Ukiyo heave

As soon as Nian Keqing finished his so-called "confinement", he went to Yuchisu with the quilt in his arms, saying that he didn't want to stay in his room, so he wanted to stay here for a few days.

Nian Queqing was still a small child, he hugged the quilt until his hands barely touched each other, Yuchisu saw that he was struggling, so he stretched out his hand to take it for him, and put it on his bed.Seeing his permission, Nian Queqing happily jumped into the room, turned around and closed the door.

At the age of 11, he is a precocious and overly shady bird to others, but he looks like a child here at Yuchisu.

Yuchi Su's room was not big, and it was supposed to sleep alone, but after adding a pillow and a quilt, it seemed extremely cramped.But he didn't pay much attention to it, and took a drink from the porcelain cup on the table, and then asked Nian Queqing, "How are you these days?"

Nian Queqing snorted, and said unconvinced: "Let's do it, there's no punishment anyway, it's just boring in the room."——I really don't know what they think. That Jiang Dongchen from the Jiang family was originally I didn't push it."

Yu Chisu nodded and said, "That's true...but Queqing, it's not right for you to do this."

Nian Queqing looked at Yuchisu: "Are you even going to blame me?"

Yu Chisu said: "I'm not blaming you, the fourth son of the Jiang family has nothing to do with you. Even if the side master often compares him with you, it has nothing to do with him. - Besides, I think his temperament is also considered Gentle, if you lead someone to look on coldly like this, no matter whether it is to the body or the heart, he must be very embarrassed..."

"Haven't everyone been rescued by Nian Quesheng?" Nian Queqing curled his lips, "It's not dead, what does it have to do with me?"

Yuchisu didn't speak, he put the porcelain cup back on the table, and sat down to copy the text.

After being silent for a long time, Nian Queqing finally bowed his head and said, "Okay, Su, it's my fault."

His tone was quite sincere, Yu Chisu turned his head to look at him, then handed over a peeled tangerine, and went back to copying his book: "I went to pick up the book from the owner this morning, and the owner told me that Mr. Jiang's situation is not very good now. Compared with before, he is more silent. Since he woke up, he sat in the house and refused to go out. When Jiang Zongzhu and his wife went to visit him together, he was so calm that he was almost indifferent."

Nian Queqing said, "So serious?"

Yuchisu only nodded, but Nian Keqing calmed down and said that he deserved it.

Then he said meaninglessly: "I don't think he knows who saved him, so he and Nian Quesheng don't recognize each other?"

Yuchi Su said: "It should be."

Nian Queqing said: "This is the best, lest the two of them get together and cause me unnecessary trouble."

Yuchisu was silent again, but Nian Qing saw that he was not happy with what he said, so he changed his words casually: "But there is indeed something wrong with me. ——By the way, Su, are you going to go out to practice next year?"

Yuchi Su said: "No, I have already applied to the Patriarch."

Nian Qing smiled: "That's the best, just wait until I'm 17 and stay with me, and then find a place to live outside, I don't want to come back."

The pen in Yuchisu's hand paused slightly, and he frowned slightly, noncommittal.

Seeing this, Nian Queqing pursed his lips and said, "Don't you want to?... really want to stay at Nian's house?"

Yuchi said: "No." Then he changed the subject and said, "You are wearing thin clothes today, it's almost the end of the year, don't catch the cold."

Nian Queqing looked down at himself, thinking that he wasn't very thin, then he remembered something else and asked, "Where is Nian Quesheng at this moment?"

Yuchi said: "The confinement room of Shuzhi Building."

Nian Qing let out a sigh, and said meaninglessly: "That day will be sad, he deserves it."

The 11-year-old child has a clear understanding of himself. He suddenly turned to Yuchisu with a serious look, and then turned to say with pride: "But I did it? Then I am not very bad."

Yuchisu seemed to understand himself better than Nian Queqing, he didn't look back when he heard the words, he just said: "You are not bad."

It was the envy and hatred that invaded from the body to the bones, even though the viciousness was not destroyed, the heart was clear.

But clear and clear, he is the most evil person, with the purest heart.

Nian Queqing waved his hand: "You don't have to comfort me. Others say I'm arrogant and stubborn. That's just what I am—you don't mind it."

