limbs are paralyzed and exhausted.

Bai Wan subconsciously adjusted her sitting posture.

No details could escape Fu Ye's eyes. He saw through Bai Wan's careful thoughts and couldn't help laughing: "What? Are you nervous now? Don't worry, I won't bother you tonight."

Bai Wan blushed, and he found that his blushing disease was getting worse.

Fu Ye said again: "But you have to sleep in your arms."

"..." Bai Wan thought, she was definitely a big doll in Fu Ye's eyes.

Since their relationship was established, as long as they had time, they would get tired of being together. Sometimes Fu Ye would spend the night with Bai Wan, and sometimes Bai Wan would go to Fu Ye's villa.At first, Bai Wan was worried whether the relationship was going too fast, he was afraid that neither of them was ready.But soon, he found himself worrying too much.He and Fu Ye get along very well, and it can even be said that they have a tacit understanding.Bai Wan is the kind of character who is tight on the outside and loose on the inside. As long as he removes the thick defenses and penetrates into his heart, he will suddenly open up and follow his heart; while Fu Ye is just the opposite. He looks wild and unruly, but in essence he is A very disciplined, dependable and organized person.He is by Bai Wan's side, not only controlling him, pampering him, but also likes to tease him, Bai Wan feels that he is about to change from a hard-working snail to a spoiled cat.

It's strange to say that although they haven't really known each other for less than a year, they seem to have fallen in love with each other for a long time.

When going to bed at night, Fu Ye did what he said and did not torment him, but wrapped him in his arms from behind, wrapped his arms around his waist, intertwined his legs, and asked in his ear as if seductively: "When we were eating just now, You really didn't miss me?"

Bai Wan was amused: "You are right in front of me, what do I miss you doing?"

"Then what are you thinking?"

Bai Wan hesitated for a while, and said, "I'm thinking, it's almost New Year's Eve, how am I going to spend it?"

"It's how we plan to live." Fu Ye gritted his teeth in dissatisfaction, and bit his ear as if, "Why don't you count me?"

"Aren't you going to accompany your parents?"

Bai Wan knew that Fu Ye's parents were abroad, but he didn't know how the family celebrated the holidays in previous years, and he never dared to mention it.

Perhaps from the bottom of his heart, he was still afraid that Fu Ye would abandon him.

"This year won't pass." Fu Ye said, "This year you are here, how can I leave you alone for the Spring Festival."

He spoke so naturally, his tone was as flat as talking about the weather, but Bai Wan's heart suddenly swelled up, filled with sour and sweet water, and it would flow out with a light poke.

He suppressed his excitement and asked, "Then your parents won't blame you?"

"It's okay, I've already told them. When the time comes, we'll make a video connection and let them meet you."

"What?!" Bai Wan was startled, turned over all of a sudden, faced Fu Ye, and said falteringly, "This is, too, too soon! I, I didn't prepare anything, I don't know what to do." say what."

"Don't be afraid, it's just a video meeting." Fu Ye touched his face and smiled softly, "Don't worry, anyone I like will definitely like them, and they won't have any opinions."

"But..." Bai Wan suddenly remembered that Fu Ye's ex-boyfriend was Jiang Zhiming. Although in terms of singing, he used to feel confident that he could not lose to Jiang Zhiming, but now he felt very guilty.

Are people in love always afraid that they are not good enough?He now feels that he is not as pleasing as Jiang Zhiming in terms of appearance, temperament, talent or personality. He wonders if Fu Ye's parents will be disappointed.

"You really don't have to worry." Fu Ye kissed him reassuringly, "The ugly daughter-in-law always wants to see her in-laws, I'm the one to do everything!"

"Who is the ugly wife!" Bai Wan gave Fu Ye a reproachful look, then turned around and ignored him.

Fu Ye posted it with a smile, holding him tightly in his arms like at the beginning.

This is a very safe position, and it is Bai Wan's favorite sleeping position.He felt Fu Ye's body temperature and heartbeat, warm and real.

