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Jiang Dongshen stopped the movements of his hands, turned his head to look at him after a while, then lowered his head and said, "Really, I've been with you for so long, but I didn't realize when you fell in love with someone's girl. "

Nian Kesheng panicked when he was swept away by this gaze, and suddenly backed away, not daring to speak again.The matter has come to this point, and he can't give up halfway, but Nian Sheng hesitates for a moment, adjusts his tone, and jokes like usual: "Brother, that person is you."

Hearing this, Jiang Dongchen's hands on the table suddenly curled up slightly, and then he turned his eyes to Nian Quesheng's eyes, and said in a deep voice, "What do you mean by that?"

When Nian Quesheng heard such a tone, his heart skipped a beat, he avoided his gaze in a panic, leaned against the cabinet, and smiled to cover up: "I'm joking, don't look at me like that, don't take it seriously, don't take it seriously."

He didn't know if Jiang Dongchen was still looking at him, but after saying this, Nian Quesheng couldn't laugh anymore.

Suddenly, an indescribable disappointment and regret welled up in my heart.

It shouldn't be said that he has always regarded himself as his younger brother the most, so frankly confessing his feelings will only be counterproductive.

But Nian Sheng lowered his head, thinking, indeed, he is always emphasizing that he is an older brother, and he will fulfill his responsibilities to me as an older brother.He always doesn't want me to call him Mrs. Young, even if I lay next to him that night, he still asks me: "Then when you marry a wife and have children, will you stick to me every day?" '

Jiang Dong quietly watched Nian Qusheng who had fallen silent, and suddenly said, "Are you kidding me? Don't take it seriously?"

But Nian came back to his senses, nodded in a daze and said with a dry smile, "Yes, I'm just kidding, so don't be angry, brother..."

"Why do you always like to make jokes like this?" Jiang Dongshen interrupted, threw the clothes in his arms, and stood up, "You always like to say such nonsense, and when you finish speaking, just say you Are you kidding, have you considered how I feel?"

But Nian was at a loss for words for a while, not knowing how to answer, and he didn't even dare to meet Jiang Dongshen's eyes.At this moment, Jiang Dongshen has suppressed all the tenderness like water, and his tone is frighteningly cold.Nian Sheng closed his mouth, his heart flustered, clutching the sleeves he had sewn, and lowering his eyes.

In such a cold silence, Nian Sheng was a little dazed. He was suddenly afraid that he would never get Jiang Dongchen's hug again.

I don't know how long it has passed, but Nian Shengzheng was secretly sad when he suddenly heard a door slam, and when he raised his eyes again, Jiang Dongchen was no longer in the room.

Nian Kesheng got up in a hurry, put the clothes in his hands on the desk, and accidentally caught a glimpse of the pen and paper on the desk. On the paper were a few lines written in ink, and the things they wanted to check were neatly arranged.A gleam of comfort suddenly flashed in Nian Quesheng's heart-Jiang Dongshen has always had a beginning and an end, and he will never leave these things behind.

While comforting himself, more sadness flooded up after the comfort, beginning and ending, then after these things are over, how will he choose.

Will he still choose to stay with Nian Qusheng?

Nian Butsheng picked up a piece of paper with trembling hands, looked around, his clothes, his quilt were still in the room, his breath was still there, the teacup he had just used, and the tea in it was also there. It's still hot.It seemed that he just went to the side room to boil water, and when he came back, he would call himself to take a bath in a gentle voice. It was already so late, where could he go.

What's more, the southeast branch is still hanging on the wall. If he returns to Jiang's house, how can he not take the southeast branch with him.

But Nian Sheng put down the paper and ran to the door.Holding his breath, as if making a bet with himself, he silently counted to three and pushed open the door.

On the ground outside the door of the house, a light inside the house was slantedly pulled up, looking forward along the gradually thinning light and shadow, ten steps away, Jiang Dongchen was standing beside the moonlit Suijun Lake, standing with his head bowed, The quiet back seemed to melt into the moonlight, and it was tinged with an indescribable sense of loss and sadness.

Nian Kesheng closed the door gently, and walked to Jiang Dongchen's side without saying a word. Jiang Dongchen kept looking at the moon in the lake and didn't give him a glance.

But Nian lowered his eyes and didn't speak. He and Jiang Dong stood quietly in the wind, each silent.

No words can describe his mood at this moment.

He didn't even dare to call his brother, fearing that if he said something wrong, Jiang Dongshen would go away, get angry, and use his favorite voice to say something he didn't want to hear the most.But silence can't solve any problems after all.So Nian Quesheng said cautiously, "Are you... angry?"

Jiang Dong kept his eyes straight: "No."

This sentence actually blocked Nian Qusheng's mouth. He had never been able to deal with this kind of thing, so he couldn't finish the next sentence, so he bowed his head and said, "I'm sorry."

"You have nothing to apologize for. The world is easy to change, and the nature is difficult to change. If you apologize to me today, you will still talk nonsense next time."

"I will definitely..."

