Ask your heart and soul

Cheng Yin took off his sunglasses and walked into the elevator, heaving a long breath.He didn't expect the fans to be so crazy now, and he was followed as soon as he went out.From the recording studio to the residential area, the driver took several small roads to get rid of them.Cheng Yin stared at the continuously rising floor reminder in the elevator, thinking that if he really became a songwriter, he would have to move.

It's better to have your own house, it doesn't matter if it's remote, as long as it's quiet and secluded, as long as it's their home.If a celebrity earns a lot of money, this wish should be easily realized, right?From this point of view, Brother Sui Feng was right to let him participate.After all, they can't live like this forever.

Being able to reach the top four, Cheng Yin felt that he was one step closer to his dream.In addition, China Overseas Music specially sent an agent to discuss signing with him today, and it seems that a great stardom is in sight.

He couldn't wait to share this joy with Sui Feng.

But at the door of the house, Cheng Yin still hesitated for a while, he was afraid that when he opened the door, what he saw was still the scene of Sui Feng lying at the table drinking.In the past three years, this has almost become his nightmare existence. I don’t know how many times he helped the drunk Sui Feng to bed, cleaned up the vomit for him, and listened to his incomprehensible murmurs .Sometimes, he would hear Bai Wan's name from those vague whispers, and every time he heard it, his heart would break.But he never blamed or complained about Sui Feng.Because he knows how difficult it is to love someone, he treats Sui Feng just like Sui Feng treats Bai Wan.But he was luckier than Sui Feng because Sui Feng had parted ways with Bai Wan, and he could still be by his side.

Just as he was thinking wildly, there was a light and smooth guitar sound from behind the door, followed by a few low-pitched humming lines, like the melancholy crooning of a cello, Cheng Yin couldn't be more familiar with this voice.

He quickly took out the key to open the door, and sure enough, Sui Feng was half-sitting on the window sill, playing and singing with his guitar in his arms.There is also a sheet of music in front of him, and he stops from time to time to write and write on it with a pen.

"Brother Sui Feng! Are you writing a song?" Cheng Yin was pleasantly surprised.

Sui Feng hasn't created for a long time. During this time, their band has been living on their laurels, which is one of the reasons why Liang Chengzhu and the others are increasingly dissatisfied.Cheng Yin heard them complaining in private, and thought that Sui Feng had lost his creativity.

Cheng Yin knows what it means for a music creator to run out of inspiration.He was burning with anxiety, but he didn't dare to express it, putting more pressure on Sui Feng, so he could only accompany him silently like this.Seeing that Sui Feng started writing songs again, Cheng Yin felt like a firework exploded in his heart.

"What song is it? Can you sing it again?" He walked over quickly, as if he had become a fan, looking at Sui Feng with red eyes.

"Write it casually." Sui Feng was a little embarrassed, "Does it sound good?"

"It sounds good!" Cheng Yin nodded desperately, "What's the name of this song?"

"Tomorrow's Star"

""Tomorrow's Star"?" Cheng Yin chewed these four words carefully, and a warm current slowly rose in his heart.

"I'll sing this song for the finals, okay?" he begged.

"No." Sui Feng smiled, "This is the repertoire after winning the championship."

Cheng Yin's fists hanging by his side were unconsciously clenched, and he thumped like a little rabbit in his arms: "Are you so confident that I can win?"

Sui Feng's affirmation is more important than anyone's evaluation, more meaningful than how many championships he wins.

Sui Feng said without hesitation: "Of course, you are the best."

His eyes are as gentle as water, filled with the lingering wind of this summer evening, looking at each other, time seems to freeze, and the ambiguous atmosphere spreads like the afterglow of the sunset.Cheng Yin stared blankly at the man he had loved so much since he was 14 years old, feeling that his heart was about to overflow with emotion.He couldn't help but take a step forward, wanting to reach out his arms to hug him.

But with this movement, the dream was shattered.

Sui Feng turned his side slightly, pretending to place the guitar, perfectly avoiding this hug.

Like a clumsy hunter, Cheng Yin stood there in embarrassment, curling up his toes in shame.

Why do I always look ugly in front of someone I love?

Cheng Yin lowered his head and stared at his feet, and said softly: "Thank you brother for your encouragement, I will work hard. I'll go back to my room first."

He wanted to leave, but Sui Feng held him back: "Wait a minute, let me ask you, did Bai Wan make things difficult for you?"

"..." Cheng Yin was taken aback, then shook his head, "No."

"I saw the video, and it's being talked about everywhere on the Internet." Sui Feng had foreseen that Bai Wan would not give Cheng Yin a good face, but he didn't expect Bai Wan to do it so obviously.

