Shape Moon, The Road to the Magician

【It is because of our flaws that we become perfect——】

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"See what I found? A lonely Kotomine Kirei."

Returning to the farewell park again, this time he met the emotionally lacking Father Kotomine.

Kenneth awakened the soul of scientific research because he caught Irisviel's Little Holy Grail, and was busy studying Irisviel at this time.

Physical secrets.

The stronghold was also guarded by Rider and Lancer this time, and the situation was quite safe.

He also told Kenneth a lot of his secrets, including how he became a magician, the magic mark he obtained, and his experience of meeting Merlin.

It was only after he had explained what had happened and made his position known to Kenneth that he even signed a second compulsory magic essay in order to prevent a second defection from happening, that Kenneth was completely relieved.

When Nice heard that he and Merlin could be connected in his dream, he was very excited.

As a British magic noble, he certainly knew the British court magic.���, the story of the legendary Archdruid Merlin. The great sage who personally trained King Arthur, Merlin is a very famous existence even in the entire mysterious circle.

Now when he heard that his student could communicate with such a great sage in his dream, he was of course very excited.

If it weren't for the fact that he couldn't bear to do that shameless act of stealing the apprentice's seal. He absolutely wants to use the seal of Matou Zangyan to meet Merlin in his dream. Although what he didn't know was that Merlin wouldn't pay attention to him at all.

But right now, what he cares more about than Merlin is the Einzbern family's Little Holy Grail. So under Kenneth's greeting, he asked Finn to take Irisviel into the basement.

Weber is recuperating, Rider is responsible for protecting the stronghold, Kenneth is studying the Little Holy Grail, and Xia Yuan is the only free man. He decided to go out for a walk.

"I remember you, you are Caster’s master, right? It's obviously still during the Holy Grail War, so why come here? You should hide now"

"Caster has long since died, and I have never been Caster's master. Aren't you hiding either? Mr. Priest"

"……I have my own reasons."

Kotomine Kirei was silent, but his caution towards Xia Yuan did not disappear.

"You obviously don't have the protection of a Servant by your side, but why do you want to get close to me? Even if it is daytime, there is a risk of being assassinated if you approach the enemy rashly.……"

"Yes, then will you take action?"

Xia Yuan looked at the expressionless Kotomine Kirei in front of him.

"If you want to kill me, you will let Assassin do it when you are on the road. Do you need to wait until now?"

Kotomine Kirei didn't answer.

"Now, Father, what do you want to do here? Are you here to pay homage to Matou Kariya?"

"Yes……"

Surprisingly, Kotomine Kirei actually nodded. He looked at the big tree under which Matou Kariya was buried, and replied:

"I'm very curious about what kind of man can change the will of a magician and make Tosaka Tokiomi-sensei voluntarily give up the Holy Grail.……"

"Is that why you came here to take a look? Aren't you waiting for me here?

He shook his head,"No, I've always been here.""

"Well, because I was confused and couldn't find a reason, I kept thinking about it here. There are no clues, you are just searching aimlessly. In fact, you don’t even know the reason why you want to think about it, right?"

"……"

Regarding Xia Yuan's question, Kotomine Kirei gave the answer with silence.

"In this case, are you interested in chatting with me? I think I might be able to help you"

"You want to win me over?"

"Haha, that's not a win-win, it's just a chat during the day between the Masters participating in the Holy Grail War. Since the battle is at night anyway, it wouldn't be against any rules to chat during the day, right? If you don't want to, forget it"

"Wait a minute, I do want to ask you something."

Kotomine Kirei looked at this young man who he could not see through seriously.

When he first met Xia Yuan, this young man was still cautious and fearful of the unknown. He treated him at a respectful distance and deliberately kept a distance. Xia Yuan was no different from an ordinary person at that time, but when we met him for the second time, he had become a magician and no longer feared the unknown.

And when we met this time, he had become someone that he could not see through at all. Even Assassin smelled danger in him and was very wary of him.

What was going on with this change? Could he give him the answer he wanted in his heart ? Then

, Xia Yuan asked him a question:"Hey, Mr. Kirei, do you want to take a look? The view that your heart truly longs to see."

The scenery you long to see?

Kotomine Kirei was stunned for a moment, and subconsciously looked at his chest. He began to think, what does that peaceful heart want to see? What exactly is he longing for?

The answer is that he doesn't know either.

His chest felt empty, and he felt genuinely confused inside, as if there was a piece missing.

He replied:"I want to see.""