"When have you ever heard my words? I told you to get hurt, don't bear it, I told you to tell me everything, and I told you not to lie to me, when did you do it? Don't you still hide everything? Hiding it from me and not letting me know? Do you really think that if I tolerate you in everything, you will be lawless? You keep saying that I am your brother, how many times have you considered my thoughts? "

When it came to the end, Jiang Dongshen finally turned to look at him, his eyes filled with displeasure.But Nian Sheng had no way to refute, so he lowered his head.After a while, Jiang Dong turned back, looked at the center of the lake and said in a deep voice, "If you really think that your magic power is boundless and powerful, you don't need me to accompany you, you can live alone."

Jiang Dongshen's words were indeed angry words, but Nian Quesheng took them seriously. Hearing this, he felt that his heart was stabbed by a sharp knife, blood was dripping immediately, and it was so painful that it was difficult to breathe.

Nian Quesheng gritted his teeth and said heavily, "I thought...you never minded me..."

Jiang Dongshen also got angry, and blurted out: "That's your wishful thinking."

Wen Yannian suddenly raised his eyes, opened his mouth, and lowered his head again: "Yes, I'm wishful thinking."

After a long time, Nian Sheng looked back at their brightly lit little house, and said as if making up his mind, "Brother."

Jiang Dongshen turned to look at him without any emotion in his eyes.

Nian Quesheng suddenly reached out to hold Jiang Dongchen's shoulder, hesitated for a moment, then leaned over and kissed him.

The moment the two lips touched, Nian Quesheng didn't have the joy and joy that he had taken advantage of in the past, but he was a little reluctant, thinking that after the window paper was pierced, he might never have such a chance to be so close to him again. up.

I was extremely careful, and at the same time I couldn't help thinking, I won't do it again, let me be self-willed this time, from now on, I won't do it again.

Jiang Dongshen remained silent and obedient as always, without struggling to resist, nor did he respond in the slightest.But the more this happened, the more sad Nian Quesheng felt in his heart. It seemed that all this proved one thing. All Jiang Dongshen's unreasonable troubles and willful behavior towards him were his brother's infinite tolerance for his younger brother. His behavior was so frank.

Such wishful thinking is like a poet drinking alone on the moon.Even if she is full of emotions, Mingyue is always indifferent and speechless, listening to all kinds of customs described by the world, silently watching the fireworks in the world, tolerant of everyone's joys and sorrows and imagination, but speechless.

Although tolerant, it hurts so much.

But Nian Sheng couldn't wait for a response in such a kiss, and couldn't taste the sweetness, but he couldn't bear to let go. Jiang Dongchen kept his eyes closed and his hands down, indifferent.But Nian's heart was so heavy that he couldn't breathe.

After a long time, Nian Butsheng let him go, took half a step back, not daring to look at his eyes and expression, and wanted to speak, but the governor had already reached this point, and it would be useless to say more.He bowed his head in silence for a while, took two steps back, turned and left.

Reluctant.

Nian Sheng didn't know where he should go, he didn't seem to have any face and walked back to their hut, so it seemed that he was trying to drive Jiang Dongshen away.But he had no choice but to stay outside and tell Jiang Dong to sink back, but he didn't know what to do.

Nian Quesheng felt that he was like a filthy thing with nowhere to hide, exposed to the complete sunlight, he was very ashamed in his heart, and he still pretended to be nonchalant.

He has long been used to asking Jiang Dongchen for his opinion before doing anything, no matter how big or small, he always asks before doing anything.Such things are as small as what color of flowers to put in what color vase, and how many spoonfuls of sugar should be put when cooking sweet porridge.As big...as big as himself, he gave himself completely to Jiang Dongchen, because he always believed that even if the whole world left him, Jiang Dongchen would not.

Now he subconsciously wanted to ask Jiang Dongshen what he should do, but wherever he could see from the corner of his eyes, that person was no longer by his side.

From Suijun Lake to his house door, these few steps made him walk so long.In a daze, there was a voice behind him calling out clearly: "Nian is promoted."

Nian was startled.

He wasn't sure if he heard it right, stopped for a moment, and heard Jiang Dongchen shouting loudly behind him again: "Nian is promoted!"

But Nian lowered his eyes, and after a while, he turned back in a daze and said, "What's the matter?"

At this moment, Nian Quesheng's heart is still as if washed by a storm, and he can't listen to anything anymore. What he hears seems to have changed in his ears, thinking wildly to himself.I thought to myself, why didn't he call me Ah Sheng?

Jiang Dongshen stood in place all the time, his eyes shone like the moonlight in Suijun Lake.But the anger in his eyes did not disappear, and his voice was also very displeased, asking: "What do you mean?"

Nian Kesheng was shocked, and he didn't dare to say anything. Jiang Dongshen then shouted at him: "Why do you always do this? Say something irresponsible, make others upset, and add that you are joking? You do this every time, like this... After kissing someone, you let go....You should make it clear, are you...responsible to me! "

……what did he say?

Nian Quesheng was taken aback for a moment, then his heart jumped wildly, he raised his head and said, "Brother, what did you say?"

Jiang Dongshen's complexion was a little red, he didn't know if it was because of anger or what, he said angrily: "What are you still standing there for, come here and speak clearly!"