He fell asleep soon, and in a daze, he seemed to hear Fu Ye say: "Let's have hot pot on New Year's Eve, it's warm!"

On New Year's Eve, Fu Ye took Bai Wan back to his villa in the suburbs.He really prepared a steaming hot pot. The two of them sat at the corner of the sofa, squeezed together in a palm-sized space, and put the beef, mutton, fish balls, bean curds, vegetables, mushrooms, and mushrooms into the cauldron with boiling sauce.The fragrant white mist rises up, blindfolding each other's eyes, but Bai Wan feels a real and huge happiness in this haze, which he has grasped.

At that moment, he felt that he had a home.

Not on a stage where everyone is watching, or in a luxurious and spacious house, but here, a piece of land the size of a palm, a hot pot meal in winter, a lover who is by your side...

Loving someone and living with someone, this is something that Bai Wan never dared to think about before, but now it happens naturally.

Bai Wan suddenly understood why so many people throughout the ages desperately wanted to catch, but this little bit of love.

Because it is so rare and so beautiful.

His eyes were slightly wet, he quickly lowered his head, picked up a chopstick of bean curd and put it in his mouth.

Chewing and chewing, Gululu, a fish ball rolled into his bowl;

After a while, several slices of beef dripping with juice were put in;

After a while, the vegetable leaves were piled up together with the mushrooms.

"I, I come by myself, I can't eat so much!"

"Eat more, look at how thin you are!" Fu Ye's dark eyebrows seemed to melt in the mist, and he was extraordinarily gentle, "Too thin is not good for your health. Look at those singers who are not strong A fat man like a cow?"

Bai Wan snorted softly: "You have become a big fat man, don't you dislike it?"

"It's okay, I've gained weight." Fu Ye squeezed his arm, raising his eyebrows wickedly, "I'll eat your stewed stew at most."

Bai Wan lost her mind, her face flushed red, not sure if it was smoked or irritable.

Fu Ye liked to see his shy and angry appearance the most, so he leaned over and kissed him.

"Go away, you're full of oil!" Bai An pushed him pretending to be disgusted, Fu Ye was not annoyed, he raised his glass when he succeeded, touched Bai Wan's glass lightly, and said with a smile, "Come on, I wish you all the best!" We have today every year."

With a smile on his face, he was completely different from the sharp and indifferent person he was when we first met.

Bai Wan's heart skipped a beat, and she suddenly understood Fu Ye's meaning.

What he means is that we have to spend together every year, not only the Spring Festival, but also more festivals, anniversaries, and everyday life.

Bai Wan tremblingly picked up the wine glass, and under Fu Ye's slightly surprised eyes, she drank the white wine in one gulp.

After drinking, Fu Ye's parents actually came over via video link. They are in South America, and there is both a time difference and a temperature difference.But what Fu Ye said was right, the two old men were very gentle and polite people, not only did they not embarrass him, but also sent them blessings.However, Bai Wan is so sensitive. In such a polite atmosphere, he realized that although Fu Ye's family is happy and harmonious, Fu Ye and his parents are actually separated by a layer of film.He spends so little time with them, kind but not close, like the distance he always spends with people.

Bai Wan remembered what Fu Ye told him in Zhicheng, the haste and loneliness when he transferred to another school when he was a child, it turned out that no matter how strong a person is, he is not invincible, nor is he without flaws.

After hanging up the call, he couldn't help approaching Fu Ye lightly, laying on his shoulders and wrapping his arms around his neck.

"What's wrong? Tension sequelae?"

"No." Bai Wan hugged him tighter.

"What's the matter?" Fu Ye was a little strange, just as he was about to ask, he felt a heat behind his ears, and Bai Wan kissed him on his own initiative.

"Fu Ye, you have me now." He tilted his head, his eyes were shining like an angel.

The twelve o'clock bell rang at this moment, and grand fireworks were lit outside, and the spring of the new year finally came.