fear of intimacy

Psychologists believe that people's dreams are black and white

Zhou Xu sat cross-legged between the sofa and the coffee table, slowly peeling sugar oranges.The bright light in the afternoon was blocked by the shade cloth on the balcony, and the corners of his eyes were blurred with orange red.

But I can always dream of my mother's back bathed in an orange-red light when I was a child, Zhou Xuxiang, and the off-white window screen, and the colorful colors on the window screen that were stained by children's paintbrushes and could not be washed off.

The perspective in the dream is short and far away, from a child who is sitting in the pile of toys in the living room and refuses to move, holding the spaceman in his hand, looking for the shadow that is always with him all over the room.

The shadow appeared on the balcony, blurred by the off-white window screen, and the breeze stirred the screen curtain, and the halo was erratic, reflected in the immature eyes of the child, as if it would fly into the sky in the next second.

"mom!"

"mom!"

"Wow woo woo woo!!"

The wind stopped and the curtains fell silent, and the figure on the balcony became clear and stable again.

"Mommy mommy!!"

He lifted up the window screen with one hand, his complexion was yellowish, and there were a few scalds on the back of his hand.

Zhou Xu suddenly closed his eyes.

The complete piles of orange peels on the coffee table were swept into stainless steel trays. Zhou Xu opened the curtains with the tray, and put the orange peels on the drying board with sufficient sunlight.Back in the living room, he tied the cable ties of the two shades together.

The phone on the coffee table vibrated, and the caller ID showed a series of unfamiliar numbers.

Zhou Xu's social activities are very few, and there are even fewer people who call him when he has nothing to do. The few people who can be counted have their names.

Wipe off the juice on your hands before answering the phone.On the other side was a voice that Zhou Xu was very familiar with recently, with a clear tone - "Hello, Mr. Zhou, I'm Chen Shu".

It's that little star, who looks like a college student with a white face, has a pair of clear and harmless eyes, but has a very sharp mind, and is good at acting and trying to figure out emotions.Show a disappointed look, helpless like a little white flower, but actually know that you will agree to all his requests; pretend to be ignorant, show real bewilderment, but actually know your implication clearly.

He is also very courageous. When he encounters other people's private affairs, he will not pretend to be blind, but will try to make a statement.

"Hello, what's the matter?"

Chen Shu's speech was a little fast: "Ding Lan, who is receiving treatment in your consultation center, is not in a good condition now. Can you please come over to see her? I just called Dr. Cao but I couldn't get through."

Who is Ding Lan?

Zhou Xu recalled for two seconds, but couldn't remember.It sounds like a client of the senior brother. I don't know why Chen Shu called him.

"Well, Dr. Cao may be in consultation." Zhou Xu threw the scattered sugar oranges back into the fruit plate one by one, "You can bring someone to come to him directly."

"But, but..." There was a moment of silence, "Ding Lan is very unstable now, and she doesn't want to go out of the room. And the situation here is a bit special. Today's filming work of the crew has not yet ended, and the composition of reporters and fans outside is complicated." ...Can you invite Teacher Zhou to come over, aren't you also Ding Lan's psychiatrist?"

When Chen Shu described it like this, Zhou Xu remembered it.It's the celebrity client that my senior brother can't handle, I met in the Wendong consulting room last time.At that time, Chen Shu came with her, and he might have mistakenly thought that Zhou Xu and Cao Youcai were both Ding Lan's consultants.

It is indeed a special case.

Zhou Xu took off the down jacket from the hanger at the door: "Send me the address."

The shooting location was in the same city, a bit far from Zhou Xu's address, and it took nearly half an hour to get there by taxi.

Waiting to pick him up at the intersection was the little assistant who came to Zhou Xu's home with Chen Shu last time. Zhou Xu didn't pay attention to his appearance at all, and relied on the phone call.

As soon as we met, Xiao Peng took out a mask to Zhou Xu: "Mr. Zhou, do you want to cover it?"

Zhou Xu raised half of his eyebrows.

Xiao Peng explained: "Brother Chen gave it to me, take a look around here..."

There are so many people around here, coming and going, except for the crew and visiting fans, most of them have cameras in their hands.As soon as Zhou Xu turned his head, a picture was flashed.

Zhou Xu: "Hiss."

Xiao Peng said embarrassingly, "Maybe they saw me with you and thought you were Brother Chen, hehe."

Zhou Xu was expressionless: "Then I think it's better for you to wear this mask to solve the problem from the root."

Xiao Peng took Zhou Xu to the rest area, and he could feel the weird atmosphere along the way.Passers-by whispered to each other from time to time, and cast a vague glance at a certain closed door.The door was not far ahead, and a group of people surrounded the door.

When I approached, I heard the crowd yelling again—"Open the door quickly, who is inside? Waiting to get the props!" "That's right, what's the matter blocking the props!"

