Lin Shen sees the deer again

Two weeks later, on Sunday, at Lin Shen's home, Yao Lu was sitting on the sofa obediently, while Lin Shen was loading a disc.

"What movie?" Yao Lu took a sip of the milk on the coffee table and asked, "You haven't said your name yet!"

"A very old movie! It's from the 80s!" Lin Shen fiddled with the machine and said, "The title of the movie is "Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence". "Christmas" is a World War II film, an anti-war film!"

After fiddling with it, Lin Shen sat on the sofa, pressed the play button on the remote control, and waited for the translation of the title of the movie to appear in the title, then pressed the pause button, picked up the cover of the DVD, showed it to Yao Lu, and introduced at the same time: "It's a movie. Little Japan's film, the main character is Ryuichi Sakamoto. Oh, the music of this film is also very famous, and it was also composed by Ryuichi Sakamoto. You must have heard it before, and it's a very familiar melody."

"Others, um..." Lin Shen thought for a while, and said, "Forget it, I won't introduce too much, otherwise it will be a spoiler, and you take it easy, lest I mislead you by talking too much."

Yao Lu nodded and said, "Okay!"

Lin Shen pressed the play button, and the movie started with an ethereal and long music.

Yao Lu was really familiar with this piece of music, so he smiled and said to Lin Shen: "I do hear this piece of music often, but I didn't expect it to come from this movie."

Seeing that Yao Lu was in a good mood, Lin Shen took the opportunity to wrap his arms around his shoulders and said, "It's started, let's see!"

Yao Lu let out a "hmm".

Seeing that he did not resist, Lin Shen pulled Yao Lu into his arms again.

Yao Lu froze slightly for a moment, and finally leaned obediently in Lin Shen's arms. The two of them stopped talking, quietly, and watched the movie seriously.

More than two hours later, after the sentence of "Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence" by Sergeant Yuan, the captain of the prisoner-of-war detention center played by Takeshi Kitano, the film freezes on Takeshi Kitano's grinning face with red eyes, and ends.

Immediately afterwards, the theme song "MerryChristmas Mr. Lawrence" sounded again, and the end credits surfaced.

Lin Shen hugged Yao Lu, looked down, and found that his eye sockets were flushed and tears were chewing in his eyes.

"Lulu, why are you crying?" Lin Shen wiped his eyes for him, and comforted him softly: "It's touching, isn't it? It makes our children cry."

"It's a little sad..." Yao Lu was a little embarrassed, rubbed his eyes, and whispered: "The whole film is very depressing, but there are some places that are very warm. But... the conversation between Lawrence and Sergeant Yuan at the end is the most important thing. Makes me sad."

"Yes! Me too!" Lin Shen hugged him and said, "When the original sergeant was in the detention center, he was cruel and ruthless to the prisoners of war. But after the defeat, he was no longer a soldier, he was no different from ordinary people! He and When Lawrence recalled that Christmas, he would be shy, embarrassed, and laughing. It was the war that made him brutal and crazy, and dehumanized him. Once he got out of that environment, he returned to an ordinary person."

"Lawrence seems to be from the perspective of an outsider." Yao Lu said, "Although he is trapped in the detention center, he still enjoys suffering. Although he is abused by the people in the detention center, he can still see the remaining humanity behind these people. Christmas On that day, everyone seemed to be temporarily redeemed and relieved, they forgot that they were enemies to each other, and enjoyed the joy of the festival to the fullest on this day."

"War is the original sin!" Lin Shen said in a deep voice, "The truth, goodness and beauty in human nature no longer exist under the ravages of war, and what remains is only cruelty and killing. These evil roots are usually lurking in human nature, and are governed by laws and ethics. However, once we are in a war environment and there is no suppression, these bad roots of human nature will break out like a virus.”

"Even if it's like you and me," Lin Shen took a look at Yao Lu and said seriously, "I can't guarantee that in such a crazy environment, I will lose control and do things that break the moral bottom line. Human nature is too complicated !A lot of times, some things don’t make sense.”

"That's why the world still needs people like Lawrence." Yao Lu murmured, "He is like a sower who keeps spreading the seeds of truth, goodness and beauty. A modicum of hope!"

