My Name is Kosaka Kyosuke but I Don't Want to Be Pushed Down by My Sister

"I didn't ask you to give up. What I mean is, can't you take care of it? Even if you get married, it's not that I don't support you, nor will I stop you. "

"I know, I understand, but I'm really afraid..."

Ayase Aragaki said with a difficult tone: "I am afraid that there will be an accident like last time. At that time, I am really afraid that I will kill the child secretly for the sake of my career, and I am also afraid that I will give up for the sake of the child... Can you wait any longer?" Wait... I'm really not ready now, and is it not good to be like this now? If you are busy, you have to, I am busy, so why do you have to be in such a hurry to get married?

As long as the relationship is good, what does it matter if you marry earlier or later. "

Kyosuke Kosaka did not understand this truth.

I also understand better that apart from the sacred side of marriage, it is also a kind of bondage. Once there is this bondage, both of you will be forced to make changes. At that time, many things will not be done as you want. How about it, the worries will become more and more...

For example, two people who are not married can always ignore the issue of children, but once they are married, they have to face this issue.

Aragaki Ayase is worried about these.

Besides that, of course there are many other things.

"Yeah, I understand, I know what you said, it's just... I don't want to stand still anymore."

There was a moment of silence, then continued.

"It was like this when I was with the black cat...She, like you, has things she wants to accomplish, and she keeps telling me to wait. This wait is two years, but it's nothing. Compared with the road that two people will take in the future, two years is just a short distance. I originally thought that way...

but--

What happened in the end? "

After Aragaki Ayase was silent for a while, she tried to quibble and said, "Isn't it because she suspects that you have an unusual relationship with Kirino?!"

When she said this, even she herself didn't believe it.

Kyosuke Kosaka couldn't help but smiled wryly, "I thought the same way at the beginning, but it wasn't until she took the initiative to contact me last time that I realized that it was just another reason to wait, and she became like that when she was annoyed by me. , It’s just that she didn’t expect it to become like this this time... I’m really worried now that we will become like this too.”

"..."

This time Aragaki Ayase was completely silent.

Although she really wanted to say no, she knew in her heart that the two of them would become like that in the end, otherwise... Now that Kyosuke Kosaka has been pressing so hard, she should have agreed.

Without waiting for Aragaki Ayase to react, Kosaka Kyosuke took out the ring that had been prepared a long time ago from his pocket.

Kneeled on the ground.

"Ayase—marry me."

Ayase Aragaki looked at the ring. This was a scene she had fantasized about many times, and it was something she had been looking forward to for a long time. At this moment, she seemed to reach out to meet the ring, because she knew that she missed it this time, and it was very difficult Maybe it's because she really missed it, but she knows...it's not what she wants now.

"Can't you wait for me too? Give me some time to prepare."

Aragaki Ayase said it hard.

Although Kosaka Kyosuke is very clear that this is very unfair to Aragaki Ayase, but this sentence——

"I'm so tired of hearing, wait a minute, I'm not ready...

Every time.

Wait--

OK, tell me, how long will it take?When will we wait?And in two years I will be thirty, 30 years old!How long can I wait?I'm really afraid, not because I'm afraid that I won't be able to wait for the result, but because I'm afraid that when you are ready, we will have passed the age of childbearing.

I'm just... children are just part of love, even without children.

But I really don't want to be homeless. "

The problem with Kosaka Kyosuke, Aragaki Ayase, and Gogen Ruri is not a problem of age, but a problem of mentality. A normal person at his age would not think so far, but he is not normal. Although he did not die of old age in his previous life , but also experienced the feeling of being old and nowhere, and the feeling of being alone and rootless...

That's why he was so urgent.

"Does it have to be today?"

"Not today, when is that? Tomorrow? Next year? Next life? I don't want to drag it on."

"I didn't procrastinate, it's just... I'm in a mess right now, I haven't thought it through yet, don't do this, wait until I think it over... okay?"

Kosaka Kyosuke knew that such persecution was unfair to Aragaki Ayase, and he imposed his own feelings on Aragaki Ayase, without caring about Aragaki Ayase's feelings at all. It was selfish and a jerk to do so, but——before he faced It was done like that when dealing with Wugeng Liuli, but what was the result?Just over and over.

There is no absolute fairness between people.

Aragaki Ayase wants to procrastinate like this, so why isn't he forcing Kyosuke Kosaka to compromise?

After all, the balance is tilted to a certain extent.

"Okay, tell me—what to wait for? How long to wait? Give me an answer."

"year……"

Ayase Aragaki wanted to talk about it for two years, but he was worried that he would not be able to realize his dream at that time, but he was also worried that Kyosuke Kosaka would disagree after talking for a long time.

"I make my dreams come true."

"How can I realize it? Do you think I have realized my dream like this?"

"I...I don't know."

"Let me tell you, no! I still feel that I have achieved my dream. At the beginning, I might just think that 'I can live on comics for a lifetime, and I don't need to find other jobs' to be satisfied. Later, 'I want to draw that kind of results too. As successful as those big guys', after that 'I want to surpass everyone and become the number one, the undisputed number one'..."

Kyosuke Takasaka lit a cigarette for himself.