Girlfriend is Fierce and Cute, Please Respect Yourself

willful desire

"The memory of human beings will fade away. We can't be immersed in grief all the time, can we remember that it existed in the future?"

I remember seeing it somewhere before. Humans are very fragile creatures. They can remember a lot of things, but they always selectively forget some things that make people feel unpleasant.

If you want to use an analogy, then human memory is the beach, those unpleasant memories are the footprints on the beach, and time is the spray, which will wash over and over again until the footprints are smoothed out.

On the contrary, if the footprints have always existed, then the obedient death would be a very sad thing for You Lin, who has been with them for more than ten years. If the memory is not forgotten, it will definitely be difficult to get along in the future!

"Then Ye Xi, how long will you be sad if something you cherish disappears?"

In the dim consciousness, You Lin threw the olive branch of the problem to me again. This is a rather difficult question, but I have no energy to think about it now. Just casually deal with a similar sentence, hoping to prevaricate the past.

The timing when You Lin came to chat with me was really bad, and now her throat is a little dry, but after all, this is You Lin, I wouldn't "sacrifice my life to accompany a gentleman" like this...

"It depends on the situation, some things can't be forgotten in a lifetime, and the memory is at most diluted."

Some memories are the footprints left on the beach, and the waves will disappear after a few times, but some footprints are stones that have been smashed hard, but no matter how many times they are washed, they will be left there. Maybe it will turn into pebbles after many years, but foreign objects It is a foreign object, and it will still be found at a glance on the vast beach.

Like Ding dang obediently, leaving early is not an accident but an expected thing. If it happened to me, I might not feel so sad. It should be more of a sense of loss, because pets are pets after all. No matter how much you cherish it, it cannot reach the level of family members. There is always a layer in the middle. Those who value pets more than their parents are really inexplicable in my opinion.

The first two or three days may be a little uncomfortable. After all, it is the "friend" that I got along with day and night who left me; after a week, I should gradually get used to the days without Jingdang; after a month, Jingle leaves with me. The sadness that comes should be weakened; in the future, it may start a new life, just like You Lin said, there may be a new Ding Dong, but I will always remember that it is no longer there. The jingle was silent.

But You Lin, whether she has been away for three years or 30 years, I will always remember her, because she has left too deep a memory in me in the past 12 years, it may be out of self-protection, I will not deliberately mention this The name, but once someone mentions it, all the memories will come to me like a surging tide, and I can't forget it for three lives and three generations.

"Can't I forget it for a lifetime? But how much of that kind of memory can a person have in a lifetime? If possible, it's better not to disappear..."

"What's the matter with you? Are they both sick?"

When You Lin brought Guomo over, I felt strange, whether it was digestion or chatting, it seemed that it had nothing to do with cats.

As for what I said later to get acquainted with the new environment, it can be explained at first glance, but after careful consideration, I feel that there is something missing, not to mention that the topic of discussion is still so heavy, whether it is life, old age, sickness or death, and it will not disappear. Yes, it was clear that at the beginning, You Lin and I were simply planning to chat.

So now I have to wonder, is it because of obediently suffering from some incurable disease, You Lin was sentimental for a while and this is what happened now.

"No, they are all alive and kicking. Do you think they look sick?"

Just when I thought so, You Lin refuted my guess with one sentence.

But also, in order to confirm what kind of incurable disease Guomo has, she must first see a veterinarian, but You Lin's daily schedule is very transparent, and she doesn't have the spare time.

"Then why are you saying this well?"

Ding dang obediently, how long did these little ancestors bring them back? They serve delicious food and drink every day. Even if You Lin is sentimental, she shouldn't talk about this topic. happy.

"Damn!"

The smile on my face stopped abruptly, and a terrifying thought suddenly occurred in my heart. It was so terrifying that my whole body was shaken. Even though I still have a fever, I have never been so awake.

"You Lin, it won't be you again..."

I really hope she will refute me, I hope she will scold me crow mouth, this kind of thing has happened once, nothing can happen again, I can't accept it psychologically... You Lin's body can't accept it!

"What are you thinking? My illness has long since recovered. It's not a cold, and it can recur!"

