Ukiyo heave

Lying in the middle of the night listening to the wind and rain.

Nights like this are the most preoccupied.

Inside the house are flickering candles, and outside the house is the sound of thunder.But Nian Sheng could smell a bit of uneasiness from the draft, and the slanting wind and shower passed through Zhuhu.Nian got up to close the window.

Jiang Dongchen also put down the book in his hand, watching the leaves swaying wildly outside the window, his pretty eyebrows frowned slightly.

But Nian turned his head back, seeing Jiang Dongshen staring at the violent storm, he rubbed his brows and asked, "What's wrong?"

Jiang Dong was silent for a moment, raised his eyes and said, "I'm a little homesick."

Nian Quesheng felt a little sad in his heart, he suppressed his smile unconsciously, sat beside him and said softly, "Did you miss your mother?"

"No." Jiang Dong said in a deep voice, "I miss our home."

It's... our home.

Nian Sheng didn't want to.

Now it's the flowering season of the Albizia juliensis, when they left, the Albizia juliensis behind the house was about to bloom. The two of them thought they could witness the blossoming of these trees with their own eyes.But in the end, no.

I left too hastily, the manuscripts that were scattered around the desk that night have not been put away, the quilts have not been folded, and the tea in the cup has not been poured, I am afraid that there will be a circle of yellow tea stains when I go back, and it will not be cleaned.There are still fresh vegetables and fruits in the side room, but now they may have withered.The words hanging on the wall, the books in the bookcase.I haven't seen you for a long time, and I miss you very much.

Every morning when he woke up, Nian Quesheng would find a warm cat in the arms of himself and Jiang Dongshen, and throw it back into its litter box.Ruan Ruan crawled out of the cat's nest half-dead, climbed onto the quilt of the two of them, and slipped back into the arms of the two of them.Nian Quesheng had no choice but to put him in his arms, not to ask him to harm Jiang Dongchen.

I asked the cat to take a bath, but it ran all the way and refused to go into the water, and finally came back with the back of its neck raised by Nian, its feet were still kicking in protest, and finally it was thrown into the water, sprinkled with acacia and washed clean. , and then Jiang Dongshen dried it with his own hands, and carried it back to its nest.

Jiang Dongshen occasionally finds it funny. There are two people in this family and one cat, but the other person and the cat are both clinging to him.

In the middle of spring, the two found a gray-haired mouse in the house, and asked Ruan Ruan to catch it, but Ruan Ruan refused, and jumped onto the bookcase, avoiding the mouse, but Nian Sheng laughed at it: "It's only natural for the cat to catch the mouse, get the hell out."

Ruan Ruan meowed disdainfully. If it could talk, it would say: "I am a god cat from heaven, so you let me do this?"

Occasionally obedient and cute, and occasionally like an uncle.Such Ruan Ruan, I don't know how they are doing now.

So missed.

The old days were gentle and peaceful, as plain as water.

I don't know if I can go back after this trip.

Nian Sheng pulled the quilt over, then pulled Jiang Dong and Shen Ye over, and held him in his arms.

Now there is one less cat in this arms.

Seeing his expression, Jiang Dongshen knew that he must be feeling uncomfortable at the moment, so he put one hand behind him and patted his back, like a child who had just had a nightmare to sleep, and said softly: "We don't want to Already, go to sleep."

Nian Sheng nodded slightly, sniffing the fragrance of acacia in Jiang Dong's heavy hair, and closed his eyes to listen to the thunder and wind and rain outside the window.The situation of the past and the future touched his heart lightly, and he almost burst into tears.

The time was almost up, but Nian Quesheng knew a lot of things in his heart quietly, and he always hid it very well, his face was calm and calm, and Jiang Dongchen didn't know half of it.

Probably because of destiny, some people are born in debt, doomed to be restless, they can see their own appearance before death in their good youth, so they look at the time of death that will come sooner or later, very calmly and calmly, without panic busy.

I don't know how long he can hold this person in his arms.

Nian Quesheng suddenly said calmly and gently: "Tomorrow, we will go back."

Jiang Dong raised his face heavily: "What?"

