original love

"Who are you?" The boy asked again with one hand on the door. He looked at the man standing at the door again. It didn't look like he was delivering food. Did he go wrong? But he didn't have the patience to stand here waiting for the other person to speak, just because this man was really good-looking, and Tony, who thought that no one was more beautiful than himself, was inevitably attracted by this man's appearance.

Seeing that the other party was still standing there silently, Tony asked again: "Did you press the wrong doorbell?"

Tony has been living in this luxury suite since he hunted down Mr. Xiao that day, and the Arctic Wolf didn't urge him to go back to work after they found out who was on his shoulder, so he swiped the unlimited gold card during the day After shopping at night, he came back on his own, and these days he only saw a person who looked very smart and capable to deliver things, and no one else came to look for him, so he took it for granted that this person probably went wrong .

At this moment, when the man who had just come out of the bathroom passed the door, he didn't look this way, but walked straight to the bedroom and said, "Is the food delivered? Let him bring it in."

"No, Brother Xiao, maybe I went wrong," Tony said, then turned his head to face the man and said, "There are not many rooms on this floor, you can go to another room and look for it..."

And just as he was about to close the door, he saw the man in front of him who seemed to have lost his mind just now, and his eyes finally focused on a certain direction behind him. Tony looked back and found Yi Xiao who was only wearing a bath towel. Time has come behind him.

Yi Xiao turned his head and snorted, and said fiercely: "Chen Shen really doesn't want to do it anymore."

I'm used to being in the romantic place, and just by this sentence and the way the two looked at each other, Tony guessed the general relationship between the two. People, plan to go back to the house and stay by yourself.It's just that he didn't expect to be pulled into his arms by Yi Xiao as soon as he turned around.

Then he heard a cold voice above his head saying: "You don't remember what I told you that day, did you? Did I tell you not to show up in front of me again?"

When he was caught off guard and pulled into his arms, Tony's face was directly pressed against Yi Xiao's bare chest. Since he didn't hear the strange man's answer, he turned his head again to see if he had been dismissed by the cold words. But when he turned his head, he saw the person in front of him sign something in sign language. He never expected that this good-looking person was actually a mute.

Chen Anhua raised his arms abnormally heavily, tried his best to control his slightly trembling body sign language and said: "Can I have a few words with you alone?" '

"The day you want to talk is over, and I've heard enough." Yi Xiao's voice is well controlled, and it doesn't sound like there is any feeling similar to nostalgia.

Chen Anhua endured the strong ups and downs of his chest, and continued to compare: "Yi Xiao, give me a chance to explain the ins and outs clearly. I know you are very angry. In fact, I wanted to explain to you a few times before, but I always No chance. '

"For example, when you came back from Chen Yixiao's house that day?" The pain in my heart always needs an outlet, and Yi Xiao continued to say coldly: "If I didn't find out that day, you never planned to say it in your life... Curious, does Chen Yixiao know?"

Chen Anhua couldn't help trembling and staggered back half a step. This is something that is absolutely not allowed to happen. No one in the Chen family, who is so gracious as a mountain, should know about this unspeakable matter. He made up his mind before continuing. :'Yi Xiao, no matter what, don't tell my brother about this, he doesn't know, so I beg you. '

One sentence pierced Yi Xiao's scarred heart like a thorn, and the blood flowed out from the unscarred wound, which made Yi Xiao's pain and hatred a little more, he clenched his cheeks and said fiercely : "You're really nervous about him, but do you really think I'm still interested in chatting with you brothers? Chen Anhua, don't be so self-righteous, if you're sensible, get out now."

This may be the only chance. Chen Anhua made up his mind that no matter how hurtful he heard, he would not leave easily. He took a deep breath and continued to fight unremittingly: "Yi Xiao, 10 minutes is enough, or 5 minutes, at least give me A chance for me to finish what I have to say. '

"Aren't you going?" Yi Xiao smiled fiercely, and then he tore open a large piece of the front of Tony's bathrobe in his arms, and then stretched his palms in, scaring the boy in his arms. Jump, "Ah" cried out.

"Why are you lowering your head? You need 10 minutes and I'll give it to you, so I'll tell you right here." While talking, Yi Xiao moved his palm down and directly grabbed the young body.

"Xiao... Brother Xiao, shall we enter the house..." After the shock just now, Tony immediately adapted to his body and was mobilized. In fact, he doesn't care if he stays in the club for a long time, but this is not an arctic wolf after all. , I don’t know if other tenants will pass by later, so he can only endure the embarrassment and emotion of being teased and say in a low voice.

"Why don't you talk about it? Can't take it anymore? Chen Anhua, there's actually one thing I haven't told you all this time, right? You don't know how to talk about it in bed. It's really disappointing." Yi Xiao stiffened his neck and said ruthlessly Speaking directly, looking directly at Chen Anhua made it look as if what he said was true.

