Love Comes After Learning

I admire the calmness of standing in front of difficulties, and the simple and profound trust.

I look forward to the figure that is neither gentle nor caring, but can appear at the most critical moment, standing in front of her majestically in the rain

— Then stick to it.

Whether it's forest school or acting, you have to do your best, so that you can become the strong person he said.

If it was him who he trusted, he would definitely be able to do it!

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...Ah, it failed.

I'm pretty much familiar with accounting affairs, so I can help Shinichi-kun very well.

However, acting is not good at all.

I haven't seen any improvement, my smile is still so fake, and I can't express my feelings well. Even if I am comforted by my agent, I still know that my acting skills have always remained at the level of "not bad".

I understand.

It is because I am used to making a smile, so I forget what is a real smile;

It is because I am used to making feelings, so I forget what real feelings are.

After acting in the role for a long time, is it that he is no longer the protagonist in the stage of his own life?

Can the sweat and faith of these days be exchanged for this kind of end in the end?

What a pity, such a self would never pass the audition.

So, I don't want to go...headstrong, I want to avoid the audition that I know I will fail.

Ahead is a cliff shrouded in mist. Now that we all know this fact, why go forward?I don't have that kind of courage, and I don't have that kind of strength. If I don't want to fall to pieces, stopping is the right choice.

... Sure enough, Kazuka Nakano was not strong.

She's just an ordinary girl who can't do anything.

Shinichi-kun...

Sorry for not being able to meet your expectations.

Sorry for not being able to respond to your trust.

And everyone, as expected, my sister, I still can't stand alone... Fortunately, you don't know, I still have the majesty of my sister, although I don't feel like there is much left.

The distant dream is indeed still far away.

If you choose to escape, maybe it will be easier, right?

To be so happy to participate in the fireworks display and birthday party with everyone, it must be better than failing the audition and coming back to affect the mood of the fun, right?

Well, just do it!

Come to play the most relaxing scene, pretend that I forgot that the audition date was advanced, have fun all day long, forget all my troubles, and only remember it the next day, bow to the president and apologize, and promise There will be no next time.

That's enough.

Kazuka Nakano, on the road of her dream, started to stray a little bit.

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Then, I was caught by the president, and I was going to audition.

Damn, it's too bad...

Fear, nervousness, resistance, stomachache... But when she came back to her senses, she suddenly found that what she thought most was unwillingness.

Obviously I have put in so much hard work during this time, and I have spent seven or eight hours a day on my acting skills, but I still can't improve, and I still can't see myself growing enough to pass the audition.

Not reconciled... Really not reconciled... If there is more time, if there is a better way, if...

Yes, there is no if, the reality is so cruel.

Everyone will be stumbled by this roadblock on the way to pursue their dreams, fall to the ground with scars, cry and say that they don't want to move forward, but stand up with strength and continue to walk.

It's not that she hasn't failed before, and she didn't know how many times she failed the audition before; although she missed this time, she doesn't know when she will have the perfect opportunity to make her debut again, but don't worry too much about it, keep working hard!

——I thought I could think this way, but this wavering feeling is more serious than Yihua imagined.

Because someone is watching me, someone knows that I will have an audition soon.

If one day he asked how his audition went and which movie role he got, how would he answer?

Admitting that you failed, and then fooling around with a nonchalant smile?

It's okay, no matter whether he laughs at it or comforts it, Yihua believes that he can laugh it off, and then make a silent decision, next time he must impress him.

But...it has nothing to do with him.

Nakano's failure was due to her own incompetence and weakness, and had nothing to do with Shinichi Asada.

If he wants to take this responsibility on his shoulders, then the reasons he gave, the trust he gave, the encouragement he gave...these things are too heavy for Yihua.

It was obviously something that supported me, but it became a burden that suppressed my breathing... I really don't want to be in such a situation.

In the end how to do?

Favorite job, favorite effort, favorite study, favorite dream—and, trustworthy friends.

Standing in the middle of the intersection, Yihua couldn't move, and silently put on a pure white mask.

Wait for the time to pass and allow yourself to be forced to make a choice.

Today's Nakano Kazuka is only one step away from escaping her dream

Chapter 180 Three Ways of Encouragement

Cafe.

