ugly duckling don't cry

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When a girl likes a person, it should start from the appearance.Especially young girls are very hard to resist this point, Tan Yurong can't help but feel a little funny when thinking about herself back then, because she was indeed the same.

Looking back now, I am not without regrets. In fact, I did have a tendency to look at the association back then. I didn't have any feelings for Lian Ersheng at first, but when she lost weight, everything changed.The first time I fell in love with her was when she walked in from the gymnasium when she reported for duty in the first year of high school.But at that time, she also discovered one thing, that is, Wen Yanxin was actually attracted to her at the same time.

But she is different from Wen Yanxin. Wen Yanxin's temptation has something deeper in it, and her initial attraction was only because of her appearance.

However, Tan Yurong never felt that there is any inexplicable rule in love that loses at the starting line. Even if her admiration for her starts from her appearance, it does not mean that her love is shorter than Wen Yanxin's love for her up one end.

So, when did my love for her shift from her appearance to a deeper level?Thinking back carefully, it was around the time of military training in high school.In fact, Lian Ersheng was very obvious at that time, and he really noticed her unusual feelings for him.At that time, my only feeling was panic and I didn't know what to do.In fact, being flustered meant that he had fallen in love with her and started to think about some consequences.If she really just has some admiration for her appearance, then she should quickly reject and distance herself.But I didn't. After some panic, I chose to maintain the status quo for the time being.

I still remember that time, when I went to class in the city center and was pestered by Sun Yang, she was the first thing that came to my mind at that time.I hope she can come, I hope she can appear in front of me immediately, I hope I can see her standing in front of me.When a girl starts to look forward to each other in this way, the love is actually not far away.

For a long time after that, in Tan Yurong's impression, the relationship between her and Lian Ersheng has been constantly distant and close, ambiguous.I have been struggling and entangled in the shackles of some secular rules, and I dare not accept such a relationship.I also thought about staying away from her, but when I saw her, all the psychological construction I had done before collapsed in a second.In this repeated emotional recognition and denial, she found that she had no way to deny this feeling, or ignore it.I want to love her well, I want to have a good relationship with her, and I don't care about anything. At that time, my love is already deeply rooted.

Does love need to be divided into reasons? Does it need to be divided into motives? Does it need to be divided into nobleness and humbleness? Tan Yurong never feels that her love is inherently insufficient compared with others.She loves, that is, love, it is so pure, whether it is because of appearance or other.Maybe she was attracted by her appearance at first, but after that she accepted a complete Lian Ersheng, with advantages and disadvantages, she couldn't put it down.She believed that even Ersheng was just like her, loved so deeply and never regretted it. 273/275 First page Previous page 271272273274275 Next page Last page

So, why? Why didn't they get together?

Thinking of this, Tan Yurong's nose turned sour, and tears filled her eyes once again.She closed the book, pursed her lips hard, stared at the scenery outside the window, widened her eyes, waiting for the tears to be dried by the wind, but they still flowed down uncontrollably.

In March 2014, the spring breeze brought warmth and the earth revived. It was rare for Tan Yurong to rest at home today without an announcement. She brewed a cup of jasmine tea and sat quietly on the balcony of the apartment basking in the sun.

It's been the fourth year since we broke up with her, and when I think about it occasionally, my heart still hurts.

But compared to the moment when we just broke up, I don't know how many times easier I am now.At that time, I couldn't even remember myself, the pain was so painful that I almost forgot about that pain.Cut off contact with his parents, struggled alone under the control of Sun Yang, held his breath when working, and was completely numb when not working, so much so that he didn’t remember how he got here all the way to the present up.The only impression left is the painful touch of biting the root of the tooth.

What exactly did she rely on to get through it? Looking back now, I find it incredible.

Two days ago, seeing her name appear on the most popular Chinese manga, the eye-catching word "director" made her feel complicated.Proud and lost, gratified and sad.She did it, and she never doubted her talent.However, the results of her hard work to this day have nothing to do with herself, and the rest is only hidden in her works, the emotions that only she can experience.

Sorry, very sorry.

Before I knew it, my heart ached again.

In the middle of the night on September 2014, [-], the Taipei Arena concert ended. In the hotel suite, Tan Yurong was soaking in the bathtub, and her fatigue seemed to be evaporating with the steam.

Inadvertently, she suddenly remembered that she had helped herself to drain water, get clothes for herself, and brush her hair for herself.Whispering in his ear, his slender fingers brushed his hair, touching his scalp gently, and the base of his ear felt hot.Now that feeling seems to remain, a feeling of heat overflowing my heart.

In the next week's itinerary, there is a plan to go to Japan for publicity, and I will pass through the city of Kyoto. I suddenly become nervous and don't know whether I should meet her.I really miss her, but my reason tells me that they can't meet each other.Once we meet, all the pain in the past will be awakened in an instant, and all the healed scars will be torn in an instant, and they who have spent four years of hard work in healing may be beaten back to their original shape in an instant.

Why? Why do some people can easily get out of a relationship without taking a long time, but she took so long and never got better? I still miss her very much, still love her very much, and still want to be with her.The thought of them never going back to the past made my heart ache.

Perhaps only after breaking up, people can examine how much they have paid for this relationship, how much love they have, and how painful it is.

During the trip to Japan, I still had no time to find her.In Kyoto, she only stayed for a short day.Either at the announcement site, or in the car, or in the hotel.Looking at this strange but familiar city, I thought that it was the first time in four years that I was so close to her.Inexplicably, there is a kind of joy, but after two seconds, it will be beaten back to the prototype of sadness.

As a result, time seemed to become more and more difficult, and suddenly wanted to escape here, the air seemed to become thinner.

2015 New Year's Eve party, at 03:30 in the morning, in the dressing room of the TV station, there is no sleep tonight, the fifth year is coming.Her father just called, but she didn't answer.He has changed his mobile phone number three times, and he doesn't know how he found his own number again.It has been many years since the relationship was severed, and occasionally I feel soft-hearted. As a woman, I have not fulfilled my filial piety, and I also feel guilty in my heart.But, thinking of what they had done to herself and Liansheng, she couldn't forgive.That was a deep hurt, and it couldn't be covered up by saying "We are your parents, there is no overnight feud in the family."

They still fail to realize how serious the injury they have caused to themselves, and now they have been walking with such wounds for five years.

It feels like it's time to take a breather.

This year's work, I want to give up three months and take a long-term trip.The goal is Europe, self-guided travel, and a complete travel plan is going to be made from now on.

So in June, she set out with a simple bag on her back.The first stop is Italy, and then take the Eurorail to travel to France, Spain, Switzerland, the Netherlands and Germany.There will be many small countries passing by in the middle, and they will not stay for too long, but the customs are kept in mind.

How to say that sentence, the world is so big, I want to see it.The purse is not small, so leave early.It's not like she is so sad to make fun of herself like this.But traveling did make her feel a lot easier, let go a lot, and see a lot more.There are so many people in this world, so many things, so colorful, rich and beautiful, but she is imprisoned in a small space by herself, hurting spring and autumn, pitying herself all day long, but she can only use "hypocrisy" Two words to describe.