ghost lights

What is this called!Li Shang saw himself getting further and further away from the river, his hands and feet were out of control at all, Gu Chi was determined to die, Li Shang could only experience the feeling of drowning himself.

Before he completely lost consciousness, he saw Gu Chi's brief life revolving around.

A girl with a sweet smile, a father who often drinks alcohol and domestic violence, a mother who washes her face with tears all day long, a girl who persuades her parents to stop fighting, a girl who committed suicide by cutting her wrists, a mother who went crazy, and a father who regrets.

This is Gu Chi's memory, but it seems to be his memory too, Li Shang can no longer tell who he is, maybe he is Gu Chi, maybe he is just Li Shang.

Li Tang

I'm just an ordinary teenager from the countryside. When I was a child, I often fell on my head and forgot a lot of things.Others say that the more you hit your head, the more stupid you are, but I don't think this sentence fits with me. I seem to be smarter.

Since I was seven years old, I have never been in a hurry when encountering any emergencies, because it is useless to be anxious, it is better to think about the countermeasures.Seeing those junior high school knowledge, I just feel that it is all pediatrics, I seem to have learned it before, so I choose to stay in the worst class, just want to have more time to play, and don't want to be too strict with the teacher.

Ah, life is so boring. Everything is so simple. Seeing that other people can't even do such a simple thing, I am very confused. Why do I seem to know everything?why am i so calmIs this the so-called old age?

People are unpredictable, but I understand it at a glance. I will do the right thing at the right time. Not only will I not be annoying, but I will also get along well with everyone.

The only accident was Gu Chi, and it couldn't be called an accident. It seemed that this should be the ending.In short, he died and jumped into the river right under my nose. After he jumped down, I calmly took out my mobile phone and called emergency services. Finally, I found a dead body.

Why jump into the river?Why choose death?Is it so hard to live?Although I often think about what is the meaning of people living so busy every day; although I don't know what is the purpose of living, but death is really a terrible thing.

I don't understand, then live until the day I understand, maybe that day will never come, but I don't want to give up, because any life, there is always a reason for its existence, just like every green leaf, every drop of water, every A river can give birth to a life, and we must also have things that are valuable to our own existence within our own capabilities.

Gu Yunan and I were in the same class since high school. We were not very close at that time. One day I passed by the alley outside the school and saw a group of people surrounding Gu Yunan in the alley. Gu Yunan saw me and he ignored me. , one person against five people, 15 minutes, Gu Yunan was defeated in the end, but it also caused the five people to take a lot of punches.

After the five people left, I walked over, helped him up, and asked him if he wanted to go to the hospital, and he shook his head.At that time, I thought he was really handsome. If it was me, I would definitely not even dare to fight back.

He asked me if I was afraid, and I said I was afraid, but it was useless to be afraid.He smiled, patted my head, and said that my grandfather is covering you.I also laughed, I said I would not fight, he said I do not need to participate in their fights.

He really treats me like a little sheep and protects me firmly under his wings, but I think I’m actually a wolf in sheep’s clothing. It’s really uncomfortable to eat grass every day. I think this kind of thinking is very strange. I also knew that my personality was a bit strange, but I couldn't help myself to think about it at a deeper level.

In fact, I also know that a rich second generation like Gu Yun'an will not really take me seriously. The reason why he chooses to be friends with me is because of my behavior and my personality is very similar to his temper, but in fact I can adjust my personality according to the different people I face, so for anyone, I can match their temper, but Gu Yun'an is very strong, he doesn't allow me to get close to other people, I become his everything I live in his shadow all the time, and he isolates me from communicating with other people, which makes me feel very constrained.But I couldn't resist, mainly because I couldn't beat him, so I simply endured it for two years, and maybe I would be free when I got to university.

But Gu Chi disrupted my plan.I have always felt that Gu Chi's death has a lot to do with me. During my third year of high school, I was in a trance and my grades plummeted. I only got better a month before the college entrance examination. College missed out.

But fortunately, Gu Yunan is not in the same university as me.But unfortunately, one of my roommates is very similar to Gu Yunan. I was afraid that I would become someone else’s appendage again, so I started to alienate them. Let’s try to live alone. After trying it, I found that it is also quite good. Traveling alone is also a wonderful enjoyment.

After graduation, I worked for two years and had some savings. My father persuaded me to get married, but I had no idea about it. In the end, my father kicked me out of the house. Now I am completely free.

In fact, adopting a child is an idea I had a long time ago, and it can be considered as a contribution to society.Moreover, this child is very obedient and sensible, with the sense of maturity I had when I was a teenager, so I recognized him at a glance.

In fact, I also have a little selfishness. I think it would be great if we could just be together like this and live as two people all the time.But children always have their own ideas. After hearing that he has a girlfriend, I almost couldn't control myself, but it is impossible for me to watch him show affection with other women, so I just able to drive him away.

Life is really a very complicated subject, and some people can't complete it in their whole life. Looking back, most of them are just random doodles, and few of them can truly become masterpieces.

Extra episode

"So, do you want to go home with me?" A gentle voice sounded in front of Li Shang.

Li Shang slowly opened his eyes, and in front of him was the young Li Tang.

Surrounded by the dean and secretary of the orphanage, this is in the dean's office?

Outside the window, the birds were sitting on the branches and chirping, and the sunlight fell on the floor through the glass. The dean looked at him kindly, and the three of them were waiting for his answer.

Li Shang looked at Li Tang without looking sideways, at the man who had come back from the dead, he threw himself into Li Tang's arms and hugged him tightly.

"I am willing!"