"Lu Lu, you are so amazing!" Lin Shen squeezed the soft flesh on Yao Lu's arm and boasted, "This movie is adapted from a British novel called "The Seed and the Sower". Just say something!"

Yao Lu was a little embarrassed, and whispered, "I, I'll just talk casually."

"Lulu..." Lin Shen called softly.

"Huh...?" Yao Lu responded.

"The Japanese officer Yonoi and the British non-commissioned officer Jack, um..." Lin Shen pondered for a while and asked, "Do you think they are love?"

Yao Lu blushed and stammered when he heard this, "No, I don't know, it's too, too obscure."

"Yo Yei...should like Jack very much." Lin Shen hugged Yao Lu and said, "He is a Japanese military officer who has been brainwashed by Bushido spirit, and the things he did for Jack have exceeded the limit he can accept. But he still did it. Even if Jack was executed in the end, he couldn’t turn the situation around, so he still wanted to keep Jack’s hair and prepare to take it back to his hometown to be buried with him in the future. He used his beliefs to express his love for Jack.”

"British non-commissioned officer Jack? Hmm..." Lin Shen smiled, "I also think it's very obscure. The act of his biological Noi, logically speaking, should be a way of expressing his liking for him. But the film interspersed with his childhood memories, Because he was an ostrich, he didn't rescue his younger brother who was being bullied, so he has always been worried about it. So he kissed Shinoi, maybe it was just to make up for his previous regrets and wanted to be a hero."

"Well, it seems to be like this." Yao Lu nodded.

"So..." Lin Shen kissed Yao Lu's hair and asked, "What between us?"

Yao Lu shrank in, and asked: "What between us...?

"It's just... um..." Lin Shen scratched Yao Lu's chest and said, "I just want to ask, Lu Lu, do you... like me?"

"I..." Yao Lu froze when Lin Shen asked.

For some reason, he suddenly recalled Lin Shen's emotional confession after kissing him in school, "Lu Lu, I like you, do you like me?"

At that time, Lin Shen said "I like you!" without hesitation, and then asked him "Do you like me?"

However, time has passed, although he and Lin Shen have been ambiguous for more than half a year, and Lin Shen has said many sweet words, but he has never said again: "Lu Lu, I like you!"

He thought of the boy named Xiaoxi again, it seemed that Lin Shen loved him very much, and then he remembered that Lin Shen said that there were many others...

Yao Lu closed his eyes, tried his best to drive away these annoying thoughts, then opened his eyes again, wringing his hands in embarrassment, not knowing how to answer.

Seeing Yao Lu like this, Lin Shen's heart suddenly sank.

No way!I've been like this with Lulu, is he still so hesitant about my feelings?

The movie was over, and there was silence in the living room. Lin Shen thought for a moment, and thought that while the atmosphere was good, why not...

"Lu Lu..." Lin Shen rolled over and half pressed on Yao Lu's body, looked into Yao Lu's eyes, and asked softly, "You... like me, don't you?"

Yao Lu stared blankly at Lin Shen, but said nothing.

Lin Shen finally couldn't bear it anymore, and leaned down to kiss Yao Lu's lips.

He is familiar with the road, and after some gentle and domineering operations, Yao Lu quickly surrendered.

Lin Shen felt that his next step was to pick up Yao Lu, walk into the bedroom, and put him on the bed. After this and that, he would give his great career of competing for the deer a perfect ending.

Before picking Yao Lu up in his arms, Lin Shen decided to say a few more words to scare him, lest he regret it inexplicably later.

At that time, he thought he had made a very wise decision, but many years later, after learning the truth from Yao Lu, he regretted the decision he made at that time!

"Lulu..." Lin Shen sucked Yao Lu's lips for a while, then let go and said, "No matter how it was before, I hope! You can fall in love with me again. The thing I asked you for before, I hope! I can get what I want today. I hope! You can completely belong to me. Don't worry! From now on, I will cherish you! Cherish you! Take pity on you!"

As a result, when Lin Shen finished speaking, Yao Lu's head "boomed"—exploded!

He didn't listen carefully to what Lin Shen was saying at all.

From the second time Lin Shen said "I hope!", the word "Xiaoxi" popped out of Yao Lu's head automatically, and immediately after Lin Shen said "I hope!" for the third time, Xiaoxi began to write in his There was a phantom in his mind, and when Lin Shen said "cherish you! Cherish you! Take pity on you!", Xiaoxi was already spinning and jumping in his mind!

