Rise

Ten minutes later, Li Shiyi and Xiao Er were already sitting in the carriage of Shanghai Metro Line 2.

Saying "sit", such a word is not very appropriate.

Because it is also the peak time in the evening. Although today is the weekend, the subway at this moment is still full of passengers and the compartment is extremely crowded. The seats in the two rows have already been crowded. Li Shiyi and It took a lot of effort for Xiao Er to barely find a corner of the carriage, hold the handle of the railing above their heads, and stand in balance.

"It's...five twenty."

He lowered his head and took out his phone to check the time. Xiao Er quickly calculated in his heart, and then felt relieved:

"One stop every three or four minutes, a total of six or seven stops, it should be in time!"

Li Shishi on the side also showed a bit of rejoicing on his face, although he said that the feeling of squeezing the subway like this is not good, and the treatment is different from that of other members of the first and second teams in his own team club who comfortably take the club car to their destinations. Far, but as the team's substitute, there is nothing to complain about or expect.

Anyway, as long as you can arrive at the Mountain Internet Cafe on time to participate in the event, you can receive a red envelope at that time, which is enough to be celebrated.

As if thinking of something, Li Shishi looked at his roommate in front of him:

"Xiao Er, I remember you are also a native of Shanghai?"

"In terms of family background...it's not bad, right?"

When asked about this kind of personal privacy, Li Shishi was also a little cautious.

Xiaoer nodded and admitted without hesitation: "Yes, my mother is an associate professor at the university, and my father is in business. It's not very rich, but it's enough to live anyway."

Frankly and generously without any concealment.

Li Shixi nodded, hesitated for a moment, and then couldn't help asking out the doubts in his heart:

"Then it stands to reason that you shouldn't be short of money. Why are you so concerned about our club's business cooperation activities and getting red envelopes?"

"If it's just a few hundred dollars, it's not a big deal to you, is it?"

Such doubts have long been in Li Shiyi's mind, and since the roommate in front of him is a local from Shanghai, he can go home and live at ordinary times, so there is no need to squeeze with him and the substitute players from other clubs Living in a dilapidated and simple dormitory?

Xiao Er laughed when he heard it:

"Hey, this is Brother Li, you don't know something."

"Actually, it's because my family is very strict. Originally, my parents hoped that I would finish high school and go to university step by step, find a promising major to continue studying, and then get a decent job."

"But I'm not happy to live this kind of arranged life."

"I just want to play e-sports and become a professional player!"

"Then I told my parents about this idea, ouch, they were angry at the time, and they scolded me bloody when they came up, and then tried to persuade me in every way, but I couldn't resist my decision. , They can't help it, just let me say that I want to play professionally, but I will cut off my source of income and everything can only rely on myself. If I can survive, then let me continue to do it. If I can't, then Go back honestly and listen to their arrangements to live your life."

"so"

Xiaoer spread his hands to Li Shishi:

"I'm completely on my own right now."

"It's a few hundred yuan in red envelopes. Of course, it wasn't enough for me to spend a week before, but now it's a big sum for me. Oh, I've already figured out how to use the money. I haven't had a good meal for half a month, and the rough food in the club is really uncomfortable... I will go to Haidilao to have a good meal tonight after I get the red envelope, and reward myself!"

Seeing Xiao Er's eyes sparkling and his face filled with longing, Li Shishi's eyes became a little complicated, and he asked in a low voice:

"Is this... worth it?"

"Ah?" Xiao Er was taken aback for a moment, and then replied without thinking, "Of course it's worth it!"

As he spoke, he regained his spirit:

"I want to make a name for myself in the professional e-sports circle,

Paying a small price for the dream now, if you can't even accept this kind of thing, it's too shameful, right? "

"That is to say, I have to suffer a little bit now, and when I become a top professional god in the national service, I will be so majestic! My parents will also have to be convinced later!"

Seeing the beaming expression on the face of his roommate and companion in front of him, Li Shiyi lowered his head, and a trace of sadness flashed in his eyes.

Such high spirits...

Such expectations for dreams and future...

then.

He has too.

Even in the more difficult environment back then, he and those closest partners and teammates were able to grit their teeth and persevere in hard work, and they were willing to give everything they had for the goal and dream in their hearts without any complaints.

but now

Everything is different.

Now he has no qualifications or ability to talk about his dreams at all. He stays in the circle as a substitute player in the club of the Gaoshan team. , just for the cruel and realistic life and survival.

"Speaking of which, Brother Li, aren't you the same way?"

Xiao Er suddenly looked at Li Shishi, and said this sentence in his mouth.

Li Shiyi was startled, and shook his head with a wry smile:

"I'm not like you."

"I'm satisfied now that I can make a living and eat, and work hard to earn some money to support my sister's education. What other extravagances do I have?"

But Xiao Er shook his head again and again:

"No, no!"

After a pause, his eyes fell on Li Shiyi, and Xiaoeryi changed his previous playful smile to become a little more serious:

"Brother Li, if you really don't have any dreams or pursuits about e-sports, then why should you stay in a place like Shanghai? The consumption is high and the pressure to survive is high, so you can't save much money at all, but up to now you don't have any money. Do you still insist on staying in the club?"

"If you really want to eat and wait to die, then why do you secretly spend time in the training room every day to play rank?"

"A complete waste of time, isn't it?"

Every word.

Every sentence seems to point directly to the heart.

Li Shishi was speechless.

yes.

If he is really disheartened, then he can just take his sister back to his hometown. There is no need to endure hardships in a metropolis like Shanghai, and there is no need to be treated so coldly in clubs. .

Perhaps it is for my sister to have a better learning environment?

But ask yourself, is this really the only reason why he still stays in Shanghai and in the e-sports circle?

Li Shishi's heart trembled slightly at this moment.

Or……

In fact, deep down in his heart, he still has such a unwillingness to exist.

Not reconciled.

Not reconciled to being so mediocre.

Not reconciled to struggling in the e-sports circle for so many years, but finally can only choose to leave as a loser.

I am not reconciled to the glorious history created by myself and several partners and teammates. It can only slowly dissipate with the passage of time and no one will remember it.

(yes)

Li Shixi took a deep breath and raised his head:

(There will still be reluctance and reluctance in one way or another, or because he always retains the most meager hope in the bottom of his heart, he will stay here year after year, looking forward to a miracle Appear.)

but……

is that useful?

The bitterness on his face became stronger, Li Shiyi shook his head, and said with a low laugh:

"Even if there are still pursuits and dreams, so what."

"The current me is worthy of talking about this. The so-called e-sports dream... has long been an unattainable luxury."

Xiaoer was hesitant to speak and wanted to persuade him again, but at this time Li Shiyi had no intention of continuing this topic. The subway slowly slowed down and stopped at the platform. Li Shiyi looked up at the door and turned to face Xiao Er smiled and said:

"Okay, don't talk about this."

"We've arrived, let's go."

The update is here, the next chapter looks like around eleven o'clock, let's continue to code words!