Reborn on the Happy Hall + Spoiler

Xu Yihan's fingertips sank into the palm of his hand, making four red marks.He didn't know what to say.

"Xiao Xu, my brother took your money and told you the truth, but I advise you a few words, this person should not be too horny, you say, even if it's 'righteous' doing something without a conscience, But it has nothing to do with you, right? Now that 'Zhengxin' is closed, what's the use of holding on to it?"

Xu Yihan: "You think it's useless, don't you?"

Wang Yongguo waved his hand and said with a smile, "Come on, I'm uneducated, so I won't argue with you about this."

Xu Yihan said word by word: "It's useful, let me tell you, it's useful."

Xu Yihan stood under the orange street lamp, smoking a cigarette alone for a long time.The light enveloped his body like a thin layer of oil and water. He stood and stared at the passing pedestrians like a psychopath.Most of them are workers, and there are also a few hawkers pushing tricycles selling midnight snacks.He thought of many news reports, many of which he had read, and some he had seen with his own eyes: people who went to a pharmaceutical factory to test drugs, migrant workers on the assembly line in the southeast coast, mentally handicapped girls who were trafficked to the countryside, mixed with beer for blood thinning The professional blood seller who swallowed soot...and his lovely sister who wanted to become a woman, and Cheng Xiaobai, and Chi Yang, Ni Yu, Xiaokong...Of course, there was also his mother.

He thought of these people, and felt that although he was standing on the ground, his body seemed to be overwhelmed by those dark and silent sufferings, which were their sufferings, with no names, no origins, and no records.Because in the context of this ever-moving, huge and complicated era, they are so small that their suffering can be ignored.

Wang Yongguo said, what's the use of holding on?

Xu Yihan admitted that his "useful" every word was just a momentary mood, and he admitted that it might be useless to hold on to it.

But he wants to set up a monument for his sister's suffering, not only his sister, but also Cheng Xiaobai, and many people whose names he doesn't know who have been tortured in "Zhengxin", he wants to set up a monument for their suffering.

Because, no one should be forgotten, no one should be obliterated.

Chapter 93

Xu Yihan stayed in an hour room with yellow walls for five hours.Among them, four hours are used for sleep, and one hour is used for writing and drawing.

At around eight o'clock in the morning, he washed his face, held a few A4 papers full of words in his hand, and dialed Deng Yuan's phone number.

The phone rang for a long time before Deng Yuan picked it up, his voice was a bit vague: "Hello?"

"Sister, it's me...Xu Yihan."

"what happened?"

When Deng Yuan asked such a question, Xu Yihan felt that there were so many things to think about, and he didn't know where to start.

"I'm in Zhengzhou." He said.

"...What are you going to do?"

"'Sinxin' is no longer available."

"..."

About half a minute passed before Deng Yuan whispered, "I know."

Xu Yihan: "Stop the live broadcast."

Deng Yuan was silent again, as time passed by, Xu Yihan waited silently.Outside the window, the sun spread a layer of golden yellow on the dirty street, and it was another new day.

"Why?" Deng Yuan asked.

"Because I don't want to take revenge on Xu Yize."

"A man named Peter came to me yesterday. He told me a lot about your past. He said that you have been bullied in Xu's house. It's very pitiful, but this is your best chance."

Xu Yihan was taken aback: "He's looking for you?!"

"He roughly told me about your plan, which is very good," Deng Yuan said calmly, "You have prepared so much, but you gave up now, what a pity? Anyway, I also spent your money, so I should pay for it." your."

"Sister," Xu Yihan said eagerly, "I'm sorry, I was talking nonsense, I don't need you to pay back..."

"There's nothing to be sorry about."

"No, I just realized that what you did...let me do something for you too, okay? Sister, I won't take revenge on Xu Yize. I just want to do something for you now."

"doing what?"

"Sister," Xu Yihan was silent for a few seconds, and his voice became softer, "Actually, I don't know if this will work, but give me some time and let me try it, okay?"

In the end, Deng Yuan didn't say "good" or "bad", as if he didn't care much about Xu Yihan's decisions.Xu Yihan didn't ask about Cheng Xiaobai either, he hoped that one day, when Deng Yuan was willing to talk, he would tell him himself.

At 08:30, Xu Yihan drank a bowl of Hu spicy soup, drove the rented car to a certain newspaper office.

