magical boy

I can't remember the first time in my life that I've come to realize how useless I am.

My father and mother died in front of me, and my sister was busy with their funeral. I was at a loss and followed along in a daze. It can be said that I was young and incompetent; but when Ruan Jue and the others died, I was already capable. But I am still helpless, and even hastened their death, so what is it?Are you careless?And that time with Yun Shu, I was even more helpless against the devil, even if it could be said that the enemy was too strong... What about this time?When they needed help...why didn't I help?what am i doing

Miao Siyu had already wiped away her tears and stood up, the tears washed away the blood on her face, she looked very pale.She probably saw my self-blame, and said, "I don't blame you. You will die if you come. If you didn't come, at least we can rely on each other."

I'm really useless.Miao Siyu summed it up correctly.

Miao Siyu adjusted her state very quickly. She moved a bit, but her expression became cold, and her tone was the same: "Stop thinking about it, we still have a lot to do."

Both of us are low-energy in emergency response. After discussing for a while, we came up with how to arrange the scene and make up a reasonable accident plot. After the plan was finalized, we were busy for a long time to put it into practice.No tricks could save the two of us Xiaobai. It was already late at night after the first wave of work. Miao Siyu called home and school, and I also took out my mobile phone to ask for leave.

I don't have the teacher's mobile phone number, so I had to use my sister's account to log in to the parent group to ask for leave. The leave request is very simple: "Teacher, my sister died. I want to ask for leave. Huaxia."

Turn on the flow, send, turn off the flow, and it will be done soon.I hastily logged out of the account, not daring to read the leave note I sent.Some things, it feels different to recognize its authenticity, to believe it to be true, to write it down, to confirm it with your own mouth, and to see yourself admitting it again.Authentic does not mean acceptance.

Looking at Miao Siyu who was still on the phone next to me, I thought for a while, turned on the phone again, and sent a message to Song Daoxi: "I can't come to class tomorrow again. (⌒▽⌒)"

"Is there another task?" He replied quickly.

"Yes. (ì_í)"

"Stay safe dear. /Touch your head"

My nose was sore, I wanted to cry and laugh at the same time, I wiped my eyes and replied: "Well, what! (/ω＼)"

After a while, he asked me again: "Can't you come all day tomorrow?"

I looked at Miao Siyu, she frowned and said to the phone: "It's really difficult." So I replied: "I can't tell..._(:з"∠)_"

He said: "That's it...Actually, I originally planned to apply with you tomorrow, but I changed my mind this afternoon. I was afraid that you would say no when I asked if you were there. Atmosphere, I might have to give up. / Cover your mouth and laugh"

It is now late at night, the time when school students lie in bed and are still awake, thinking about life over and over again.I imagined his expression of determination to confess, and wanted to laugh, but I still saw the possible meaning in his words, and I was a little nervous, and asked, "So what do you think?"

"We must cherish fate." He answered very standardly without any regrets. I was relieved, and he said again: "Hey, where is your emoji?"

Miao Siyu hung up the phone and looked at me. She was in a hurry and didn't have time to type the emoji. She was about to send a few messages to her. When I sensed her gaze, I hurriedly said goodbye to him: "Ah, the mission has started, let's chat!"

Miao Siyu's gaze was like a torch.

In the middle of the night, we went home to sleep.There are many things to do, but I can't rush them. Besides, I didn't eat dinner, and my lunch was just a bowl of noodles. I was almost hungry like a reptile.The driver of Miao Siyu's house dropped me off and took me downstairs. I went upstairs, ransacked the refrigerator, washed and changed into pajamas, and collapsed on the bed.

The night was very quiet, so quiet that I panicked.In the past, when my sister was at home, she seemed to be so quiet, and I couldn’t hear her voice from my position, unless she was sleepwalking and singing opera two; but today I feel different.I was still a little sleepy at first, but I was full and energetic, and coupled with this lifeless night, I actually regained the feeling of playing "Midnight Bell" at night when I was a child.

In addition to being horrified, I couldn't suppress the desperate sadness in my heart-my sister died, and the last person in the world who was related to me by blood, and another person who treated me better than my own sister, died.

