summer love

Bai Tou Yin

Zhuo Wenjun

It's snowy like a mountain, and the moon shines like clouds.

Wen Jun had two intentions, so he came to an end.

Today's fighting reception, Mingdangou water head.

On the Yudao ditch, the ditch water flows from east to west.

Desolate complex desolate, no need to cry when marrying.

Wish to have one person's heart, and the white head will not be separated.

What is the bamboo pole, the fish tail He Guigui!

The man is serious, why use a money knife!

love?

What is love?

Did two people come together because of love or did they fall in love after they met?

Is there any emotion lower than love?

Is there any emotion higher than love?

Is love reliable?

Will the love change from thick to weak when two people are together for a long time?

love!

I yearn for it!

I don't know what love is because he doesn't define it clearly.Whether it's the men and women on the street or the men and women in the youth hostel, listening to their conversations is love, you, me, and you, but what is love?I don't know the answer, I love my brother and my brother loves me, I don't know if this is love. "Ask what love is in the world, and teach life and death."

No love is as perfect as that written in the novel, because the love of each couple is the same in essence but different in form.

Today is my brother's birthday, and he asked me to celebrate his birthday with his best friend at night. Although we have been together for a long time, we have never officially met his best friend.It's not because I don't want to see them, but my brother said that there is nothing good to see them, and I am not the same kind of people as them.But I always felt like I was shameless not to meet them. My brother comforted me and said that I should meet them again when I find a suitable opportunity.

Tonight is the right opportunity.

During lunch, I asked my brother: "Brother, should I dress more grandly at night, after all, I am meeting your friends?"

"No, you can do whatever you want. You're here to keep me company and not let them watch. You can do whatever you want at night, don't worry about them, as long as you're happy."

"Well then, I'll go with you in the afternoon, or do you go first and then I'll go find you?"

"Let's go together. Wait for me in the classroom after class. I'll go find you after class."

"Well, I listen to you, brother."

Although my brother said that I can wear whatever I want, but I always feel that it is not suitable, so I wore the clothes my brother picked out for me.Anyway, he picked it for me, whether it looks good or not, the responsibility is on him.

I was going to wait for him in the classroom after class, but the classmate who sat with me asked me after class: "Look, why is the instructor sitting at the back of the classroom?"

I looked back and it turned out to be my brother, and then I replied to my classmate, "I don't know either."

"You don't know who knows, it must be waiting for you, go quickly."

While we were talking, my brother came up to us and said to me, "Can I go?"

My classmate teased me and said, "Am I right? I'll go first." Then he said hello to my brother, "Bye Tao!"

My brother said to me: "You are a bit weird today!"

I asked suspiciously: "What's wrong?"

"It's so beautiful today."

I smiled and said, "Really? You picked the clothes I'm wearing today. I don't know if you're praising the clothes or me?"

He poked my head and said, "What I'm boasting about is my vision, your brain, use it when you should and don't use it when you shouldn't."

"With you here, I can save my brain. Even if you lied to me, I don't know. It's so tiring to use my brain!"

He touched my head with his hand, "I know you don't like this kind of occasion, but you still have to go today, I've wronged you."

"Why am I wronged, as long as you don't feel that I'm embarrassing you."

"You went to give me a face."

When we arrived at the hotel, his roommates and friends had already arrived. My brother was very proud of my apologetic face, and hurriedly greeted everyone.

One of his friends looked at my brother, glanced at me and said, "Who is this? I think you came in holding hands."

While pouring water for me, he said, "What's the matter? You're not blind and you can't see it."

"You are not being kind. You have been together for a long time, and you have not introduced it to us until now. You should drink more later, as an apology to us."

My brother said: "It's easy to say, easy to say. Everyone should have a good time today."

My brother told me in a low voice: "These guys can fucking drink, you don't drink if you can't drink later, be careful to get drunk by them."

The dishes were ordered by my brother in advance, and the wine was also bought in advance. After we arrived, we asked the waiter to start serving the dishes.Looking at the codes of these dishes, I knew that my brother ordered them according to my taste, mainly vegetarian dishes. We looked at each other and smiled.

