I Won't Be a Loser

I will not be a loser Author: Fragments of the Sky

Introduction:

Sayuri Sawamura: Not my daughter, but me?

Eri Sawamura: Not like me, but like my mother? !

Saiyuan Temple World: I can do it in an instant, but can't I? !

Takasu Ryuji: Mom, she'll leave it to you, mate!

Teng and Nudv: When are you coming back, Elio said she misses her father, she doesn't need to be responsible, but come back and see her daughter

Wedge. Start: 0. Your life... Forget it, reopen it

"came back."

Looking at the youthful face of his youth, Gong Shui Xianren's face was a little surprised, but more of a relief like relief.

"Since I have returned to my youth, then those things can also be re-chosen to change the things that have happened. Maybe it's a bit regretful, but compared to the things that have happened.... It happened better."

The boy standing in front of the mirror whispered softly.

Recalling what he has experienced and what will happen, his expression is an unstoppable sigh and dullness.

Obviously, it has a beginning similar to the male protagonist of Shuangwen, but under his choice, he has turned his life into a sad and depressed Wenqing ending!

If fate is really written by someone, then he will definitely look for the person who wrote his own destiny. He has no other intentions. He just wants to thank the other party and use his grateful fist.

"So, 'back in time' was triggered, but it didn't go back to my childhood, from my 27-year-old sinking youth who didn't get anything done, back to my teenage teenage years when everything was just beginning."

Before starting his own life called 'Gongshui Xianren', he once made a choice.

That's a choice in a game similar to 'Life Again'.

Ten different talents, and twenty attribute points that can be assigned to four different attributes.

Because I just came into contact with this game, knowing that most of the ten talent points that were randomly given were weird, Gong Shui Xianren could only choose the talents that looked more normal.

One is the 'family eldest' who becomes the most favored child in the family, a rare talent 'Blessed Child' that can add an attribute point, and the other is a face-to-face gambling, which may be triggered, and may not even die. A 'back in time' that may be triggered.

Afterwards, when it came to adding attribute points, Gong Shui Xianren just hesitated for a while, but he rejected his life to be mediocre again.

Relying on the attribute point given by the 'born of consecration', and the points that should have been allocated to other attributes, I added two more points to the 'appearance', the family background can be almost, but the person must be handsome!

As for the beginning of life, at first there was no memory of the past, until when I was about five years old, I gradually recalled those memories of my previous life, looking at my own named 'Gongshui Sanye' and 'Gongshui Four Leaves' Sister, he raised his head and looked at the sky......

In the Itosori area, the Miyamizu clan mastered the local religious beliefs, and at the same time, because they were the former lords of the area, they had a considerable right to speak, but no matter how great the right to speak was, it was only a backward town in the countryside, and Compared with the original life of Gong Shui Xianren, there are many things that are not as good as his 'family background', which is only four points.

However, when he was in elementary school later, he didn't know what stimulated his father suddenly. He suddenly said that he wanted to change the small town of Itoshou, and he took advantage of the influence of the Gongshui family to participate in the election. At first he was the mayor, and later he became the mayor.

Gong Shui Xianren once made him wonder, what is the origin of his father, and is slightly different from the character in his impression?

The mother who should have died of an immune disease due to giving birth to a child, Miyamizu Erye is not like the story in his memory.

Inheriting his mother's delicate and wise face, and his father's handsomeness when he was young, make the sage's appearance be considered to be the best in the middle. Type, in Itomoru's life, I received a lot of confessions from girls. When I was in school in Tokyo, there was no shortage of confession letters. Every Valentine's Day, the shoe cabinet is also stuffed with chocolate.

Because of the knowledge I had in my youth, even if I forgot a little bit, after picking it up again, it was easy. Even if it wasn't the first time, it was always in the top ten of the grade. That's why I got permission from my parents to come to Tokyo alone to go to school.

This kind of life should be considered a happy life. . . .

Even if he does nothing, relying on his parents, he can already lead a life that can be called a relaxed and prosperous life.

But fate likes to joke with people. During his high school period, when he met someone who shouldn't be... No, it should be said that it was his father who did not allow the woman he liked, which led to all the tragedies. occur.

"Sayuri... Now she should not know anything, since time has gone back, those original memories should no longer exist. For her now, I am just a a stranger."

Thinking back to the vague memories in his mind, Gong Shui Xianren couldn't help sighing.

Falling in love with a girl who is older than you is not uncommon in this society that has progressed and liberated a lot, but it is not uncommon and acceptable, only if the age difference between the two parties is within five years, and it is All are single and never married.

For example, there is more than ten years of age difference between him and Sayuri Sawamura, which may be a little too big, but it is not unacceptable to the family of the sage. The age difference is also 12 years.

