Girlfriend is Fierce and Cute, Please Respect Yourself

"It's not bad... I pinched it when I was very young, but I was not ladylike enough, and I was severely scolded by the old man. If I really like it, I won't be so good."

When talking about this, Lu Qing smiled, no child can refuse plastic bubble wrap, even she is the same.

"I really like the feeling of pressing it down with a snap and then deflated, but you know my family conditions, it is impossible to buy too many new things, so things like bubble wrap are still very precious to me, very small It’s actually quite decompressing to be able to pinch it when you’re in bed.”

"But Luo Yin is different. When she was a child, she bought a lot of unnecessary things behind her parents' back in order to squeeze bubble wrap. It has become sick."

"Then what does that have to do with her breaking up?"

Lu Qing was stunned for a moment, there was really no way to connect these two things together, but Yin Su just remembered the past by himself, and didn't even look at her.

"You can see her character from this incident, and she found out later that it is more enjoyable to crush a person's heart, snap it, and then look at the expression on this person's face, there are shock and disbelief , There is confusion, anger, sadness, and fear. What is the first boyfriend in high school? Luo Yin has talked to more than a dozen people before him. This is just the result of her three years in junior high school. The reason why no one knows is because Every time she breaks up, her boyfriend will transfer schools for various reasons."

"?!"

"At that time she asked me if she was a pervert? I said, do you think you are a pervert?"

"How did she answer?"

Lu Qing subconsciously asked this sentence, and now she vaguely realized that Yin Su had lied to her too much about what happened back then.

"I may be really perverted! These are her original words back then. At that time, she smiled really beautifully, but it made my back chill, because this is not what a girl who just entered high school should say! "

"So if you haven't said it all these years, you're covering it up for her?!"

Lu Qing suddenly realized something. Compared with breaking up because of empathy, this kind of dark psychology is simply anti-human!

"It doesn't count. If you read a lot of people, you will know that everyone has two skins. One is for others to see, and the other is for yourself. But the skin for yourself is more Ugly, the more we want to forget this real skin, so when everyone talks about this, they will want to return to the world of the first skin, that world will keep people away from their own ugliness, darkness and despair."

"This is the turning point when Luo Yin and I became best friends. She told me her worst secret. I can no longer treat her like other people, and I can no longer praise her for being beautiful and kind-hearted like others. Kindness, but to let her be with the self who can't look directly. You are the first to know about this. "

"But now it seems that you have failed..."

Lu Qing fell into deep thought. No matter what Yin Su tried back then, the results are here now, and she is the most injured one among them.

"It depends on how you understand failure. In terms of girlfriends, I did lose, but in terms of helping her, I won. She really likes Fang Rong. At least she hasn't harmed him for so many years. Even being pregnant with someone else's child is difficult." It was just an accident, I didn't really want to ruin Fang Rong, I have to admit this..."

"You really have a good temper~~"

"It has nothing to do with temper, you can understand me after listening. She once told me about a nightmare she had, saying that she was running wildly in the airport to catch a plane, but she didn't know the flight time. When she saw When looking at the big screen at the airport, she found that all the destinations were blank. She couldn’t care so much, so she simply got on a plane and left. When she woke up, she suddenly realized that she was not going anywhere at all, but simply She wants to get out of here, it makes her uncomfortable."

"But when she got on the plane, she realized that people around her were holding their noses and staying away from her, forming a puddle of rotting liquid with green bubbles around her. gushes out, and everyone who comes near her will be polluted and will die."

"She started running desperately, calling for help, but everyone kept away from her. She slowly melted, like ice cream, and turned into a pool of black water in the sun. This pool of black water slowly corroded the ground and seeped into the ground. , she saw an underground palace, and inside there was a beautiful woman covered in roses reclining on the throne."

"She walked towards the beautiful woman, but found that it was not a throne but a coffin, and there were no bright roses, only a bloody knife stuck in the woman's body, and then she woke up in a cold sweat"

"When she was talking about this, her face suddenly became very old, as if she had aged several decades, and she couldn't see the slightest youthful breath. She said to me at that time: I know that woman is me who grew up, I can't Anyone who gets close to me, anyone who gets close to me will be killed by me, and I will be poisoned to death by myself after all!"