After speaking, he crouched beside Yuchisu with a smile, and asked curiously, "What are you copying?"

Yuchi said: "Some scriptures were given to me by the Patriarch."

Nian Queqing clasped his hands, tilted his head to Yuchisu's side: "Uncle, it's true, I won't let you stop when it's almost Chinese New Year."

Yuchisu gave him a reproachful look: "The owner of the family trusts me, and I just use it to pass the time to practice calligraphy."

Nian saw clearly that he was writing, stroke by stroke, very vigorous.

Yuchisu was serious about his work, and when he was absorbed in writing, he forgot the time. When he stopped writing and found that it was completely dark, Nian Queqing had already fallen asleep on the table.

Yuchisu put down his pen, gently moved the chair away, bent down to hug Nian Queqing, and said softly, "Go to bed and sleep."

Nian Qingqing opened his eyes and exhaled a long breath.

After removing his shoes and clothes, Yuchisu went out of the room to wash up briefly, and when he returned to the room, Nian Queqing had almost covered the entire bed.

Feeling helpless, Yuchisu stepped forward and patted Nian Queqing's right shoulder lightly, coaxing: "Nuo Nuo?"

Ke Nian shook his head.

Yuchisu had no choice but to carry him into the bed again, wrapped his restless limbs tightly with a quilt, and lay back in his own quilt, and turned off the light.

But he thought it was probably useless, but Nian Qing was too crowded, and he couldn't just move it once and for all.

Nian Queqing had a dream and started to toss and turn in the middle of the night.Yuchisu had been woken up by him a long time ago, seeing that he seemed to be dreaming, he patted him on the back to comfort him. ——I wanted to reassure him, but he woke up after this slap.He turned sideways and opened his eyes to look at Yuchisu, his eyes were black and angry.Waking up from a big dream, the pupils have not yet focused.

There was still panic in his eyes, he suddenly felt relieved when he saw Yu Chisu, he opened his mouth, but his voice became hoarse, and he didn't speak.

Yuchisu thought he was sick, so he touched his forehead, but it wasn't hot.Then he said softly, "Did you have a nightmare?"

Nian Queqing shook his head, nodded again, took a long time before grabbing Yuchisu's hand, and whispered, "I dreamed about my elder brother."

Nian Queqing is very similar to Nian Quesheng, walking in the sunshine is always proud and fearless.But the night will wash away all their protective colors, revealing their inner softness.

Yuchisu felt his uneasiness, hesitantly took him into his arms, patted his back lightly, and said softly: "Don't be afraid."

He didn't need to ask, he didn't need to ask what dream he had, and he didn't need to ask what he was afraid of, if he wanted to say it, he would say it himself.

So after a long time, Nian Queqing murmured to himself: "A Su..."

Yuchi said, "Yes."

Nian Queqing said: "Do you still remember that...just, the time when he was locked up in the old warehouse of Baiyue Ancestral Hall?"

Yu Chisu nodded and said, "I remember."

Nian Queqing sighed: "I dreamed of that." After sighing, he murmured, "I... Am I... Shouldn't..."

Yu Chisu didn't speak, just patted him on the back lightly.

In such a sad atmosphere, Yu Chisu suddenly thought inappropriately, hey, it doesn't seem to be crowded if you hold it.

Nian Keqing didn't hear his reply, so he sniffed and bit his lip.

That time, Shi Nian Sheng was thought by Nian Fengling for stealing the secret scriptures, so he was beaten with a spiritual whip, and then thrown directly into the confinement room.

Nian Quesheng naturally wouldn't steal that. ——It's the year but it's clear.

I don't know what kind of state of mind he has, and he looks around for the secret books of the Nian family, maybe because he wants to understand the secretive astrology, but forgets that he is still a child who can just read the whole word.

But when Nian Fengling found that the secret scripture was lost, Nian Quesheng was the first thing he looked for. ——He went with a whip, and didn't listen to him distinguishing a word.At that time, however, Nian Sheng hadn't healed from the injury he had suffered the previous time, so he had trouble moving and couldn't hide.After being beaten, he was thrown into a confinement room.It was really thrown, and there was a muffled sound when his body hit the ground. He lost his mind and couldn't make a sound.Lying in the middle of the confinement room and watching them close the door, the sunlight in the room disappeared instantly and darkness shrouded in darkness.