He only heard some of his friends say: "Zhang Longtao, you are not right because you are vegetarian."

My brother said: "Keep in good health, pay attention to keeping in good health! I ordered vegetarian dishes, and you can order meat dishes, with meat and vegetables. Come, come, everyone, let's drink to our heart's content."

One of his friends jokingly said: "You haven't introduced the person next to us yet, so you have to introduce us formally." Other friends also booed together.

My brother proudly said: "This is my lover, called Wang Ziyu, who is a class younger than me. Call him whatever you want, call him sister-in-law or junior." I pinched his leg, But he didn't respond.

"Okay, happy, I like your happy spirit. Sister-in-law, if I can't call it out, let's call it junior, come, come, junior brother, let's have a drink."

My brother said: "Don't worry, I have to give you three rounds of toasts before it's your turn." I understand that my brother is blocking the drink for me, but I also understand that the drink cannot be avoided.

They joked, "You can't respect us alone, so you have to be together, right?"

We don’t expect everyone to accept our feelings. As for other people’s opinions on our feelings, I cared a lot at first, but my brother told me: “Honey, you have to remember that our feelings are a minority. Write homosexual novels I call our relationship 'pure love', as long as we love each other, you don't have to care about their eyes, you can take their eyes as envious eyes. The only thing we can do is to win the support of our parents." I always remember my What my brother said, so the words to his friends only went in the left ear and out the right ear.

One of my brother's friends said: "I didn't know you liked guys before? You're just kidding, don't you really like it?" His words were provocative, and the air stopped for a moment.I glanced at my brother as if he was about to lose his temper, then I held his hand tightly and signaled him to calm down.

He took one look at me, understood what I meant, and said to his friend, "Sexual orientation doesn't change. Before you didn't know it was because I didn't like someone. Now it's different." His eyes are full of love looked at me with interest.

"I'm going to vomit what you said. It's too disturbing. They are really two big men."

My brother said calmly: "The toilet is outside, don't spit here and affect everyone's appetite."

Brother Jie said: "We are all good friends, today is Long Tao's birthday, quickly pick up the wine glass, let's have a drink together."

Sister Yi is also here, I just like the strong woman's energy in her, no matter where she goes, her aura is so strong. "It's your own business who people like. It's your friend's face to introduce it to you. It's your own business whether you get used to it or not. The disgusting thing is that you are not someone else." After finishing speaking, Sister Yi said fiercely Glaring at him, the senior didn't say anything.Sister Yi turned her head and said to my brother: "Zhang Longtao, I have prepared a birthday present for you. Look." It is a very delicate rice paper folding fan, which I like very much. "Don't you like it?" My brother nodded, "I knew you didn't like it, Ziyu, you keep it, I'm not so kind to please him!"

"Thank you, Miss Yi!"

"How do you thank me?"

I looked embarrassed and didn't know how to answer.

Sister Yi smiled and said, "You two have a cup of wine, let me see." When she was talking to us, her eyes were on the senior's face.

Brother Tao picked up the wine glass and handed it to me, saying: "This has to be agreed." We drank a cup of wine.

Only then did the atmosphere calm down, but the senior claimed to have left beforehand after a while.

Another friend of Brother Tao said: "Let him go, he can do whatever he likes. Love is for two people, so they don't care about what they do. They say that before they met the boy they liked, every boy thought they liked him. Girl. Maybe someday I'll find a boyfriend too."

My brother said: "The words of the love saint are different, they are always so affectionate."

I asked my brother, "Love Saint?"

He laughed at himself: "What kind of love saint am I? You are the love saint. There are so many men and women who are together in the school, but how many dare to put their love in the sun like you. I admire you, you must set an example and speak up. Tell those secular people that same-sex love can also be fair. I respect you, respect your courage, respect your love."

His words are very true, and Brother Tao and I deeply agree that our road is not easy.He is the person who talks the most and is the most straightforward at the whole wine table, so I am very impressed with him. I don't know why his interpretation of love is so thought-provoking.I admire him.

Later I asked my brother, "Brother, why did you call him 'Love Saint'"?

"He! Change a girlfriend every six months at most, and I don't know how many girlfriends I have had."