Nian Quesheng almost ran over to hold Jiang Dongshen in his arms, and shouted, "Responsible, brother! I am responsible!"

After yelling, the unfinished sadness from before surged up again, Nian Kesheng buried his head in Jiang Dong's sunken neck, and whispered: "I almost thought that my brother would not want me."

Jiang Dongchen gradually calmed down, no longer sullen like before, but his voice still carried a bit of reproach: "You are very smart in everything, and you can learn everything at once. How did you get here? In this kind of thing, it's like an elm head that doesn't understand."

But Nian said: "No one has ever loved me, and I have never loved anyone else. Where can I get the experience to judge whether my brother likes me?"

This is the truth, but Nian Qusheng has an inherent inferiority complex in terms of feelings.When he was still very young, about two or three years old, he heard that Ping Congee had given birth to his younger brother. Everyone cheered and celebrated. With a happy smile.He had never seen these people so happy, so he thought, maybe, he was born to be the one who was abandoned.

At that time, I didn't understand anything, but Xiaonian wanted to go and see his younger brother, who is full of stars, and also wanted to hug him, squeeze his hand, and listen to him calling when he was babbling. My brother, who was slurring his voice, wanted to hold his hand when he was learning to walk.

But no.For this precious younger brother who is like a peerless treasure, he has always been able to only take a look from afar.

Seeing him well-clothed and well-fed, and seeing him held in everyone's hands, Xiao Nian Quesheng seemed to understand that it was the love that he would never get.

Love.

Dim and seductive, unattainable.When the fragrance and drunkenness dissipate, it is also a poisonous and suffocating dream.

Nian Kesheng believes that he will never have a relationship with this mysterious and noble word. When someone occasionally shows care and kindness to him, he is at a loss, and silently feels in his heart: "I am not worthy."

So, for Jiang Dongshen's kindness, he responded cautiously and got deeper and deeper, but he couldn't show any confidence in such a frank and obvious emotion.

Jiang Dong said deeply: "Then have you judged it now?"

Nian Kesheng nodded vigorously, and Jiang Dong said in a deep voice: "...Hold me looser, do you want to strangle me to death in your arms?——Also, assure me, that kind of irresponsible words will still be fine. Those irresponsible actions are forbidden.”

Nian Quesheng still nodded vigorously, and said: "I promise, I guarantee my life, we will make a note and draw a bet later, I guarantee that I will never do it again."

Jiang Dong smiled deeply, raised his hand and said in a hug: "There is no need to make a deposit, I believe you."

They have never embraced each other like this before, not because of the sadness of Nian Biaosheng, nor because of Jiang Dongshen's loss, it is such feelings that arise spontaneously from the heart that make them hug each other tightly, listening to the night wind blowing by. After one or two days of Suijun Lake, where the waves are slightly turbulent, listening to the collision of the branches of the trees, maintaining a never-before-seen, neither sad nor sad silence.

Nian Quesheng suddenly said: "Brother, I think spring is coming."

Jiang Dongshen saw one or two swaying weeping willows by the Suijun Lake, which seemed to be dyed with a somewhat unpredictable green, thought for a while and said: "Maybe."

Nian asked, "May I kiss you?"

Jiang Dong was taken aback for a moment, the kiss had already been gently kissed, extremely gentle, extremely frank, but such gentleness made Jiang Dongchen unable to hold back, one hand lightly pressed against his chest, as if he wanted to refuse and welcome.

Nian Kesheng gently pinched Jiang Dongchen's chin with one hand, and the tip of his tongue twirled between his lips and teeth. Jiang Dongchen unexpectedly opened his mouth to respond to the kiss.This little action made Nian Qusheng's heart tremble.

On the contrary, Nian Kesheng separated slightly from him, and said with a smile, "Brother is so good."

Jiang Dongshen opened his eyes at this moment, but Nian Sheng looked into those deep eyes, and the three souls went to the seven souls.Stop talking nonsense, stepped forward to kiss, put his tongue into Jiang Dong's deep mouth, and teased gently.

In a trance, a bit of an unrecoverable dream.

Jiang Dongshen has never kissed someone on his own initiative, and he is not like Nian Quesheng, who can learn without a teacher. He can only imitate Nian Quesheng's movements, his heart is pounding, and he secretly opens his eyes to see Nian Quesheng's actions. Que Sheng's expression caught him off guard, and his eyes were caught off guard.

Jiang Dongshen separated from him a little and wanted to pretend to look at the moon in the lake without looking at him, but Nian Quesheng stared at him even more amusingly. After going back and forth, Jiang Dongshen shyly raised his hand to cover Nian Quesheng's eyes :"Dont look at me."

But Nian Sheng kissed him on the palm of his hand, and sighed with lingering fear: "You really scared me tonight."

"Who made someone frightened? Why do you always sue the villain first." Jiang Dongshen said dissatisfied.

Nian Quesheng sighed again, and then smiled: "I feel like I'm dreaming now."

Jiang Dongshen looked back at their house and said, "Then go back and dream, it's getting late."

Well, I hope Nian Gesheng can sleep tonight after experiencing ups and downs.

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