But Nian Fengling believes that Nian Quqing only needs one sentence from him: "I can't understand even if I took that."

After Nian Fengling left, Nian Quqing hid the book in Nian Qusheng's room, and his heart was calm, as if nothing had happened.

After the confinement period expires in a few days, Nian Fengling asks the servants to go and open the door of the confinement room, and let him climb out by himself without worrying about anything else.Nian Queqing stopped the little servant halfway: "Give me the key, I'll go."

It doesn't matter who you give it to, anyway, it's just a year but a promotion.The servant told Nian to be careful and gave him the key.

Nian Keqing has been bad since he was a child, and he wanted to see him being tortured so badly and still speak hard, so he had better quarrel with himself and show more rebelliousness.

ha.What could be more enjoyable than watching people who are hundreds of times better than yourself struggling and resisting for a piece of dignity.

But when Nian Queqing opened the door, he didn't see the rebellious Nian Quesheng.He wasn't standing or sitting, and he wasn't sarcastically speaking to himself.He was still lying where he had been dropped, motionless.

He remained motionless, and when the sun shone into the darkness, the room was filled with light. People who stayed in the darkness for too long would subconsciously raise their hands to cover it, but he didn't.

He was indifferent, lying in the middle of the confinement room, lifeless.

Nian Queqing panicked at the time, dropped the key and ran towards him.

——He believed in his elder brother too much. He thought that he would never be defeated, that he would always be frivolous and rebellious, that even though he suffered so much, he would not be repelled by life one step. ——Nian Queqing hated him, but he never wanted him to die.

That's Nian Queqing's elder brother. When they were young, they shared a piece of sugar cake and slept in the same bed.

He ran over and squatted beside Nian Quesheng, reaching out to check his breathing and body temperature.Nian Butsheng didn't open his eyes or move, but he opened his mouth slowly for a long time, his voice was so hoarse that he didn't look like a teenager.Only said: "Not dead."

not dead.

Two words, lifeless, depressed and ashamed.

Nian Queqing's eyes suddenly became hot, he couldn't hide his tears and was afraid of being seen, so he took a step back and wiped his eyes, and said in a resentful tone, "I don't care if you die or not."

But Nian said: "I'm not talking to you.—You can go."

He didn't want to talk to people, he was thinking, why am I not dead yet.

They've already lived like this, why haven't they died yet?

Nian Queqing was dreaming of this passage, and after thinking about it now, he shed tears unconsciously.

11 years old, with little experience and immature mind, he doesn't know how to describe such a mood.

And who exactly should he hate.

Nian Queqing wiped away his tears, and asked Yuchisu, "Where is he?"

Yuchisu had answered him this question during the day, but now when he asked him again, his voice was softer than during the day, and he said in a comforting tone: "Shuzhilou. If you want to see him, I will accompany you at dawn."

Nian Keqing subconsciously wanted to nod along with this sentence, but suddenly became timid again, shook his head vigorously and said, "I'm not going." After speaking, he added, "I don't see him, I don't see him."

Yu Chisu nodded, comfortingly said: "Okay, I won't go."

Nian Queqing stopped talking, and his face fell back to his calm, but at the same time, his heart was turbulent. He could even smell the rotten smell from himself when he was eroded by jealousy.He was afraid that he would fall into darkness.His young mind couldn't figure out many things, he just kept telling himself: "I'm bad."

Thinking too much, he almost forgot what kind of person he is.

After a long time, he suddenly said without beginning or end: "I don't want to be like him."

Yuchisu understood immediately, and said, "You don't know how."

Because he knew who Nian Queqing was talking about, not Nian Quesheng.

He didn't want to become a young man.

Nian Queqing seemed to relax instantly after hearing these three words, but he was also afraid that Yuchisu was just coaxing him, so he immediately asked: "How do you know I can't?"

Hearing this, Yuchisu smiled and said in a low voice, "You have me, but he doesn't."

I am also a person who has experienced hardships and pains. I have also felt that this life is boring and the road ahead is confused.But we are each other's salvation.

So you don't have to be afraid.

You will not become him.

The author has something to say: Finally, there is another episode.