Died at the age of 17

The ground is sprinkled with golden yellow.The wheat bowed its head and swaggered in the field.The sea waves are churning endlessly, and there is a salty and dry smell, mixed with mature sweetness and fragrance.Life is short, but the wheat from season to season and the waves from year to year are eternal.

My brother Charlotte was sitting at the door, facing the golden wheat field and the blue sea.He vaguely saw a figure emerging from the end of the path. He wanted to stand up, but he couldn't stand up anymore.He lowered his head and coughed up a mouthful of blood onto his filthy handkerchief.His body was about to reach the end of his life, and he fell asleep with death in his embrace.

He spent his whole life between the ages of 30 and [-].In Paris, a young man in his prime.From now on, he will live in the shadow of the past for the rest of his life.

In fact, he didn't feel sorry, nor did he feel hurt.The moment he left Paris, he had come to the end of his life, and as he wished, his soul was buried in Paris.So at this moment, he has nothing to worry about, and only his younger brother and him have supported him until now... Vulcan

Now that my younger brother is about to become an adult, the responsibilities he bears are coming to an end.Everything is only Vulkan.He couldn't see him again in this life, and he couldn't go back to Paris, and he couldn't even say sorry to him in person.This is his only regret.

When his younger brother stood in front of him, he saw that his younger brother seemed to have matured a lot.It's just that his eyes can't see clearly anymore, he greeted his younger brother 'sit, sit. '

Xia Musha froze for a moment, then turned around and sat on the ground beside her brother.He tilted his head and looked at his brother Charlotte in disbelief.He didn't know what had happened to his brother during the few short months he had been away.Why is he so old and haggard.All his doubts were suppressed in his heart, and he couldn't speak them out.

Charlotte seemed to be crying, and muddy tears welled down her cheeks.He sat with the book still in his arms.Even if he can no longer see the fine and tiny characters.It's just that everything, whether it's stories or rhetoric, has been deeply embedded in his mind.

Xia Musha couldn't help but asked in a low voice, "Brother, do you know Vulcan?" 'It's not a question at all, but an affirmation, an introduction to the topic.

Charlotte turned her head and looked at Xia Musha with hazy eyes, and then he nodded heavily, but a light smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, just like an old man recalling his bright youth Time, he did not speak.Suddenly, he froze for a moment, raised his head, "it seems that you have seen him"

Xia Mousha nodded, but her brother couldn't see it.

Charlotte went on to say, 'It's good to see it, it's good to see it. 'Not being able to see made his hearing sharper.As sensitive as he is, he has already heard the love and declaration in his younger brother's tone.It's always a good thing to have someone who loves and takes care of him instead of me, right?

His tears slowly stayed down, running down his cheeks, and he turned the pages of the book soaked.What kind of sins did he commit in his previous life? He wanted to bear it silently by himself.The miserable life of these years of darkness is a kind of atonement for him.He thought that by the time he died, all his sins would be atoned for.It's just that I never thought that the sin would be passed on to my younger brother in this form.The person he loves the most in this life will hurt his most beloved brother, which is undoubtedly the heaviest torture for him.

Xia Mousha gently wiped her brother's tears and said in a low voice, 'Yes, I saw my sister. '

Charlotte fluctuates between ecstasy and ecstasy.It's just that he doesn't know that his sister is also in love with Vulkan.The crimes and punishments of the three brothers and sisters, and the unchangeable heart-piercing love, all point to the same person.That angel, that demon.

"About Vulcan, do you know anything else?" Xia Musha asked after seeing her brother's gradually calming emotions and the overflowing smile on his face.

Charlotte was stunned, he knew everything about Vulcan, even the current Vulcan was created by him alone, but how could he say it out, this was a secret he thought he would bring to the grave.It's just that the scar was uncovered by Xia Musha again, and the bloody wound was torn open in front of her eyes.

Charlotte felt a twitch in her heart, it was his fault.This is his gloomy flesh and blood, this is the original sin he bears.In fact, his crime is really nothing more than just watching with cold eyes? He smiled cruelly, and he took a sharp knife to cut off his wound one by one.He was cruel to others, but even more cruel to himself.What the younger brother wanted to know, he told him, anyway, he would know everything, why not tell him himself.

'When he first came to Paris, I gave him everything.I was also the one who ruined him. For so many years, I have been here to atone for the past. 'Yeah, that beautiful boy who came to Paris with love and hope after going through the dark childhood years, that sensitive and fragile 17-year-old boy with amazing literary talent, was destroyed in his hands like this.He hurt him because of love.He destroyed him so that he could be with him forever.He is so beautiful, so beautiful that he is like a god. His beauty no longer belongs to the human world of the Three Realms. It carries a sinful temptation and attraction, attracting him to hurt him and destroy him.