But this is the best result I know so far. Two options are in front of me, to establish a relationship with Song Daoxi, or to live and die with them. In fact, the latter does not exist.On the one hand, it is because the matter is a foregone conclusion, and on the other hand, if their time difference is erased, I choose the latter... I will either die or watch the happiness in my hand go away.

...but...but...how can there be a difference between right and wrong in this kind of thing!

A long night with only one person.

At 01:30 in the morning, I opened the escape window on the bedroom pane, pushed through the glass and jumped.

No, I didn't intend to jump off the building. I changed into a small skirt, so I won't die.

After landing less than three meters, I grabbed the window sill, stood on the outer window sill with my toes, carefully pushed open the unfastened glass window, took off the lock with the key on the escape window, opened the curtain, and got in. The above-mentioned items were returned one by one, and they landed silently and perfectly, as if they were here to steal something.Although in a sense, I can also be regarded as stealing "things".

The tenth hour after confirming the relationship, I got into my boyfriend's bed.

The moment I hugged him from behind, I felt peace of mind, but another kind of panic started again. I wanted to turn around and run away, both because I was ashamed of my behavior of disturbing others' peace of mind, and because I was worried that he would...

Song Daoxi was awakened by me, I only had time to cover his mouth to prevent him from making a sound, his whole body was rolled around by his turning over, almost fell to the ground, fortunately he reacted in time and pulled me back up.

I understand his shock. He was hugged by a purple-haired killer in the middle of the night. He didn't get scared to death because of his good psychological quality.

After such a toss, my posture and distance with him were very ambiguous, not to mention that he was only wearing a plaid shirt and a pair of underwear, and the shirt was still mostly unbuttoned.

I:(////)

Instead, he calmed down first, went down and locked the door, walked back buttoned up, and said softly, "Mission done?"

I sat up and moved my seat to him: "It's over for now."

"Do you want to continue tomorrow?" He sat next to me and naturally put his arms around my shoulders. The cool air from the air conditioner and his body temperature made him feel very comfortable.I said yes……"

"Then you're not sleeping yet? What time is it?" He rubbed my hair and asked with concern.

I shook my head and said, "I can't sleep..."

"What's wrong?" He noticed my depression.

I looked at him, debating for a moment whether to tell him what happened.I think I need to talk about it, but I'm afraid it's not good to tell him the whole story. After all, if we really want to talk about it, it should be him who prevented me from saving my sister and the others.I don't want him to think that way, he was right to stop me from going to my death.

I told him a lie. I said that my sister and Zhu Cijing disappeared at noon, and I only received the news in the evening. I went to hunt the devil at night, but failed. The discussion will continue tomorrow.

"Is there still time tomorrow?" he asked.

I said, "Today—no, it was already too late last night. We were going to collect the corpse. For ordinary people, the domain can only suck in the soul, but the magic girl sucks in the whole thing." Fake, this is my highest level, there is no way, but fortunately he believes it.

We didn't fall asleep that day, although there was no impure relationship, we just lay down and covered the quilt and chatted, or stared at each other through the light coming in through the cracks in the curtains and my magic special effect light.After he said a few times that I was cute in a skirt, I finally changed back to my original shape in embarrassment, and asked him angrily if I wasn't cute without a skirt.

The light weakened as I returned to the original shape, and I could hardly see his face clearly, so I moved closer, but inadvertently found that his eyes were a little... lonely?I asked him: "What's wrong?"

"……what?"

I said, "Look at how disappointed you are."

He lightly stroked my cheek with his fingertips, and said, "It's just that I haven't adapted to the darkness."

After a while, he said again: "Maybe I'm really a little disappointed... I was just thinking about the time before, when you confessed to me. Before that, no one showed affection for me."

"How could it be?" I was surprised, "You are such an excellent person..."

He smiled and said: "Human beings always pay so much attention to appearance and interests, or believe in those innate feelings."

It took me a few seconds to understand what he said: his so-called good feelings should only refer to love.

He also said: "If you only look at the inside, everything should have its lovable aspects... Hey, if you and the devil can find each other's good sides, won't you be able to live in harmony?"

I thought about it, and found it impossible. There are always various reasons for such a thing as an old enemy, but this is a good wish.I jokingly said: "It can be decided by preference. If we appreciate each other, then we may have to cry and fight to the death."

Song Daoxi nodded and said it made sense.