To the goddess + side story

She can remember my words firmly, even casual words. After a long time, she suddenly mentioned, "Roy, my hair is a bit long, can I try a middle part? It doesn't look good, I will change it back immediately!" I Only then did I suddenly realize that she had always remembered that I said that her bangs were cute.

You said that a person who is so reluctant to give up to me, why would you say leave and leave.

I kept thinking afterwards, maybe she was annoyed, maybe she felt that I couldn't get anything in return, maybe she thought I didn't care about her.

Any reason that can be mentioned immediately can be the reason why she left me. What else can I expect?

It is no longer possible for someone to come all the way quietly just to care about whether I have heat stroke, no longer is it possible for someone to rack their brains for my three meals a day, and it is no longer possible for someone to look hippie and smile on the surface , In fact, everything that loves me deeply is hidden in my heart.

This person I lost her.

Did not give me a chance to regret, did not give me a chance to show.

I've been waiting for her to ask, waiting for her to ask me, Roy Roy, why do you like me?

Xue Lingyi, you are fine, but you don't know it.

☆、Chapter 47

A month after the breakup, I still dare not accept this fact.

Just like in the first few days, I kept refusing to believe it, and even comforted myself that she must be joking with me.But I didn't even dare to make a phone call. I was afraid that she would admit it, and even refusing to answer would make me uneasy.

It was the first time in my life that I was afraid of something, and I was so scared. I told myself that it was not true. I thought that after these few days, when I go back, she will wait for me at the airport as usual, with a bunch of snacks, and say, Roy Roy, you are back, let me tell you...

But after all, no one told me that when I went back, although there were people coming and going at the airport, she was not there.

During those few nights, I had insomnia almost every night, and I always dreamed of her when I fell asleep. She smiled and called my name, and said this and that beside me.But upon waking up from the dream, everything returns to silence.

I have never been afraid of loneliness. What I am afraid of is that this kind of loneliness cannot be calculated, and the length cannot be measured.

Who would have thought that a person who would hug you tightly with both legs and hands before you go on a business trip, saying that he would miss you so much after being separated for so long, would break up with you so easily.

Who would have thought that a person who cried and cried when breaking up without caring about his image would be so decisive, change his mobile phone, drop out of school, and not give you any chance to contact.

So it is so difficult for you to get an explanation, and it is so difficult for you to explain it.

How did the next four years go.

There is no daily heartache, no getting drunk, but I always feel that life is a little dull and something is missing.

I started to be busy, and I started to accept the arrangement of the company. Everything was going well. Sometimes I thought, is it because I lost, so God has pity on me and treats me kindly.

Occasionally, due to work reasons, I couldn't eat on time, or even fell ill. At that time, I thought, would Xue Lingyi appear out of thin air like this? She put her hips on her hips and said, "You don't take good care of yourself.Then she would cling to me gigglingly, saying that it would be impossible without me by my side, right, right?

Correct.

How much I miss her when I miss her the most, I can't bear it, I want her back, no matter what the reason is, as long as she tells me, I will forgive her.

Later, life ran on a normal track, and I began to get used to it, to everything around me, and to no one talking in my ears.

There is a "010101" among fans. I have been following her quietly since she followed me. I don't know if this person is related to Xue Lingyi. Maybe she is a zombie fan. After all, there are only a few words in her Weibo, even her profile picture nothing.

It was only later that I found out that it really was.

As she said, in the dark, we will meet, and I saw her among thousands of people.

So is it so that she sees me?My fame was surfacing, and she could see it.

Even sometimes, when I am vulnerable and sensitive in the middle of the night, I would think, Xue Lingyi, do you regret that I am so good now? Look at what kind of excellent person you gave up, how many people wanted to get close to me but had no chance.

So did you see it.

I worked hard, and I won many awards. Many people congratulated me either happily or hypocritically. The smiles on their faces always had a deep meaning.

I always like to think too much when I am depressed, and the emptiness after joy makes people even more lonely. Looking down through the window, I want to find someone to share with me.

Yes, I miss her, very much.

Time didn't dilute anything, and it made me feel guilty when I think about it. If I do it all over again, I should treat her better and be more patient. In the end, it's me who regrets all this.

I think she will be very happy when I win the award, she will be happier than me, cheering more than me, as if she has got everything, she will jump around and hug me and say she wants to eat delicious food to celebrate.

But what's the use, you're all alone, where is she?

Yes, what's the use, in the end, all of this is not as good as a Xue Lingyi.

☆、Chapter 48

Finally I saw her again.

At the other end of the long corridor, in the glass room, she was talking and laughing happily with a woman. Even though the distance was so far, I could still imagine her habitual movements flying, as if the voice was transmitted into my ears through the air.