"He didn't do it on purpose, pitch is indeed my weakness."

"...I really don't understand you, why do you always say good things for him?" If Sui Feng didn't know Cheng Yin's feelings for him, he would almost suspect that the child had a crush on Bai Wan.

Why?Cheng Yin smiled bitterly in his heart, because he is the person you like!Talking about him so badly will make you more painful and sad, right? !

Moreover, Cheng Yin always has a respect for Bai Wan's professional ability.He also didn't think that Bai Wan was a bad person, but just like Sui Feng, he was arrogant and duplicity.

Are two people who are similar in their bones destined not to be together? !

On the one hand, Cheng Yin felt sorry for the friendship between them, but on the other hand, he secretly rejoiced. This kind of contradictory and painful mood has been tearing him apart, and maybe one day he will split up.

"Brother Baiwan really doesn't, he's just fulfilling his duties as a mentor."

"Really? Then he is a bit too strict as a mentor." As soon as he bumped into Bai Wan, Sui Feng became stubborn and tough.

Cheng Yin suddenly had a bad feeling: "Brother...you won't..."

Sui Feng was thoughtful: "Don't worry, I know it well."

Once the "You Listen to Me Sing" semi-finals battle was broadcast, it set a double record for the highest ratings and the highest click-through rate linked by the Internet and the channel, making the final two weeks later even more exciting.And Bai Wan, as the most controversial character in the show, was pinched on the hot search again.

At this moment, two big gossips about him broke out on the Internet one after another.

One is that a marketing account suddenly released a few WeChat conversations of the staff of the program group, pointing out that Bai Wan played big names before, clashed with Ye Ninghuan, threatened to resign from the position of mentor, and demanded an apology from the senior; He dug out the relationship between Bai Wan and Cheng Yin, implying that Bai Wan was very dissatisfied with Cheng Yin's later becoming the lead singer of the Mad Eagle band, and deliberately suppressed him, fearing that he would steal his limelight if he became popular.There was also an insider who brought Sui Feng into the discussion, emphasizing that the three of them had an ulterior love triangle.

All of a sudden, all kinds of rumors were rampant, and Bai Wan seemed to be on the cusp of the storm again.However, back then, he could still use music and grades to prove himself and shut up these sunspots.Now, he can't do anything.

clarify?How can all these insider situations be explained clearly in a few words, the more clarified, the easier it is to ferment; ignore?Stick to music?But his album is still in the preparation stage, but he will soon appear in the final of "Listen to Me Sing" to face various criticisms.In the beginning, his fans would argue against the gangsters based on reason, but gradually, with the joining of the opponent's navy and out-of-context evidence, many fans who used to like him turned to passers-by, or It turned black.

He saw a female fan comment on his Weibo: "I used to really love my brother's music, but I didn't expect my brother to swell after only releasing three albums. There are no good songs, only these variety shows and The popularity that is constantly being consumed is so disappointing.”

This comment had over ten thousand likes and was pushed to the top of the list. Rao Bai Wan, who doesn't care about other people's comments, felt quite uncomfortable.

Without works, there is no confidence.Popularity is always an illusion. Those fans who love him today may love someone else the next day.Love is really the most unreliable thing in this world.

I don't know if he is in a bad mood, and his resistance will become weaker. Bai Wan stayed at home for several days and caught a cold.

Usually I always feel like an isolated island, self-sufficient, repeating itself, not needing anyone, but when I get sick, I feel extra lonely and vulnerable.

Bai Wan lay groggy on the bed, with no strength left in his body.He knew that he had a fever, and he had always fought against such situations in the past.In a daze, he remembered that when he was only ten years old, his father was on a business trip, and he came home with a cold and fever. His mother let him have a fever at home for three days and three nights, without giving him medicine or taking him to the hospital.Just put food and water on the bedside table, and went to work on my own.That kind of cold violence, like endless snow, has been cold to the bottom of his heart.He will always remember the third night, when his mother thought he was asleep and whispered softly by his bedside.She used the most gentle tone, but said the coldest words.She said, "Why don't you die? If you die, I can go."

When he was young, he had only one thought, he must not die.He didn't want his mother to leave, even if he didn't get a little bit of maternal love, at least he still had a mother.

However, he survived, but his mother still left.

Bai Wan never thought about these things when he was sober. He is not a person who likes to dig his own wounds. He has to look forward to the future. What's more, he is living such a good life now. When he is a big star and makes a lot of money, what does it matter if he has love or not?

He didn't care, not at all.

But now that he is sick, these deeply buried pictures are like flying dust, rushing towards him one after another, blocking his ears, nose, mouth and tongue, and he can hardly breathe.

