The awkward me and the rational she

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what can i say

Why am I unwilling to speak the truth freely?

It turns out that I also subconsciously think that our relationship cannot be aboveboard?

Then I vowed to be responsible for what I said before, was it all a moment of whim?

"Ah, girls are really gossips. If Senior Sister Gu Yi is gay, how could she come here to give a speech at the award ceremony? Don't be pretentious, listen to the speech carefully."

I looked at Yu Shu who was talking in the row in front of me.

Some people who did not give up said: "But You Yang has been silent for so long, there seems to be something wrong?"

Yu Shu smiled and said, "You Yang was always in a daze, what you said is too scary."

I followed his words and smiled at everyone.Everyone didn't ask any more questions, and went to appreciate and discuss Gu Yi's demeanor again.

But my heart was more panicked than ever.

Am I making everything too simple?

Guyi never showed his heart in the past, maybe it wasn't that he was less brave than me, but that he had considered issues that I hadn't considered.Under my recklessness, I made a mistake and broke it.She didn't hide our relationship from Senior Brother Du and Senior Brother Lu, but I didn't dare to admit it in front of my classmates.

Really, really bad.

End of speech, free dissolution.I walked downstairs slowly and sat down on a bench by the side of the road.

The academic exchange building is right in front of you, and the lights make the building look more gorgeous and romantic than it is during the day.The people who listened to the speech dispersed, leaving behind a couple of quiet couples holding hands, hugging, laughing and kissing openly.

can i do this

"If Senior Sister Gu Yi is gay, how could she still give a speech here while awarding awards and judging the best."

Yu Shu's words also made me very concerned.

My relationship with Guyi will definitely affect these things.

Ugh.

The phone rang, and it was Gu Yi.

I really can't handle it right now.

Then I saw her coming out of the exit, and she also saw me and walked towards me.

"Why don't you answer the phone, let's go?" She held out her hand to me.

I really want to hold her hand.

It's so dark now, shouldn't it matter?

I was about to reach out, but I saw Yu Shu approaching, and in desperation, put my mobile phone in Gu Yi's hand.

Gu Yi was confused, so I quickly stood up and greeted Yu Shu: "Hi, Yu Shu."

Yu Shu said: "It's so late, you all live off-campus, let me see you off."

Guyi replied casually: "Oh, it doesn't matter, we live together, just go together."

As soon as I said the words, I immediately became nervous, looking at Yu Shu's face, for fear that he would think of something.

Hearing what Guyi said, he just groaned and nodded at first, then his eyes froze, his eyeballs moved slightly to the left, obviously recalling something... Sure enough, he looked at me slowly, first with suspicious eyes, Then maybe my expression was really weird, and his suspicious eyes quickly turned into surprise.

Gu Yi didn't know how complicated our inner world had gone through, so he was at a loss and asked, "What's wrong with you?"

I smiled awkwardly, and Yu Shu said, "Oh, it's nothing, Senior Sister, then be careful on the way back, I'll be leaving first."

"good."

Yu Shu turned and left.Guyi wanted to hold my hand, but I avoided it again.

When we were looking at each other, Qiao Jia and a few classmates came over, and I greeted them with a smile, trying to make them ignore the scary expression of Guyi today.

"Are you still with Senior Sister so late?"

"Hmm! It's all my fault that I didn't do things well, and I still bother Senior Sister at such a late hour."

After a few pleasantries, this group of people also left.

Gu Yi's face was still very serious, she rarely used this expression to face others.

"Is that what I think?" Gu Yi asked.

I didn't dare to look at her face and bowed my head silently.

She was also silent for a while, then handed me the mobile phone I had just put in her hand, then turned and left.

The author has something to say: After finishing this, I am going to start writing the script. I have thought about the new pit, but I will finish this first!

☆, crisis escalation

Gu Yi's disappointed expression made my whole heart twist.Looking at her back as she turned and left, my tears fell in clusters.

I thought I was so great that I could go on a hunger strike for the sake of Gu Yi.It was only when I was faced with unfamiliar classmates and in the small world of school that I realized that the hunger strike was just because I figured that my parents would not let me really starve to death, so I dared to be so self-willed and cruel? In the end, I just let everyone do it for me. I was worried, and my parents were hit one after another, so they had to accept my coming out.

What’s so great about this? First you hurt your parents, and now you hurt Guyi in order to maintain a sense of security in your relationship with your classmates! Since you want security so much! Don’t get close to Guyi at the beginning! How dare you say it’s done and say it for yourself If you pass, prepare responsibly, heh, it’s ridiculous!

It's ridiculous.

I followed Guyi silently, crying and annoyed and at a loss as I walked.When I walked to the school gate, Gu Yi stopped a car and said to me: "You can take this to go home, I'm going home today."

……

……

Five days have passed.

Guyi never came back to live.

We can only meet each other in the teaching and research section, and the communication between meetings is only a matter of the subject.

Sometimes I counted the time when she came to the college and tried to create chance encounters on the road, but I could only see her passing me by in that red jeep.

So... that means it's over, right?

I started not going to school.

Instead of going to school to face that kind of Guyi, I would rather stay in a space with many good memories.

Thinking back, it was exactly a year ago when Gu Yi and I met again, and Yuan Qi invited her to dinner, and we gradually got in touch. After Yuan Qi went to Beijing for the National Day, she moved into this house.My work was not going well, I quit my postgraduate entrance examination, and Gu Yi tried his best to help me.On the night of the New Year's Eve, I kissed her lips for the first time while I was drunk.The birthday present I prepared for her has not yet been sent out. The first time I saw Yunduo made me sleepless all night.She helped me settle the turmoil of the re-examination, and finally had the opportunity to take care of her after the fracture.Correcting papers with her is a quiet and simple little happiness.The drama of my birthday, I finally tried my best to be with her...

When everything seemed to only get better and better, I suddenly noticed that we live in a society where people live in a congregate, people are fearful, and people are fearful. I don't know if I take her hand and walk out with only us What kind of risks and consequences will there be in this small world, snickering in the distance.I just vaguely feel that those risks and consequences may be beyond my imagination.

A few days later, National Day is here.The Shimen group was discussing group outings, so I had to use my illness as an excuse to say that I couldn't go.

Unexpectedly, early the next morning, I received a call from Senior Brother Du.Ask me what's wrong, where I am and so on.Not long after, I found my mother's house.

My mother went grocery shopping, and I was the only one at home.Brother Du came alone and brought some headache medicine, as well as fruits and snacks. He said that he was really embarrassed to leave me for a group trip, so he expressed condolences to me on behalf of the teacher.

After only staying for a few minutes, I was about to leave. Before I left, I hesitated to say anything. In the end, I just said that I would not be absent from class after I recovered from my illness, and then I left with a smile.

I closed the door and put the things he brought into the refrigerator, only to realize that the fruits are all my favorite fruits, and the snacks are also my favorite snacks...

Wouldn't it be so coincidental...

Could it be?

I quickly ran to the window and looked down. Sure enough, there was a red jeep leaving...

……

It turns out that Gu Yi still cares about me!

So after the holidays, I started to go to school again.Although Guyi still treats me like a normal junior, I gradually feel that having this kind of contact is better than not having any contact at all.