"In order to appease her, I went home and checked a lot of information, and combined with everything she said to me before, I finally told her that this dream is telling you that everything you build through destruction will eventually be destroyed When you destroy a man, you will feel very powerful, but this sense of strength and value cannot replace love, but you destroy all emotions and love, then you become the world You are the loneliest person in the world. You must continue to succeed in order to expel the toxins. But now you have succeeded to the end, maybe you really like someone, or maybe you can no longer get the nourishment for survival from this thing, So this sense of victory is at the end of its strength, your poison is starting to bite back at yourself!"

"But she didn't take it seriously, and just asked me if there was any way to prevent her from having nightmares. As her best and only friend, I have the responsibility and obligation to help her!"

"I said of course, if she doesn't want to have nightmares at night, then bring them into the daytime."

"She was weird at the time and asked me how I could bring the nightmare into the day and the advice I gave her was to talk to me about the poison on her and why she was going to collect the pain of the boys, it shouldn't be a high school kid what she did, not to mention that her behavior started in junior high school, and she is not a little bit psychologically deformed."

"But she still didn't quite believe me, so I could only tell her that I was chatting with her as a friend, and what I wanted to talk to her about was her loneliness, her longing for love, and even more her fear of longing."

"I also want to talk to her about her dream. In the dream, she found that she was constantly poisoned and asked everyone for help, but they all stayed away from her."

"I asked her how she felt at that time, and she said she was helpless, so I knew from then on that Luo Yin had been hiding behind her glamorous appearance, that she was a child who could not be loved, who had been expelled and disliked all the time. What came out was that the boys called her "Sao" in private, and the girls called her "Lady's watch" in private. "

"Maybe I hit the mark and said it so bluntly. Luo Yin couldn't keep his face off, and looked at me sarcastically, asking if she approached me like this, would I run away too? Afraid she would infect me?"

"How do you answer?"

Facing Lu Qing's questioning, Yin Su was taken aback for a moment, and then said it word by word.

"If you really treat me as a friend, then I am willing to try to get close to you, but you also need to try to accept me, we can be good friends for life!"

"But she suddenly stood up and sneered, saying that I was farting. She only used me as a trash can to vent her emotions, and never regarded me as a friend. Everything before was just an illusion she put on."

"I still regretted it very much at that time, thinking that the temperature of my words was too high, maybe it burned her..."

Yin Su lowered her head and murmured, when she heard Luo Yin say that, she really did everything she could to help her, with both sincerity and lies, but what happened afterwards was unexpected to her.

Do you think I can't see it?

"And after that?"

"After that, she had a cold war with me for a long time, and her clothes became more and more sexy. She didn't look like an ordinary high school student at all. The head teacher also approached her for this, but she was completely unmoved. Until Fang Rong came to "Harassing" me, she rushed up and looked at me with watery eyes, and asked me with a smile if I missed her recently..."

"What kind of way is this?"

Lu Qing frowned and couldn't understand what Luo Yin did at the beginning, but Yin Su didn't seem to hear it, and just said what he wanted to say.

"Let's retreat, and then I pushed the boat along the way and said that I dreamed that she came to me on her own initiative, but her attitude should be more positive. After hearing this, she was a little stunned. Maybe she didn't expect me to take the conversation like this, but she recovered quickly. With that nonchalant attitude, she asked me how I feel when I see her like this now."

"I didn't answer her, because I didn't know how to answer, and the question she asked was confusing..."

"But then she asked me to assume that I was a man, and asked me to rate her attire. I immediately understood what was hidden in the previous sentence."

"If I were a boy, I would definitely have some concerns. The reason why she has such a rich relationship history is because of her deliberately sweet appearance. Even when our male class teacher taught her, he only said that she wore She must be a little mature, not suitable for the age of a high school student, never said that she is indecent, on the road of "pursuing beauty", the general public should be the same..."