"Let's go back." Nian Que said, "I can't hide from them for the rest of my life. If they come to me again, I'll explain it to them. If it doesn't work, I'll fight. They can't beat me anyway."

Jiang Dongshen felt that he should believe in Nian Kesheng unconditionally, and when he heard the sudden return, he suddenly panicked.

Seeing him hesitate, Nian Sheng smiled meaninglessly and said, "What are you worried about, brother? If they could kill me, they would have killed me a few years ago, so why wait until today?"

Jiang Dongshen was still hesitating, met his gaze for a long time and said, "Aren't you lying to me?"

Nian Quesheng nodded lightly: "No lie."

Jiang Dongchen bit his lip, pondered for a moment, and said softly: "Well, no matter what happens, I will accompany you, and you must not take any risks."

Nian Quesheng knew that Jiang Dongshen was afraid that he would face danger alone in order to protect him. He thought, brother, you really understand me, but he still smiled and replied, "I know, brother."

Jiang Dongshen felt very uneasy suddenly in his heart, and hugged Nian Quesheng tightly with his arms, comforting himself in his heart, saying that Nian Quesheng has always kept his word, and I should believe him.After all, compared to before, Nian Quesheng has kept few secrets from him, but Jiang Dongshen was still not at ease, and reassured, "You really won't lie to me?"

Nian Butsheng laughed, reached out his hand from Jiang Dongshen's side face all the way to his collarbone, leaned into his ear and smiled and teased: "If I really leave you alone, it will be a long night, and I will have a hard time."

Jiang Dongchen grabbed Nian Kesheng's wrist, and felt relieved through the frivolous tone, instead of pushing his hand away from his chest, he pressed him tighter, and said: "You want to Remember what you said today."

Nian Sheng turned sideways to kiss Jiang Dongchen's collarbone, wet all the way down, while kissing, while solemnly saying: "Let's go to Fengcheng Mountain to pick up Ruan Ruan first, and then go home."

Jiang Dongshen was already very comfortable with such a scene, not shy or impatient, very calm, except for talking a little breathlessly, everything else was as usual as usual: "I always dislike it at home, now I think about it?"

Nian didn't respond, turned his head and kissed Jiang Dong's ears for a long time, and then bit his earlobe lightly, Jiang Dong let out a deep sound, wanting to push Nian but Sheng's face, Nian but Sheng got up by himself, turned over and met Jiang Dong's eyes lying flat on his back, then smiled and said: "It's windy and rainy outside, brother, you can make more noise today, no one will hear you."

Jiang Dongchen gave a light laugh, with a faint panting that was very attractive, he bit Nian Quesheng's ear and said, "You mustn't go too far."

Nian Quesheng asked knowingly, and said with a smile, "To what extent is it too much, and what's the matter if it's not too much?"

Jiang Dongshen couldn't answer, so he simply lowered his shoulders and raised his head to ask for a kiss, but Nian Sheng stretched out the tip of his tongue and licked and licked between Jiang Dongshen's teeth, Jiang Dongshen opened his teeth suddenly, and the two soft tongues touched together , quickly entangled into a ball, biting and sucking apart and closing.Jiang Dong let out a deep snort, all the clothes on his body were ripped off, and he took the initiative to wrap himself around Nian Qusheng, letting out a low moan.

A night of debauchery.

Fengcheng Mountain was also torrentially raining.

An Zhi put on some clothes, opened the half-closed door and went outside, knelt down and said to Ruan Ruan under the eaves: "Ruan Ruan, go back to the house, it's raining so hard today, Mr. Nian and Mr. Jiang will not be able to come back." .”

Ruan Ruan knew this, but she didn't move her body. The hair on its body was black and white, and the black on its back was already wet by the rain that slanted into the eaves.But it was always looking at the long gravel road, sneezing again and again by the wind, and still refused to leave.

As if it always believed that they would come sooner or later.

An Zhi sighed, and said to Ruan Ruan: "I was entrusted by Mr. Nian to take care of you. I know you miss them dearly, but..."

