Bamboo horse and bamboo horse grow up together

Yu Wen came out of the Internet cafe, walked around the school and entered through the small door of the family area, saw that the uncle hadn't come out to beat the gong, he was relieved, and walked leisurely back to the dormitory.

Yu Wen was lying on the bed, looking at the wooden board above his head, suddenly he didn't dare to face his heart, how could he have such a scary thought.Yu Wen felt an indescribable sense of distance between himself and Yang Fan. He was just an ordinary student studying and going to school, but Yang Fan had acted in movies and won awards. He had a handsome face and went to any award presentation Even at the party, there will be a play, soon after, Yang Fan will be a star appearing on TV, maybe some fans will buy his posters...

Yu Wen didn't dare to think about it, why did he have to find Yang Fan to act in this movie? Could it be that he couldn't find other good-looking actors? Yu Wen thought to himself, and the scene of Yang Fan being injured while filming and being fired by the director appeared in his mind.Yu Wen was taken aback, shook his head and poured out the thoughts in his head, turned over and continued to sleep.

How could there be such an idea? Yu Wen felt like a bad guy, hoping that Yang Fan's filming would go well, but also hoped that Yang Fan's film would not be good.

That night, Yu Wen looked at the wooden boards above his head and thought about many questions. When Yang Fan came back, would he still be the same as before?Inferiority feelings spread from the heart little by little. Before, Yu Wen had low self-esteem when he couldn't afford remedial classes, couldn't afford sneakers, didn't have the talent to show off, and parents couldn't call them parents, but it was just Sad and sad, Yang Fan is the same as me, accompanying me, but this time is different, Yu Wen is not only inferior, he is flustered, afraid, afraid, he is afraid that the day Yang Fan returns from fame, he does not know how to greet him, yes Go over or run away?

Yang Fan went back to the hotel with the script and sat on the bedside to read it. The more he read, the more frightened Yang Fan became. The story was written by a man who sat cross-legged on the bed yesterday. When the son of a mainland man came to Taiwan for a trip, he accidentally discovered the truth about his father’s visit to Taiwan. The man his father liked was in Taiwan. It turned out that the friend who kept in touch with his father by letter turned out to be his father’s boyfriend. The incomparable beauty, the true thought of secretly investigating and approaching the matter all over again, the father frantically wanted to make up for the loss he had brought to his son, but the son didn't know what to do after getting close to the truth, and fled Taiwan in a panic.

Yang Fan is a little scared, not because of the storyline, but why the director chose him. There are so many suitable actors, and he is handsome, so Yang Fan just chooses himself. He didn't even have an interview. Will he be a director? See through your gender orientation at a glance.

Yang Fan looked at himself in the mirror, pinched his face, and felt that he was not tough enough. It seemed that he needed to run more and build more muscles.

"What do you think is the main emotion of the boy you play?" Li Wenxuan and Yang Fan discussed the script.

Yang Fan has read a lot in the novel, but Yang Fan doesn't know how to interpret the subtle emotions. The words in his mind are just those, floating back and forth in front of his eyes, but he can't see the appearance clearly, and he can't grasp it no matter what.

"There's nothing you can do, the one that can't change your father, return, return, anyway..." Yang Fan gestured, not knowing what to say.

"The sense of powerlessness, yes, it's the kind of powerlessness that can't be changed, and it has to be endured during puberty. Your idea is not bad."

"Isn't it this? What's the most important thing?" Yang Fan panicked when he heard the word 'also'.

"It's all right. Different people have different opinions. I think you think well. After all, your age is in line with the age of the characters in the play, and you are also from mainland China. You can't accept homosexuality. I think the most original reaction when shooting is the best."

"No, I don't have it, I can accept it." Yang Fan waved his hand to explain to the director.

"Really?" The director smiled and said, "Do you know why I chose you?"

"why?"

"I interviewed a few boys before I met you. On the night I met you, I also saw those two boys on the platform. I saw you stunned from the side, without blinking your eyes. Those two people smiled at you. , You were so scared, you left quickly, I wanted to follow you to see, but you came back again, and prayed with your hands together, feeling that the scene just now stained your eyes, and put your hands in front of your eyes as if worshiping Buddha and whispered, I I thought you must have been intimidated by them."

Yang Fan looked at the director suspiciously, and asked, "Do I have that expression?"

"Oh, it doesn't matter, I understand you, and then I didn't expect that we met in the hotel. I tried to test you, but I didn't expect you to behave well, and you told me in a serious way, whoever you like is a person's freedom, I At that time, I thought you could do it, but I didn't expect you to be a newcomer from mainland China with good acting skills, so it was you."

Yang Fan laughed happily and said, "What kind of luck am I doing?"

When exchanging scripts, Yang Fan listened to the exchange of ideas between the director and the actors, while the screenwriter sat aside and kept expressing his approval, saying: "Director Li has a lot of life experience."

