I had a crush on her and finally broke up

Hearing Qi Lan's words, Ruan Yu was taken aback for a moment, and realized that he really hadn't had such an experience for a long time.

That excitement, the urge to do something.

Ruan Yu is a very well-planned person, and naturally he has plans for his own career development, and it has been very smooth to get to this day step by step.But it may be because it was too smooth, but gradually lost passion.

The stories she writes, although she has poured her heart and energy into them, and she will stay up late into the night with inspiration, but everything is well-versed and under control.

For an author, it is of course a good thing to have control over the work, so that the whole story will be beautiful, with succession and transition, and every part is full, which can satisfy the audience to the maximum extent.But on her own, it's not so interesting.

Before today, Ruan Yu always thought it was because he had matured in creation, but now he realized that it was just because the things he wrote before were too familiar and not fresh enough.

There are always people in the industry criticizing her works for lack of connotation, but Ruan Yu refused to admit it before.But maybe she has already realized in her heart that with the creative state at that time, it is impossible to succeed at all if she transforms to write more serious subjects.

That's why she entered a low ebb period at that time, and even suspended writing for a while.

But she didn't realize where her problem was, let alone how to solve it.It's just that when I got to know Qi Lan later, I temporarily pulled myself out of that state.But I didn't expect that the way to solve the problem would emerge in this way.

After understanding this key point, Ruan Yu felt relaxed.Because she patronized her own inspiration, she didn't notice Qi Lan's slight strangeness, and said with a smile, "It's been a long time since I felt this eagerness to write something."

"Then do you want to write it down first?" Qi Lan came back to her senses and said hastily, "I finally got an inspiration, don't go back and forget it."

She knew how annoying it was to feel something that was clearly in her mind, but she couldn't remember it anyway.It's unimportant, it's fine if you can't remember it, but Ruan Yu lives by inspiration, so of course he can't delay it.

Ruan Yu's mind was full of thoughts, and he really needed to sort it out, so he didn't refuse, and said a few more words before hanging up the video.

This busy until late at night.

After turning off the computer, laying down on an unfamiliar bed, completely turning his attention away from the ideas floating in his mind, Ruan Yu suddenly couldn't fall asleep.

In fact, I was already very tired after running around all day, and I couldn't tell what was on my mind, but I was inexplicably irritable and panicked, tossing and turning on the bed for a long time, and finally picked up the phone.There is a red 1 on the icon of a certain letter, which is brightly lit.Ruan Yu clicked in, it was a message from Qi Lan.

Lan Keai: Don’t write too late, go to bed early, okay~

Ruan Yu smiled first, and then suddenly realized why he was in a strange state tonight.

Because there is one less person around.

Ruan Yu and Qi Lan have been together for more than half a year, and it can almost be said that they are inseparable day and night.And Qi Lan was really kind to her, caring for every detail.This sense of presence is usually difficult to detect, but it becomes obvious immediately when one person is missing.

When she decided to take this job, Ruan Yu thought that she could still be as chic as before. At that time, Qi Lan was so reluctant to part with her, and she still laughed in her heart that he was like a child—although this is also her cuteness.Now it's my turn, I don't feel so good.

Realizing this, it seemed as if a piece of my heart suddenly became empty, and that feeling of loneliness surged up all of a sudden.

The night was already very deep, and the whole world was quiet, and various subtle sounds that were difficult to detect during the day could be heard.Ruan Yu sat up and leaned against the head of the bed.The curtains in the room are the kind that roll up to the top, and they are only half drawn. The bright moonlight shines in through the lower half of the window, making the end of the bed bright.

This kind of night cannot be seen in the city.

A few months ago, Ruan Yu would have enjoyed this beautiful and somewhat lonely scene.It is as if you are sinking into a world that is hard for others to reach, and you are free and boundless.

As Su Shi wrote in "Ode to the Red Cliff": Fluttering like a legacy of independence, ascending to immortality after becoming a feather.

But now, she is like a kite with a tie, she can no longer fly high and far away according to her will.

She lost her mind for a while, got out of bed and walked to the window, opened the window, switched her mobile phone to night photo mode, took a picture of the moonlight outside the window, and sent it to her circle of friends, with the text: Yuan Yushen, pillow It's cool, and a lonely shadow shakes the front of the book.

The news of Qi Lan followed almost immediately.

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Ruan Yu: You didn't sleep either.

Lan Keai: I miss you so much that I can't fall asleep... Ruan Ruan, do you miss me too?

This one, Qi Lan sent her voice, her voice was low and soft in the night, as if it could reach the deepest part of the heart.Ruan Yu has always been reserved, but maybe he was moved by Qi Lan's straightforwardness, or maybe he was influenced by the night, so he chose to respond positively this time.