"You scared me to death, it's fine..."

He let out a long sigh of relief. After being extremely nervous, his entire body immediately slackened. He burrowed into the quilt and closed his eyes again.

As long as it has nothing to do with You Lin, I can accept whatever happens, but You Lin can't have any more accidents!

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"It's just that when I noticed it, I suddenly found that they have grown up. I am afraid that the next time I notice it, they will leave me. Now it's just a feeling."

As the girl spoke, she slowly closed her eyes, so that people would not have the chance to see her eyes, otherwise they would surely see the despair contained in their eyes.

Everyone has their own destiny, and sometimes "leaving" is not something you can decide, but she didn't expect such a thing to happen to her. She has never been a strong person, and now she is even more afraid to face it...

"But it's also fate. It's obvious that you don't spend time with them, but they're not afraid of you at all."

Perhaps because she was afraid that the boy would notice something strange, the girl spoke again after being silent for a long time, scratching her obedient chin with her fingers, trying to lead the topic elsewhere.

meow~~

"If I have something to go abroad in the future, you will definitely be a good host!"

Obediently closed her eyes and raised her head high, her expression looked very comfortable, but the girl was different. After a chuckle, the smile involuntarily became a bit more bitter.

Deep in love, the girl bit her lip for a while and didn't know what to say. Her nose suddenly twitched, and her eyes instantly turned red. She quickly pretended to slap the corners of her eyes and wiped away all the tears inadvertently.

"It's just that Ding Ding is too noisy, but it is only before the age of one, you should be very obedient when you raise it."

Before the Samoyed is one year old, it is natural to be naughty, and it cannot be changed. It can only be made a little better through acquired training, which is not as reassuring as the golden retriever.

"And Ding Ding Mao, I sometimes suspect that I have raised a sheep, how big is this, and it's a big lump when I take care of it..."

It looks fat and fat, but when you touch it, it is puffy. If you don't want to follow it all day, you can only solve it at one time, but once you take care of it, it will be a big lump. If you save it for a year or two, you may be able to make a sweater. Out……

"Dangdang is very good, and I'm not afraid of your jokes. I've been thinking that if there is a child in the family in the future, maybe she can ride on them. This picture should be quite interesting, right?"

As the girl talked, she chuckled again. Golden Retriever was originally a big warm man among dogs, and children are not very heavy. If they play well, they may really be able to ride on it.

If that kind of scene is filmed, it should be happy for a lifetime, but I know it's an ethereal dream, but now I can't help it.

"What do you say?"

The girl turned her head and asked the boy beside her. According to her guess, the boy should have asked her where the child came from. After all, this idea was too advanced and too bold, but no one gave her an answer now. A sound of sleep came out.

"Ye Xi?"

After making a soft cry, after confirming that the boy was asleep, the girl could only sigh helplessly. She was so nervous just now that she was found out, and after a long time, the only audience in the audience had already fallen asleep.

"I really don't give face, am I so boring?"

Having said that, the girl knew very well that the boy had been chatting with her because of his physical discomfort before, and now he might really be unable to bear it when he fell asleep, otherwise he would not have left himself alone.

After getting up, she helped the boy to tuck the quilt away. The girl was just about to tiptoe and hug Guomo to turn back, as if she thought of something again, lay on the boy's body, and called out his name again.

"Ye Xi? Ye Xi?"

Not only that, but he also tapped his finger on his lips. After making sure that the boy would not wake up, the girl leaned over and touched her lips lightly. When she left, she licked her tongue naughty on her lips.

"Just treat it as fulfilling one of my wishes, so I have nothing to regret, good night~~"

The girl smiled with satisfaction, and immediately got up again, but this time it was also unsuccessful, and as if she had thought of something, she retracted into the bed again with extremely slight movements.

"You can listen and fall asleep, so it's okay for me to talk and fall asleep, right? Everyone, each other, half a catty..."

The girl whispered a word, and then lightly nodded her forehead. She acquiesced to this statement. There was a hint of joy in her eyes. Maybe she should really be grateful for this fever, otherwise, how could there be so many opportunities?

