The queen's heart is unpredictable

I like that woman.

But if you ask me why I like her, I can't answer at all.

Like, maybe it's a kind of appreciation, maybe it's a habit, maybe...

The woman named Duanmuyu, from the moment I knew her, I knew clearly that her name had been deeply engraved in my heart.

I want to marry her!

But before marrying her, I must have an identity worthy of her.

She loves martial arts, so I will abandon literature and follow martial arts.

I worked hard, I worked hard, I worked hard, I worked hard to look good in the barracks.

But who would have thought that on the day I was named a general, she would leave the capital without a word.

Without even saying goodbye, he disappeared without a sound.

Aren't we friends?

very good friend...

Even if Lu Xianger's sudden entry into the palace hurt her heart, why didn't she come to say goodbye to me when she left?

I don't know why, and I don't care anymore.

Because I just want to know if she is doing well, I just want to know if she is still happy, know...

And I don't know anything.

Without her, Kyoto is like a dead city.

The memories between us are written everywhere, but I can no longer find the woman in the memories.

I want to go to her, but my father won't let me.

Because I have been the only member of the Qi family who has joined the military for so many years, they hope to help them consolidate the power of the family.

I think about it, maybe she will come back, if I go too, it would be bad to miss it.

So I waited and waited day after day.

However, she still didn't come back.

Later, King Shunda came to the capital to have an audience. By the way, he also brought his favorite daughter, Princess Sailuo, intending to present him to the emperor.

But at that time, the emperor doted on Lu Xiang'er, and he didn't want to add new concubines to the palace, so he intended to betroth Princess Sero to a young and promising minister.

And the funny thing is, I'm one of them.

I don't want to marry anyone else, not anyone other than Duanmu Yu!

But my father was seriously ill and said that I had to consider for the family, and at this moment, I heard the news about Duanmu Yu's death.

she died?

I do not believe!

I'm going to find her, no matter if it's life or death, I'm going to prove it.

But who knew that when I left, I ran into Sero who also secretly left Kyoto.

Maybe fate was playing tricks on me. I sent Sai Luo back to Kyoto, and then I stayed in Kyoto.

Sai Luo is a very good girl, innocent and bold, and there are many shadows of Duanmu Yu in her body.

But she is not Duanmu Yu, never will be.

So I won't marry her, no!No--

My father threatened with death, saying that since Princess Sero has taken a fancy to me, it is my blessing, I cannot be selfish, I have to consider for the family, and I have to take on my responsibilities.

What are my responsibilities?

Everything I did was just for her alone!

But she is no longer here, so whether I persist or not is actually meaningless.What's more, there are a bunch of people threatening me with their own lives in front of me.

This is the so-called family...

Heh, it's kind of ridiculous.

But after all, I fulfilled those people's wishes and married Princess Sero.

It's just that after getting married, there was war in the frontier, so I asked for the holy order and went directly to the far other side.

Avoid everything here, avoid the breathless Qi family, avoid Se Luo, and avoid memories.

I am a coward!

I am certain……

And the only thing that made me feel guilty was Cerro.

She is innocent, but why am I not.

In life, everyone has everyone's suffering, and few people can not care about anything, at least... I can't.

Later, news suddenly came from the palace that Duanmu Yu had returned to the palace!

This is probably the biggest joke God ever made with me!

I wanted to go back, I wanted to go back and take a look, but when I thought that I was already married and had no right to stand by her side, I retreated again.

I wrote her a letter, sent it, and got no reply.

I think she hates me.

Hate me for not looking for her, hate me for marrying Sai Luo, hate me for being a coward...

And I am indeed a coward!

I felt that I was ashamed to see her, so I declined the emperor's invitation to return to Beijing time and time again.

Until later when I heard that she was proclaimed emperor, I thought that my responsibility in this life is to protect her and guard this territory.So I worked harder to drive away those provocative people and guard here.

Not for the big call, just for her.

During this period, she sent word several times, saying that she hoped that I would return to Beijing.

It's just that the words were quite official, so I felt that it was not what she had in mind, so I rejected them all.

Until that day, I was hurt, and in addition to receiving the Holy Will, I also received a letter from her.

There are only a few words in the letter——

I need you, come back soon.

At that moment, I knew that I had to go back.

When I went back, I saw her again.

Close at hand, but feel thousands of miles apart.

I want her to forgive me, but I don't know where to start.

And I also clearly know that perhaps the relationship between us, from the moment Lu Xianger entered the palace, the friendship between the three of us was broken, and the relationship between me and her was also reduced to ashes.

She is such a stubborn and strong person, I can't change her, she is a person I can only watch from afar.

I don't ask for her forgiveness anymore, I silently do everything I can for her, and that's enough.

The long-standing guilt and anxiety finally calmed down.

Only then did I realize that everything was so simple.

There is no way to recover the past, everything can only move forward, and this time when I return to Kyoto, I see Cerro again.

She has matured and aged a lot.

Looking at her silent company, I know that I owe her too much.

I should do something for her, at least give her a home.

Only then did I realize that letting go is actually quite simple.