Breaking the cocoon gl+ Fanwai

My heart was soft, feeling guilty, I bent down and took her into my arms.Whispered:

Sorry for almost losing you.

She trembled and was about to break free from my arms.

I used a little force to hold her in my arms, and continued:

Who told you not to let me touch you? If I were holding you, how could I lose you?

She stopped struggling, and I felt that the skirt of my clothes was clenched even tighter, almost pinching my flesh.When I came out today, I was hit by her countless times in the chest, bumped, hit, and pulled. I was extremely depressed. She treated me like a man, and I wanted to cry but had no tears.I'm just a little taller and my chest is a little flatter, but I'm also a big girl. Didn't you see that I am so delicate and beautiful, with long hair and braids?

Can you spare me? We're almost done shopping, we'll go to checkout now, and then go home.

These few words I said were really ambiguous, and I said them with the intention of teasing her.When I let go of my embrace, I caught a glimpse of a suspicious blush on her face. I don't know if it was my illusion, but I hope I read it right.I tried to hold her hand, but she didn't resist.I breathed a sigh of relief, and felt even more joyful. I really did the right thing by choosing to take her out today.

All the way to checkout, she held my hand tightly and never let go.

☆、Chapter 12

In a blink of an eye, the end of the year is approaching, Christmas is approaching, and it has been a full month since Lin Yi came to my house.Although some time ago, I went out with her, it seems that we are getting closer.But when she went home that night, she returned to normal, no longer cleaning so desperately, often sitting in a daze like a wooden person.I knew it would take a long time to get rid of her heart disease, so I could only slowly guide the treatment.But her mood swings in the past few days are not without effect, at least she talks a little more, and it is not always unresponsive when I talk to her.

But she always seems to be avoiding me, as soon as I get close to her, she backs away nervously.Whenever this happens, I can only freeze in place, with mixed feelings in my heart. I know how she will fall in love with me so easily, but I am full of expectations.After anticipation, it is natural to be disappointed again and again.

In the two weeks after that trip to the supermarket together, the days passed slowly and calmly.The festive atmosphere outside is getting more and more serious, and New Year's Day will soon be after Christmas, and preparations for the New Year will begin after New Year's Day. The Spring Festival in 2015 was in late February, which came relatively late.But I have to think about it early. This year, I promised my family to go home for the New Year, but Lin Yi was an accident. I don't know what to do with her during the few days when I left.

Naturally, it was justified to send her home to reunite with her family.But now her father has gone home to live, and there are still children at home. In her current state, her illness will inevitably recur after returning home. If she develops an illness, her father will not be able to hide it.

In fact, the most difficult thing for her to go home is the child. She has complicated feelings for that child. She has a mother's love that cannot be let go, but every time she sees the child, she will inevitably recall those unbearable past events.Now she has been away from the child for only one month, and it is far from the time to introduce the child to treatment.For this matter, I scratched my head and scratched my head for the past few days, and my hair felt like it was falling out badly.

On December 12, I took the time to meet with my senior sister to discuss the arrangements during the Chinese New Year.

This year's Chinese New Year, I have to go home. I have a lot of things that I need to clarify with my family.First, to formally confirm their attitude towards my sexual orientation, and second, it is best to mention my matter with Lin Yi to them, so that they can have a psychological preparation first.Of course, I don't have to specifically mention Lin Yi's terrible past, I just need to tell them that I have a lover now, and after a while the relationship is stable, I will bring her back to meet my family.When Lin Yi's condition completely improved, the time would be about the same.The total duration of intensive treatment planned by the senior is seven to eight months. As long as everything goes well and there are no major changes, Lin Yi's illness will be cured in June next year.If the treatment works well, she may even recover early.By then, our affairs should probably be on the agenda.

The senior sister laughed at me, I haven't written my horoscope yet, so I think so much.I smiled wryly, indeed, how can I be sure that Lin Yi is willing to live with me, she is still avoiding me, but I am thinking about the future with her.

But no matter what, the senior sister is willing to support me. She comforted me and said that the human heart is full of flesh. Lin Yi can't feel my contribution. She is a kind girl and she will definitely be grateful.Although love is not kindness, as long as I can walk into her heart, there is no chance.

Besides, I always feel that she is not only grateful to you.Senior sister said so.

I smiled wryly, shook my head and said:

Senior sister, don't comfort me.She is such a straight woman, and she hates homosexuality so much. How difficult is it to like me? If I can be grateful to me, I will be satisfied.Even if she is only willing to spend the rest of her life with me out of kindness, I will not complain.

Senior sister frowned and said:

Gu Fan, how could you have such an idea.You have to know that what maintains a long-term relationship between husband and wife is affection and responsibility, and what maintains a relationship between couples is only love.If there is no love between couples, it is a breakup; if there is no love between husband and wife, it does not necessarily mean divorce.If you want to maintain a long-term relationship with Lin Yi, you need both love and responsibility. If you lack either, you will have a bad life and it will easily break.Especially when the two of you are not equal, you love her, you have paid so much for her, you are willing to bear everything, and you are willing to tolerate her.But she doesn't have that much responsibility and affection for you. After being with you for a long time, she will easily feel a burden. The longer the time, the greater the burden, and she will get tired easily.Once the heart is tired, it will not be far when you break up.