Seeing Chen Anhua standing there powerlessly like a marionette, his eyes were obviously filled with moisture, Yi Xiao endured the pain and lowered his head slightly, he leaned into the ear of the half-paralyzed boy beside him, and indeed said to Chen Anhua : "Do you want to continue watching?"

After a long time, when Chen Anhua looked up at him again, Yi Xiao saw that Chen Anhua frowned and with trembling lips, finally said a word to him: "You told me before, let me have everything I want to say." Tell you, do you still want to hear it now? '

Yi Xiao didn't say another word. As the voice of the boy beside him became more and more uncontrollable, the door in front of Chen Anhua was slowly closed by Yi Xiao. He stood there for a long time, unable to move, letting his ears be filled with There was a rhythmic banging sound inside the door.

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After coming out of the hotel, Chen Anhua walked alone on the street in the evening. The capital was busier than usual on Friday night. Couples in twos and threes passed him by. If these people pay attention at this time, they will pass by. The flickering light found that a man wearing a windbreaker was walking on the street next to him, his face was covered with tears.

On that day, Chen Anhua knew for the first time that the biggest pain of the mute was not the inability to speak, but the inability to cry.

In the presidential suite, Tony collapsed like mud because he couldn't bear too much impact. At this moment, he heard the people behind him say to him——Call me.

Tony couldn't figure out what to do, so he could only yell randomly, hoping that this man would let him go today.Later, his consciousness was a little fuzzy, and it wasn't until the "Yi Xiao" was called out that he felt the rear collision gradually subside. Tony vaguely remembered that there was a cold liquid dripping from his back that night, and he always thought it was Yi Xiao's galloping sweat , but what he couldn't see was that the salty tears were sliding down from the corner of his eyes...

And that night, Chen Anhua didn't see an emergency call from the hospital. The little girl with congenital heart disease that he operated on before passed away that day.

When he rushed to the hospital in a panic in the early morning, just as he was going to the ward, he was grabbed by Jiang Xu at the corner to an empty corner.

"Chen Anhua, listen to every word I'm saying now. This little girl suddenly wanted to eat cake tonight. Her mother couldn't resist going to the next street to buy it, so she left her in the room alone. When she returned to the ward I found that the little girl was already lying on the ground, holding a toy in her hand at the time, because the location of the corridor happened to be photographed by surveillance cameras. The little girl fell down by herself to pick up a doll that fell on the ground. Later, the director took us A few of them entered the emergency room immediately, but it was too late. They died of traumatic suffocation, and their heartbeat was gone when they were sent in...Chen Anhua, I am telling you now to let you know that you are just off work normally , even if you come back after receiving the call, you can't save her. It's not your responsibility. The director asked all the doctors who participated in the treatment at night to avoid temporarily. I won't be able to go in with you later, so no matter what the family members say, you must It’s okay to stick to your own treatment plan, do you understand?”

After Jiang Xu looked around to see if anyone was passing by, he turned his head to Chen Anhua and said, "What I told you is very important. The family members are very emotional now, and they may sue for medical malpractice. Do you understand how serious it is? !"

Chen Anhua seemed to have heard it, and murmured in his mouth as if he couldn't understand: "Why did you die..."

Seeing this man's delirious look, Jiang Xu lowered his voice a little exhausted and shouted: "Chen Anhua! What's wrong with you?! It's not normal recently, but I don't care what happened to you, now this matter is more serious than anything else. Important! If you are not careful, your medical career may be ruined, do you understand?!"

After a long time, Chen Anhua finally gently pushed Jiang Xu away, and followed the cries of a young mother in the corridor to the door of the ward where he had been in the morning.

Probably because the family members did not agree to send it to the morgue, the little girl was still lying there as if it was daytime, not even covered by a white cloth. How did the little girl whose lollipop called his brother, who was due to be discharged from the hospital in less than a week, die?

The footsteps were so heavy that he was heard by the crying parents inside the house as soon as he took a step.

The young mother who thanked him a few days ago, after seeing him, wept intermittently and pointed at him and said, "How did you become a doctor! I was looking for you at night! Our Xiaoxin was fine in the morning, Why can't it work at night... Tell me! Is it because the operation was not done well! Is it not as smooth as you said at all, speak up!"

The father who had been crying and sitting in the corner also stood up, as if he wanted to vent all the resentment of the bereaved daughter, he directly picked up Chen Anhua's collar with red eyes and shouted angrily: "What did you say before the operation, you clearly agreed The risk is not great, I said a few days ago that I could almost be discharged from the hospital, but it turned out! I was gone in an afternoon... How on earth did you become a doctor! You fucking gave me back my daughter!" Then he punched out .