"Haha, right? But can you trust me a little bit? For example, I first asked Assassin who was hiding behind me to put down the dagger. She was so close and I was very nervous."

"……"

Kotomine Kirei fell into deep thought, and then looked in the direction that Xia Yuan pointed. He was surprised to see Assassin who was lying in wait on the tree trunk to keep an eye on Xia Yuan.

Because Assassin's actions were not from his orders, but from Hassan's protection, he did not know that Hassan was lurking there.

"Assassin, come down, he is not the enemy now"

"obey."

After receiving the order, the dark figure jumped down from the entrenched branch and stood silently back beside Kotomine Kirei, but his eyes towards Xia Yuan were also more alert. He was just a magician, but he easily noticed that he had followed Anyone can be deceived [breath blocking] A】

What kind of monster is this?

"Don't be so nervous. After all, I'm just an ordinary magician. Hassan, who is as powerful as you, should have no reason to be afraid of me, right?"

"Besides, don’t you have many clones now? As an assassin, he is so afraid of death. No wonder he is criticized."

"criticize?"Baimai is a little confused. Why doesn't she remember what kind of criticism she has received?

"Ahem……"

Xia Yuan cleared his throat, and then imitated Kotomine Kirei's deep voice.

"Baimian? What have you accumulated with your countless wisdom? Is it the faith and desire of a hundred souls competing for one? Stupid... hand over your head!"

Surprise!!!

This familiar tone, this unforgettable voice, suddenly the face of Hassan's head stiffened like a broken doll's hairpin, and his body subconsciously knelt down on the ground, so nervous that he couldn't even speak. Cleared

"The first...the first generation of adults?!"

"Look, wasn’t he criticized like this before he died? I actually forgot that a sword like Hassan's is not fast enough?"

"What is this?"

Xia Yuan imitated his own voice and said something, and then Baimei Hassan knelt down. Kotomine Kirei looked at this scene in confusion.

"Oh, this was the motto left by the leader of the Old Man of the Mountains and the king of Hassan when he executed her. Because it was something she heard before she died, it was more deeply rooted in her heart."

Huh - after the words fell, a dagger flashed across Xia Yuan's eyes. The one coming over with the dagger was Baimian Hassan, who had been paralyzed on the ground in fear just now.

Looking at her angry look, it seemed that Wang Hassan had just used The idea of teasing her really pissed her off, and now she wanted to teach herself a lesson...

Under the horrified looks of Kotomine Kirei and Baimei Hassan, they saw Xia Yuan standing motionless. , she just raised her index finger slightly and blocked it in front of the blade.

Dang - in the gaze of the beautiful Hassan , who seemed to have seen the first generation King Hassan, her dagger struck Xia Yuan's finger hard.

But he couldn't move forward at all.

Xia Yuan's fingers were firmly against Bai Mang's dagger, and he lightly blocked it.

Then the other two fingers he raised slowly lowered them, slightly bent, and rested on Bai Mang Ha. On San's dagger

"Bai Mang, staying calm is also a compulsory course for assassins. If you are so reckless, your head will soon be lost again."

Keeping the posture of holding the knife with his fingers, Xia Yuan gently stretched out his palm to push her away, leaving Baimian Hassan stunned in place.

"Okay, let's continue the topic just now. Xia

Yuan chuckled lightly, raised his hand and greeted Kotomine Kirei:"Are you interested in finding out the answer?""

"……What exactly is going on?"

Seeing the scene just now, Kotomine Kirei's calm mind was also shocked. He suddenly felt a chill on his back and looked at Xia Yuan as if he were looking at a monster.

What kind of magician can do this? Easily blocking the attack of the servant?

Compared with himself, he is now more like a monster.

Since he can suppress Baimian Hassan so easily, by the same token, he can also easily take away his own from such a close distance. life

"Just a little bit of strengthening magic."Xia Yuan replied calmly.

"Can it block the Servant's enhanced magic?"

Kotomine Kirei was shocked by this guy's ability to tell lies.

If he hadn't been at the scene just now, he would have almost believed it.

Xia Yuan shook his head:"Assassin is not good at strength, and his frontal ability is too weak."

"That is definitely not something that an ordinary magician can block."Kotomine Kirei let out a long breath and was speechless at Xia Yuan's sophistry.

However, he still cared more about his own affairs than Xia Yuan's terrifying combat power.

"What exactly do I desire?"

"how could I know. Of course you have to ask yourself this kind of thing"

"That what you said……"

"I'm just helping you see." Xia Yuan spread his hands,"It's always you who decides whether you can see clearly."

