Died at the age of 17

He saw the pure white bouquet soaked in blood, and the sapy white gradually withered and crumbled.That kind of madness and corruption is extremely fascinating.

He raised his glass again, allowing the blue liquid to flow into his mouth.The fluid spilling from the corner of his mouth stained his clothes, but he didn't mind.He raised the cup high and looked at the world through the clear liquid.The gloomy world is covered with an ice blue tulle, and the two opposite colors of coldness and warmth are strangely juxtaposed before the eyes.

His glistening wrist dragged his chin, the corners of his mouth curled up, and there was a bright brilliance flowing in his eyes, like sparks scattered in the world.There was a flush on his face, drunk and crazy.

His voice was also stained with ice-blue drunkenness. Under the extremely calm surface, there was another kind of turbulence, "When I was seven years old, I killed my father lightly.Slit his throat with a sharp knife, and there was a 'bang', like soap bubbles floating high in the sky and bursting.Blood spewed out like crazy from his throat, and the bubble of happiness also exuded a strange blood color and shattered before his eyes.That feeling, I can't say it, is as bright as fireworks piercing through the night.That is the ultimate joy of life, and I have always cherished and longed for it. '

After all, the boss is well-informed, and he was not surprised by a drunk man's astonishing remarks.He stopped his hand that was scrubbing the cup, and stared at the boy with interest.But he knew, like a dream.Drunkness is an allusion to the sober state.He never believed a drunkard's words, but he never doubted a drunkard either.

Vulcan also stared at Xia Musha, a strange and excited light was circulating in his eyes.Such a lover is very strange to him.It is undeniable that he also likes it very much.His soul has fallen into the endless night, and only another fallen soul can embrace him.Perhaps only those who have been stained with crime, blood, and killing with their own hands have the right to hold their hands and walk with them on a road that does not exist in the future.

Xia Mousha raised her head and poured a glass of wine into her own mouth. The wine flowed down her throat and stayed directly in his heart.He felt his burning red heart being burned by ice blue flames.He let go, and the glass fell to the ground, shattering into pieces like a shattered cold dream.

He smiled, a deep smile.It's just that the eyes are burning with madness and desolation like wildfire.

He picked up a sharp shard of glass and twirled it between his fingertips.It pierced into the palm of the hand, blood seeped out, full and light blood beads gushed out.He didn't care, lowered his head and gently licked the bright red blood.He looked at Vulcan's face, and asked inadvertently, "Do you love me?" He twisted up the shards of glass, stabbed them into the palm of his hand, and blood flowed horizontally.

Vulcan nodded, and then smiled, with a light smile and brilliance in his eyes.He felt that such a young man hit a soft corner of his heart.He felt that a fire was rekindled on the ashes, which was the fire lit by the young man.

Xia Musha also laughed, his eyes were filled with a smile, that smile was extremely pure, with a kind of freshness and clarity like sea water, "Will you love me to death?"

Vulkan nodded, and the smile on his face deepened.He has always been extremely sensitive to words, and he can naturally hear the hidden emotions in this kind of confession like a dialogue in a drama.

If you don't love me, I will die.

This is the love he has always yearned for.He has always disliked ordinary daily life, and he likes life to be staged before his eyes in the form of a drama.

Xia Musha also laughed, but there was a sense of self-deprecating in the laughter, "people like me are not worthy of your love at all." After he finished speaking, he stood up abruptly, the bright lights poured down from the top of his head, and the starlight shattered in his eyes.

Vulcan looked at the young man in front of him, he was extremely bright and brilliant.But also very far away, very strange.But at this moment, he was instantly sure that the boy in front of him was worthy of his life's love.He has nothing left to lose, nothing but his broken heart.

Xia Musha held up the sharp glass, as if performing a strange drama, and also as a sacrifice for faith.A piece of crystal glass lightly scratched his throat, blood gushed out, splashed all over the bar, and splashed Vulkan's face.

The expression on Vulkan's face was almost obsessed.He looked up at the posture of his lover, and he envied this kind of youth and bravery, which he would never have again.He licked the blood from the corner of his mouth, and the bright red liquid stained his pale lips, pale face, and golden hair, making him extremely strange.A lover's blood is sweet, with a deadly temptation that makes people want to eat.

Vulkan did not stop Xia Musha, but looked at him quietly.Watching the deep love of the lover soaked in blood and life.

The boss was frightened. He woke up from his panic and ran out of the shop.He felt as if the whole world had gone mad.Absolutely can't let that lunatic die in the store. If he dies, what will he do with his business in the future.