"Under this premise, if I choose to talk about him or say something insincere, it means that I don't accept my existence as a real person, or that I don't agree with her charm. The more suppressed this desire is, It’s more likely to go wrong.”

"But you know my character, I really don't like girls dressed like that, so I can't praise her sincerely, so I can only let Fang Rong answer for me, "threat" him to tell the truth from the bottom of my heart, Let him identify with Luo Yin's charm instead of me. "

"What did Fang Rong say?"

Lu Qing didn't know that Yin Su still had this kind of "playing around". Now, compared with deeper things, her interest is very shallow, and she just wants to hear about the excitement of the year.

What is Luo Yin's inexplicable contact with Yin Su? It can't be that he fell in love with Yin Su's kindness and wanted to find a free psychiatrist, right?

"He said that he was quite excited to be a man, but he was devoted to me, so my clothes were his favorite collocation. At that time, Luo Yin just curled his lips and said how could I be so charming and as handsome as Fang Rong people follow behind as followers."

"But my attention was not on it. I asked her why she was dressing more and more sexy these days. She said that was her usual style. I felt awkward because I was not used to her. And she also joked with Fang Rong Said, if I can't bear it like this, then I must be a girlfriend who doesn't know how to be emotional."

"But I know that's not the case. She and I have had a cold war for so many days, and it's not for no reason that she reconciles suddenly now. The change in dressing style makes me have a bold guess. Maybe she hopes to use this method to prevent me It hit her pain point again, which is Luo Yin's longing for all positive emotions. She hopes to ruin our relationship with such a frivolous appearance, so that she can let herself go back to that world full of venom, in that world , she felt safer."

"Perhaps I was right. Luo Yin didn't speak for a long time, but after I dismissed Fang Rong, I told her the truth."

"I admit that the previous sentence "I want to try to get closer to you" was a bit extreme, which made Luo Yin feel scared, worried that we would be too close, and she would be destroyed by me, afraid that I would not be able to bear it and open my heart, and fear that I would be hurt and abandoned or humiliation. "

"Perhaps I was right again. After hearing this, Luo Yin restrained her smile and turned around to leave, but I stopped her."

"Luo Yin and I represent the two aspects of her inner conflict, and there may be a possibility of bragging, but I represent love, Luo Yin represents hate, I represent desire, Luo Yin represents fear, I represent the heart, and Luo Yin represents defense. "

"After these words were finished, I heard a very small sobbing, and I saw tears slipping from the corners of her eyes, dripping on the ground and being buried in the mud for an instant, as if it had never happened,"

"After many days, Luo Yin and I fell into a cold war again. She didn't say a word, and I was silent too. Because I knew that this process of silence represented companionship, and if I said anything more, it would represent love Her invasion, and the end of this cold war, was Luo Yin who said to me "I'm so scary"! "

"You are quite scary..."

Lu Qing half-jokingly said that when she escaped from home back then, Yin Su was already a person who could stand alone in Rongsheng. In terms of understanding of people's hearts, ten times she is not Yin Su's opponent. This must be admitted .

"Although the Cold War ended, we still entered a "silent period", which lasted for more than a week. There was no conversation during the whole meeting, but the mood was normal. "

"Until one time, Luo Yin sat in front of me again and said that she had another dream. She was still at the airport, still running wildly, and then found out that she was a venom spreader. At this time, she saw me, and she stretched out her hand to me. , but I didn’t move, I didn’t move, I didn’t approach.”

"She yelled and broke her throat, but I still didn't move, and then she found that I was a statue, with no life at all. But I don't know why, but seeing me as a statue feels a little relieved..."

"why?!"

"Because I was the first thing in this world to accompany Luo Yin. Maybe Luo Yin approached me with other purposes at first, but I didn't reject her like other girls. I would only persuade her when I was wearing revealing clothes. Not saying behind her back that she dresses like a "cousin". "

"As for why I'm a statue, maybe it's because I don't have any excessive feelings for her, and I've always been rational."

