Love Comes After Learning

With a self-deprecating arc on her lips, Rui put the gauze and medicine in the cabinet in the living room, lightly leaned on the handrail, and walked upstairs slowly.

The corridor on the second floor did not turn on the lights, allowing the faint light to shine through to reveal the floating particles in the air, making it appear quiet and dull.

Rui stopped suddenly, turned around, and stared at his door.

——That’s right, both me and him are fools who like to disturb others the most.

Holding the doorknob in his hand, he didn't have any expectations, nor did he really want to go into his room.

But as if she could touch his body temperature through this metal handle, she couldn't help turning slightly, as if she was holding his hand.

Click.

"opened……?"

Ruyi opened her eyes slightly in surprise, the doorknob turned half a turn smoothly, and with a slight force, the sunlight pouring in from the window would stir the hair on her cheeks with the breeze, and the clean and tidy room came into view at the same time.

Didn't it even lock it... You obviously locked the door when you went out before, did you forget it carelessly this time?

Or is this a trust in them?

Rui was more inclined to the latter possibility, because even when she was alone at home, she never broke into his room without permission, nor did she rummage through his things without permission.

Compared with the beginning, the relationship cultivated by the two is already comparable to the mutual trust and tacit understanding of family members.

——And now, she wants to trample on this trust without hesitation.

"Excuse me~"

Said flatly, closed the door flatly, opened his hands flatly, took a breath of air in the room flatly.

The sunshine and the fragrance of books seemed to encircle his arms quietly, and his smell filled his nostrils and lungs.

"Hiss...ha..."

After taking a few deep breaths, she woke up as if startled, her cheeks turned red instantly, she covered her face full of shame, and let out a weak moan.

"What am I doing, isn't this just like a pervert..."

It is estimated that Er Nao and San Jiu are not perverted by themselves, right?

I am sick with longing.It is because the heart pretends to be his business, so the body does this unconsciously!Definitely not a taste fetish!

...Forget it, anyway, there is no one around, so let's be honest and face your own heart.

I just like his smell. What's wrong?can't you?

Abandoning herself, Rui closed her eyes again to feel the lukewarm temperature in the room, and took a long while before taking her footsteps.

Looking around, his room is no different from the ones she saw in those few nights - she would come here to read with him every night, and only go back before going to bed, so it is not a problem to say that she is already familiar with this room.

But the taste of his presence is different from now.

Is it because of the sweetness of more memories?

Synesthesia, thinking can also affect the sense of smell... Rui couldn't help laughing, as if she was amused, but not so happy.

It is precisely because the mood is always ups and downs, no matter whether you are happy or sad, you are half-hearted, even if you like someone, you have become so reckless, so you will call yourself a fool.

Most heroes are idiots, but idiots can never be saved by anyone and cannot become heroes...

The reason why heroes are heroes is because they have the belief that they can stick to the end, even if they are called fools, they will not give up.

It’s written like this in novels, but in reality, no one would take it seriously, after all, those who take it seriously are fools.

"It's not like me, thinking about these irrelevant things..."

Sighs linger in the silent room.

When did Rui Tachibana become so sentimental?Talking straight, disregarding other people's feelings, where is the self who hates twists and turns the most?

Asking herself this way in her heart, Rui sat down at the desk, looked at the scenery he usually saw, and imagined him sitting here concentrating on reading.

And I am used to leaning on his bedside, reading novels and feeling drowsy.

『Rui, go back to your room and sleep. 』

"Haoo... I'm lazy, take me back. 』

"Fat, don't. 』

"...Tch, sooner or later I will cut you off. 』

The carefree vile laughter and murderous tongues seem to be replaying in the ears.

The smile raised unconsciously, and the sun seemed to penetrate into the atrium of the heart, melting those melancholy bit by bit with warmth.

"...Sometimes, I really can't tell whether it's liking or other feelings."

Like is like between men and women.

Other feelings are simply wanting to be with him.

Get used to his smell, get used to his laugh, get used to his attitude, get used to having his space.

When you get used to these things, you will be reluctant to leave, and this relationship can easily be confused with love, causing everything to have an inexplicable chemical reaction.

Somewhat similar to the so-called drawbridge effect, right?

Fingers subconsciously rubbed his desktop, Rui tried to distinguish the difference, frowned for a long time, but still couldn't find any solution to the problem that could be applied, so she could only sigh and planned to stand up.

boom!

