Sister, please stop

The house was dark, she went upstairs, this time she rang the doorbell without hesitation, but no one answered for a long time.

Zhao Han retreated to the stairwell again, smoking a cigarette while calling Guan Nan, and it took a long time to answer the ring. Guan Nan seemed to be preparing, and asked her: "Zhao Han, are you and Xiaoshi having a fight?"

Zhao Han didn't want to explain, but what Guan Nan guessed, she agreed with a hum: "Where is she?"

Guan Nan didn't know what dropped something, and heard a slap on the phone: "You have the ability to provoke people, don't ask me where you are? You are falling out of love, and you still have trouble with Ren Xiaoshi, are you right?" stupid?"

Zhao Han still followed suit: "Well, yes, where is she?"

"Going back to my hometown. If I hadn't taken the time to visit her today, she wouldn't have told me, oh, Xiaoshi this time..."

Zhao Han didn't finish listening to her, and hung up the phone after thanking her.

Zhao Han used to go to Shi Jiu’s hometown with Guan Nan. The place is far away, and it’s unrealistic to take a taxi. Zhao Han went to the nearest car rental company to rent a car, drove there, and Guan Nan called again on the way. A little angry: "Zhao Han, what's wrong with you, why did you hang up the phone before you finished talking?"

Zhao Han perfunctory: "Hand shaking, I didn't pay attention."

Guan Nan heard something was wrong: "Where are you? You went to find Xiaoshi? What's the matter with you? Ask Xiaoshi and don't say anything, ask you... Forget it, it's useless to ask you! You go now, when will you ask?" return?"

"decide as things go."

Guan Nan sighed, like a worried old mother: "I don't know what's going on with you two, but Xiaoshi just broke up with her, and she was in a bad mood. Since you are looking for her, talk to her It's time to change your temper, speak well, and speak enthusiastically. Even if Xiaoshi has a bad attitude, it's understandable that he is in a broken relationship. Don't be anxious with others. Think about how Xiaoshi used to be. I was worried about you!"

Zhao Han knew it, and drove all the way to Shi Jiu's hometown. When he arrived at Di'er, he walked around the village for a long time, and finally found his way, and arrived near Shi Jiu's house.

The houses in the village here are all small two-story bungalows built by themselves. The gates painted red and gold are facing the intersection, and there is a huge street lamp on the porch.

Zhao Han stopped the car, stared at the streetlights in a daze, not sure what to say when he saw Shi Jiu, and then thought that she was breaking into someone's house, but she didn't even have a symbolic gift, and she habitually wanted to light a cigarette , someone knocked on the car window, Zhao Han opened the window, and there was an uncle's face outside, very enthusiastically: "Who are you looking for? Are you looking for Lao Shi? Or lost?"

Seeing her driving here late at night, but not getting out of the car for a long time, I came to ask out of curiosity.

Zhao Han didn't want to provoke Shi Jiu, and was just about to say that he was walking casually, when the door of Shi Jiu's house creaked open, Zhao Han raised his head, Shi Jiu was standing at the door, and looked at Zhao Han face to face.

Zhao Han had no choice but to get out of the car, but was stopped by Shi Jiu. She turned around and said something to the people in the house, and went out and got into Zhao Han's car.

Full of calculations, Zhao Han and Shi Jiu didn't meet each other only on Zhou Tian, ​​maybe because of a cold, maybe because of other reasons, Zhao Han always felt as if they hadn't seen each other for a long, long time.

Zhao Han looked at Shi Jiu, Shi Jiu lowered his head, and smiled bitterly: "You drive forward, and talk while driving."

Zhao Han responded, and the car drove out amidst the bright lights on both sides of the road. The light and shadow of the street lamps entered the car in a staggered manner, and the light spots streaked across the faces of the two of them. Shi Jiu said slowly: "I didn't think about you I will come." I couldn't tell whether Zhao Han's reckless visit was rejected or welcomed.

Zhao Han stopped the car by the side of the road, sincerely: "I don't know how I can't come, Xiaojiu..."

Shi Jiu stretched out his hand to stop Zhao Han's words, and seemed to look at Zhao Han helplessly: "Zhao Han, you are cruel to me, you look like this, I... am in a mess, the emotional thing is not moving..." Shi Jiu endured it, and smiled: "What do you want me to do?" Finally, a tear rolled down his cheek.

Zhao Han rubbed his brows, and said firmly: "I came to take you back... No, I invite you to go back with me. Xiaojiu, I'm not touched... I didn't know... I didn't know that you would like girls, Otherwise, you won’t notice it…”

Shi Jiuding didn't want to shed tears in front of Zhao Han because of this little thing, but when she laughed, she could only smile bitterly: "Zhao Han, we are different, you like girls, so you like Luo Qingbai, I, hey, I don't like girls..." I just fell in love with you by accident.

Zhao Han thought about the truth of these words, and wanted to smoke.