But Mr. Nian's life and death may be uncertain.An Zhi suddenly thought of what Quesheng had told them the year before they left, and almost blurted out this sentence, knowing that it was inappropriate, so he hurriedly stopped.

Ruan Ruan turned to look at him, and meowed lightly, as if to say, I know.

On the day before leaving, Ruan Ruan heard everything they said.

Of the four people present, plus the cat, Jiang Dongshen was the only one who didn't know about it.

Because of this, Ruan Ruan was extremely worried.

An Zhi hugged the wet Ruan Ruan, gently stroked its head, turned around and stepped back into the house, and while closing the door, said softly to Ruan Ruan: "Since you know you can't wait, then don't torture in vain. Myself, I don't really have the heart to see them end well, but there are many things that outsiders can't interfere with."

Ruan Ruan raised his head, and An Zhi continued: "Mr. Nian is a smart person. I think he has no countermeasures in his mind. Maybe it is not easy to announce it, or there may be other reasons, so he told us before leaving. If that's the case, don't be too pessimistic, there is no limit to the road, not to mention that good and evil will eventually be rewarded, and he is such a good person."

Ruan Ruan's eyes flickered lightly, she leaned down, and whispered, "Meow."

The couple handed over a cloth towel and asked An Zhi to wipe Ruan Ruan's wet hair. Ruan Ruan seemed very tired, and fell asleep after bending down for a while.The couple looked very sad, and asked An Zhi: "Are you really sure that Young Master Nian will be fine?"

Seeing that Ruan Ruan was fast asleep, An Zhi gently hugged it by the pillow, shook his head regretfully and said, "I'm not sure."

"then you……"

"I said something unlucky. In case something happens to Mr. Nian, he is gone. No matter how sad Mr. Jiang and Ruan Ruan are, they are still alive."

An Zhi sat next to his lover, and looked at him in a blink of an eye, his eyes condensed a kind of maturity and understanding that had gone through all kinds of dust and fireworks in the world.He said: "Although I am not a god, I have been in the mist and rain of this world for a hundred years. I have seen newlyweds widowed young, and couples who have been in the same boat for many years finally died. This is something that every mortal can't escape. Yes, even though Nian Sheng and Jiang Dong Shen have a very high level of cultivation, their spiritual power is majestic. Those who cultivate immortals, if they don't become immortals, they will become human beings."

The couple heard it like thunder, and after a long time, they asked softly: "Is it right to say goodbye to life and death?"

"Ah."

The couple turned their faces: "...then we too?"

An Zhi smiled consolingly, leaned over and kissed his side face, and said softly: "No, you are a demon, and now I am too."

Only then did the couple feel relieved, An Zhi patted his hand, smiled wryly and said: "Besides, we have no relatives or reasons, so we don't have too many worries. Years are different, if he is a wanderer at the end of the world, alone, homeless He is an unscrupulous person. With his spiritual power, he can go against the scriptures and deviate from the Dao and try his best to survive. But he can't."

"Is it for Jiang Dongchen?"

"It's for Jiang Dongchen."

After all, the couple has not been deeply involved in the world, so he can only hear the meaning in it, but he doesn't quite understand the fetters and entanglements in this world, so he asked: "Why? With his ability, if he wants to give birth, he will bring ginger How could Dongchen have no choice? But why didn't he choose this way, and leave Jiang Dongchen alone, willing to die?"

An Zhi held his hand, and explained patiently: "He was born, and the Nian family had nowhere to vent their unfulfilled hatred, so they had to think of other ways to kill him. But Nian Sheng knew this, if he insisted on Avoiding death, this fire will eventually lead to Jiang Dongshen. Jiang Dongshen has a father, a mother, and brothers and sisters. These ties, touching any of them will make Nian but Sheng helpless. Jiang Dongshen is his weakness, The weakness of Jiang Dongchen is also added to Nian Quesheng. If Jiang Dongshen is to have no peace for the rest of his life, Nian Quesheng doesn't want to, so he has to suffer alone and protect Jiang Dongshen for the rest of his life."

