Citrus + Fanwai

"Boom—"

The thunder outside the window roared again, and there were only the two of them in the room, and Lina had already avoided going to the study.

In the empty living room, Ruan Nuan tightly hugged her waist.

Her tears fell violently, why was she so wronged in her heart, she was even more desperate and painful than before, she threw away all her pride and shyness, and poured out all her heart...

But Min Liang did not accept her liking.

"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu who hugged her clothes tightly and didn't let go.

Even though it was thundering and raining outside, and the lights were flashing, she didn't have any thoughts outside the window.

Min Liang was gasping for breath, her heart was in pain, a kind of suffocation and panic entangled her heart.

"I'm sorry, I, I can't like others, love makes me feel scared..."

She turned around, Ruan Nuan's eyes were full of tears, and her hands were holding on to her clothes.

"My mother told me this many times when I was a child.

She loves me, she loves Dad, and she loves our family.

However, whether it is my father or me, she always hurts others in the name of love.Invading Dad's world step by step, depriving him of his hobbies, and forcing him to give up his proud career and return to his family.

Dad is too, I don't know if Dad loves this family or not.But he couldn't stand his mother's growing desire for control, and he couldn't stand her mother's jealousy and unwilling ambition.Mom wants him to stop working at sea, wants him to come back to work, and wants him to be a perfect husband.

He can't do it.He evades family and responsibilities, even if he loves me one by one, I am his eternal treasure, he returns less and less every year.

Every birthday, I was given a model sailboat.As for Mom, she never got any presents from Dad.

Mom hated Dad and hated me too.Every time after beating me, she would cry and say: 'Mom didn't mean it, and Mom didn't want to hurt you either.It's all Dad's fault, it's because Dad doesn't love us, Ah Liang, Mom loves you, Mom only has you left.It's just you. '

Was the love she spoke of accompanied by beatings and hunger?

Every time he beat me, he cried and confessed to me.Every time Dad didn't come back, she would get angry at me and ask me to call Dad back.

It was like this every time, and my father came back less frequently.

She thought I was so useless that I couldn't keep Dad.I also feel that I am so useless, my arrival did not make their relationship so good.On the contrary, the gap is getting bigger and bigger, and my father is no longer inseparable from me and the family as he was when he was a child.

Even so, every time my father comes back, I am still very happy.There are delicious meals, gifts from Dad, a warm home, and the return of love.

Like is this moody?

Is love this kind of thing that brings harm to others?

Is marriage really the grave of a family? "

"It's not like this, it's not like this...like, love, marriage...it's not like this..." Ruan Nuan shook her head with tears, kept shaking her head, wrapped her arms around her waist, and buried herself in front of her.

"One year when I went back to the country, she quarreled with my father. She said that if he didn't come back, she would throw me away. My father said, whatever.

On that late autumn night, my mother opened the car door, pulled me out, and left me outside.I slammed on the car door, cried and begged her, but she didn't stop, didn't miss it, and drove away.

I was abandoned just like that, by someone who kept saying they loved me.

I lost my way alone in the deserted suburbs, walking and walking for a long time.

I dare not stop, dare not fall, I am afraid that if I fall, I will never be able to stand up again, and I will never be able to go home again.

I walked along the fine gravel road in the countryside, discerning the direction of the road in the dark.

The grass on the side of the road was covered with white frost, and the cold air froze from the feet to the face.

When the sun came out, there was an electric tricycle on the road.An old grandpa saw me and he took me to the hospital. "

Ruan Nuan lay on her chest, she raised her head to look at her face, but tears had blurred her vision.She could only see her pale face, pale lips, moving lips, tearing out a faint smile.

"Ruan Nuan, you said, liking and love are capricious and terrifying things."

Tears rolled down Ruan Nuan, she stood on tiptoe, sealed it with a kiss, covering her trembling cold lips.

The rain is pouring down, endlessly washing away the floating dust in the world.

Ruan Nuan didn't know how to kiss, she just clumsily pressed her lips against hers.

Her lips are warm, while Min Liang's lips are cold, giving her all the warmth.

"It's different." She loosened her lips and looked at her from a distance.

"Every emotion in the world is different. There is no same flower, no same emotion. Min Liang, I am different from them. After eating and being choked, do you never eat again Do you never run again after falling down while running? Are you going to cut off your arm if you hurt your finger? Because you are afraid of your parents’ love, you don’t want to have this kind of thing anymore?”

She took her hand and put it on her heart.

"You can feel it, right? You feel the same way about me. Min Liang, look straight into your heart, don't be immersed in the fear of the past. You are obviously such a brave person, you Obviously already tempted, do you have to bury all your love in the mud?"