Yao Lu pushed Lin Shen away and shouted, "I, I, I'm not ready yet!"

Lin Shen: "???"

Lin Shen was taken aback by Yao Lu's reaction as if he had faked his corpse.

He was pushed by Yao Lu so that one leg fell off the sofa, and then he struggled to prop himself up and asked stupidly: "Lu Lu, you, what's wrong with you?"

Yao Lu struggled and wanted to sit up, Lin Shen had no choice but to pull him up, sat aside and looked at him, frowning into a knot.

"I, I don't want to!" Yao Lu said incoherently, "I'm not ready yet! Don't, don't do this to me!"

Lin Shen said helplessly: "What's wrong with you? You just clearly..."

"I said I'm not ready!" Yao Lu suddenly broke down and shouted, "Don't force me! Lin Shen, don't force me!"

After a while, Yao Lu's eyes were red, and he looked at Lin Shen with tears in his eyes, and said aggrievedly, "Don't force me...Lin Shen..."

Seeing Yao Lu's heartbroken appearance, Lin Shen's heart softened immediately, he took him into his arms, patted his back to comfort him and said, "I won't force you, I won't force you, wait until you are ready, wait for you Ready, okay? Don't cry..."

Yao Lu took a few deep breaths, tried his best to stabilize his almost collapsed emotions, gently pushed Lin Shen away, put on his clothes slowly, and said, "I, I want to go home..."

Lin Shen: "..."

Yao Lu looked at Lin Shen with tears in his eyes, and begged softly, "Lin Shen, take me home..."

Lin Shen looked at Yao Lu for a long time, finally nodded and said, "Okay!"

So, after a while, Lin Shen drove his cruiser and sent Yao Lu back to the Tuanjie community.

"Ahahahaha!" Xu Ze held his phone in his hands, laughed until tears flowed, and said tremblingly, "So...your success...was broken...bankrupt...ahha Ha ha--!"

"Laugh! Laugh!" Lin Shen slumped on the boss chair in his office, with a numb face, and said, "When you die from laughing, someone will marry your wife, inherit your inheritance, and beat your baby... ...Oh no! Your baby hasn't been born yet, so you're laughing your ass off anyway!"

"Fuck you!" Xu Ze scolded with a smile, "What the hell are you talking about? Why is your mouth so bad! You deserve it! I wish you never eat this venison!"

"Hehe!" Lin Shen said expressionlessly, "I don't have any hope for eating venison anymore. You don't understand my current mood at all."

Xu Ze wiped his tears and asked, "How are you feeling now?"

Lin Shen said: "Xu Ze, do you still remember what I said before, I always feel that there is some kind of mysterious power interfering with Lu Lu's development?"

"Well, remember!" Xu Ze said.

"I take this back now!" Lin Shen said in a deep voice, "I don't think it's as simple as mysterious power. I now feel that Lulu and I, you, and other people in this world are all fake! We It doesn’t exist! We may be a piece of code, a program, or even, we are just characters in a novel!”

Xu Ze asked confusedly: "You, what do you mean? Why can't I understand?"

"That is to say, we are all fictitious!" Lin Shen said seriously, "We are fictitious! Fictitious! Our world is also fictitious! We are just created by someone who doesn't know what it is! Our every move , We are all programmed from birth to death! We are all manipulated by |!"

Xu Ze's face twitched when he heard it, and he cursed: "Damn! You, don't talk so scary, okay? You just haven't eaten meat. If you want to go crazy, you will go crazy! Why drag other people into the water?"

"Are you afraid?" Lin Shen suddenly sneered a few times, and said indifferently: "Are you afraid that this world is false? Are you afraid that everything about yourself will suddenly disappear? Are you afraid that your hard work is actually nonsense? Are you afraid that everything will be lost? Is it an established arrangement?"

Xu Ze was frightened by Lin Shen's dark tone, shuddered, and said, "Lin Shen, why do you think this way? Are you so crazy!"

"Because—for—!" Lin Shen said word by word, "Lulu and I have developed to the present, and every time we reach a critical point, we will, will, fail, fail! Every, one, time! This can't be a coincidence ! This is simply a conspiracy! This is arranged!"