There is a doctor's clinic across the narrow alley.God knows, that is a doctor who specializes in treating diseases of willows and flowers.How can there be any professional hospital here?He ran in like crazy and called for a doctor.Those two were crazy, but he wasn't crazy.

The doctor looked at the normally calm and elegant boss, covered in blood, which soaked his skirt and wet his face.He asked in surprise 'you killed someone'

The boss shook his head out of breath, and denied it flatly, "It wasn't me, someone committed suicide in my store, you go over there." '

The doctor hurriedly followed and saw that the shiny glass wall behind the bar was gradually covered with blood. He lowered his head and saw the conspicuous wound on Xia Musha's neck.He took a deep breath, and the blood kept gushing from Xia Musha's wound, making it impossible for him to directly see the depth of the wound.Just from his point of view, this kind of injury is very dangerous.

He rushed up, grabbed the clean white rag on the bar and pressed it, pushed Vulkan away, and covered Xia Musha's wound.Pressing him on the floor and making him lie straight, Xia Mousha smiled at the doctor, his consciousness had been blurred, but he still wanted to sit up and look at Vulcan's face.

The doctor pressed him down, 'You are dying. 'The blood still couldn't stop flowing.He pressed for a while.Then he lowered his head and felt Xia Musha's weak breathing, and he breathed a sigh of relief.

'Go to the doctor quickly, it's useless to find me. ' The doctor shouted at the boss, 'it's a good thing you came quickly, if he was a minute late he wouldn't be able to survive. '

Vulcan came over and looked at the dying Xia Musha.The panic that had been delayed for a long time was gradually awakened.His lover almost died before his eyes, but he was helpless and could only watch him die.This is how fate, in his waking state, let him watch those precious things stripped from his life bit by bit, but didn't even give him the right to die.

When you die, you are freed.People live in the world, how much suffering do they have to endure in order to go to death peacefully? In fact, it doesn’t matter what you choose, because the end of the choice will not be happiness, and the fork in the choice will only lead to different sufferings.

Vulkan felt that the barriers he had erected over the years began to crumble.Transparent tears fell down the corners of his eyes. He looked at the crystal tears and thought, probably no matter how dirty a person is, they will have such clean tears.This is probably the only fairness under God.

The doctor wiped the sweat from his brow, looked up at the man who had just been pushed away by him, and was stunned.He couldn't be more familiar with the man in front of him.He was his classmate in college.

He is extremely dazzling, but like a shooting star across the bright night sky, it is silent for a moment.He was his bitter first love.He didn't dare to express his feelings, but he followed behind silently.Watching him be so magnificent, watching him fall in love, watching him fall into hell.He witnessed Vulkan's fleeting youth.

Of course, he also went to that banquet.He didn't do what he shouldn't do.He just watched his angel get defiled by the beast, and there was nothing he could do about it.Later, he watched Vulkan apply for withdrawal from the school.He also dropped out of school and entered medical school to atone for his sins.It's just that the crimes he committed cannot be redeemed in his entire life.He thought, maybe such a mediocre life is the best punishment for him, but he couldn't think of it.

Although they lived together in Paris for more than ten years, they never met.He never thought that they would meet again under such circumstances.

Vulcan didn't notice the doctor, but his eyes were focused on Xia Musha.He cares about his every tiny expression, every tiny breath.

Doctor 'Vulkan' whispered his name.Vulcan turned his head to look at him, so haggard, but also so beautiful.This person is beautiful no matter what, time seems to have forgotten him like this, making him young forever. 'sorry. '

A trace of confusion flashed in Vulcan's eyes, obviously he didn't know him anymore.Memories have already faded away, only the unforgettable love is still as bright as new.Yes, it is always these sharp and bright colors that support us to live, and the plain and light can only be a third-rate story, and it will not come true.

But in the memory, the figure of that person still flashed past, following carefully behind him.It's just that Vulkan's face is still as usual.

The doctor was shocked. He felt that the meaning of his life was not worth mentioning in the eyes of the most important people.But at the same time, his heavy guilt was also let go.He felt that he had been redeemed by God.He finally atoned for all sins and regained his right to sit beside God.

Yes, only a lover can empathize with the pain you are going through.Only love is the most secret connection established behind God's back.This is the original sin of mankind, which is the beginning of man's fall from the Garden of Eden.Love begets hate, and love begets all things.

Later, the boss called the doctor, and Xia Musha was rushed to the hospital.After a hasty rescue, Xia Mousha was finally out of danger, and Vulcan was by his side all the time.Feeling the strange and sweet torment.