The little girl stood in front of the people holding the door frame: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, please wait a moment, I can do it for you if you need anything!"

"You take what you take, do you know where to put it!"

Zhou Xu stood on the edge of the crowd, silently took out the mask that was sticking out of Xiaopeng's pocket, and put it on.

Xiao Peng opened his mouth wide and looked at him.

"It's this room." Zhou Xu had already guessed, his voice was muffled through the mask, and he tilted his head to signal Xiao Peng to step forward and open the way.

Xiao Peng faltered outside the crowd who were complaining.

The door opened, and a person came out sideways, closed the door again, and stood beside the little girl: "Excuse me, everyone, please wait for half an hour."

Out came a man with silver-rimmed glasses.

This time the voices died down.

Everyone whispered hello: "Teacher Xin Hong."

Xiao Peng took the opportunity to squeeze Zhou Xu in.Seeing Xiao Peng, the silver-rimmed glasses opened the door. Zhou Xu passed by him, looked over the upper edge of the mask to look at the silver-rimmed glasses, unexpectedly, those glasses were also looking at him.It's a little sizing up.

Xiao Peng closed the door to isolate the noise of the corridor from the outside.

Sitting on the sofa against the wall was a woman wrapped in a loose padded jacket, her face buried in the down feathers around the brim of her hat, shaking like chaff.Chen Shu leaned against the back of the sofa beside her, with his head slightly lowered.

Zhou Xu took off his mask: "Miss Ding?"

The trembling woman didn't respond at all, Chen Shu raised his head.

"Teacher Zhou!" Chen Shu's eyes seemed to light up, and he walked up to him with a few steps.

Zhou Xu's gaze passed Chen Shu and landed on Ding Lan.Chen Shu approached him, and whispered in his ear: "Ding Lan's boyfriend came to the set to find her, and there was some conflict, which irritated Ding Lan, who cried for almost half an hour, and refused to go out or talk."

They got too close, and the slight heat brushed the tip of Zhou Xu's ear, making it a little itchy. Zhou Xu turned to glance at Chen Shu, who had an innocent face.

The door was opened again, and the silver-rimmed glasses came in to greet Xiao Peng to take some props together.

"What contradiction?" Zhou Xu asked.

Chen Shu's lips moved, he hesitated to speak.

"When you go to the hospital, are you also so vague with the doctor?" Zhou Xu gave him a look that was narrow in form but devoid of emotional content.

Chen Shu blinked.

Chen Shu thought for a while, leaned over Zhou Xu's shoulder, and whispered something into his ear.

Ding Lan's high-heeled shoes were tilted in front of the sofa, and his whole body was tucked into the quilt-like padded jacket, only his forehead with messy hair was exposed, and the tip of the disheveled down was trembling, but he didn't make a sound.

Zhou Xu sat on her right: "Miss Ding."

A pair of terrified eyes appeared in the pile of cotton clothes.

"I'm Dr. Cao Youcai's assistant. I met you at Wendong Consultation that day. Do you remember?" Zhou Xu's voice was low and gentle, unlike his usual indifference.

Ding Lan turned his hat back, and there were wet tooth marks on the cloth around his mouth, and his whole face was soaked with tears.It seems that he has been biting his clothes and restraining himself from crying.

Ding Lan looked at Zhou Xu, with tears still welling up in his eyes, unable to speak.

Zhou Xu raised his index finger in front of her eyes: "Keep your eyes on my fingers and hear my words clearly—now think about what happened in this room half an hour ago."

Ding Lan's pupils shrank.Zhou Xu's fingers began to move slowly, and Ding Lang subconsciously wanted to turn his head, but Zhou Xu clamped his jaw: "Take a deep breath—1, 2, 3..."

Ding Lan's eyeballs followed Zhou Xu's, and his fingers that were clenched tightly on the padded jacket slowly relaxed, and his breathing rhythm gradually slowed down.

"... 18, 19, 20—now thinking about what happened half an hour ago, do you feel better?"

Ding Lan sobbed twice, and finally made a sound: "Okay, it's much better."

"This is a set of eye movement desensitization quick treatment, which can help relieve your stress state." Zhou Xu withdrew his hand and stood up from the sofa.

"thanks……"

Xiao Peng went out to bring Ding Lan's assistant in. The little girl opened a pack of tissues and wiped Ding Lan's face: "Sister Lan Lan, the director just came looking for you, and I told her that you are still resting."

Ding Lan nodded, with a strong nasal voice: "Are there many people outside?"

Chen Shu said: "Teacher Zhou and I will go out first." He circled his face with his index finger, indicating that Ding Lan's makeup was gone.

Ding Lan's eyes were red: "Thank you...Chen Shu."

Chen Shu sighed, and left the prop room with Zhou Xu one after the other.

The surrounding staff outside had dispersed, and Xiao Peng was still guarding the door. Chen Shu asked him to run to explain his absence to Director Huang.