Chen Anhua staggered back a few steps and finally fell to the ground. Even though the corner of his mouth was bleeding immediately, he didn't feel any pain. Not only that, all the surrounding voices of persuasion, cursing or crying disappeared, and he stepped forward to dissuade the girl. He couldn't even see his parents' doctors and nurses. All he could see now was the little hand hanging by the bed.

Almost exhausting all his strength to get up again, Chen Anhua tried to go through the chaotic crowd to see the little girl, maybe there was still hope.

But at this moment, the mother who was already paralyzed by the side suddenly stood up, stepped forward and slapped Chen Anhua loudly: "Stay away from my daughter, she doesn't want to see you, Xiaoxin will not forgive you We will sue, this is medical malpractice, we will sue you, sue the hospital! Let you all go to jail!"

But these words seemed to be muted. Chen Anhua saw the woman's lips flapping, but didn't hear a single word... Are you dreaming now? Since tonight, no, since more than ten days ago, it's just a nightmare?Is this dream too long, or should I wake up?

However, when he closed his eyes fiercely and opened them again, everything around him was there, the crying parents, the little girl on the bed, the pain in his heart, everything was still there...

It turned out that there was no going back.

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Later, Dean Liu arrived in person, temporarily settling down the grief-stricken parents.But the matter did not end like this. The girl’s parents insisted on suing the hospital for medical malpractice. After a detailed investigation and identification by the Health Bureau, it was determined that there was no problem with the hospital’s treatment process. It happened in a hospital, and Xingcheng Hospital was jointly and severally liable for not taking proper care. In addition to compensating the family for a certain amount of mental damage, the health administrative department ordered Xingcheng Hospital to conduct an internal inspection and rectification.Even though Dean Liu strongly opposed it, Star City's board of directors still publicly notified that Dr. Chen Anhua from the Department of Cardiac Surgery had been suspended for one year.

In fact, for Chen Anhua, no matter what the appraisal result is, the death of a life caused by his negligence has been deeply imprinted in his heart. This kind of suffering caused him to appear in the hospital except when he was under investigation, and Chen Anhua never set foot in the hospital again. Starway one step.

And it all happened in just one month.

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Chen Anhua sat on the bay window of the balcony and looked out. It was cold outside in winter, but the air looked good. It must be because Halloween was coming. He saw groups of children downstairs wearing cloaks and belts. Wearing a jack-o-lantern seems to be going to participate in an event. When I went abroad a few years ago, the western festivals were not so strong, but now they are exactly the same as abroad.

Before going abroad... At that time, I was 17 years old, Yi Xiao, it would be great if I started at that time.

Chen Anhua looked sideways at the milky white sofa in the living room, and suddenly seemed to smell the aroma of pork rib soup, and the whole room seemed to be steaming hot, and saw Yi Xiao coming out of the kitchen and said with a smile: " Wait half a day and be hungry!"

Chen Anhua still sat there quietly.

"Drink it while it's hot, it'll be cold later," Yi Xiao urged him with a smile: "Why don't you come here, don't you love pork rib soup the most?"

Chen Anhua sat at the dining table following the scent like sleepwalking, and saw Yi Xiao handing him a bowl full of soup and saying, "You have a really picky mouth, do you know that? You only ate half a bowl when I didn't cook well. , Now sometimes I can eat two bowls when I am hungry, so you are still quite difficult to serve, sir."

Speaking of which, Yi Xiao picked up a piece of winter bamboo shoots and handed it to his mouth with a smile to feed him, "Open your mouth, I learned a new method today, try to see if you like it."

Chen Anhua slowly opened his mouth and smiled and waited, but after a long, long time, he still didn't taste the dish, and the dream faded away at this moment.He was the only one sitting alone at the dining table, the kitchen was empty, the living room was empty, and there was nothing on the table except a half glass of water that had gone cold.

Chen Anhua inserted his fingers deeply into his hair, and slowly buried his head in the crook of his arms. Tears flowed down the corners of his eyes for an unknown number of times recently.

That person will not come back again, the most feared thing happened in the end, he lost Yi Xiao... Everything is retribution, because I didn't give my heart at the beginning, so I didn't deserve such a beautiful love, But until now he couldn't believe that Yi Xiao had completely disappeared from his life.Just thinking about it made him gasp like he was suffocating.

Chen Anhua curled up on the chair with his arms around his knees like a baby. This is a position he often made when he was a child, as if in this way he could gain warmth and protection from a mother he has never met.

At this moment the doorbell rang, and Chen Anhua slowly raised his head to confirm whether he was hallucinating, but when the knock came again, he suddenly got up and rushed to the door, maybe he came and said Maybe that person is willing to forgive, he changed his mind...

Holding the only remaining fantasy, he vigorously opened the door, but the disappointment came again like a tsunami, and Chen Anhua was frozen there like a clay sculpture and wood sculpture.

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