"How can it be the same?" The couple suddenly called out, "Isn't this very similar to our situation back then? Azhi, I know that you are doing it for my own good, so you go to face that fairy god alone. I will wait for you After a few years, did I really feel better? Life is worse than death! Yes, you promised me that you would come back and let me wait and wait with this uncertain return date. Your smell is gone! Your clothes, your sword, your quilt, everything about you, all traces of you being with me... are slowly disappearing, and there is no news... But I can't get out, I I can't find you. I really lived a good life and didn't let you down? You only know how to protect my body, but you don't know how to protect my heart. It was me back then, but now it's Jiang Dongchen. Let me choose, I'd rather be homeless I've been miserable all my life, even I would rather die here with you at that time. I also don't want to guard this empty mountain for the rest of my life!"

An Zhi's body suddenly shook, and this burst of confession made An Zhi feel uneasy sitting still for a while.He propped up the bed with his hands, unable to speak for a moment.The tears on the couple's face didn't know when they slipped down. He was looking into An Zhi's eyes and said very seriously: "No matter what happens, we can face it together. You just said that there is no end to the sky. , I believe it. Then why do we have to separate, can't two people live and die together? You know very well that even if you die, I can stay by your side without complaint. "

An Zhi suddenly smiled, heartbroken and guilty, bit his lips and said softly: "You never said this to me, did you hold it back for a long time?"

A sourness rushed to the end of the nose suddenly, so sour that the couple wanted to cry again, but the couple held back and wiped their face: "Yeah."

An Zhi smiled and sighed, stroked the back of his head and hugged him in his arms, and said softly: "Little fairy. I can understand your feelings, but back then, we were facing gods, not common people. Therefore, It’s not that you can solve the problem if you insist on staying with me. Back then, I thought they would lock me up first and go to the sky prison. As soon as the guards let go, I would immediately dispose of my god body and go down to the earth to find you. But I didn’t expect them to use it as soon as they came up. Forget the whip."

The couple listened quietly, the long-suffering sadness came alive once again.An Zhi patted him on the back lightly, and comforted him: "But I have a deep enough obsession with you, and this obsession prevents me from completely forgetting you, so I came down anyway. We have indeed experienced untold hardships over the years. , but over the mountains, we're still together, right?"

The couple nodded slightly, put their arms around An Zhi's neck, and said in a low voice: "In those few years, I often blamed you...I...I am different from Jiang Dongchen. Give him comfort, so that he will not be too painful. But I... I have only been around you since I became a human... You taught me how to dress and tie my hair, my daily life, and how to use archery. Except you , I don't have anyone in my heart. But when you leave...I..."

An Zhi whispered softly, and said close to his ear: "I know in my heart that it was my fault at the end of that year. I clearly insisted on crossing the boundary between demon and god to like you, but I never thought of a perfect plan. I want Let you live a good life, but you never know that you have never had real happiness without me. Little fairy, forgive me."

"Of course I forgive you." The couple said, "Maybe I complained after you came back, why did you forget all about our precious past... But after you think about it, I won't complain anymore ……real."

An knew: "So, little fairy, you have to know. Whether it's me or the year's promotion, you are the most in your mind. It's just that the result brought about by this may not be what we think, or even backfire. It’s better than God’s fate, it’s unavoidable.”

The couple said: "But there is no bond between Nian Quesheng and Jiang Dongchen. If they hide together, why not? Why must one leave and the other stay. Why can't they go together? You know, if two people are together, everything is fine..."

An Zhi was very patient. He smiled helplessly and asked his couple to sit up in his arms. The two looked at each other. An Zhi calmly explained: "As you said just now, Jiang Dongchen has a very happy family. , He has a loving father and mother, brothers and sisters. Those people are also very caring for Nian Quesheng. If Nian Quesheng really took Jiang Dongchen away, hid, and there is no news. What about Jiang Dongchen's family?"

The couple fell silent and lowered their heads.An Zhi shook his head regretfully and said, "Some people are happy, but others are also sad. There is no way in the world to make everyone happy."

The couple took a deep breath, as if a child who grew up in a simple world had matured in an instant.After a long time, regret, powerlessness, sadness, powerlessness, slowly flowed past him.The couple let out that breath lightly, and said in a deep voice, "I understand."