come to do things

On the way to the recording site of the tenth episode of "Let's Fight [-]", Zuo Zhen made the final decision.

Before that, he couldn't sleep well for two consecutive days, and every night when he lay in bed, he would recall the words he had talked with Zhou Zigui not long ago.

He didn't intend to speak that day, but at the end of the dinner party, only he and Zhou Zigui were left, and Zhou Zigui asked him, "Why don't you tell me your friend's story?"

Zuo Zhen didn't understand for a while, and asked, "Which friend?"

"I don't know him." Zhou Zigui replied naturally, "It's that friend that everyone has. Everyone likes to say 'there is a friend who met a blabla thing recently', such a friend."

It's just such a rhetorical device without skill and sincerity.

Zuo Chun wondered if this person was bullying him for his low IQ, but in the end, he really let go.

"I have a friend who used to like his girlfriend very much. His girlfriend was not bad, but she did something that seriously humiliated my friend. Now, they reunited because of work, and the girlfriend seems to have a reunion. Intentions, which bothered my friend particularly."

"Does your friend still like his girlfriend?" Zhou Zigui asked straightforwardly.

Zuo Zhen was silent for a long time before answering. He even refused to answer his own question directly. However, facing Zhou Zigui, he told the truth for the first time: "I like it."

"But your friend has no way to forgive his girlfriend and is unwilling to get back together?"

"Maybe he hates his girlfriend more than he likes it."

Zhou Zigui raised his eyes and stared at Zuo Zhen, then turned his head to look out the window, he smiled slightly, and then said with emotion: "I always think that your friend is a very proud person-this is not derogatory, I think He is very self-loving and pure, he lets himself live in the clouds, and cherishes himself very carefully."

Zuo Zhen wanted to refute, but he found that he didn't really know "his friend" that well.

Zhou Zigui continued: "I think this is a good thing. It's like saying that a good cabbage has an obligation to be careful not to let itself be humiliated by unqualified pigs. However, sometimes I can't let go of my self-esteem, and the only one who gets hurt in the end is It will be me. To put it bluntly, I want to save face and suffer. Your friend is in a dilemma because he doesn’t know whether to let go of love or hate? He needs to think carefully about what he wants most and what can make him Be happier."

Afterwards, Zuo Chun thought about it for two days.

What exactly does he want most?

What he wants is neither love nor hate.

What he wanted was Ren Mianbei.

Whether it is love or hate, if there is no such person to put his emotions on, he will really only be left with himself.

Zuo Zhen thought it over.He didn't want to be a fool who wanted to save face and suffer.

Because it was being recorded locally, Zuo Zhen came to the studio of "Coming to War" ahead of schedule.He could hardly wait, hoping to have a good talk with Ren Mianbei as soon as possible.However, before meeting Ren Mianbei, he first heard about the guests of this issue.

This issue of "Come to Fight" only invited one guest.Zuo Zhen watched this guest's match and recognized him as a good tennis player. His name is Wang Peng. In addition, Zuo Zhen couldn't help but read his fanfic with Ren Mianbei, "Just to Win You" .

...that text is as true as it is written.

Zuo Zhen still has a vivid memory of a scene in the article.That episode mainly narrates that Ren Mianbei chose to leave the national team to develop in the United States. Wang Peng couldn't understand it. In order to vent, he threw away all Ren Mianbei's things.When Ren Mianbei learned about it, he smiled and said to Wang Peng, "You can't throw away everything, and there will be nothing left between us, because we can always fight again."

Because of the leg injury, Zuo Zhen will never be able to fight Ren Mianbei with all his might again.The only thing he thought of when he was reading the article was that if he threw away all Ren Mianbei's things, then there would really be nothing left between him and Ren Mianbei.

This is the difference between him and Wang Peng.

He will never be as important as Wang Peng.

Zuo Zhen couldn't meet Ren Mianbei who was free before the recording of the program.Wang Peng was always standing beside Ren Mianbei, and the two chatted non-stop, with so much to say.

Zuo Zhen said very little.He is always taciturn.

Whether it's in real life or on a reality TV show.

