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The Cardiac Surgery Department of Star City International Hospital was in a meeting. Several attending doctors were consulting on a medical record that had just entered the hospital. Because this person had a special status and held a pivotal position in the capital, the whole hospital was very nervous.The dean led several key personnel to conduct a comprehensive analysis, and did enough research to prevent any emergencies during the next operation.

One of the men, who looked very refined and gentle, was taking notes with his head down, stopping to think from time to time, frowning occasionally while listening to everyone's discussion, and then continuing to record in the notebook intermittently.

This man has a beautiful face that people can never forget. Whether you look at it from the perspective of a man or a woman, you will feel that this man is too favored by God in terms of appearance, so that it may be because of this that he will be here Such a perfect person has a slight flaw.

"Chen Anhua!"

Hearing the dean's voice, Chen Anhua lightly put down his pen and raised his head. Everyone in the courtyard either called him Dr. Chen or Eason, but the old dean called him by name every time, which made Chen Anhua feel uncomfortable. feel more cordial.

"Tell me your opinion. When this kind of surgery is performed abroad, what emergencies may occur and how to deal with them." Dean Liu said while pointing to the projection screen specially prepared for Chen Anhua alone.

Chen Anhua put his slender fingers on the silent keyboard, and typed out a few words very fast, without any significant difference: "The situation in foreign countries is basically the same as that in China, and this patient has no carotid murmur, so the overall surgical risk is not great, but due to The patient's blood sugar is close to the borderline value of diabetics. It is recommended to take β-blockers before the operation. The overall plan recommends PTCA+stenting to minimize the risk. . . '

After typing three full stops habitually, Chen Anhua raised his head and looked at Dean Liu.

Through getting along with each other in the past few months, everyone also knows this habit of Dr. Chen, three periods, which means 'this is what I want to talk about'.

Dean Liu nodded at the screen, looked around and asked, "Do you have any other comments?"

Seeing that the doctors had no objections, Dean Liu made a concluding statement: "That's how it is. I will perform the surgery, and Jiang Xu and Chen Anhua will perform the operation the day after tomorrow. The meeting will be adjourned."

When everyone got up from their seats, Dean Liu added another sentence: "Chen Anhua stay here for a while."

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In the conference room, Dean Liu looked at the people across the conference table and said, "How is it? I've been working for a few months, are you still getting used to it?"

Chen Anhua nodded slightly and smiled, and then continued to type on the screen: "It's good, my colleagues here take good care of me, and we get along very well." '

"Is it convenient for living? I heard that you rented a house nearby. In fact, our hospital has a staff apartment. If you find it inconvenient to get off work too late, you can move in directly if there is a vacant room over there."

Star City International Hospital is second to none among private hospitals in Beijing and even in the whole country. It is operated by a dedicated board of directors, and its conditions can be described as luxurious at the hospital level.But Chen Anhua knew that the so-called employee apartment was prepared for the convenience of the director level who worked overtime temporarily and couldn't go home. He was able to come to this hospital because Director Liu helped him a lot. How could he do such inappropriate things again.

So Chen Anhua shook his head with a smile and declined the call: "Don't worry, Dean Liu, it's very convenient for me to be there, and it's very close to the company." '

Dean Liu actually wanted to say that you can call me Uncle Liu in private, but after thinking about it, he felt that it was impossible for Chen Anhua to speak, so he just nodded his chin slightly.

Then he turned back to work: "Everyone can see your performance in the past few months, and the several major operations you have undergone have also been recognized. Continue to work hard. This time I specially brought you to operate on this patient. , know what I mean?"

Chen Anhua raised his head and looked back at Dean Liu. From the importance the hospital attached to this operation, he guessed what Dean Liu meant.

"This is the head of the Qi family. Even if you are acting as a deputy, the Qi family will remember your kindness. From now on, you will have a long way to go to medicine. If you can get in touch with them, you will be considered as someone to help you in the medical field." You backed up."

After Dean Liu finished speaking, he leaned back in his chair. He is almost sixty years old and will retire in two years. This youngest son of an old classmate, of course, no one dared to say anything when he was in office. They were afraid that he would leave. After the death, I couldn't stand firm in the hospital.This surgery itself was not risky, and letting Chen Anhua follow him would help him pave the road behind him a bit.

Chen Anhua sincerely thanked this old man who took special care of him, and typed on the screen: "Thank you, Uncle Liu. '

Dean Liu smiled when he saw it and said, "But you, you are really proud of your father. You passed the university that is so difficult to take abroad, and you got a scholarship at the school, and you even paid off your academic loans during the internship." Well, I didn't let Lao Chen worry about it at all, and I don't know what kind of virtue this old man has accumulated in his previous life, so he got such two good sons."

Seeing Chen Anhua smiling lightly and shaking his head in embarrassment, Dean Liu asked again: "But your throat... have you had it checked recently? If it's inconvenient, I can help you contact some top doctors in private."