After lying down, the girl was unwilling to be in this state of lying on a corpse, and moved her body little by little, and the distance between the two was getting closer and closer, first the calf, then the thigh, and finally the arm and head. ...

I don't know how long it took, after the girl's arduous movement, the two were already close together.

"There's not much time, just let me be willful once, you should be scared to death tomorrow, right?"

After groping for a while, both hands were firmly grasped in the quilt, keeping the fingers tightly clasped, the warmth came from the outside to the inside, and the girl's other hand was placed on the boy's belly, pushing him. hug tightly.

When you wake up tomorrow morning, just say you don't know what's going on, you don't feel conscious when you go to sleep, and it's not strange to do anything...

flustered

heat……

wet... stuffy...

dizzy...boring...

Maybe there was an omen before I went to sleep, but I'm lying on the bed now, with no strength in my body, just my head is heavy and heavy.

Maybe as soon as I get off the pillow, my head will immediately drop to a place I can't see, maybe under the bed or by the door... It has completely ignored my orders.

I really want to open my eyes to see the surrounding environment and the current situation, but this is undoubtedly an extremely difficult thing for me. Even if I close my eyes for only a moment, my head will be spinning.

Every second is like a year to me, I am wandering in a chaotic world, I can neither go forward nor backward, the horizon keeps rising and falling in my eyes, I am lost in this chaotic world , seems to be stuck in it forever.

"Ye Xi! Ye Xi! Wake up!"

After a familiar and panicked shout, an incomparably bright lighthouse appeared in the chaotic world, and I forced my eyes open, which had taken all my strength.

When I woke up, I found myself still lying on the bed, and what I saw was the familiar ceiling. In addition to the lingering fears, I was more fortunate. Fortunately, the reality was not like that, and I finally came back.

Now my body has been paralyzed into a pool of mud, and I want to stretch out the quilt to cool down, but I failed in the end, because at the moment I am unable to speak or move, just gasping for breath, my whole body looks like Hot as fire.

"You...why...are you here..."

The balcony door was obviously closed, but a gust of wind came in from somewhere and hit me directly on the forehead. My body was obviously very hot, but now I feel very cold, and my back became wet again. One piece, the body is extremely uncomfortable.

"Leave me alone, how did you do this? Did you take the antipyretic medicine I bought for you? If I knew earlier, I wouldn't go out and stay here to supervise you! No matter how big a person can take medicine Want me to supervise?!"

Seeing You Lin's anxious and annoyed appearance, I might have persuaded her directly, but now I can only hold her hand to calm her down, and then explain slowly.

"Eat...ah...but...can...don't care...use it..."

I’m not a child anymore. I still understand the simple thing of taking medicine when I’m sick, but I can’t blame it if the medicine is not strong enough, and it didn’t help me suppress the symptoms of fever.

Antipyretics are different from common cold medicines. Taking too much of the latter is not a big problem, but taking too much of the former can cause serious problems. Liver damage is permanent, so our family will not take antipyretics unless it is a last resort. Yes, today I had such a bad fever and it was a last resort. I had a low-grade fever before going to bed. Who would have known that when I woke up with such a bad fever, it was several times more uncomfortable than yesterday morning.

"Then wait for me for a while, what can I do?"

"Aunt Lin? Aunt Lin!"

It didn't take long for You Lin to go out, and a vague conversation came over. It was enough to disturb their sleep at night, but if I didn't disturb them again, I might really be burned and confused, right?

Now my mind is a little unclear. I just want to find a place to lean on. The acid water is constantly turning over in my stomach, and I always feel like I can spit it out immediately if I want.

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"Linlin? Why are you here? Are you in pain again?"

It's four o'clock in the morning, and when the girl appears here, it's obviously beyond the recognition of men and women. No matter what they think, they can't figure it out. The only explanation is that the condition is repeated.

"No! Aunt Lin, come and have a look. Ye Xi has a fever again. Now she can't even speak."

"what?"

The girl said something in a panic, and it can be seen from the expression on the expression that she was completely panicked.

"Come on, go! Go and see!"

The woman reached out and patted the man's body. It was true that her condition was repeated now, but it had nothing to do with Linlin in front of her. Instead, it was her own cub who had a problem.