"And when she talked about this, her tears fell down, and she asked me if I was afraid of her. I said I was afraid before, because she, a little girl like her, is not in the same world as me. In my initial cognition, like her This kind of mixed society is not a good person, including Fang Rong! But since I saw her in the airport, I am not afraid anymore."

"She asked me again if I would take the initiative to approach her. I said that I would not act rashly without your permission. But I lied. I am not a psychiatrist. Even with Luo Yin's permission, my character Do not support me approaching her."

"After that she asked me if I would abandon her, and I said no, as long as she didn't give up, I wouldn't give up. This is true. At that time, many of my friends told me bad things about Luo Yin, saying that she What have I done, I have cheated boys who rely on their lower bodies to think, and I will only damage my reputation by being friends with her."

"Then she said that I was scary. She was afraid of me. This was the second time I heard her say that, but the feeling was deeper. Because Luo Yin put aside her devilish side, and now the one who is talking to me is the cautious child."

"In the end, she told me a secret. It turned out that when she was in the first year of junior high school, her real first boyfriend invited her to play outside. After arriving at the destination, there were already a group of boys inside. I don't need to say more about what happened after that. Wait until When she went back to school, she didn't know who spread the news, let alone who spread the rumor that she was caught by the police as a pimp."

"Her father was a leader of the local government, and his reputation was discredited, so he sent her to a relative's house, and then came to S City. Since then, she has never seen her father again. At this time, she has become a famous person in the neighborhood. Knowing the "broken shoe", I finally know where her poison comes from. "

"If your biological father told you, you sold it voluntarily! You are a born bitch! You killed our whole family! I don't have your daughter! How would you feel? She asked me that day ...It was also because of this incident that her parents divorced and never saw each other again."

"She said that this feeling was like a rain of arrows piercing every corner of her body, it was too painful! And the most frightening thing was not the nightmare brought to her by those boys, but the fact that when she returned home, she found that the world had already been destroyed. There is no place for you."

"After she calmed down, I asked her if there was still so much venom left on her body?"

"She smiled and said to me that it might be [-]% less..."

"I think this is already a very good record. I have only known you for more than a month, and it is [-]% less. If we continue like this, maybe she will completely become a true self. I don't mind taking drugs for her. "

"She tilted her head and looked at me with a half-smile, as if she didn't believe what I said, but some things have to be proved by time, and Luo Yin's doubts are nothing in my eyes. But she said: Now in front of my eyes The statue looks like the hand is alive, but the rest is still stone..."

"Others started to become girlfriends step by step, but Luo Yin and I were different. After I said "Okay, let's resurrect together", our relationship developed by leaps and bounds. "

"There is such a thing on Luo Yin?"

Lu Qing always believed that Luo Yin was an unforgivable sin, but now after hearing the story Yin Su told, although she is still unforgivable, her image in his mind is much more three-dimensional.

"Do you think I really can't see that she likes Fang Rong? It's strange that girls don't like Fang Rong!"

"..."

"Do you think I can't see that she told me these things to get close to me? I know, but I feel sorry for her more. Those things really happened to her!"

"..."

"So when Fang Rong told me that something was wrong with Yin Su, I didn't respond to him. I was afraid that Luo Yin would think that I was rejecting her. It was just a simple liking. There is no need to make everyone's faces ugly. The world likes her Fang Rong has too many girls, do I have to reject one when I see one?"

"..."

"Facts have proved that I should really do that. It's too much and not fireworks. It's better for Luo Yin to act like a baby and please boys when she's jealous."

"..."

"That's why I was so desperate at that time. I believed that Fang Rong would not betray me, and even more believed that Luo Yin would not kick me down after I dragged her into the swamp, but it turned out that I was too naive."

"..."

"I hate Luo Yin, not because she simply did those things to me, but because I hate her for crossing rivers and tearing down bridges!"

"..."

"She has clearly experienced that kind of thing and knows how much it hurts people, but she wants to use the same thing to destroy me, just because I took the position of Fang Rong's wife!"

"..."