For the sake of his wife, he gave up everything he had in the Mizoguchi family, his original position as a university professor, and even in this society where women's status was slightly lower, it was not impossible for Gongshui Junshu, who voluntarily joined the Mizoguchi family. Accept this age-gap relationship.

But under such an age difference, when the other party is still alive and has a daughter as old as his own son, it is not within the range that Gongshui Junshu can accept. He firmly opposes the love between the sage and Sayuri!

Similarly, as Sayuri's daughter, Yingri, who is the same age as Xianren, could not understand her mother's choice, and could not accept that he was the same age as her and was her former classmate's 'father'.

The strong opposition from the families of both sides has become the biggest obstacle for Xian and Sayuri to be together, but they cannot just abandon their families for their own sake.

Therefore, in the case that the relationship between the two parties has not been recognized by the family members of both parties, the two can only maintain a state of ignorance, and secretly communicate without the family members noticing, and it has continued until that time. An accident happened - his rendezvous with Sayuri was met by his daughter Ying Lili.

Originally, Ying Li Li had already made an appointment to go out with her friends that day, and the remaining Sayuri was at home alone, so she contacted a sage who was also idle at home, and made an appointment to meet at Sayuri's home.

The rest of the things do not need to be repeated too much. Inri, who suddenly returned home halfway, saw a scene that she should not have seen...

So that what happened next made things gradually out of control, and finally moved towards an irreversible state.

When things calmed down, Hyun-jin lost his lover, and Ying-ri also lost her mother and hated him.

He was hated by the girl and not understood by his father, and since then, he has started his own falling life——

I stay in Tokyo alone, don't avoid meat and vegetarian food, and earn a meager salary by submitting short stories in various magazines, and then when night falls, I hide in the izakayas that can be seen everywhere to drink and drink to relieve my worries, and I can't survive. The corner of this bustling city where there is no light...

The mother and sister who kept in touch, because they were worried about him, often came to Tokyo from Itosori to visit, trying to persuade him to come out. Mitsuha even stayed in Tokyo for this reason, taking care of some of his daily life.

As for his father, who has been denying his relationship with Sayuri, it seems that he feels a little regretful when he hears from his mother, but he occasionally makes a phone call, either to scold him for his cowardice, or to make him stand up again and return to Itomoru to start his life again. .

With a father who is the mayor, it may be quite simple to go back to Itomoru, which has gradually developed, and start his own life again, but he can never get out of the shadow of losing Sayuri, and commits Sayuri to suicide. The reason, attributed to him, turned into a knot that couldn't be solved, causing him to hang up his father's phone again and again.

The good memories have turned into a cage that can't be walked out. The bright smile is as moving as fireworks, and the embrace is warm as spring, but what follows is the painful images that are so dark and dazzling that he doesn't want to remember. ......

Now that I'm back in my teenage years, nothing has happened yet.

Even if he was a little sad, he didn't want to let Sayuri suffer that kind of torment and pain anymore. His heart might hurt, but it was the best choice not to contact her.

Looking at the calendar on the desk beside him, he slowly let out a sigh of relief, raised his head, and looked at the blue and broad sunny sky outside the floor-to-ceiling window.

"Start my life again, a life without pain and regret."

"This time, I won't go to the end of depression Wenqing again!"

Photo: "Gongshui Erye", Location: "Images/1634783269-100277911-107848145.jpg"

Cherry Blossom Season: 1. A beautiful new life starts with helping neighbors

There was a person lying on Xianren's bed, the person he met at the door of the apartment when he woke up in the morning and was about to go out shopping.

a woman.

Looking at the woman who was full of alcohol, lying on her bed and never woke up, the sage knew the identity of the other party.

He is a neighbor who lives on this street with him and lives in a nearby apartment. The specific name has passed for too long and he has not had any contact before, so he can't remember it, but he vaguely remembers the other person's last name as ' Takasu', is a single mother with a son about his age.

The other party was wearing a hot and revealing suspender shorts and a leather jacket. Because she was drunk, the sage took off the leather jacket on her body temporarily and put it on the seat beside her, so that when the other party was lying on the bed , will not feel uncomfortable.

She originally wanted to send her back to her own home nearby, but because she was too drunk, she asked her a question about her address, but couldn't get any effective answer.

For example, when asked 'where is your home', she would answer 'he's a handsome guy, come and have a drink with me', which is completely out of touch.

Helpless, I am a sage who has no impression of this area, and I am not sure where her home is.

For the sage who is so indifferent to the roadside, who has not been indifferent enough to sit back and ignore it, he was slightly entangled in his heart, but he chose to temporarily carry her back to his apartment and lay her down on his own. on the bed, waiting for her to wake up naturally.

