Wanjia is dimly lit

On the 12th day when we parted from you, I went to your house again. Unlike the previous time, your mother opened the door for me this time.

The way she looked at me was no longer the same as last time. At that time, there was more expectation and more gratitude in her eyes.She took my hand and led me to the living room, and as soon as I looked up, I saw you standing on the stairs.

I haven't seen you for twelve days, my warmth has become thinner, your face has no blood, which makes you look even paler, and your eyes, which I love the most, have lost their vitality now.

The people I love the most are suffering because of me right now.The moment I looked at you, my heart seemed to be poked by something, and the pain spread all over my body.

You saw me, but subconsciously turned and went upstairs.Your mother whispered to me from behind, you go.I nodded and followed you.The you in front of me are walking very slowly, I haven't seen you for a few days, and now you need to hold on to the handrail. I want to step forward to hold your hand, but I can't go over in front of your mother.

I close the door for you, pull you to the edge of the bed and sit down, I squat down in front of you, I think only in this way can I carefully remember everything about my warmth.

He was crying, wronged like a child, but also like an adult, with his hands clenched into fists against his mouth, suppressing his crying.I've never seen him like this.I really want to hug him, kiss him, comfort him, I want to take him home desperately.But I can't.

Nuannuan, two days ago, your mother came to Bangkok to look for me. She told me about your recent situation. She said that you were scolded by your father, slapped, and your phone was broken, so she cut off contact with me. .She said, you can't eat, you don't want to eat, and because you can't sleep, you are losing your hair now.She also said that she watched you sitting quietly by the window of the room on the second floor most of the time, always looking at one place.She said she didn't know what you were thinking, she just knew you were waiting for me.

Sorry, my Nuan Nuan, your Kong is late.

I tried my best to control my emotions and restrain my voice, but I still heard my sobs, and I said, Nuan Nuan, be good, stop crying.

You hugged me with your hands, buried your face in my neck, you cried harder, and your hands hugged me harder, you said, Kong, I miss you so much, I really miss you so much.

I stayed with him all afternoon.I hugged him from behind so that he could be more comfortable in my arms.I cherish all that I have at this moment.I stroked his hair and told the person in my arms to eat well and sleep well.He pulled down my hand and interlocked my fingers, then turned his head, stared into my eyes, and said seriously and sincerely, Kong, I love you.

At dinner, I watched Nuan Nuan eat a big bowl of rice, and smiled at me slightly flattering and apologetic after eating.We have always had a tacit understanding between us. We can always understand each other's thoughts through each other's eyes.But at this moment, I understand that Nuan Nuan is expressing to me with flattering eyes that he did not take care of himself, he made me worry, and he is apologizing to me.

From that day until I left, Nuannuan's father never looked at me or said a word, his expression was indifferent and mixed with a little disgust.

I went back to our home alone, I started to pack my luggage, I looked at the room, the style of the furniture was chosen by you, the curtains on the balcony, the bed sheets in the bedroom were all bought by you according to your own preferences, at that time you were very happy. Proudly take credit for me, Kong, do you see that the room looks warmer, I don’t need to choose dark colors like you, you see, the curtains are fresh and elegant, and the bed sheets are bright in color, so that my skin tone can be brought out.

I looked at the double water glasses on the dining table, the double toothbrushes in the bathroom, and our pajamas in the closet. I walked around the room and wanted to remember everything about you.

I drove to the place where Nuannuan gave me the gear, which is diagonally opposite the Rama VIII Bridge, and it was the place where you reassembled the gears of the two of us and gave me as a gift.You said, from now on, the gear not only represents a heart, because it tightly connects two hearts.You ask me if I am ready for our future.

Nuannuan, I think you saw it. At that time, tears were shining in my eyes. I asked you the question back, but you leaned over and kissed me while I was not prepared.

At this moment, I am standing here, overlooking the Rama VIII Bridge opposite, where we first kissed each other to confirm our hearts.

For a long time, I have been looking forward to giving you a home, a home that can shelter you from wind and rain, and a home that is no different from others. I think our home must be very warm, no matter who is the last to go home People, you must be able to see the lights at home from a distance, maybe when one party opens the door, the other party will pretend to complain, you come back so late again, look, the food is cold.

I want to be with you in every trivial matter.Perhaps, we will still have inevitable quarrels and cold wars, but we all know that the other party is the one who will not let us lose confidence in the future.

Nuannuan, I used to have great confidence in our future. I thought that as long as we don't give up on each other, there will be hope.However, I don't want you to choose between me and your parents.

