It's better to be lingering (intentional whispering sequel)

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Sophie understands Kou Yaner's attention to pillows.Probably because of poor sleep, Kou Yan'er is always picky about the pillow's height and softness.Kou Yan'er must not be able to sleep well with such a pillow.

When Sophie was helping Kou Yaner to tidy the pillow, Kou Yaner smelled the familiar perfume on Sophie.Kou Yan'er suddenly had the urge to cry.

Kou Yan'er didn't realize that she wanted to see Sophie because of her inner fear, and a strong Sophie could give her some kind of psychological support.

It is impossible for Sophie to ignore the panic and dodge in Kou Yaner's eyes, even though Kou Yaner has already checked his face slightly, so as not to meet her eyes. Sophie stared intently at Kou Yaner's every expression, which was a habit, and even more concerned.

But Sophie is not sensational, and the empty consolation is meaningless.Everyone has a fear of uncertain risks, and there's no shame in that. Sophie is more concerned about specific problems, and her most urgent thing is to find a feasible solution.

Sophie quickly obtained some useful information, the process and symptoms of the disease, the information and diagnosis and treatment of the attending doctor, the intention of surgery tomorrow, and so on.

Kou Yaner stopped narrating wearily.Miraculously, this kind of exhaustion gave Kou Yan'er a feeling of relaxation.

"Sophie, will I die?" Kou Yaner suddenly asked quietly.

"Yes, we are all going to die, but not now." Sophie carefully pulled Kou Yan'er's hand hanging on the quilt. There was still a needle on the back of the hand. It is said that it was used for hanging needles, which could save the pain of needles every day. Sophie gently stroked the blood vessels on the back of her slightly bruised hand. "I'm older than you, so I'll die first, right?"

Kou Yan'er smiled softly, this was the first time she laughed these days, the smile was a bit tight, but it was a smile after all. "Of course not. Who is closer or farther to death than the other? Is it farther away from death when you are young? There are many forms of death, so the distance from death to everyone cannot be determined."

"Well, even if what you said makes sense, I don't think it's a big deal for you to be sick this time. Not being diagnosed doesn't mean it's a terminal illness. Not being diagnosed may be a problem with the medical level." Sophie replied in a positive tone.

"I didn't expect that I would be so afraid of death." Kou Yan'er smiled again, this smile was unnatural and a bit nervous.

"For humans, the only thing that is absolute is death. None of us can escape, so this fear is eternal and absolute. I still say that, we are all going to die, but not now." Sophie suppressed the emotion in her heart Uneasy, speaking with his usual firm tone.

"The doctor has been hinting that it may be terminally ill. It may also be that the so-called uncertainty is just to get solid evidence." Kou Yaner replied helplessly.

"Can I talk to your doctor in charge? After tomorrow's operation, if necessary, I can find a doctor in the United States. There are many people who are misdiagnosed."

"Thank you for your comfort. I have been thinking, if tomorrow's surgery test results are really cancer, should I treat it? At first I thought, I never want to treat it, I accept my fate. But then I thought, I'm not ready yet " Kou Yan'er's eyes were red, she bit her lip, unable to speak.She couldn't say the three words "little button".

Sophie didn't answer the words, but just held Kou Yan'er's hand tightly with her hands.At some point, language will seem pale and redundant.as it is now.No words can relieve the fear of death.Silence is often more comforting.

When we discuss the topic of death in ordinary life, we can be very rational, open-minded and fearless.But when we face death for ourselves or our loved ones, we are always helpless. We don’t know whether to encourage others to fight or appease them to accept their fate.

Because we know that we can never be ready for death.We know a lot of truths, but we still can't live a good life.We have sought various methods to resist the fear of death, using religion, writing, and a life of drunkenness, but all failed.

Sophie's silence and the warmth of her palms made Kou Yan'er gradually develop some confidence.

"It doesn't matter, at least I won't die tomorrow. Tomorrow is just an operation and an examination. Before the results come out, there is still a chance. It's like on a gambling table, the last card has not been turned, so don't let me die." despair."

Sophie stood up, leaned over and hugged Kou Yaner, and then gently pressed her cheek against Kou Yaner's face, "Yaner, I will come tomorrow. I love you."

Chapter 81 Chapter 81

81.

Xu Maimai has a lot of things to do, sending the old lady home, buying vegetables for cooking, and delivering meals to the hospital.Then I have to rush back to pick up the little button from school and sleep with the little button.

Xu Maimai was very happy with such a busy pace, she didn't have to stop.She didn't want to stop, and stopping made her think and scare her.

When Xu Xiaomai sent the rice to the hospital, Kou Yaner was sleeping. A vase and a bouquet of flowers suddenly appeared on the bedside table.Xu Xiaomai moved closer to the flowers, wanting to see if there were any pieces of paper or something.

"Sophie was here just now." Kou Yan'er woke up at some point.

"Oh, that's right." It's not surprising at all, if you send flowers and bring your own vase, it must be Sophie.Ever since Xu Xiaomai saw the gift from Sophie at Kou Yaner's house, the pair of wine glasses engraved with Kou Yaner's name, she knew that Sophie in the office was definitely not what she was in life. Romance is a kind of ability, not whether it can be done, but whether it can be imagined.

"Yan'er, get up and eat." Xu Maimai ended the topic of sending flowers lightly.This was both within her expectations and beyond her expectations.It was expected that Sophie would come, but what was unexpected was that Kou Yaner calmly accepted Sophie's visit.But these are not important, as long as Kou Yaner likes it, Xu Xiaomai will be happy.The only thing Xu Xiaomai was curious about was what they said just now.After Kou Yan'er fell ill, she didn't discuss her illness with Xu Xiaomai too much. It should be said that both of them avoided this topic a bit.

Xu Xiaomai sat by the bed and watched Kou Yaner eat.Kou Yan'er ate very slowly, she had no appetite, and she swallowed hard just to gain some strength.They did not speak.

It was Sophie again who broke the silence.She held two new pillows in her hands.

Xu Xiaomai sighed secretly, she had to admit again that love is a kind of ability.

People basically don't have any distracting thoughts at the juncture of life and death, and those things that are usually considered big have become irrelevant now.The reason is also very simple, death means that everything in this world is no longer related to you.Therefore, Kou Yan'er didn't explain anything about Sophie.

Xu Mai didn't need any explanation either.If the person you love is gone, your world will collapse. Apart from mourning, what is even more tragic is that you will continue to live in the ruins.

Death is God's most exquisite design.Without death, our lives are meaningless.People who cannot understand death correctly cannot know how to live.

There will be many false alarms in life, and their greatest significance is to force us to face death and re-evaluate our lives.

(Friends who know grapefruit peel must know that such a plot must be a false alarm.)

The test result was not cancer, but the doctor could not determine what it was after all.It's just that after using a lot of medicine, the inflammation slowly subsided.Various indicators are recovering.

"Yan'er, you're disfigured." Xu Xiaomai walked along the traffic without thinking, and was finally able to free up energy to tease Kou Yaner.Yan'er was discharged from the hospital today.Xu Mai's nervous mood relaxed a little.

"I know, I know." Yan'er replied pretending to be angry.

A red scar on Kou Yan'er's neck was very eye-catching.That is the mark left by the operation.The surgery took longer than expected and the wound was larger and deeper than expected.The doctor defended the operation, but no one questioned it. The focus was on the test results, not the scars.As long as the test result is satisfactory, it is better than anything else.