Xu Ze was taken aback by Lin Shen's nagging tone. Suddenly, a flash of light flashed in his head, and he asked, "Hey? Let me ask you, have you watched "The Matrix"?"

"Ah?" Lin Shen was stunned. He didn't expect Xu Ze to suddenly ask a question that couldn't be reached, so he asked, "What is it? What are you talking about?"

"I said!" Xu Ze raised his voice and asked, "Have you watched "The Matrix" before?"

"Oh..." Lin Shen looked at the computer on the desk in a daze, his mind ran slowly for a while, and said, "I've read it, I've finished reading all three, why do you ask this?"

"You have been brainwashed by "The Matrix", Lin Shen!" Xu Ze said seriously, "The crazy words you just said, and your crazy ideas, aren't they the plots in "The Matrix"? Think about it carefully ?”

Lin Shen squinted his eyes and thought about it, nodded and said, "It seems to be about the same..."

"That's why!" Xu Ze slapped his thigh and said, "It's because you were disturbed by the movie that you came up with so many scary thoughts. The fact is, you're just unlucky. You and your little Lulu The emotional journey is such a bumpy one!"

"Really? It's just rough?" Lin Shen looked at the computer and asked in a daze.

"Yes, yes!" Xu Ze quickly assured, "That's it! Don't think so much, your immediate task is to think carefully about how to deal with your little Lulu."

Lin Shen let out a "hmm".

Xu Ze continued to encourage: "Keep going! If you fail this time, try again next time! Or you can do something with him to enhance your relationship. Didn't he say he's not ready? Push him again One! Invite him to the house and create some atmosphere, you will succeed one time, right? The mysterious power you mentioned, it is impossible to monitor you 24 hours a day, right? "

When Lin Shen heard what Xu Ze said, he sighed heavily, and said, "Oh! Don't mention it! You don't know, the mysterious power doesn't monitor me anymore, so I just changed the settings!"

"What?" Xu Ze asked suspiciously, "What do you mean? What do you mean by changing the settings?"

Lin Shen said weakly: "A few days after watching the film, Lu Lu told me that his father bought a rehabilitation course for patients with thrombosis, and he would go to the hospital for rehabilitation every Saturday and Sunday. , I have to accompany him to do rehabilitation together, in a short time, I can't invite him to my home on weekends."

Xu Ze twitched and stammered, "Yes, is there such a wicked way? This, is it so cruel?"

"Well!" Lin Shen said wearily, "That's why I came up with those thoughts just now! I really feel that I seem to be manipulated by |, what should I do? Xu Ze!"

"Lin Shen, have you seriously thought about it..." Xu Ze paused for a moment, thought about his words, and continued: "The relationship between you and Yao Lu may not be due to the unnatural forces you mentioned. lead to failure after failure?"

"Ah?" Lin Shen asked in confusion, "What do you mean? What could it be?"

"Have you ever thought about..." Xu Ze said, "Is there any misunderstanding between you and Yao Lu? Why did he reject you? What is the real reason?"

"Didn't he say he wasn't ready?" Lin Shen said helplessly.

Xu Ze said seriously: "That's also possible, because there is no clear relationship between you two, he may be worried about this!"

"How can I be more clear?" Lin Shen sneered, "I've been ambiguous for more than half a year, hugging and kissing, and even like that, the only difference is that, isn't it clear enough? Isn't this a boyfriend? ?”

"That's not necessarily true!" Xu Ze said, "Didn't you and that Xiaoxi do all these things? Didn't you also say that he is not your real boyfriend?"

"Uh..." Lin Shen was left speechless by Xu Ze's question. After thinking for a while, he argued, "That's different! Xiao Xi and I never said that I like him! But I really like Lu Lu! "

"Then did you tell Yao Lu clearly that you really like him?" Xu Ze asked.

"Uh..." Lin Shen was at a loss for words, and said with a guilty conscience, "It seems...that I never said that."

"Why?" Xu Ze asked puzzledly, "Why didn't you just tell him that you like him? Want to have sex with him?"

"I... um..." Lin Shen raised his head and thought for a while, and said, "I want to wait until after I hit base, that is, afterward, when I hold him, and then say that I like you, I love you, and be my boyfriend." .”

