Breaking the cocoon gl+ Fanwai

At this moment, the senior sister had already brought Lin Yi into the car, I didn't say anything, I opened the driver's door and got in, started the car and drove towards my house.It's past 11:30, and I've been traveling all the way, and it's only now that I'm tired.

Lin Yi huddled in the back seat. In the dark, I couldn't see her clearly from the rearview mirror.The senior sister didn't speak, but stretched out her hand and patted the back of Lin Yi's hand comfortingly.Perhaps it was the senior sister's innate aura that made people approachable. Lin Yi did not reject her.However, what I am worried about is that maybe I can no longer hide from her that I take care of her daily life as a psychiatrist. I don't know if she will reject me again, and everything is in a state of anxiety.

In the unbearable silence all the way, I finally drove my senior sister's car to the door of our house. My senior sister and I got out of the car and walked around to the door of the car where Lin Yi was sitting. The senior sister kindly asked me to open the door. He opened the car door, stretched out his hand to Lin Yi, and said:

Get off the bus.

She didn't move for a long while, and left me alone, my heart ached, and I hurriedly shouted:

Lin Yi?

But she suddenly pushed my hand away, got out of the car, and said softly and coldly:

Lawyer Gu, no, Doctor Gu, I think I may not be suitable to live with you anymore, I will disturb you for another night, and I will pack my luggage and go home tomorrow.

I froze on the spot as if struck by lightning, her eyes were hidden in the darkness, her whole body was tense, wary of me touching her.I silently put down my hand hanging in the air, and in the darkness and silence, the three of them stood silently in the garage.

I painfully discovered that everything was back to square one again.

☆、No.16 Chapter

She was packing things in the room, moving slowly, step by step, putting clothes one by one into the suitcase, tidy and nervous, I stood silently outside her room, watching her pack.But she acted as if I didn't exist, and carried out the actions of her hands mercilessly. Whenever a piece of clothing was folded neatly by her and put into the suitcase, my heart would ache like a thrashing.In the end, I couldn't stand it anymore, turned around, and walked out of the porch.

I felt like my home was suffocating and solidified, making me unable to stay any longer.I can only come out to take a breath, and absorb the weak oxygen for me, a drowned person, to survive.I turned out of the elevator, walked into the stairwell, sat on the steps, took out my cigarette and lighter, and smoked silently.After a while, the stairwell was filled with the smell of smoke. I quietly looked at the night outside the window of the stairwell through the smoke, and my eyes were lonely.

I haven't touched cigarettes for two months, because she came to live in my house, she didn't like the smell of cigarettes, and then another child moved in, and she couldn't smell the smell of cigarettes even more, so I quit smoking.But now, she picks up this bad habit again because of her.

Footsteps sounded behind me, and someone sat beside me.Her gentle voice is very pleasant, faint, with a bit of calmness:

Won't you give me one?

I handed her the cigarette case and lighter, and she lit the cigarette skillfully, puffing away the smoke with me.

Didn't you leave? Why did you come up?What time is it, and you haven't come home yet.I asked her weakly.

Didn't you go back too? She supported her head, looked at me sideways, and smiled.

I smiled bitterly, ignored her, inhaled a puff of smoke fiercely, swallowed it into my lungs, and burned my heart.

Xiaofan, have you ever thought about getting out? She asked me suddenly.

Is it too late to ask me this now? I replied.

I am a psychiatrist. When I face others, I seldom substitute or force my own emotions and thoughts on others.Therefore, I will never persuade you to do something that I think is right.Everything is your own choice, I respect your choice, and I will face the consequences of these choices calmly.Today, this status quo is also what we originally expected.I just want to know what you're thinking right now.The smile in her voice gradually faded and became serious.

What do you think hehehehehe I just feel like laughing bitterly and embarrassingly, I feel like a fucking fool.

Xiaofan she sighed.

Sister, I took a deep breath, felt my nose was a little itchy, and sucked my nose hard again, and then said: "It's really too difficult. I'm not a person who stays out of it. I got stuck in it from the very beginning."I'm not a cold doctor who can pull away from my emotions, I'm just a stupid idiot, what I think about every day is to use my blood full of blood to warm a cold heart.But senior sister, tell me why I am not hot

Tears swirled in my eyes, the sourness in my nasal cavity rushed into my mind, and the snot came down. I took a deep breath again, and in the blink of an eye, tears slid down my cheeks.

I felt the senior sister's arm wrapped around my shoulder, warm and firm, she didn't speak.

Is it because I am not good enough? Is it because I am not gentle enough, caring enough for her, not moving her, not letting her look at me even more.She leaves as soon as she says, what does she think of me? I am not a servant who comes and goes when called, or a tool that is thrown aside after use. I also have a heart. Can she see it? Do you want me to cut it open Show her, is this plopping toy a toy? The more I talk about it, the more sad I become, tears pouring down, and I can't help myself.