At a quarter past seven that night, he took the high-speed train to Xuchang, where he saw a chubby girl whose online name was "Little Tangyuan".Xiaotangyuan's job is an elementary school teacher. At the same time, she is also a Weibo big V with more than 30 fans. She will share some information related to Japanese animation on weekdays.

She is 31 years old, married, and has an emerald ring on her ring finger.

Xu Yihan chatted with her about Internet addiction, and she squinted her eyes with a smile, with a simple and honest look: "At that time, when I was new to computers, I fell into it all at once. In fact, thinking about it now, it's just a child's trick."

"What happened later?" Xu Yihan asked.

Xiao Tangyuan still smiled and said: "Later, I quit my addiction and went back to study, but I stayed one level, I was quite embarrassed..."

"You know that's not what I'm asking," Xu Yihan looked into her eyes, "Now you are still playing Weibo and watching anime, all of which are inseparable from the computer...Does your family agree?"

Xiao Tangyuan's expression froze, and she stopped talking, just lowered her head and turned the ring on her ring finger.

Xu Yihan didn't rush, just sat and waited for her.

After a long while, Xiao Tangyuan raised her face with a gray expression:

"Later my father died of illness, and my mother remarried to Shanxi, so I started using computers again," she looked out the window, "From the age of 17 to 25, eight years in between, I never touched a computer... Really never Pass."

Through the introduction of Xiaotangyuan, Xu Yihan successively contacted several "patients" who had been in "Zhengxin" - so many years later, due to some complicated reasons, they still kept in touch.

Among them, the oldest was 33 years old, who opened a homestay in Suzhou, and talked with Xu Yihan on the phone for more than an hour, enthusiastic and alert.The youngest, 23 years old, has just received the admission notice of Taiyuan Institute of Technology for master's degree.Their occupations are also varied, some are civil servants, some run Internet cafes, and one woman is even a psychological counselor.

Xu Yihan met or talked with them on the phone, and the communication was smooth. There were many moments when he was in a daze, thinking that if he hadn't known everything in advance, he would not have seen that they had been bullied in various ways in "Zhengxin" .The one who ran a homestay was locked up in Zhengxin for five months because of Internet addiction, and suffered a broken leg; A reliable counselor, after leaving "Zhengxin", she received psychotherapy for three years.

If they don't say it, then the torture they have suffered will eventually disappear in time, and no one will pay the price for it, and no one will explain it.

At noon on the fifth day Xu Yihan came to Zhengzhou, when he and Tan Ji were sitting in the Lanzhou ramen restaurant hula hula eating noodles, the mobile phone in his pocket rang.

Deng Yuan: "Where are you?"

Xu Yihan still had a mouthful of noodles stuffed in his mouth, and it was a little hot: "I'm in Zhengzhou."

"Where is Zhengzhou?" Deng Yuan said, "I'm also in Zhengzhou."

Xu Yihan put down his chopsticks: "Where are you?"

"High Speed ​​Rail Station."

Xu Yihan stood up abruptly: "Wait for me."

He didn't even have time to explain to Tan Ji, he just buckled the car key on the table: "Brother Tan, you go to see her yourself this afternoon..."

Xu Yihan rushed into the taxi on the street and said loudly: "Master, go to the high-speed rail station!"

These days he comes into contact with many strangers: "patients", gatekeepers, chefs, reporters, doctors, and even funeral home employees... For these people, he is rational and restrained, and he has to suppress it time and time again. With the remorse and pain in your heart, talk to them calmly.

The phrase "Master is going to the high-speed rail station" was the only time in so many days that Xu Yihan felt refreshed, and all the depressed emotions in his heart poured out like a flood, almost crushing him.He was sitting in the taxi with his hands clasped on his knees, his heart beating faster and his arms feeling weak.He had never been so excited.

After getting out of the car to pay, Xu Yihan saw Deng Yuan as soon as he entered the gate of the high-speed railway station. Deng Yuan was guarding the gate with a bulging backpack on his back.

He tied his hair into a low ponytail. He was wearing a sky blue round neck T-shirt and black wide-leg jeans, revealing a section of fair ankle. On his feet were the pair of white canvas shoes that Xu Yihan was very familiar with.

Deng Yuan also saw Xu Yihan, and Xu Yihan walked towards him, the two looked at each other, and the distance gradually narrowed.

People were coming and going at the high-speed rail station, Xu Yihan wanted to hug Deng Yuan, but he didn't dare.He could only stand in front of him, with a dreamy expression, and called: "Sister."