Xu Ze shuddered after hearing Lin Shen's nasty words, and said, "Why now? Why do we have to wait...uh...after that?"

"I..." Lin Shen said embarrassedly: "I have a little shadow, I'm afraid... I'm afraid of being slapped in the face again, I'm afraid of being rejected! I think if I can get his man, then I will pinch the snail with my index finger, Only when I am sure of his feelings for me can I confess my feelings without fear!"

"I really don't understand you guys!" Xu Ze sneered, "Didn't you say that calcium is very refreshing? They are all old men, why are they more indecisive than girls! They still have ink stains!"

"Don't attack me personally!" Lin Shen said coldly.

"Lin Shen! That's what you think. Have you thought about it from Yao Lu's point of view?" Xu Ze asked, "Maybe he is just the opposite of you? You want to get on the bus first and then make up for the ticket. Maybe he is Hope to buy the ticket first, and then get on the bus in a down-to-earth manner?"

When Lin Shen heard Xu Ze say this, he immediately fell into deep thought. After a long time, until Xu Ze almost fell asleep, Lin Shen said slowly: "What you said has some truth... No! It makes a lot of sense I still have to muster up the courage to formally confess my love to him first, and then take him into my pocket!"

"That's right!" Xu Ze smiled, "Then you should hurry up and plan to confess your love!"

"No, don't worry!" Lin Shen thought for a while and said, "I don't watch casually, I plan to arrange a watch on Christmas Day. I just take advantage of this time to perform well and strengthen the relationship between me and him. It also made him trust me more."

Xu Ze complained: "Damn it! There are still more than three months until Christmas! Where did you go? It's been too long, isn't it?"

"Soon!" Lin Shen said seriously, "I've survived seven years, so three months are nothing!"

Xu Ze said speechlessly: "Fine, do as you please! It's not good for others to intervene too much in emotional matters."

Lin Shen suddenly thought of something again, and asked Xu Ze with a smile: "Hey, you said, on Christmas Day, is the whole Santa Claus costume okay?"

"What are you doing?" Xu Ze asked in bewilderment.

"I invited him to my house and dressed him as Santa Claus." When Lin Shen said this, he first imagined in his head, and then said with a smirk: "Then I will confess to him, and when he is moved, I will say time." It's here! Santa Claus is going to deliver gifts to the children!"

"What? I don't understand!" Xu Ze was at a loss.

"How does Santa Claus go out?" Lin Shen laughed a few times, "Hey hey hey" and said, "Going out on a deer! So what about the deer, let me ride it! Otherwise, the children will not have any presents." , so pitiful!"

Xu Ze almost fainted when he heard the words, and stammered: "This, this is too nonsense! You are so obscene!"

"I'm called romantic, not obscene!" Lin Shen argued.

Xu Ze yelled: "It's just obscene, okay? Besides, Santa Claus is driving a deer cart, so he doesn't go out on a deer! You need to figure it out!"

Lin Shen said indifferently: "There is not much difference, almost!"

The corner of Xu Ze's mouth twitched and said, "You can do whatever you want, I can't control you, as long as you think you can."

"Well, I'll figure it out myself." Lin Shen said, "Damn! I won't talk to you anymore. I haven't read a pile of accounts yet. Hang up!"

"Okay, let's hang up..." Xu Ze said.

Lin Shen immediately hung up the phone.

Xu Ze rubbed his temples and sat on the chair in the office to rest for a while, feeling his mouth was dry and his head twitching after talking with Lin Shen for so long.

He picked up the teacup, went to the water dispenser to pour a cup of boiling water, then walked out of the office, wandering in the company aisle, just in time to see Yao Lu coming out of the document department with a stack of documents.

When Yao Lu saw Xu Ze, he smiled at him, and Xu Ze smiled back at him, then watched Yao Lu enter the accounting room after seeing his back.

Holding the cup, Xu Ze stared straight at the air in front of him, inexplicably flashed in his head, Lin Shen in a red Santa costume, riding a deer with a human face and a deer body under his crotch, and Yao Yao with a human face. The delicate and pretty face of the deer.

Xu Ze licked his lips first, then shuddered again, then returned to his office with his teacup in hand.