He struggled uncomfortably, trying to wake up from the nightmare.Suddenly, a hasty doorbell rang, which made his hands and feet twitch and he opened his eyes.

Who is it?Few people visit his apartment, apart from Liu Kong, Bai Wan can't think of anyone else.

How about letting Liu Kong buy some antipyretics?It was really unbearable.Thinking about it, Bai Wan sat up with difficulty, slowly got out of bed, pulled on her slippers, and wobbled to open the door.

The door opened, and a person who was absolutely impossible to appear stood in front of him.

……

The two confronted each other silently for a long time, but it was Sui Feng who spoke nonsense first: "It's me."

"How do you know that I live here?" Bai Wan leaned on the door frame, feeling his body was so hot that he was going to explode, but he tried his best not to let Sui Feng notice the difference, and said loudly on purpose, "How did you come up here? Where is the gatekeeper? I'm so hot." Are the expensive property fees paid for nothing?"

"Don't get excited!" Sui Feng held his shoulders, "I have something to ask you, can I go in and talk about it?"

"Just say it here!" Bai Wan blocked the door, preventing Sui Feng from taking a step forward.

"Okay!" Sui Feng agreed and nodded, "I just want to tell you that Cheng Yin is bound to win the championship, and he will soon sign with Zhong Hai. Don't target him in the final."

Bai Wan sneered: "Why?"

"You have been in the 'Mad Eagle Band' for so many years." Sui Feng looked at him deeply, with a trace of pain in his eyes, "Did you know that the band disbanded."

Bai Wan was taken aback for a moment, then turned her face away: "What does this have to do with me? I'm no longer the lead singer."

"I know." Sui Feng murmured, "It's just that the band has disbanded, and our grievances will be canceled as long as you are willing to give Cheng Yin a chance."

Bai Wan had known that Sui Feng couldn't have come to him to reminisce about the old days, but this kind of Sui Feng made him feel very strange.

He showed a sarcastic smile and asked, "Why are you still not together?"

"what?"

"It's all like this, and you still play these brothers and sisters' tricks? Isn't it disgusting?"

"Bai Wan!" Sui Feng was furious. He really didn't understand why such a calm and talented person before became so bitter and mean.

Since when did Bai Wan change, and their relationship also changed?

Thinking of this, he felt a pain in his heart, and he didn't want to argue with Bai Wan anymore: "I'm here today, I just hope you don't look at Cheng Yin with prejudice. It's not easy for him to come to this day, he just wants fairness."

"Then what about me!" Bai Wan stared straight at Sui Feng with his reddened eyes. If he was sober, he would never have said these words, but at this moment, he was a little confused, "Is it easy for me to come to this day?" ? When I signed the contract, I just wanted to seek better development. Why didn't you forgive me? Now you take the initiative to let Cheng Yin go to a higher place."

"I..." Sui Feng opened his mouth to speak, but found that Bai Wan's face was a little unusually red, and his forehead was also dripping with cold sweat, "Bai Wan, what's wrong with you? Are you feeling unwell?"

"I am fine."

Bai Wan turned around, trembling slightly: "You go. I will never let him win the championship!"

"You?!" Sui Feng said angrily, "Do you have to do this? It's not good for you! Do you know how unfavorable the Internet public opinion is to you now?"

"Did I get scolded less often along the way? I don't care." Bai Wan said softly, "Go away, don't come here again!"

After finishing speaking, he slammed the door shut and fell to the ground along the door panel.

The body was very hot, but the heart felt cold, as if falling into an ice cave.

At first, he was the one who wanted to leave.Leave the "Mad Eagle Band" and leave Sui Feng.He thought Sui Feng liked him, he thought he fell in love with Sui Feng, and ran away in fright without a future.Later, many times when he dreamed back at midnight, he silently wondered if everything would have been different if he hadn't left at that time.Why are you so timid?Why not give it a try?What about the two men?What about relying on one person?So what about jealousy and possessiveness?There must be more beautiful parts in the relationship, not every kind of intimate relationship will be like his family, why should he be so repulsive?

He regretted it, even blamed himself, but now it seems that Sui Feng may not like him to that extent at all, otherwise, why would he not forgive him all the time, but bowed his head and begged for Cheng Yin.

Back in time a few days, he was still sympathizing with Cheng Yin outside the "open voice" bar, sympathizing with him for bowing his head no matter in love or career, sympathizing with him for so many years of not being able to ask for someone is very painful, but now thinking about it, the last Is it not he who deserves sympathy?

Bai Wan slowly hugged herself tightly, suddenly her eyes went dark and she passed out.