Bossa Nova-style background music was flowing slowly, but the air in one seat seemed to be condensed, and even the sound of rain could not break the stiffness enveloping it.

(Reason to escape...dreams?)

These words lingered in his ears, causing a brief blank in Yihua's trance thinking, and a little crack seemed to be broken in the disguised indifferent expression.

Then, she came back to her senses, gritted her teeth and complained secretly.

(Obviously I’ve begged you so much, I’ve begged you so much... You bastard, you’re still trying to pry my mouth open so ruthlessly?)

And you almost guessed it just now, and you still need me to say, what is this?Forced to explode?Expose people's wounds?

Really, not gentle at all!

Can't you understand the slender and fragile girl's heart?Even if it's me, even if the person sitting in front of you is you, in this atmosphere, how can I say that kind of words——

"I, actually——!"

Before the words fell, the jaw tensed, and the opened mouth quickly closed, cutting off the words that blurted out.

(It's so risky, I almost said it! Wooah, how shaken I am, you bastard!)

Yihua lowered her head calmly, pinched the skirt of her bathrobe, and after taking a few deep breaths, she rearranged her expression and mood.

Can't say, absolutely can't say.

Wanting to meet his expectations, wanting to be the strong person he said, I have been working hard for this until now, but the result is that I am only getting more and more proficient in accounting affairs, and my acting skills are still at the level of a secondary role, so I feel unwilling—— Even if he guessed the result correctly, Yihua couldn't tell the reason.

It's all his fault, saying this kind of thing in such a serious tone... The current atmosphere is really bad, if you are not careful, it will develop into a heart-to-heart scene, and people can't help but put all the messy things in their hearts Confess.

Although he may comfort himself and make himself feel better afterwards, there are some things that can only be kept as the deepest secrets in his heart, and he cannot say anything to him who is only the "chairman" and "good friend".

What's more, what she said was equivalent to throwing the responsibility on his shoulders, so why did she interrupt just now?What are you pretending now?Everything will become meaningless.

and so……

"There is only one thing to say."

Putting on another mask, Yihua slightly frowned, deliberately keeping her distance.

"I didn't run away from my dream, it's just that I didn't feel like going to the audition because I was in a bad state today and knew that I had no chance of success in the audition."

After telling a half-truth, go on to take a stand.

"Asada Shinichi-kun, not only this matter has nothing to do with you, but your guesses are all wrong, so, for the sake of our friendship, let's stop here.

If you want to continue talking..."

The voice was slightly drawn out, and she suddenly tilted her head and smiled, her water blue eyes were staring straight at him, her eyes did not back down, and there was even a hint of threat.

Maybe, he can also see that he is still acting now, right?

That's just right, let him understand directly like this - "Even if I lie, I don't want to tell you what's in my heart." 』

"I've made up my mind, even if I fail in the next audition, it's my own failure, please don't get involved. 』

Maybe she still can't be strong, but she is already very skilled at being strong.

From silently strengthening his acting skills before, to now reducing sleep in order to take care of both parties' affairs, and letting himself greet others as if nothing had happened, acting bravely and reluctantly is already instinctively easy for Kazuka Nakano.

And that time on the rooftop, he also said that, right?

"Those who stand on the stage should do a good job on the stage. The sweat they shed is not the audience's business."

Given the current situation, perhaps we can add this sentence later——

"Before I successfully stand on the stage, please don't start my prelude without authorization."

"I, I don't want you to see me so weak..."

In the end, the words were still blurted out, but she didn't let him hear them.

Only his lips moved, his eyes dimmed, and he whispered to the hands on his knees that held the hem of the bathrobe tightly.

The next time I looked up, I was able to smile at him pretending nothing had happened.

"Then, Shinichi-kun..."

Suddenly, Asada sighed heavily.

"Ha~~ I finally know how troublesome it is for people who keep things in their hearts but don't say them!"

He scratched his head and clicked his mouth.

"Me too, and you too. We all think that it is a kind of weakness to tell others what is in your heart. No matter the pain or loss, you have to deal with it alone, so that you can be considered strong... There is nothing wrong with it. It is better to say that you always tell others The guy who asked for help has a problem."

"Huh..." Yihua blinked for a moment, unable to react because of his change of attitude, with a dumbfounded expression.