"Myself?"

"Yes, have you ever thought about why the Holy Grail chose you? Obviously the Holy Grail will only choose those who have wishes, but what about you?"

Kotomine Kirei was silent for a while.

"I'm also looking for a reason, but……"

"Can't find it? But in fact, there are still some. There is no so-called accident in this world, only necessity."

"There is absolutely no reason why you were chosen by the Holy Grail. Although you appear to have no desires and no emotions,……"

Xia Yuan put his fingers in front of his eyes and then moved them to his chest

"The wish is always there, it may be right in front of your eyes, or it may be hidden in your heart. Even if you don't realize it yet, they are always there"

"Empty heart, missing feelings. It's because of this desire that the Holy Grail chose you, right? You long for the answer, but the answer is already right in front of you"

"Right in front of you but can't see it?

A look of surprise flashed through Kotomine Kirei's empty eyes, and he stretched out his hand to touch his chest:"It's precisely because I don't have it that I have it.""

"Yes, it is precisely because of this imperfection that you have the opportunity to become perfect."The corners of Xia Yuan's mouth rose slightly.

"Perfection means despair, superiority to all that has hitherto been possible. However, he is never allowed to be perfect. The so-called human must be a creature that is troubled by this contradiction and thus seeks pleasure."

"Therefore, this imperfection is just a trial given to you by the Lord you believe in. In the end, you will truly become perfect.——"

"Put it this way, can you understand?"

Kotomine Kirei subconsciously widened his eyes.

At this moment, the heart that had been silent for a long time began to beat again because of Xia Yuan's words.

"not perfect? Perfect? I seem to gradually understand everything……"

Kotomine Kirei recounted in surprise, his expression was excited, and he looked at the command spell on the back of his hand with a smile on his face:"This is just a trial. Now I roughly understand why the Holy Grail chose me."

No. Wrong, there is actually a desire hidden in my heart, and that vacancy is the desire. The Holy Grail chose him precisely to fill the imperfection in his heart, thereby making him perfect and satisfied. so……

"Do you know what you really want?"

"That's right."Kotomine Kirei nodded.

"I want to make a wish to the Holy Grail, so that I can be fulfilled and become more perfect"

"Make a wish on the Holy Grail? This is really the simplest method……"

"But Kirei, have you ever thought about it? Is the perfection given to you directly by the Holy Grail really the kind of perfection you want to become? Is the lack that the Holy Grail fills for you really just the missing piece of your soul?"

"ah?"Kotomine Kirei opened his eyes wide.

"It is said to be a universal wishing machine, but who knows the limit of its omnipotence, and whether it is really as omnipotent as rumored? In fact, no one knows. Because there's no one who hasn't seen the Holy Grail, right? Do you really want to entrust your pursuit of satisfaction to this uncertain thing?"

"you are right."

Kotomine Kirei thought for a moment and gradually understood what Xia Yuan wanted to express.

Do you really want to entrust yourself to something uncertain? Even if you rely on the Holy Grail to become a perfect person, that perfection will not be yourself. The perfection he seeks.

Because he doesn’t even know what kind of perfect person he wants to be.

So what should he do?

"If you don’t know, then try to find it."Xia Yuan smiled slightly and put his fingers on his chest.

"After all, even if you tear your chest, you can't see what's in your heart; if you dig out your eyes, you can't see clearly what's in your mind."

"Everything has to be found by you and cannot be achieved overnight. It all depends on you as to who you want to be."

"It all depends... on myself……"

"Yes, it all depends on you. As long as you move towards what you think is right, no matter what the final result is, it will be the answer you are most satisfied with."

After saying that, Xia Yuan took out a pure white flower from his pocket and pinned it on Kotomine Kirei's chest.

It was a daisy, the color of which was like snowflakes in winter. It symbolized innocence and romance, and the hope for the future. expectations

"Well... After chatting with you for so long, it’s time for me to leave. After all, it is getting late, and when it gets dark later, we will be enemies again."

Touching the daisy on his chest, there seemed to be a warm current flowing in his heart. Looking at the figure gradually receding, Kotomine Kirei was a little dazed.

"A perfect person?……"

He seems to have found his own way, too.

Filling the gaps and then becoming perfect and being satisfied is what you want to do

"Lord Kirei……"

Assassin, who had been watching in the dark, slowly knelt down towards Xia Yuan's figure.

This time it was not because of the oppression of strength, but from the gratitude from the heart.