She learned to smoke when she was taking the postgraduate entrance examination, and she has never had any addictions, just like what Luo Qingbai said, when she was in a bad mood... Thinking of Luo Qingbai again, Zhao Han immediately stopped the car, smoking is real recently She is addicted, smoking addiction makes her feel a little uncomfortable, she rubbed her fingers on the steering wheel, and when she calmed down, she was willing to say what was in her heart: "Xiao Jiu, I used to be an asshole, I have 1 bad things, 1 insensitive , but in the future..." She looked at Shi Jiu seriously, and even wanted Shi Jiu to look at her and listen to her.

When Shi Jiu heard the next two words, she did raise her tear-filled eyes, but she interrupted Zhao Han's future promise and asked instead: "Zhao Han, tell me, just like now, you What were you thinking when you looked at me?"

Chapter 22 Chapter 22

Now, as it is now, you look at me, what's on your mind?

Shi Jiu asked.

Aside from the topic of whether he likes this kind of love or not, Zhao Han and Shi Jiu have other friendships, people who have been together for more than ten years, in this situation, facing this problem, it is very difficult for Zhao Han to lie, he only paused for a moment before wanting to be honest, But before she had time to speak, Shi Jiu suddenly put his hand on her shoulder and leaned closer.

It is a gesture intended to kiss.

Zhao Han retreated an inch instinctively, and suddenly, her heart became clear like lightning, and she immediately froze and did not hide anymore.

But Shi Jiu had already retreated.

Silence, long and sticky silence, Zhao Han felt that opening his mouth was just a cover-up.

It was Shi Jiu who spoke first: "This is the difference."

"I wasn't ready just now..." This is a lie, Zhao Han said it with confidence, almost whispering, his eyes dodged, and he lowered his head.

Shi Jiu looked at her with a smile and saw that Zhao Han wanted to put his head under the steering wheel.

What was Zhao Han thinking just now?What she was thinking about was how to bring Shi Jiu back, how to explain to Shi Jiu's family, how to do a good job of living in harmony with Shi Jiu's family for a long time, how to treat Shi Jiu better, and even fantasized about the relationship between the two of them. Days, the mundane and warmness of firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar and tea, how to reconcile after quarreling...

But Shi Jiu didn't think so.

Zhao Han thought of everything in this short moment, but he didn't think of what Shi Jiu thought of.

Shi Jiu pulled the hunchbacked Zhao Han to sit up straight. Shi Jiu really liked this person. She was so sad at this juncture, but seeing her like this, she almost felt distressed and wanted to laugh. She sighed: "Zhao Han , if you are a man, I like you so much, even if you don't like me, based on our friendship, based on you, I believe you can treat me well, even very well, for this, I can be with you."

"But... I can't explain to my family. Fortunately, you don't like me... Zhao Han, sometimes I envy Luo Qingbai. No one cares about the benefits."

Zhao Han remained silent, wondering if he had made the right trip this time.

Shi Jiu comforted her: "Go back, don't think about me, think about you and Luo Qingbai, live a better life, you are too worrying."

Zhao Han heard the meaning of parting, and immediately called out: "Xiao Jiu..."

Shi Jiu heard her panic from this call, and her composure was instantly broken by this call, and she said angrily, "Zhao Han, don't force me, what do you want from me? You don't like me, don't you?" Wrong, is it wrong for me to like you?" With unprecedented severity, Zhao Han could only remain silent.

Shi Jiu said: "Take me back, and you go back too."

Zhao Han started the car obediently.

It only took a short distance, and it didn't take long to go back. The two of them sat in the car with expressionless faces. They stopped the car in front of Shi Jiu's house. open the door.

It is human nature to be afraid of losing.

Therefore, Shi Jiu softened his heart first, and his tone slowed down: "Go back, I have to go to work tomorrow."

Zhao Han hummed, feeling unsure, and asked: "Xiao Jiu, are you back?"

"Come back, I'll come back when you and Luo Qingbai get better." She still felt that she shouldn't use this to poke Zhao Han's pain. Don't worry, I just need time, just ignore me for now, I... When I get better, I will..." What about her?

It doesn't matter whether Zhao Han is with Luo Qingbai or someone else, as long as it's not with her, she will be embarrassed.

"I'm alright, I'll let you know, don't worry. Alright, let me get out of the car."

After Shi Jiu got out of the car, he said goodbye to Zhao Han, smiling, as if he was more relaxed than ever, Zhao Han just hummed, and the car drove out.

Halfway through the drive, far enough away from Shi Jiu's village, he pulled over and stopped. Zhao Han was lying on the steering wheel, unable to move for a long time.

Zhao Han came back too late and did not return the car. He drove the rented car to work the next day, and when he entered the office, someone laughed and said, "Xiao Zhao has a date today? This is made up!"

Zhao Han grinned: "I'm going to see my mother today."

It's really a mess recently, with dark circles under the eyes, a disheveled face, even the lips are bloodless white, and I can't see people without makeup.

Several others booed her for this reason.

Zhao Han had a wry smile on his face, but he also booed himself in his heart, suspecting that he was old, no matter what happened to him, he would not get over it for a long time.

Like getting a cold, like losing Shi Jiu, like... Luo Qingbai.

The evil people in this place can't miss people. Just as Zhao Han had an idea of ​​Luo Qingbai, Luo Qingbai's WeChat came. She still swipe right and ignored it. She ate yào at noon and felt better, so she called Li He told her mother about coming to eat at night.