Ruan Yu: Yes.

Qi Lan immediately sent a video request to come over.She was squatting on the head of the bed wrapped in a quilt, looking pitiful.Ruan Yu looked at it for a while, and suddenly realized something was wrong, so he couldn't help asking, "What's wrong with your pajamas?"

"This?" Qi Lan lifted the quilt and looked down at the clothes on her body, "Your clothes smell like you, I thought it would be better to wear them, but instead I couldn't fall asleep even more."

"Ok?"

Qi Lan whispered, "I want to hug you."

Ruan Yu didn't know why, the two of them had even had closer contact, but Qi Lan's words suddenly made her face burn.Fortunately, the night is blurry, so it shouldn't be visible in the video, she touched her cheek, thinking.

But the next moment, she heard Qi Lan say in a coquettish, coaxing voice, "Ruan Ruan, what about our video..."

"You're crazy!" Ruan Yu's heart skipped a beat, and he almost threw the phone out.

Qi Lan didn't speak, but just looked at her with eyes that seemed to be on fire.This look Ruan Yu is familiar with, when she is in love, she always looks at herself with this look, the ferociousness that is usually well restrained, only then will burst out.Even without any skill at all, this flame can burn Ruan Yu completely.

Realizing that something will happen if this continues, Ruan Yu hastily hung up the video, hurriedly sent a sentence "Don't mess around, go to sleep", and threw the phone aside, as if avoiding some scourge.

The phone rang a few more times, maybe she couldn't get a response, and she was afraid that she would be annoyed, so Qi Lan finally went to sleep peacefully.

But Ruan Yu couldn't sleep anymore.That burning feeling seemed to wake up from her body again, and a ray of flames flowed through her limbs, making her extremely long for another person's embrace.

Ruan Yu sighed, pulled the quilt over his whole body, and indulged himself.

It's just that after venting, it feels more empty.Especially when the arm subconsciously touched the side, but only touched the cold hands.Ruan Yu suddenly remembered what Qi Lan always said she smelled, and smelling it would make people feel at ease.At that time, she thought it was nonsense, but now she suddenly understood the mysterious and mysterious feeling.

But she is playing away, even if she wants to put on the opponent's clothes like Qi Lan, it is impossible to deceive herself.

After being on the bed for a while, Ruan Yu finally got up and turned on the computer.Since you can't sleep, let's work.

The new script hasn't even started yet, and more material needs to be collected, so she wrote the script of "Lying Flowers".After only writing a few lines, Ruan Yu realized something was wrong.The atmosphere of the whole script should have been indifferent and alienated, full of suspense, horror, and confusing elements, but she wrote sparks overflowing.

This is the first time that the state of creation has been affected.

She sighed, closed the computer, put on her clothes and went out.It was only after being blown by the night wind outside that he felt the heat in his body dissipate a little.

The courtyard was quiet, and Ruan Yu smelled a faint scent of flowers when he stepped out of the courtyard gate. ——This courtyard is the same as other houses, and it is surrounded by camellias.

This is a very strange feeling, Ruan Yu thought.Along the way, the environment here should be considered harsh.But the flowers all over the mountains and plains dilute this feeling, giving birth to a sense of contradictory beauty.The people who live here and the stories that happen here should also carry such a contradictory temperament.

The temperature difference between day and night in the mountains is huge, Ruan Yu walked outside for a while, was blown through by the night wind, felt that the yellow waste in his head had been cleaned up, and then went back to the room and fell asleep.

It's just that I tossed late at night and got up late the next day.

Everyone is not surprised by this. It is strange for people who are engaged in creation not to stay up late, right?

After eating the noodles in the beef bone broth, Ruan Yu went out with his mobile phone in his pocket, wandering around the village, followed by the film crew with their cameras on their shoulders.She was looking for material, and the other party was also shooting material for the show.

The whole village is not small in scale, with criss-cross roads and houses built with their own characteristics.As Ruan Yu walked, he also took some interesting pictures with his mobile phone.

Turning to the highest point of the village, Ruan Yu unexpectedly found a piece of dilapidated houses here.

Different from the brand-new small buildings in the village now, the houses in this area are tile-roofed houses with a wooden structure, and the whole is also a large yard. There are not only left and right side rooms, but also a small area of ​​independent houses behind, some of which seem to be lived in, and the other is captive. For animals.The yard is paved with bluestone slabs very carefully.

It should be that it has not been lived in for many years. The wooden walls and pillars have been decayed. They look crumbling and could collapse at any time. With no weeds, it looks barren.

Ruan Yu walked around here for a long time, then went straight to the village committee to find Secretary Zheng and asked him what was going on with the house.