Li Wenxuan has the same identity as himself. Yang Fan heard it by accident while eating a box lunch. Yang Fan was a little surprised, but he felt that it should be taken for granted. Otherwise, why would Li Wenxuan have been staring at a subject to take pictures.

Who is his boyfriend? Isn't this place very tolerant? Why have you never seen your boyfriend come to visit the class? How long have they been talking? Are they married? Will their parents be angry?

A hundred or ten thousand questions popped up in Yang Fan's mind, and he wanted to ask the director, but he didn't know what reasonable reason to communicate with.

"Director, I want to ask you some questions, I can't understand the script."

"I don't understand."

"Why didn't Dad return to the mainland in the end? He already had a child and completed the marriage, and everything that should be done has been done. Wouldn't it be better to stay in Taiwan? Dad likes that man so much."

"What do you think?"

"I think my father loves that man so much, and he doesn't love my mother. In the end, my mother should not forgive him. She should let her go, and let my father and that man be together. This is a good ending."

"Hahahaha." Li Wenxuan sat on the chair and laughed, the laughter made Yang Fan puzzled. "Sure enough, I'm still a child. It's too simple to look at the problem. Are you saying that in the ending of the novel, father doesn't love mother, and is not happy at all. He should pursue his own happiness, and father should not come back crying and beg for forgiveness. "

Yang Fan nodded.

"I thought so too. He and I will live as well as you said, but life is not like this." Li Wenxuan sat down, smoked a cigarette, fanned the smoke with his hand, turned his head and asked Does Yang Fan smoke?

Yang Fan remembered that Yu Wen's voice changed after taking a puff of cigarette, shook his head, sat next to the director, and listened carefully to what he said.

"Okay, I'm a good boy. Since you don't understand, let me explain to you and add a little more life experience. Things are not as simple as you think, and Taiwan is not as tolerant as you think. Even the West is not completely Accepted. When you are young, when you are in a relationship, what is appropriate, tell your friends, and your friends will support it. Anyway, it is not a matter of your own family. Show off, or don't tell your friends, live with your lover pretending to be friends, who knows if you will sleep together when it gets dark." Li Wenxuan said, and lit another cigarette.

"In a few years, your family will urge you to marry and introduce someone you care about. What can you do? Either accept it, or announce your identity. After accepting it, you will hide your identity for the rest of your life. It’s not a problem for the person you like to suppress your sexual desire and spend the rest of your life with the other person. If you meet someone, it’s hard enough to make you feel uncomfortable. Do you abandon morality and cheat to make yourself comfortable, or continue to suppress yourself. If you tell the truth, your family will go crazy. The whole family is crazy, crying and cursing, no one will understand you, in the end, you must either compromise, or let everyone know that you are a pervert, and you and your family will live under the finger of others."

Yang Fan fell into deep thought, and while Director Li was still immersed in his own world, he asked his own question: "What if there are no parents, no friends, and only one person you like?"

"I have also imagined this problem. My parents and friends have disappeared, so it shouldn't be painful anymore. No, it is also painful. You live under the same roof with him, and the neighbors will inevitably gossip , gossip is terrible, every root will be in the heart of the heart, no matter how you hide, you can't hide, this is not the most powerful, even if you live together as sweetly as other couples, there will be friction after a long time, the friction of other couples is Daily necessities, but people of the same sex don’t just have these things, they also suffer from discrimination from others. There are many others, life is hard, who can bear it. There are also children, there will be no children in a lifetime, it doesn’t matter if you are young, but when you are old, your parents can’t close your eyes when they see that you have no children. They are worried that the children will grow old I can’t walk anymore, I’m suffering, even if I adopt a child, my parents don’t feel close, and it’s a pity to leave. You said that your parents have worked so hard to raise you, and you can’t close your eyes when you leave at the end. What did they do wrong? Besides, the adopted children are not allowed to go to school, and when they grow up, how do they think of you, you will not be bullied from school."

As Li Wenxuan talked, he covered his face with his hands, the sound of heavy breathing came from between his hands, and tears fell on the ground.The words just now were like a hammer hitting the wall, one hammer after another hit Yang Fan's brain, Yang Fan felt that every sentence was reasonable, but he couldn't digest so many reasons for a while.

"Hey, why am I telling you this? You asked me why, why did Dad come back to the mainland again?" Director Li realized that he had said too much, and hurriedly chatted about the plot: "In the end, I will definitely go back , Dad still has a home in the mainland, there are parents, there is also a son, if you don't go back, you can't hold your head up, lovers are just lovers, and nothing can be solved except to vent your desires."

Li Wenxuan patted Yang Fan's head and said, "It's getting late, let's discuss tomorrow if you have any problems, go back to sleep, there will be a big night show tomorrow."

Seeing Li Dao's red eyes, Yang Fan wanted to take care of him, but he thought it was his private business, and when he was sitting on the sidelines, he always didn't want anyone to disturb him, so he turned around and said morning rest, and left the table , when Yang Fan went out, he heard Director Li sobbing uncontrollably.

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