The place where Zhao Han lived was far away from where Li He lived, and in addition to the traffic jam during the evening rush hour, going to Li He's house for a meal and then going back, just in time for bedtime, was a perfect murder time plan.

Even though Shi Jiu filled her room with many things, Zhao Han had to admit that it was still too empty.

Probably because Zhao Han's voice was full of mourning when he called. Li He sympathetically allowed her to order food, and she was satisfied with whatever she liked.

Zhao Han reported the names of a bunch of dishes with his throat broken. After work, he walked all the way to Li He's neighborhood. He wandered on the side of the road for a while, with an expression full of anticipation, and rushed home. .

When Zhao Han arrived home and opened the door, the room was very quiet. She stretched her neck while changing her shoes and looked over. Li He was sitting in the living room blankly, with the vegetable bag in his hand. Ask Zhao Han: "Come so soon?"

Zhao Han glanced at the time suspiciously, this is definitely not fast, Li He thought she would dawdle on the road, and the food would be cold when she was done.

But she walked along Li He and hummed: "I get off work early today, and I'll wash the vegetables?" She took off her bag while stepping on her slippers, took the vegetables in Li He's hand, and went into the kitchen first.

Zhao Han ordered the braised pork ribs. He blanched the ribs first. When he covered the pot, he turned around and saw that Li He hadn't washed the vegetables, but looked at himself in a daze. She smiled and asked, "What's wrong? I look so good today ?"

Li He also smiled: "It's very beautiful, such a beautiful girl, let's make a friend quickly."

Zhao Han hummed, a little surprised.

Li He is the kind of mother with a clear mind. After knowing that she likes girls, she even bought gay magazines to read. The reminder is that Zhao Han will drive her away when he comes to the house to eat and work hard, because the old man Li He thinks that if he goes home to eat every day after work, he will not be able to get a date, and he has to go out and look for a date.

She is not as explicit as today.

Zhao Han said brazenly, "I'm still a baby."

He was slapped by Li He: "I'm serious!"

Zhao Han felt the strangeness, and came down as seriously as Li He wished, and asked, "Aren't I a baby?" After saying that, he felt a little regretful, because Li He was really serious.

Zhao Han turned his head away: "Mom, I'm really looking for it. Isn't this always on business trips, are you busy? Just look for it when you are free."

Li He snorted and didn't quite believe it. When Zhao Han was idle, he either stayed at home or ran outdoors, and he didn't put his heart on it at all.

But Li He stopped talking nervously, she picked vegetables and washed them, and said in the sound of water rushing: "It's not that I want to be anxious, Zhao Han, after a long time alone, I will become habitual, and it will be even more difficult to find."

Zhao Han said smoothly: "I can't force it, I can't find it, we can live on our own, I will move in with you, I will have hot meals every day, and someone will greet you..." Zhao Han was all overwhelmed by his fantasy. I was moved.

Li He sighed: "Don't say it's useless! Zhao Han, if you still go to her because of the girl in the past, where is she now, you don't have any regrets if you can succeed or not. Don't worry about me. You’ve settled down! If it’s not because of that girl, then you can find another one. In this world, you can’t do without someone. I’m not saying it’s not good for that girl, but it’s not necessarily impossible for you to find another one.”

Two years ago, she brought Luo Qingbai to the house for dinner, but she didn't say anything about it.

But some things are not meant to be said.

Zhao Han saw that Li He's condition was not right, so he didn't argue any more, he only vaguely agreed, and didn't know whether to bring Luo Qingbai back or find another one.

Halfway through the meal, Li He seemed to have recovered, and said casually: "When I went shopping for vegetables today, I heard that one of our dancing partners left."

Zhao Han was taken aback.

She has a lot of fearless emotions, and she is often careless in her own affairs, but when it comes to life and death, her heart will sink.

Li Hedao: "She didn't come some time ago, we all thought she was sick, we discussed who would take care of her, she was alone all her life, no wife, no children, her parents had left, she was alone, Of course it’s fine when you’re young, but what if you’re old and sick?”

"Later, I heard that she had hired a nurse. We went to see her once. She talked and laughed with us. She was in good condition. We were all relieved, and we were still waiting for her to dance! I just heard about it today... Zhao Han, she It was...suicide. The nurse asked for leave to go home to run errands. It only took two days. ..."

The ball of rice that Zhao Han picked up on the tip of his chopsticks fell into the bowl.

"Mom, let me come live with you soon."

Li He shook his head: "I'm fine. I've been here for most of my life. I still have you. For your sake, I'll be fine..." I was worried about Zhao Han. Parents to children.

Li He was afraid that Zhao Han would be alone, and when his mother was old and dead, there would be no one in the world who could hold Zhao Han's feelings and make her reluctant to go down the road when something happened.

And Zhao Han is in such a situation. Even if her daughter finds out that she is different from others when she grows up, she still thinks it is good. What about others?

Zhao Han is alone, how will he live in the future?

Li He is not afraid that Zhao Han will not be able to find a partner, but what she is afraid of is Zhao Han