After Chen Anhua paused for a while, he still typed: "I'm used to it, it's okay." '

After seeing Chen Anhua's expression that he didn't want to talk about it, Dean Liu didn't ask any more questions.

In fact, when Chen Anhua was very young, Lao Chen took him to find him. At that time, he also took him to find many experts, but they all said that the child's vocal cords were fine, and he didn't know why he didn't speak. See a psychiatrist.

Maybe it was because China's psychological medicine was not developed enough at that time, or maybe Chen Anhua was too resistant. Several times, the child went into convulsions directly in the psychiatric clinic, which frightened the psychiatrists at that time and never dared to receive him again.And when An Hua grows up a bit and never promises to see a doctor again, the matter of the voice will be left behind.

Dean Liu finally said earnestly: "Okay, as long as you know what you have in mind, come to me if you have any questions in the hospital... Oh, yes," suddenly thought of something, Dean Liu patted his forehead and said, "Look at me Remember, my daughter-in-law bought some things for your sister-in-law a few days ago. She is busy recently and has no time to go to your elder brother and sister-in-law. It has been several days since I left it there. You can go to my office and take it to them later. Bar."

Dean Liu's daughter-in-law and Chen Anhua's sister-in-law are best friends, and it is precisely because of this relationship that they have become sister-in-law.

There was a second of hesitation on Anhua's face, and after a pause, Chen Anhua stretched his face again, nodded with a smile, got up and left.

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After four hours, Dean Liu led Chen Anhua and another leading doctor to finally complete the heart bypass operation. Although the operation risk is not high, but because of the special status of this patient, the whole hospital is still allowed to go up and down. Especially those who entered the operating room were sweating coldly.

After Chen Anhua confirmed that the eight-hour risk period after the operation had passed, he finally walked out of the hospital building with tired steps.

It was a bit cold in the first autumn season, and the cold wind blew up the corners of Chen Anhua's coat. He subconsciously raised the neckline of the windbreaker, but even so, it couldn't stop the slender and fair skin under the black turtleneck sweater. neck.

Holding the gift box given by Dean Liu in his hand, Anhua thought, is it time to visit? After returning to China for a few months, even though I wanted to see him so much, I only saw him a few times. Maybe this excuse is perfect.

But every time he sees the happy couple, Anhua hates himself very much, hates the self who is resentful because of jealousy, hates the self who is desperately longing in his heart, and has to use all his strength to make a plain expression, hates even After so many years, I still can't let go of this feeling.

Perhaps everything was doomed from that look, from the moment Chen Yixiao picked him up, the gear of fate had already started to turn, even if there was only one-sided driving force, but this gear was like a perpetual motion machine, Once it starts, it can't stop, let time and space be caught in it, and never let it have the slightest slack.

Chen Anhua often asked himself, should I forget?Can I forget?But every answer pushed him into the abyss of endless rotation. Maybe he thought about it, but he couldn't do it no matter what.On the other side of the answer, he also clearly knew that he would never let Chen Yixiao know the existence of this feeling in this life.How could he allow the son of his benefactor to take on this responsibility that shouldn't exist and cannot be bound by the world? How could he drag such a good person into the quagmire in such a shameless and cruel way.If someone has to sink into the abyss, even if he uses his own body as a stepping stone, he will lift that person up, so as not to let that person be stained with embarrassment.

Chen Anhua looked at the paper bag in his hand again, thinking it might be the weekend, and when we all go to my parents' house, let's take it there together.

At this moment, Chen Anhua heard someone calling his name.

"Chen Anhua."

When a man came over from under the streetlight, it took Chen Anhua a few seconds to pull this man out of his memory. It was him...

Seeing An Hua's somewhat surprised expression, Yi Xiao put his hands in his suit trouser pockets, and leaned forward unnaturally. The distance was only a few meters, but it seemed very long to Yi Xiao.

When he rushed to the hospital that day, after inquiring about Chen Anhua's consultation room, he hurried to the outside of the consultation room, and finally let him see the face that he had missed for many years through the crack of the door that was gently pushed open.

Chen Anhua's youthful smell has faded away, and he looks mature, but the lips between the eyebrows and the high bridge of the nose are still as clear in his memory, which made him obsessed and missed for so many years.Chen Anhua has also grown taller. In his third year of high school, he should have only been 1.7 meters tall, allowing him to easily see the top of his head. Even though he hasn't seen him for a few years, he is only a few centimeters lower than himself.

Yi Xiao used a lot of perseverance to restrain himself from rushing in. He didn't want Chen Anhua to feel that even after so many years, he was still that ignorant and impulsive boy.

After thinking a lot, he finally decided to stay at the entrance of the hospital, waiting for himself to show up again when Chen Anhua got off work in the evening. After guarding for the third night, he finally hoped that Chen Anhua would get off work before midnight today.