'It was a dark banquet in a dilapidated factory building. The people he once admired and believed in, got involved in crime and destroyed him with their own hands. 'How beautiful it is.In fact, his crimes are more than just watching with cold eyes.He felt a desperate pleasure in that cruel ceremony of defiled purity.How wonderful it was for a dying lover at that time.

In fact, his crimes are more than just turning a blind eye. All of this can be said to be condoned by him and planned by him.In order for Vulcan to fall from heaven, be with himself.How naively did Owens think that he had poisoned Vulcan? From the beginning to the end, he was the only one who made Vulcan willingly drink meth. Because he loved it, he squandered it. So unscrupulous.

Everyone is innocent, but pregnant is guilty.Vulcan's beauty is not his sin, but his innocence. After experiencing the desolation of the world, but still have hope for love, this is his sin.

Charlotte could feel Xia Musha's hatred and jealousy like a tide, he wanted to erase these dirty emotions, these emotions should not appear on his brother.He's just a kid, he's still young, he hasn't had a good feel of life yet.

'You don't have to be so jealous of me.How did I ever have him.He is completely free, his soul is his own, everything is his own choice.His love and hate have always been his own, no one can influence his choice, no one. 'Charlotte's tone was calm and flat at first, but in the end it was a frenzied roar close to despair.

Xia Musha couldn't speak, but he could feel his brother's love and hatred that grew deeper and deeper as time passed.It was the first time he felt such deep despair, he felt that he would never be able to deprive his brother of his love for Vulcan, that kind of perverted love that was almost infatuated.That kind of madness, desperation, love and hatred that is out of the right track of life, is destined to destroy everything.

Xia Mousha saw her future in her brother.Love to the end of nothing but despair.For the first time, he saw his future and destiny so clearly.It's just that he is still young, and he still has youth.He has nothing but youth, he has no choice but to love.Even if love burns to ashes, there is no love left.

'When I see him again, say sorry to him for me. 'Charlotte's tears have dried up. He is extremely sad, but he can no longer shed a tear for that person. He feels that his life is coming to an end.His younger brother will replace him and walk in front of Vulkan. This is probably a kind of completion, and he has no regrets.

He felt hatred, he couldn't tell whether it was hatred or jealousy, it was extremely deep and extremely desperate.It is impossible for him not to hate him, and it is impossible for him to hate him forever, after all, what is written on him is his own future.How could he not hate why he was the younger brother, why he didn't see Vulcan earlier than his elder brother, so that he could protect him for the rest of his life.It's just that he doesn't even have the right to hate. After all, that person is his elder brother, the most respected and beloved elder brother.

Xia Musha didn't speak, he looked at the sunset, it was extremely brilliant, extremely brilliant, but it was nearing the end, releasing his last light.The eternally burning sunset and the eternally flowing sea water gave him new feelings, and he couldn't wait to embrace this beautiful world that belonged to him.

It's just that his hands are already stained with blood, and he has no right to embrace the sun and the sea anymore.The sea could not wash away the filth from his hands, nor could the sun burn his sins.He is not dead yet, he is about to lose.In hell, his place has been reserved, and he will return there eventually.

The blood of love has pierced the blood, and there is no redemption.

He buried that body in the wheat field of his hometown, in the wheat field that belonged to him.This is the hatred that belongs to Vulkan, and his hatred is lovely, worthy of pity and treasure.That corpse will fester in the soil and turn back into the soil to nourish new life, and all his sins will be washed away by the pure wheat field.

His crimes don't stop there.His destiny had already begun.It's just that everything in the past was selectively forgotten by him. He also held a knife and stabbed into the hot flesh, depriving the breeding ground for evil growth.

Good disappears in evil, and evil will disappear in greater evil.

The person he loves has already fallen into hell, so he has to give up his life and fall into hell in order to be with him.For him, he is willing to give everything.He loves so selfish, so paranoid.In fact, everyone's love is so selfish and paranoid.Never ask what your lover wants, just give yourself the perfect love in your imagination.

This is true of Chamusha, and so is Charlotte.It's just that Vulcan has a completely free soul. Although he is desperate, he is fearless, and his destiny is in his own hands.

Boulders tumbled from mountain tops, and the world was wounded by torture and defeat.It's just that Vulcan is different, he is powerless to resist, but he is clear-headed, he knows what his purpose is, and his fate is at his mercy.It's just that everything he once believed to be true was blurred the moment he met Xia Mousha.Just like when Charlotte met him.

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The myth of Sisyphus has no power to restrain the chicken, and the heart has the spirit of resistance to sing praises of life and people.