During the period, he also left paper in his home, wrote down the paper that he could leave on his own if he sobered up, and went out to buy some daily necessities and ingredients.

But when he returned home from the outside, the other party was still lying on his bed, murmuring incomprehensible content, immersed in his sleep and never woken up, in this regard, the wise man can only be the paper he will leave behind, Throwing it into the wastepaper basket I just bought, I never thought that the wastepaper basket would come in handy so quickly.

At first, she would pay attention to Ms. Takasu who was lying on the bed, but after not waking up for a long time, the wise man stopped paying attention to her affairs, and began to tidy up and rearrange the entire room.

Even the room itself is only 1DK, but it is about 8 pings. In the case that the toilet and bathroom are separated from wet and dry, and a part of it has been occupied, there is not much space left, and there are not too many things, so the sages just buy themselves back. The green plants are placed in the corner beside his desk.

When it was noon, he began to prepare his own lunch. He was once intoxicated and indulged, and he had forgotten how long he hadn't cooked himself.

Using semi-finished products purchased from the supermarket, the sages only need to heat and cook these ingredients directly.

The kelp and carrots were cut into small pieces. Under the boiled stock, the ingredients were gradually put into it. The faint fragrance filled the air. The lid was put back on, and the sages also dealt with other The cuisine...

There was a buzzing sound in his mind, Takasu Yasuko felt that his mouth was dry, and the subtle sounds in his ears were as unacceptable as acupuncture due to the sequelae of drunkenness. Under various factors, he was immersed in dreamland. Just when I dreamed that I was about to taste the miso soup made by my son, I opened my eyes and saw a white wall——

"Walls? White walls?"

It was supposed to be an ordinary white wall, but to Takasu Yasuko, it was so unfamiliar.

Whether it was the apartment where she and her son lived, or the place where she worked, she couldn't see such reassuring pure white walls, and she also noticed that the bed she was lying on had a strange and quiet fragrance.

"Well--"

Covering his forehead, he gently rubbed his forehead with his wrist. Takasu Taiko's confused expression gradually came to his senses. There was still a little haze in his eyes, but he watched the surroundings vigilantly. The environment, Takasu Yasuko gradually sat up.

Unfamiliar environment, tidy room, his leather jacket on the seat not far away, the other is the plain desk, and the cactus beside the desk, there is nothing else.

Looking out of the window on the side, she vaguely saw a familiar street scene. She got up from the bed little by little and sat on the edge of the bed. When she wanted to get up, she didn't find her shoes, she could only step on the floor. Little by little, he walked out of the room where there was movement.

When he opened the door, he saw a handsome and clean young man who was standing in front of the kitchen counter and seemed to be preparing food. His delicate face and the vicissitudes of life that he caught in the accident suddenly attracted the attention of Takasu Yasuko. She couldn't help being stunned, and engraved the scene in front of her in the depths of her heart, opened her mouth, and her heartbeat gradually accelerated——

She doesn't know him, but she wants to know him!

That is, at the moment when the door opened, the sage who was preparing lunch also noticed that Ms. Takasu, who was lying on his bed, had already woken up.

Temporarily turning down the gas fire, the sage's gaze turned to the woman wearing a leopard-print suspender shorts and long golden curly hair.

"Looks like you're awake, do you need a glass of water?"

After stopping the cooking in his hands, the sage poured water into a clean cup from the newly bought water bottle on the side, and handed it to the lady Takasu.

Looking at the young man in a trance, Takasu Taiko blinked, looked down at the water glass in front of him, and subconsciously stretched out his hand and took the water glass, but he didn't know if he was taking it intentionally or unintentionally. Hand, took the boy's hand.

Seeing his hand being held, the sage was also stunned for a moment. His hand trembled slightly, as if he had been electrocuted. Seeing the other party holding the water glass, he was stunned for a moment, and calmly retracted his hand.

"Thank you, I must have been drunk last night, why am I here? Where is this place?"

Noticing that what he did just now was really rude, but seeing that the other party didn't seem to care, Takasu Yasuko just assumed that nothing happened. After drinking saliva to relieve his drunkenness, he asked. The reason for being here.

"Fuji Heights Apartment, next to Horizaka. When I was about to go out in the morning, I found you sleeping at the door of the apartment. I didn't know where you lived, so I carried you back. Your clothes are in the room."

Taking back his hand, the sage continued the cooking in his own hands, while calmly answering the other party's question.

What happened just now was a little surprising, but it didn't make the sage feel shaken. He didn't put it in his heart.

"As expected, I'm sorry for causing you trouble."

Takasu Taiko put the water glass on the kitchen counter and bowed to thank the sage.