Xin Hong lowered his head and leaned against the opposite wall, holding a long and thin cigarette between his fingertips, and looked back and forth between Chen Shu and Zhou Xu with heavy eyes, as if waiting for an explanation.

Chen Shu said helplessly: "That guy is Ding Lan's boyfriend, other people's family affairs..."

Xin Hong obviously didn't buy it: "Family troubles come to the crew? And you..." Xin Hong smiled, looking at Chen Shu's eyes as if he had discovered something interesting and new: "You rushed up and beat me up without saying a word. Is it because I am jealous of Ding Lan's boyfriend?"

Chen Shu said seriously: "It's not a good thing, Teacher Xin, don't make fun of it. It's best not to say it."

Xin Hong surrendered with both hands: "Okay, okay, I listen to you."

Chen Shu turned around and sent Zhou Xu out of the crew.There were much fewer people in the corridor of the rest area than when Zhou Xu came, and they no longer whispered secretly.

Zhou Xu walked beside Chen Shu and glanced back: "He is looking at you."

This "he" naturally refers to Xin Hong.

Zhou Xu rarely took the initiative to talk to Chen Shu, except for the topic of reasoning variety shows.Chen Shu was flattered: "No, no, maybe I was looking at you."

Zhou Xu: "Huh?"

Chen Shu gave him an analysis: "Although he was looking in our direction, I didn't feel like I was being watched."

"The feeling of being watched?"

"You have to know, for professional reasons, I have a lot of experience of being stared at in various situations, and I have been sharpened. Besides, isn't there a study that says that people's eyes have warmth? Who Looking at me from behind, I can feel it."

Zhou Xu stared at Chen Shu's hair with great interest, and unexpectedly found that Chen Shu was a little shorter than him.

A handsome boy, not tall.

They came to a corner of a Republican-style building, which was the location of the crew.Then go out to the street.The two stood here.

"It's interesting that you guys are actors," he said.

Chen Shu was surprised. He didn't expect Zhou Xu, who didn't seem to have the ability to care, would find him quite interesting.

"Emotionally broken, I still have to stick to my job."

Oh, so it was Ding Lan.

Chen Shu said: "It's not that I have to stay on the set."

"Isn't it?" Zhou Xu raised his eyebrows, "The one who came all the way called me over."

Uh... Chen Shu was speechless, Zhou Xu's tone made him feel that this person was deliberately digging holes for him.What are you drawing, is it fun?

"Besides, I'm not Ding Lan's counselor." Zhou Xu's expression was very indifferent.

"Oh, that's Dr. Cao's..."

"It's not Cao Youcai's assistant either. Last time I just happened to be in Wendong for consultation."

Chen Shu was surprised to find that Zhou Xu showed him a rare and sly smile: "I am a voluntary labor today, have you figured it out?"

Some fans or paparazzi who visited the class spotted Chen Shu and held up the camera from a distance to secretly take pictures.Chen Shu didn't lie, he was indeed sensitive to other people's gaze.Chen Shu adjusted his stance indiscriminately, blocked Zhou Xu in front of the camera, and said vaguely without thinking too much, "Then do you want any reward?"

With Chen Shu's adjustment, the two got closer, and the top of their black and soft hair was about to touch Zhou Xu's cheek.

Zhou Xu: "..."

A head popped out from behind the corner, pushed the silver-rimmed glasses frame, and said quietly, "Hey, Chen Shu, Director Huang is looking for you."

Chen Shu: "!!!"

Chen Shu was so frightened that he jumped back: "Mr. Xin Hong, you walk silently!!"

Xin Hong briefly looked at Zhou Xu through the lens, then turned his head and told Chen Shu again: "Go back quickly."

"Okay, okay!" Chen Shu pulled Zhou Xu's cuff and walked quickly to the corner of the street.

The shooting location is far away from the urban area, and there is no rental, so we can only call a car.

While waiting for the car to arrive, Chen Shu put on a mask, pulled up the hood of his coat, and hid his face in the shadows.

In fact, there are not many topics, and silence occupies most of the time.

Finally, Zhou Xu told him that next time he came to class, he could experience hypnosis for himself.According to Zhou Xu's analysis, Chen Shu should have a susceptible constitution, and he might be able to enter deep hypnosis.

"Illusions and hallucinations are the characteristics of deep hypnosis, as is memory recall. It has been recorded that memory recall can reach as far as the fetal period," Zhou Xu said, "and the details are very detailed and real, as if the past reappears. If you are lucky, you will be able to experience So, is there any time you want to recall?"

Although Chen Shu speculates, what Zhou Xu meant by saying this may be hinting at his recall of his thoughts on recording reasoning variety shows at that time.But out of curiosity and anticipation, he honestly expressed his true thoughts: "If it is really possible, the elementary school days may be the past I most want to recreate."