My Name is Kosaka Kyosuke but I Don't Want to Be Pushed Down by My Sister

At this moment, her voice became choked up, and her tears flowed out uncontrollably. Since she realized how hard her parents lived for this family every day, she never caused any trouble for her parents, and even took the initiative to help her parents. To share part of the matter, but at this moment she couldn't bear it.

"I really don't understand..."

"Ok?"

Father looked at Wugeng Liuli with a serious face, quietly waiting for the words behind Wugeng Liuli.

"Why can other people succeed so easily, or even accomplish things that I have been unable to accomplish with just a little effort, I really don't understand why I am not me...why I can't... In fact, I understand that this is fate, this is talent, this world is unfair...

Some people are born with the ability to do things that no one else could have imagined.

Before, I always felt that as long as I was willing to work hard, even if my talent was a little weaker, it was not hopeless.

But no matter how hard I try these years, I only get negatives time and time again...

I really want to give up. "

The father originally thought that his eldest daughter was crying about love problems this time, but he didn't expect it to be such a thing. He didn't know how to answer the eldest daughter for a while, because he knew very well that the world was not fair at all, but He didn't want his eldest daughter to live such a pessimistic life after urinating so much.

And the world is not so pessimistic.

"This world is not fair, but it is also fair...

I have been very ordinary since I was born, with average academic performance, average looks, and average work ability. It can be said that there is almost nothing outstanding. People like me are everywhere in this society... you know?Every time I see those people with good family background and those excellent people get promoted, I feel very jealous, resentful, and even curse everything.

I feel that the world is too unfair to me, why are we all human, but others can live so happily, but I have to live so hard.

At that time, I lived a very dark life and drank heavily almost every day.

In this state, I didn’t realize that the world is fair until I met my mother and had three lovely daughters. At the same time, I also understood that fame and fortune don’t represent everything. Only after seeing these clearly did I understand those people I was jealous of. In fact, I am not as happy as I imagined, everyone has their own difficulties, everyone has their own suffering..."

Pausing for a while, it seemed that Wugeng Liuli had misunderstood it, and added.

"Of course I said this not to make you give up, but to let you understand that the world is not that bad. Don't think too extreme. No matter how cloudy the sky is, there will always be a moment when it clears up."

Although he is already the father of three daughters, Wugeng Liuli and his wife have always been taking care of him at home, so he rarely communicates with his daughters. No, it's useless when he comes in handy.

That's why the communication with the eldest daughter was so jerky this time.

"Whether to give up, this decision, I can't help you make a decision, and I can't help you make a decision, because it is your life... You should master it yourself, not me to help you plan everything, as long as this The answer is the answer you want, whether it is to give up, persist, or feel tired and want to escape.

in fact……

Things are not as difficult as you imagined. You are still very young. Even if you make a wrong choice this time, you still have time to regret it. Besides, you, my mother, and my sister will be by your side no matter what. "

Looking at his father's face that was older than he remembered, and recalling what his father said before, he felt a warm feeling in his heart, and Wu Geng Liuli calmed down a little.

"I'm at a loss right now."

"Ah."

No matter how tired, my father was never impatient.

"Recently, I have been a little confused about what I want to create. At first, I really thought that writing novels could make money, so I tried to write novels. But later on, I gradually became immersed in creation, and even completely forgot that I originally wrote novels because of I only approached it because I thought it was very profitable... I just created it because I thought it was interesting to create, and I just wanted to create interesting works.

Every time I create, I just want to write a work that is interesting to myself and others, but I have always been able to achieve the former, no matter how hard I try, I can't complete the latter. "

The pure and flawless dream has become fragmented and full of cracks in repeated failures, and I have worked hard to keep it from being completely broken.

"However, I have always believed that as long as I work hard enough, my dream may come true one day, but recently there is a nasty guy who has been confusing me and making me more and more confused... He said that creation is very important to me. Said that it is not a dream, but a hobby, something that exists to make yourself happy, and a dream is something that you want to complete with all your bets.

At first I was very disdainful of his words, thinking it was just his self-righteousness...

It was not until recently that I gradually became inexplicable about the meaning of these words. Just like major courses and elective courses among college students, it is a matter of primary and secondary... But the more I understand these, the more at a loss I feel. I don’t think it should be That's the case, but there is no way to refute it, but if you do it like that, what is the difference between a dream and a job. "

Hearing these fathers finally understood why Wugeng Liuli was confused.

At the same time, he also felt a little puzzled, because he didn't understand the profession of a novelist, so he couldn't further understand Wugeng Liuli's pain, but he still had his own ideas.

"You should graduate from university next year. At that time, you should officially enter the society to find a job. Since they are all jobs, why don't you choose something you are interested in doing? At least it is what you like. No matter what, it’s slightly better than working just to make money.”

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Wugeng Liuli had an answer from his father's words, no...he already had an answer from the very beginning.

"But……"

Wugeng Liuli's expression became very hesitant.

Becoming a novelist is easy to say, and it seems that as long as you know how to type, you can get started, but how difficult it is to do it, only those who have really understood it will understand.

Her hesitation does not come from how difficult this profession is, but that this profession is too special.

Ordinary work will always pay off as long as you work hard, but the novelist is different, just like she couldn't succeed no matter how hard she tried in the past few years.

And creation is not an easy task, a lot of energy and time are devoted to it every day, that is to say, it is difficult to take care of other jobs as a novelist. Odd jobs support life, such a life is too unstable...

It is likely that another few years of time will be invested in it without any return at all, and it will eventually end in failure.

Failure is scary...

But she's used to it.

It was not herself who made her hesitate, but her family.

She doesn't expect to be rich in the future, but she doesn't want to add more burdens to her family. If it wasn't for getting a diploma after graduating from university, she could find a good job. She didn't even want to go to university, but just wanted to find a job sooner. A job to share some financial pressure for the family.

And the unstable future of chasing her dreams made her hesitate, fearing that she would really be like Kazuta Kurosawa in the past, who worked hard for most of her life but could not achieve any results.