For the past two days, Yi Xiao has been greedily watching Chen Anhua come out of the office building from the corner and go to the opposite side of the street to call for a taxi. He was afraid that Chen Anhua would still have a gloomy impression of him, that Anhua would show disgust towards him on his face, and even more afraid that Chen Anhua would forget himself. He had never been afraid in the business field for so many years, but at this moment he really Scared.

When he walked in front of Chen Anhua, Yi Xiao finally raised his head and said solemnly, "Anhua, long time no see!"

Chen Anhua frowned and turned his head away. In just a moment, he thought of his youth and ignorance, that impulsive night, and at the same time, the embarrassment that followed. Diluted by another kind of longing, but he couldn't easily forgive the person who trampled on his dignity and hurt him so much.

So Chen Anhua slowly took out his mobile phone from his pocket and typed two words: 'What's the matter? '

After Yi Xiao saw it, he suddenly felt that what he wanted to say was very pale, because An Hua only typed two words that were so simple that he couldn't hear his emotions. Was he too hateful?Did you do this on purpose?

Yi Xiao tried his best to smile and said, "Long time no see, can we chat?"

The wind picked up again, Anhua held back his impatience, and hit again: "Do you think there is a need for us to talk?" '

Seeing this sentence, Yi Xiao didn't hide his disappointment for a moment. After a pause, he still made up his mind and said: "An Hua, it's a bit silly to say this when we first met." With a self-deprecating smile, Yi Xiao continued "But I know if I don't say anything today, I'm afraid you won't give me another chance to contact you."

Then I looked up again into the eyes of the person opposite and said: "I'm sorry, but I didn't think that way at that time. I waited for many years for a lot of words, and I always wanted to apologize. I was really messed up at that time, but I later... "

Before he finished speaking, An Hua waved his hand to interrupt Yi Xiao, and then typed out the last words he wanted to say: 'I forgot, you should forget too. '

After speaking, he quickly walked across the street and got into a taxi that just passed by.

Watching the figure in the rearview mirror gradually recede until it disappeared, Anhua couldn't help thinking back, recalling the spring when we first met...

On the night of the power outage at the school, Anhua was a little surprised when he first heard this big boy announce his name, because even if he had never seen him before, he had heard the name mentioned by countless people, even he was always patient with students. Father, occasionally when talking about school matters at home, would inevitably frown and sigh: "That Yi Xiao in your grade..."

An Hua had no friends around him since he was a child, and he was neither keen nor good at making friends, but the time when Yi Xiao broke into his life was too coincidental. During that time, Chen Yixiao was preparing to get married, and the whole family was immersed in joy. During the day, he laughed along with him, but at night he was looking forward to whether this day would come later.

Yi Xiao broke into his originally closed circle so suddenly, waited for him after school, and sent him home... At that time, Chen Anhua only felt that it was good to have someone by his side, so that he would not have to walk around alone after school every day. He walked step by step to the home he wanted to return to but was afraid of.

Chen Yixiao lives next door, so close that there is only one wall away, but it seems to be separated to the two ends of the world. He watched his parents and the newlyweds happily discussing the details of the marriage. He smiled and talked with the soon-to-be Chen Yixiao Greeting to his wife, everything was a bit too heavy for that young self.

So that day, on the day of Chen Yixiao's wedding, he asked Yi Xiao, "Do you want to go to the hotel?" '

The memory of that night was very vague, he only remembered that while his body was suffering from the tearing pain, he kept wondering if his brother was doing the same thing now.And when Yi Xiao broke out in his body, he cried, not because of the burning pain in his body, but because he couldn't get Chen Yixiao, and he slept with another man instead It has become a fact, and the distance between him and Chen Yixiao has grown further.

But on the way Yi Xiao sent him home that day, when he sat in the back seat of the car and looked at the back of this big boy, he regretted it. How could he start in such a muddle-headed way? How shameless, it is wrong for either party, so he made up his mind not to go on like this.

At that time, the whole family was still living in the same house. Every morning when he saw Chen Yixiao walking out of the bedroom, the crack in his heart deepened, and he didn't even think about why the big boy didn't wait for him after school. Perhaps subconsciously speaking, this is also the result he wanted.

Later, he followed his parents' advice all the time, and decided to leave home, leave Chen Yixiao, and go to study with his aunt in Canada.Before leaving, Anhua thought that there would be no possibility of meeting Yi Xiao again in the future, and he should say hello no matter what, even if it was an explanation to him to take care of him for such a long time.

However, what he didn't expect was that everything was just a trap and humiliation.

After going abroad, with the heavy academic burden and the passage of time, Anhua's memory of this person gradually blurred, and her hatred also faded. After all, he was the one who proposed to cross the cordon first, so even if There is a mistake, maybe, half and half.

If it wasn't for the man named Yi Xiao who came here today, Anhua felt that he might have really forgotten.

How did he come here, how did he find this place, and what did he want to do?

Chen Anhua turned his head sideways to the window, looking at the vast night, his brows were unconsciously frowned.

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