Why do you need to ask Nianhua?

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When my mother cried and said that Su Xin was gay, she was stunned for a moment. She didn't want to understand, so she was dragged by her father to call Su Xin, and she was talking about what her parents had conveyed, but just as she opened her mouth, she was hung up up.Facing the anger, anger, and sadness of my parents, I feel a little dazed.

When I came to City C, I couldn't explain why I came here. I didn't have my parents' instigation, but I just wanted to go.Su Xin has grown up a lot, and is very different from the child in his memory.During the conversation, I understood her ideal, the life she expected, and her happiness.I can't help but want to know their stories and what kind of process can make them trust each other so frankly.

After seeing Jiang Gu, it seemed that all the mysteries were solved. A delicate and excellent woman always seems to have a distant distance from others, but she can treat Su Xin with unreserved tenderness.If there was a mentality of accepting it intellectually and withholding emotionally before, then since meeting Jiang Gu, he has let go of everything.

In the room, tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep, the memory of my youth had been dusty for a long time, but now it seems that everything has been uncovered and returned to my mind and heart.

Seeing Su Xin getting close to Jiang Gu, watching Su Xin worry about Jiang Gu's diet, serving her food, a shadow flickered in his mind, once, there was a person who treated him like this.Perhaps, if he hadn't accidentally lifted that layer of gauze and escaped hastily at the beginning, everything might be different now.I don't want to give myself time to think and remember, so I kept talking, but I just forgot that there is still a long time to live alone.It turned out that it wasn't that I had forgotten it, but that it had been closed all the time, and I didn't want to remember it, and I needed a key to open it.

When I saw Jing for the first time in the United States, my eyes lit up instantly. It was a beautiful woman, different from Jiang Gu's first glance of indifference, her whole body exuded a quiet and peaceful atmosphere.She likes to smile, it seems that at any time, she is smiling, but on the day of leaving, I still saw the tears flowing down her cheeks, there was no sound, just flowing quietly.

Jing is a Chinese-American who has lived in the United States since she was a child. However, she speaks very standard Chinese, which made my affection for her soar.People in foreign countries hope to meet like-minded friends, and Jing is the one who hits me very well.

After more than five years of getting along, getting to know her as well as getting to know myself, taking care of me has become her habit.After the first failed love, she was locked in the room without eating or drinking, but she still smiled and opened the door with the key, comforting her in a warm voice.At that time, looking at that smile, I felt it was unusually dazzling, and asked her angrily: "Why are you always smiling? Why are you still smiling now?"

I remember she still smiled and said: "When I was young, before my mother passed away, she told me that there are many sad people in the world because they don't know how to smile, and they don't know how to face everything with a smile, so I started to learn to smile. , can't be changed..."

Leaning weakly on the pillow, it turns out that I have never forgotten everything, I remember everything, and I remember it very clearly.

After losing the game, he once hid alone on the corner of the street, looked at the passers-by, and cried with grievance. From daytime to night, the heavy rain suddenly poured down, but there was an umbrella covering his head. Looking up, It was still the same smiling and quiet, but the whole body was soaked and the hair was messy.She still smiled and said: "Go home..." In her beautiful pupils, she clearly reflected herself, the young and ignorant self.

In my memory, she never seems to be angry, but only smiles.When I was far away from her, I thought that such a person would live happily; after getting in touch with her a lot, I found that such a person lived the most tiring life, because I always wanted to hide the truest emotions in my heart.

Many people are puzzled by my sudden return home, but only I truly understand that it is a kind of escape, a kind of avoidance.Is it because I was young and didn't know how to love? Or the heart at that time was not strong enough and brave enough.If he was as firm as Su Xin and Jiang Gu, maybe he would not have seen her tears.

I overheard her conversation with her friend, and felt flustered, because she said "I love Su Wei, so I will wait forever", the feeling at that moment was panic, panic, but no joy, she The love is beyond my cognition.

I no longer sleep in the same bed with her, and I am no longer intimate with her. Once I thought it was friendship, but I was at a loss when I learned that it was her love.I started to hide from her, started to avoid getting along with her, until she still came to me with a smile and asked me: "Why are you avoiding me."

I didn't answer, and I didn't know how to answer, but at that time, it was clearly imprinted in my heart that her love was wrong!

She still smiled: "Su Wei, don't avoid me. I love you, love you very much, I don't need you to respond to me now, I just hope that you can give me a chance and let me wait."

I thought that as long as she didn't speak to me, we could still maintain this lukewarm relationship. However, the moment she spoke, all hesitation disappeared, and I just wanted to escape.After studying and working, go home and return to the country of love without such mistakes.

On the day of returning to China, she still came, standing behind everyone, smiling and crying. When I saw her crying, I wanted to put down the luggage in my hand and wipe it for her.It's just that my rationality told me, no! Turning around, I seemed to see her smile disappear for the first time, and she was just crying quietly.

After returning to China, I have contacted all my friends, but I have not contacted her alone.Deleted her number, her msn, but found that those had already been imprinted in my heart, clearly remembered.

Deliberately forgetting, I dare not remember her for a long time, if there is no Su Xin, maybe, I will not let myself think about that time, that person.

Quietly thinking about her messily in the dark, and fell asleep unknowingly about her.

Looking at the clouds flashing by in front of me on the plane, my thoughts start to fly again unconsciously. Some things, once started, can’t be stopped.The guilt and longing for her, from the beginning, can't be stopped, eroding my thoughts bit by bit.I started thinking, imagining, what would everything be like if I contacted her?

Will she not be the smiling, quiet Jing? Will she not be the Jing who likes to take care of herself and pamper herself? Or maybe she already has her own new life, married and started a family? Or maybe , I can't contact her anymore, can't find her?

Maybe everyone's growth will have a story buried deep in his heart, a person buried deep in his heart.That story, that person, went very far, but not very far.A longing sprouted from the bottom of my heart, I want to see her again, I want to see her smile again, and then, no matter what the ending is, there will be no regrets.

When I got off the plane, the first thing I did was not to go home, but to stand at the airport, dial the number I had always kept in my heart, and wait nervously for the answer...

Just a few seconds, but it made me feel unusually long. It was not until the strange but familiar "Hello..." came from the phone that my heart began to settle down.Very scared, there will be a cold female voice, telling myself that the number has become an empty number.

"Hello?" she said again, puzzled.

Suddenly I don't know how to speak, what to say, holding the phone in silence.

After a few seconds of silence together, she finally spoke again: "Is it Su Wei?"

I was stunned for a moment, but still answered: "Yes..." Suddenly, I realized that I hadn't thought about it, would she no longer want to have contact with me? Contacting her, would it become a kind of interruption.

"Finally waiting for your call..." Her voice was full of joy and emotion...

Waiting? Could it be that she has been waiting? Can I think so?

"I want to see you, can I?" I waited anxiously for her answer, I was afraid to hear her refusal.