Lin Shu's Diary

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I was indeed wrong, in everyone's opinion.In my opinion, it is nothing more than excavating human libido instinct.

The twists and turns with Amin made me understand a lot: don't try to change your nature for any feelings, it is unlikely to be completely loved by the person you want to please, and you will also suffer from the pain of depression.

Just three days after breaking up with Amin, Amin came to me again. He tried to exchange our reunion with a kind of magnanimity, which was very blunt.He said no matter what I did, he still didn't know how to leave me.

If it was before, I would be very moved, but now, I have foreseen the future, my desire for freedom and Amin's desire for control are destined to be unable to coexist peacefully.We were not suitable, but we were all making do in the name of love.

I calmly told him my true thoughts. I knew that in his view, I was just looking for reasons for cheating. He said that I didn't know how to cherish and didn't know what to do.When he said this, I knew that my choice was right, he never really understood me, he loved himself more than me.Wanting to get back together is nothing more than wanting to get me. In his eyes, I am like an object, something he should have, not a lover with flesh and blood and his own soul.He was never willing to try to understand the problem from my point of view, only from his own point of view, he always thought that my temper was a little bit wild, and I had a bit of potential to let go, so he has been "monitoring" me very seriously, Don't let me have the possibility of letting go.

But this kind of feeling is not what I want, I am tightly controlled, and I can't breathe.Amin was never willing to understand the repressed thoughts in his heart. He would only say that I had some psychological problems, but he would never give up on me. He would always be with me and use his positive attitude to make me heal.He just wants to change me and make me like him, not understand why I have those weird thoughts.

Amin left angrily.My heart trembled a bit, but it was more relaxed, which I didn't expect.

I am with that man.I didn't ask his name, and he didn't ask me.I would never spend the night with him, but he took me to his house.It turned out that he was not the poor boy I thought. His home was much richer than mine. It was a small independent villa in the outskirts.On the wall of the desk are pasted four big brush characters of "Shang Shan Ruo Shui". The writing is strong, and the person who wrote it must be a person with great perseverance.He said he wrote it casually.

This study made me have a great affection for him. When I was a young girl, I vowed to fall in love with a person who loves reading, but Amin told the truth, I couldn't read a single book.

I didn't ask him what he does specifically, but just looking at the exquisite study layout, he should be a rich man.This made me a little unhappy, even a little conflicted.Yes, don't like too rich.

After leaving the study, his younger sister just came back with a yellow-haired boy, his brows immediately frowned, the two of us stood together, his sister and little yellow-haired stood together, quite like well-behaved parents See rebellious children in adolescence.

His sister is far more hostile to me than he is to that little huangmao.

Seeing me, his younger sister, who was originally elated, pouted her red lips angrily. Two big earrings abruptly accompanied her immature face, and her hip-hop jeans made her look a little sloppy. Boyish.But the boy beside her was so timid that he was about to die, with a look of fear and sincerity.

"This is the girlfriend you're looking for, I don't think it's good." The little sister was provocative as soon as she came up, and lay arrogantly on the sofa in the living room, looking like she was waiting for the war.He was obviously a little embarrassed, "I'm sorry, I was spoiled by me, don't mind."

I have nothing to mind, but I'm curious how he told my little sister about me, and why she reacted so strongly?

He took me to the study and let me sit for a while, I nodded happily, it would be better to visit the study than feel the murderous aura outside the house.Read a book for a while, then withdraw.

Not long after, there was a roaring sound in the living room, and I hurried out.I saw the little girl holding a fruit knife emotionally and aggressively putting it on her neck, saying that she must give birth to a child and marry Mike. I think that little yellow hair is probably Mike. .

He was very nervous and wanted to grab the knife, but he didn't dare to get close. He loved his little sister very much, and he was afraid that this desperate master would really do something out of the ordinary.She was indeed a ruthless one, with blood dripping from her neck.What exactly happened?Why this deadlock?

This is also the first time I have seen this kind of scene, the little huangmao was so frightened that he knelt down at the little girl's feet, but no one had the guts to do anything under the posture of this "tigress" roaring and cursing.

I walked behind my little sister, and when I was about to snatch the knife, she suddenly turned around and stabbed the tip of the knife at me, a blow I was caught off guard, which I never expected.I fell down slowly, my body was attacked by pain and gradually became numb, I still saw her frightened expression and the fruit knife stained with my blood from the corner of my eye.

It's all about nothing.Inexplicably involved in an inexplicable dispute.However, the moment I fell down, I seemed to understand something.The horror in her eyes and the smile at the corner of her mouth made me understand that this should be the so-called revenge. This blow, when this man and I looked at her and her little lover like parents, had already been buried. The seeds were planted.

"I thought we depended on each other, why did you suddenly break in?"

This sentence suddenly floated in my mind, is this also my revenge for failing Amin?Am I wrong?

Chapter 5 Leia/Redemption

August 17, 6

"It's only been three months. Look at you. Everyone is fine. You are the only one who is special. Isn't it exciting?"

Leia complained about me while peeling an apple.Her complexion is much better than it was six years ago, but the melancholy has not diminished. Her fingers are still slender and beautiful, her cheeks have become sharper, her hair has been grown longer, and she looks more temperamental. Unattainable coldness.But I know, she is still the Leia in my memory.

Leia came to see me this time, I was surprised, we haven't seen each other since graduation, almost six years.There are frequent contacts, but when it comes to meeting, I feel guilty, so forget it.Fortunately, she is studying in Australia and has no time to come back.

I always pay attention to all her movements, is she sick?Are you in a good mood?Are you doing well in your studies?Is there anything wrong with you? ······

Every time I go to a good place, I will send her a postcard, and every time I feel that she is not in good condition, I will write an email to comfort her.No pompous pretty talk, just friend babble, but she said it made her feel a lot better every time I uttered that crap.

"There is no sympathy, and there is no need to comfort others in a miserable way. I just accompany you quietly and say a few ordinary words at critical moments. Lin Shu, this is the most touching thing about you."

Leia said in the letter, to be honest, I am very happy, really, I am very happy to be appreciated by her.I think I am happy when she is happy, and I am more sad than her when she is anxious and sad.I am willing to accompany you without complaint, no matter what happens.

In my life, I will love no one more than Alea, I think.But this feeling cannot let her know, this is my last love for her.

Leia said, I thought Amin and I would break up long ago, but I didn't expect that it would lead to marriage, yes, it would lead to marriage.

I am like a worm bound in a cocoon, peeling off the wrapped skin layer by layer, trying to break free from this bondage, but the cocoon is too hard and too thick, making it impossible to see any hope.

In fact, in the final analysis, whether it is a cocoon or a rope, it is nothing more than being forced on yourself. If you are determined not to want it, no one can stop you.Amin and I, do we really love each other?It's more of a habit, it's just possession.Lin Shu, you care too much about what other people think, and you gradually let yourself struggle between release and self-defense, making yourself into an unbearable appearance, and you are sorry for those "they" who you think are trying to compromise in order not to let them down.