That day, your mother mentioned your father, saying that he was born with pride, focused on appearance, and would never allow anything to happen to you and me in this world. Although she was full of sadness, seeing you so hurt, she was willing to give in and make it up to you and me .But now, before your father agreed, she asked me to leave as your mother. She said, if I treat you sincerely, please do it.

You came back the next day. I watched you enter the door full of joy, but I was shocked by the luggage I left at the door.When you asked me what I meant, I just said that my father asked me to go to expand the company's business. I can't tell the time, so you don't have to wait for me.I said that I was tired of this kind of life and wanted to be blessed by getting married like everyone else.You hugged me and prayed, saying that your father recognized us, otherwise how could you come back.Hearing these words, I raised my eyes to look at you, and said mercilessly, Senior Arthit, let's break up.I know you have never seen me look like this, you are dumb and retreat.I left without looking back.

A few days before I said goodbye to you, I went to M and Ward, I told them what happened between me and you, I said I would change the phone number, leave here, and ask them not to tell you my message in the future, I I hope that you can forget me, but I also hope that you will not forget.

I told you that my father wanted me to expand the company's business. It was true. When I went home the night after I met your mother, I told my father that I would ask myself to expand the company's business and learn from scratch. rise.Father is very happy.Before leaving, my father told me that he no longer objected to our affairs, and only hoped that I would be safe and happy in this life.I am grateful to my father, and I hope that my father will not mention you and me before my mother, so that he will not worry about me.

I came to a city in the south of Thailand, and I never thought that I would stay there for three years. During this period, both M and Ward came here to see me. I asked them about you. M said that during the first period, you still I would come to him and Ward to inquire about my news, but they didn't tell you the truth, they just said they didn't know, and after a long time, you would stop coming. Ward said that from what Flame said, you still work in the same place as before, and you have returned to the production department. You have not changed your place of residence or your mobile phone number. When I first left, you worked overtime every day until late at night, but then it stopped.Bright used to chase you and ask me where I was, but after Not had a fight with him, he never mentioned me in front of you again.

I asked Ward if you had a new love life, and he said, no, never.At the end of last year, you seniors reunited, and he also went. He said that you are much thinner than when you were in school, and your complexion is not as good as before.He was silent for a long time, and finally said, Kong, you go back, you go to see the senior.

I called my father and I said, I want to go home.Father was very happy and said that mother would be happy when you came back.If you can still see that person again, take it home.

A week later, I returned to Bangkok. I haven’t been back for three years. Many things are very different. The tree in front of my house has grown taller, my father’s hair is whiter than before, and my mother is also fatter than before.I told my father that I wanted to go for a walk.Father understands, let's go.

Our alma mater hasn't changed much. The shop with the pink frozen milk you like to drink is still open, but the shop where you often buy meals has changed owners.The room you lived in for 4 years was changed to someone else before I graduated.

The auditorium where I returned your cogs, the place where we hurt each other, now has new children laughing in it, maybe there are people like you and me among them, but I hope they are different from you I can easily be happy.

I still went to your company and waited for you to get off work in the distance.It's just that I didn't wait for you this time.

I walked towards home along the streets we had walked countless times before, home, our home.

I think of the past, when I was about to take the exam, I often ran to your company after class to wait for you to get off work. Every time you saw me, you would be angry and fierce at me, but in the end you would take my hand and go home.

When I was in college, I often went to your room, and you often came to my place.Different buildings but the same floor, I can see you from the balcony of my room.

When you were working, you moved out of school and rented a new house near the company. I often went to your place, but you stopped coming for a long time.

After the internship in your company, we rented a new house near your company. I think I can get up early and go back to school, but I want you to sleep more when you go to work. You said this is our common home, you Pull me to pick out the home furnishings, you can't make this place more cozy.

The way home is not far away, under the dim street lights, only my shadow is getting longer and shorter.

I think you are at home, because the lights in the house are warm and bright, I imagine what you are doing at the moment, maybe you are preparing dinner for yourself, or maybe you are reading a book at home.And I stood downstairs at home, stopping for a long time, unwilling to leave.

"Kong?"

I turned my head, and Nuan Nuan just appeared in front of me without warning, his face was full of surprise, he was still wearing our previous pajamas, holding a cup of iced coffee in his hand.

I raised my hand, wanting to hold your hand, but finally put it down, but the corners of my mouth were raised.

Nuan Nuan, my Nuan Nuan, your Kong is back.