"So, isn't he a girl killer and playboy?"

"You shouldn't say that about him. His ex-girlfriends were still good friends after they broke up with him. None of them had any trouble because of the breakup. And he never did anything wrong with girls. According to him, he just wanted to experience love. Experience different kinds of love and find true love. He majored in psychology and also majored in philosophy, so his mind is indeed different from ordinary people.”

"Well, then does he like boys? He uses girls as an excuse. "

My brother patted my butt and said: "You think everyone is like you, you like boys and everyone else likes boys. You are called 'rotten eyes look at people'."

"It's just about people, how about it? If you have the ability to go or not, go find a girlfriend?"

"That's what you said. It's easy to find a girlfriend with your brother and my handsome face."

I patted, actually touched his face and said, "You are really narcissistic."

We both drank a lot that night and talked a lot, especially listening to "Love Saint" analyze love.

My brother said to me: "Send you back to the dormitory to rest early?"

"No, let's go to the playground, look at the sky, and enjoy the world of two people." I took his hand and walked to the playground. It was getting late and there were fewer people on the playground.We found a place where no one was around and lay down. According to my previous personality, I would never lie down. I think the plastic floor is too dirty, but today I really want to lie down and look at the starry sky.

So I lay on my brother's lap and he sat there stroking my face.

"Brother, look, there are so many stars in the sky, they look so small. I'm like one of those dim stars. If you don't pay attention, you won't be discovered. Although people can live for decades, but compared with these stars It seems as if it never existed, just a blink of an eye in the long river of history, too small."

"What do you want to say? These words don't match the preamble, which is rare for you."

"Yeah, this is my fragile side that most people can't see, only you can see it. Brother, don't look at me drinking tonight, but my mind is clear. I have something I have always wanted to ask you, but I don't know how to speak, I thought a lot at the wine table today, and I think I still have to ask you these questions, and I have to listen to you answer me personally."

"Tell me, I knew you must have something to say to me when you came here."

"I'm like the dimmest of those stars in the sky, and you're like the brightest of those stars. Whether it's your looks, your family, or your relationships at school, you're sure to find someone who's better than you." I'm better, but why do you like me and love me?"

My brother kissed me on the lips and said: "Drink less Kuding tea in the future, your lips are bitter." At this time, he was already lying beside me and let me pillow on one of his arms, Another hand took my hand and placed it on my stomach. "I can't give you the answer to this question. I just love you for no reason. Love is when two people see each other. The first time I see you, I know that I like you and I will fall in love with you. This is love , there is no reason, I just love you, maybe it is called destiny. You are the "Omen Star" I was destined for."

"'Omen Star', 'Omen Star'..." I murmured.

"While there are three thousand pieces of water, I'll just take a scoop to drink."

"What's the point of floating the ladle?"

"It's not water that floats with a ladle, the water flows by itself, and the ladle floats by itself!"

"Shuizhizhu Shen Naihe?"

"The mind of Zen has been covered with mud, so don't dance partridges in the deep spring."

This is the love vow of Jia Baoyu and Lin Daiyu, but they are not together. Now we are borrowed by us and we don't know what will happen to us.It is said that "Dream of Red Mansions" is a tragedy, but in my opinion, it is not a comedy! "The gold and silver of wealth and honor are scattered, the gracious escaped from the dead, the merciless and clear retribution, the life owed to life has been repaid, and the tears owed to tears have been exhausted."

For Brother Tao, we may not owe each other, after all, everything we do is voluntary, and the only thing I owe him is to wait for him.As for Brother Jie, what I owe him is something I cannot repay. After all, in principle, we are just friends. Maybe I will not be able to compensate him in this life, because what he wants is my love.

At this time, my brother and I have been separated from each other. Thinking about our love vows, how can I forget him and start a new life.Wouldn't it become "Your birthday expresses kindness, and you will go with others when you die." Thinking of all the things after my brother passed away, my heart immediately cooled down, and my mind went through the situation over and over again, always feeling What's wrong.But we can only wait until we get back to the mainland. I want to clarify this matter.

My brother just loves me, why don't I just love you.

Love, you don't need a reason, you don't know what happened, but you love deeply.