With the usual silence, Zuo Zhen finished the program recording for the day.After finishing work, he decided to leave directly.

He forgot his original plan, about what to do today.However, on the way to the parking lot with his assistant, he met Ren Mianbei who seemed to be waiting there.

"Are you still losing weight? It seems that your complexion is not good." Ren Mianbei asked with concern.

Just earlier today, they had so many opportunities to talk during the recording of the program, but Ren Mianbei stayed with Wang Peng and never even took a step closer to Zuo Zhen.

Zuo Zhen stopped at a place far enough away from Ren Mianbei to keep at least the closest distance between Ren Mianbei and him today.He looked up at the other party after secretly inhaling.

It's time to make a decision.As he had planned, something had to be done today.

"Ren Mianbei, I forgive you." Zuo Zhen stared at the other person's eyes and said word by word, "Even if you don't think you did something wrong, but I decided to forgive you, and then I will forget everything about the past and go Go forward."

He didn't wait for Ren Mianbei to answer.It doesn't matter anymore.He said that he would go forward on his own, so he will definitely be able to do it.

Zuo Zhen took a step to cross Ren Mianbei.He was ready to move on.However, when passing by each other, Ren Mianbei grabbed his arm.

"Why did you say that suddenly?" Ren Mianbei asked slightly moved.

Zuo Zhen didn't look back. "It wasn't sudden, I decided after thinking twice."

Ren Mianbei firmly grasped Zuo Zhen's arm, and after a long silence asked, "Why did you make such a decision?"

He said this as if he had many other options.Zuo Zhen finally looked back at the other party, "What else?" He asked back.

Ren Mianbei paused for a while when asked.

Zuo Zhen tried to shake off the opponent's restraint.However, his opponent has played tennis for 20 years, and at this moment he is pinching his arm so hard, which makes Zuo Zhen's struggle particularly futile.

"I saw you and Zhou Zigui doing that 4-minute eye contact test." Ren Mianbei flew in.

"Let go of me." Zuo Zhen replied.

Ren Mianbei didn't follow suit, he bargained and said, "Give me 4 minutes and I'll let you go."

"What else do you want to do?" Zuo Zhen tried to calm down and asked.

Ren Mianbei replied: "Take an eye contact test with me."

... Who is afraid of whom?

"Let go." Zuo Zhen turned to face Ren Mianbei.

There was no one to help pinch the stopwatch. On the contrary, Zuo Zhen's assistant, Xiao Du, had quietly walked away at some point. In the empty underground garage, this somewhat dark corner, Zuo Zhen just looked up at Ren Mianbei without a sense of ceremony. .

Eye-to-eye contact, at a sufficiently close distance.

A week ago, Zuo Zhen looked at Zhou Zigui who was also focused on him like this.At that time, various chaotic images unconsciously appeared in his mind.What he saw in those pictures were fond memories.

Many people are deifying the effect of looking at each other, as if a man and a woman will love each other as long as they look at each other for a long enough time.Facts have proved that this rumor is not accurate.Zuo Zhen and Zhou Zigui's stare at each other only made him more willing to trust each other... and his stare with Ren Mianbei...

This made Zuo Zhen's mind go blank.

Zuo Zhen couldn't remember anything, couldn't think of anything, he even lost the concept of time.

For a moment, he thought that he had been looking at Ren Mianbei for a century, and soon, he suspected that it only happened in a flash.The underground garage was so quiet that he could even hear his own breathing.

Suddenly, Zuo Zhen looked away.

Maybe 4 minutes has arrived, maybe it's far from it, but it doesn't matter.

"We're not friends, don't appear in front of me just talking about yourself." He said coldly to Ren Mianbei, and after finishing speaking, he turned and left.

This is the right choice.

The person who will send him porridge when he is sick, the person who will notice that he is unhappy just because he replies to a text message, and the person who will give him birthday blessings at zero o'clock, may not be willing to respect him and love him. He, who is willing to share everything with him, is willing to spend his whole life with him.

It would be great if we could figure this out in the first place.That way, he wouldn't have wasted all those years of his life loving a man who would never be reciprocated.