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At dawn, Yun wanted to check his mobile phone, and received 35 voice requests in total.The phone rang again, Yun wanted to admit defeat with a smile, pressed answer, and said hoarsely: "Hey, Wuyue."

There was a brief silence on the other end of the phone, maybe she had been waiting for too long, but Wu Yue didn't expect him to pick it up this time, so she didn't know what to say for a while.After waiting for a while, Wu Yue said, "Hey, Yun Xiang."

Afterwards, both sides fell silent again at the same time, only the sound of the airflow friction caused by very subtle breathing could be heard, as if the phone was connected just to let them hear each other's breathing.

After a long time, Wu Yue said: "Yun Xiang, you are fine, I like you very much, and after hearing what you said, I still like you very much."

After a pause, she seemed to be plucking up her courage, and asked, "Can you give me your address so that I can visit you?"

Yun Xiang hung up the phone without saying a word, and then dragged Wu Yue into the blacklist.He lit a cigarette and stood by the window, wanting to cry aloud, but there were only tears and a numb heart that were too painful to cry.

Wu Yue soon found out that she had been blocked by Yun Xiang. She and Yun Xiang had no other contact information. Being blocked like this meant being completely cut off.Wu Yue was very worried about Yun Xiang, because after listening to the second half of Yun Xiang's speech tonight, she felt that Yun Xiang's "I want to commit suicide" at the beginning was not a joke, Yun Xiang might really want to commit suicide.She is a little confused now, she can't call the police just because of her specious speculation, and she can't tell Yun Xiang's real identity, current location, and any useful real information, they only chatted online.

Wuyue's head throbbed and hurt, because she didn't sleep all night, she went to the bathroom and splashed cold water on her face, but she still felt a little drowsy.Wu Yue knew that she needed to rest, otherwise her mind would not be clear and she would not be able to think of anything useful if she continued.She covered the quilt and lay down on the bed. Suddenly, a bright light flashed in her mind when she was half asleep and half awake——

She had heard Yun want to speak before!

Wu Yue sat up from the bed and started flipping through her phone. She had reposted Yun Luoti's interview audio more than a year ago...I found it!Wuyue clicked on the audio she found, and listened carefully.

The host asked: "A reader asked, how detailed should be the outline before writing the article? How to write the outline?"

Yun Luoti: "Actually, it's useless to write something like an outline, because you won't write according to the outline in the end. Like myself, if I have enough time, I don't write an outline. If time is tight, I may Write an outline of about [-] to [-] words. It mainly depends on the length of the article. The number of words in the outline accounts for about one percent of the total number of words in the entire article..."

After Wuyue listened to it once, she played it again, the more she listened to it, the more her heart beat - Yun Xiang's voice was exactly the same as Yun Luo's!

Although she only heard the three words "Hey Wuyue" that Yun Xiang said to her, because the impression was so deep in her mind, she firmly remembered Yun Xiang's voice at that moment.Similarly, because she also firmly remembered Yun Luo's voice, that's why she connected the two so quickly.Wuyue has a bold guess in a trance: Could it be that Yun Xiang is Yun Luotiao! ! ?

When this idea first popped up, Wuyue felt that she was ridiculous. If she met a random netizen who was an author whom she admired for ten years and who was her role model and goal in her heart, then life would be too incredible. How small is it?In order not to let herself draw some outrageously wrong conclusions because of a moment of heat, she tried her best to regain her rationality and calmness, and sorted out the whole process of her and Yun Xiang's acquaintance in detail.

In the beginning, she got to know Yun Luoti because he maliciously abused the author under Yun Luoti's article, and Yun Xiang called Yun Luoti "garbage" and "trash".But if Yun Xiang is Yun Luoti himself, and he knows what he said to himself last night:

[That’s right, I’m an only child. My dad passed away when I was in junior high school. My mom got stomach cancer ten years ago, and it’s incurable. Without consciousness, without the dignity of living, like a medical experiment full of tubes.I want to go to the hospital to sign a consent form recently, remove the medical equipment, let my mother go, and let her suffer less.After I help her with the funeral, I will commit suicide anywhere and go to heaven to reunite with my parents. 】

[I have never had a voluntary *experience, it was all forced.Since the beginning of junior high school, I have been forced by a man, which made me have a psychological shadow about that matter, but I still have normal sexual desires, and I can self-sexualize.Then something happened, a few people drugged me and made a video of it taking turns, after that I never fucked again, and I never wanted to. 】

Yun Xiang had such an unfortunate experience that he wanted to commit suicide, and those who commit suicide are likely to have strong self-loathing emotions, so it is reasonable for Yun Xiang to scold himself, if he is Yun Luoti himself.

In the nightly chats with Wuyue, Yun Xiang is a man who is knowledgeable and talented, and he is a person who studies everything. This is also very consistent with Yun Luoti, who is famous for his talents.Yun Xiang is also a free-spirited and unrestrained person. He always looks like a mad scientist with endless brains. This is inseparable from the fact that he is Yun Luoti and engaged in literary creation. He is a great artist.

After Wuyue thought of this, she went to look through Yun Luoti's official blog one by one. She found that the day the official blog was published that Yun Luoti won the most popular author, Yun wanted to tell herself that he won the best employee award today.There are more and more places where this kind of clues can overlap Yun Xiang's and Yun Luoti's behavior trajectories, but Wuyue also found that the tone of the official blog is not very similar to Yun Xiang's, probably because Yun Luoti's microblog was created by The company hosts it, not him himself.

If it can be ensured that Yun Xiang is Yun Luoti himself, then Wu Yue can know some real information about him, which has been published in previous interviews.She knew that Yun Luoti now lives in Ying City, and he graduated from Ying City University of Electronic Science and Technology, majoring in information.She also knew that Yun Luoti's father passed away when he was a child, and his mother was seriously ill recently...

These are all the same as what Yun wanted to say!

Finally, Wuyue also thought of Yun Luoti's new book "Black Cliff" which was being serialized. "Black Cliff" is a thrilling sci-fi novel. It tells the story of a scientist who kills his lover because of an accident. After that, he invents a time machine and goes back to the past again and again to save his lover, but sees his lover again and again. Died in front of oneself, never freed.

The opening sentence of "Black Cliff" is: Time is irreversible, does it mean that the mistakes made will never be repented?

At this time, Wu Yue thought about this sentence in this book again, and felt that it might not be just a line in the novel, but a judgment of the author Yun Luoti on her past life.What exactly happened that made Yun Xiang feel negative about his past?What made him step by step towards suicide?Has he ever killed someone he loves?