Her knee hit the drawer hard, and she gasped for an instant, and sat back slowly with her eyes wide open, pressing her trembling leg with her right hand, and gritted her teeth to endure the pain.

"Today... is definitely my Good Friday..."

Isn't it enough to abolish one hand, does God still want to take my leg?

While blinking the tears from the corners of her eyes, and spitting out to relieve the pain, Rui suddenly found that the drawer of Asada's desk was knocked half open by her.

Shouldn't it be locked?Really careless, this guy is usually locked tightly so that no one can see him.

Anyway, they all sneaked into his room, so it's human nature to see what's hidden in his mysteriously locked drawer?

Is it the little yellow book...

Curiosity threw the pain into the corner, Rui opened the drawer, and the first thing she saw was a notebook.

The cover seems to have written something originally, but it has been wiped off, so it doesn't look old at all.

She picked it up and opened it. At first, she looked a little puzzled, but the more she turned it back, the more her pupils shrank, and her astonished expression was no less than seeing a heavy-duty book.

"this is……

Chapter 230 Shinichi Asada, The Real Him

There are many things written in it.

There are his feelings when he knew Fumino Furuhashi, his emotions when he knew Nakano Miku, the notes he made for Fumino and Ogata Riju, and his opinions on Mr. Kirisu.

There are the troubles he encountered when teaching, the troubles he had when getting along with girls, the joy he had because he had more and more friends, and the entanglement he found that his emotional life was gradually enriched.

There are the analysis of the relationship between him and Wenli, the changes in his relationship with the quintuplets, the long series of sighs he wrote tirelessly, and his serious articles analyzing himself and the current situation from various angles. .

Biting her lip subconsciously, she adjusted her breathing, suppressed the churning emotions in her heart, and continued to flip through the records that seemed to be filled with the person "Shinichi Asada".

This is not a diary, but just his inner voice that cannot be expressed to others.

"what do I do?"

"What can I do?"

"What do I want?"

"What can I do to satisfy everyone? What can I do to find the optimal solution?"

His confused self-question seemed to be transmitted through words.

"No one can tell me...for everyone's sake, I have to find out myself!"

"To be able to spend such a happy daily life with everyone, for a person like me, it probably only happens once in a lifetime... So, I can't let their smiles disappear!"

"This is what I should do. This is my responsibility. It's all because of me. You can't pretend to turn a blind eye!"

"If you don't know how to do it, learn it, if you are afraid of being changed, learn it, if you don't want to lose those beautiful things, learn it... You monster who only knows how to learn, do your best to do your part!"

The image of him desperately pinching his palm seemed to appear in front of his eyes.

One stroke at a time, deeply imprinted on the paper.

Facing the open notebook, Ruyi sat motionless, her eyes suddenly lost focus, and the images of that day flashed like a slideshow.

Six years ago, he said the same thing.

Obviously not much older than himself, but with a painful and confused expression, he whispered to a book.

"...Sometimes, I feel like I'm a monster. 』

"..."

The teeth were clenched unconsciously, and the small face was wrinkled, like astringent orange peel.

"I don't even remember the past, but this kind of self-knowledge is still in my heart... Idiot. Idiot! Idiot of a prehistoric monster!"

Choking and cursing in a low voice, his expression could not tell whether it was anger or sadness.

She sniffled, opened her eyes wide to let the sore eyeballs breathe, it took a long time to stabilize her turbulent emotions, and continued to flip through the notebook.

There are stories about her in the back, some are record-like expositions, some express the joy of being with the new family members, and naturally there are complaints, troubles, and cries of wanting to hug my sister and roll on the bed.

Looking at it, Rui couldn't help laughing again, her face flushed slightly.

"This guy is really a sister-in-law..."

"In order not to become a scumbag, one should face up to one's feelings and make sure that one really likes them before falling in love. Is this the right choice?"

Seeing this sentence, she just curled her lips—you probably will never be able to fall in love with your look that everyone likes, right?

There are a bunch of vows that I must take my sister seriously, but now I am injured at home alone, and I can enjoy dating without even turning on my mobile phone?

The big liar.

So buried, but behind with a very neat font, as if writing all the strokes of the paragraph with heart, but it made Rui stunned in place, and did not recover for a long time.

"I made a promise with Rui that I can't disappoint anyone who likes me. The only thing I have to do is to respond to their expectations and satisfy their little happiness within the scope of not exceeding the rules."