My Name is Kosaka Kyosuke but I Don't Want to Be Pushed Down by My Sister

Chapter 135 Too many negations, even myself will deny myself

In this way, the room fell into a brief silence. Before Kyosuke Kosaka could speak, Kazuta Kurosawa spoke first.

"Honestly, I'm relieved to see you here—"

"Relieved?"

Kosaka Kyosuke's brain was a little bit overwhelmed for a while, shouldn't Kurosawa Kazuta be flustered?Kurosawa Katada breathed a sigh of relief why he came here by himself.

"Yes, I'm really relieved. I've been so nervous these days——Now that I think about it, I feel ridiculous. I know it's wrong to do it, but I still can't help it. Haha——" Kurosawa Kazuta With a wry smile, he lay powerlessly on the ground, covering his eyes with his left arm.

keep talking.

"I'm really not an ordinary piece of rubbish, to bully a middle school girl just because I want to be successful, hehe——"

"No wonder I get laughed at by others—"

"Now I can't help but feel that I'm ridiculous—but it's too bad for such a plot to develop like this. My original is really useless, she wrote too detailed, too detailed, I don’t need to think too much—”

"Even my brain is locked up by what she wrote. Recently, I also want to create an original comic, but now my mind is full of her settings and I can't think of my own."

"I can only make a second original creation on the basis of the current plot according to her setting—"

Kurosawa Kazuta smiled wryly.

"I don't know what to do now—I want to continue to make mistakes like this, and I don't think it's okay to go on like this—"

Kosaka Kyousuke listened to Kurosawa Katada's narration in silence, he could hear the bewilderment in Kurosawa Katada's heart from Kurosawa Katada's words, Kurosawa Katada knew it was wrong to do so!I shouldn't have done this, but Kurosawa did it and did it thoroughly——

Now he understood why Kurosawa was relieved that he had come.

Because Kurosawa was looking for answers.

Kurosawa felt that Kosaka Kyosuke could give him an answer.Kosaka Kyosuke also has no way to answer this situation. He can understand the mood of Kurosawa Ichita at this moment, and he is even very clear about Kurosawa Ichita's difficulties now, but he really can't give an answer, because he also encountered such a situation in his previous life. Happening.

Kurosawa was denied by the people around him and completely lost confidence, so he was unable to create his own story.

Because in his heart, he has already agreed with the denials of others, and even he already thinks that the things he created are not good!Not as good as something created by someone else.

Kurosawa Kazuda doesn't seem to care much about other people's eyes and walks alone, but if he is really not in other people's eyes, how can he know that others are laughing at him? !

People who don't care about other people's eyes at all will not exist in this world.

As long as you are human, you will more or less care about other people's eyes and what others think of you.

When he first came to this world and came into contact with comics, he was also in the same state. His independent creation brain was blank, but if he made a second creation according to the things set by others, he would have some ideas. Kyosuke Kosaka is luckier than Kazuta Kurosawa !Because at that time Kyosuke Kosaka was surrounded by Manami Tamura.

He built up some confidence with the encouragement of Tamura Manami, and the help of editor Tomita and Ayase Aragaki——

Only then did he get out of the predicament and come to where he is now.

Without Manami Tamura, editor Tomita, and Ayase Aragaki, he would not be able to achieve what he is today. Just like Gogen Ruri said, he will accomplish nothing in the future, and waste his life again in mediocrity, even It is to gnaw on the old, gnaw on the younger sister, and spend a ridiculous life like a parasite.

Kosaka Kyosuke really wanted to tell Kurosawa Kata that he didn't know what to do, but you had to give me an answer.

Push the question back to Kazuta Kurosawa.

Let him worry himself, let him find the answer by himself.

After thinking for a while, he asked Kurosawa Katada, "Since it's so difficult, why don't you give up?"

After Kurosawa was silent for a long time, he spoke.

"Why? When I first started drawing manga, I just wanted to share the stories I imagined with everyone. I chose manga because it could narrate my story more vividly. However, after persisting for so long, my motivation for drawing manga has changed. I am no longer innocent, now I just want to prove myself and let others understand that my persistence is not ridiculous.”

"Then do you think your persistence is ridiculous?"

"It's ridiculous, how can it not be ridiculous? I have been drawing comics for more than ten years! I have persisted for more than ten years! I have to rely on part-time jobs to support myself. Isn't this ridiculous enough?"

Kyosuke Kosaka couldn't help but sighed, and spoke again after a long silence.

"—Since you are so tired of persisting, why do you persist?"

"Why? I'm not reconciled! Why can others succeed, why can't I! Why can't I succeed after working so hard—I just want to rely on comics to support myself, so it's really not difficult——" Kurosawa said Yitian was silent for a moment, then continued to speak.

"And I've persisted for so long, wouldn't it be even more ridiculous if I gave up like this?!"

"—Wouldn't that be a complete joke?"

Kurosawa Kazuta's voice became choked up.

In fact, when Kurosawa was lying on the ground with his arms covering his eyes, Kyosuke Kosaka understood that Kurosawa was worried that he would cry.

Kosaka Kyosuke couldn't help but sigh.

"Before I came here, I read some of your recent original episodes, which are very interesting! Actually, your original ability is not bad. Now your main problem is that there is a problem with your mentality. You have been living in the negation of others. If you lose confidence, your mind will go blank when you create independently—this can only be done by yourself, and no one can help you.”

"Actually, I have always understood these things, and I have realized them a long time ago."

"..."

At this moment, apart from sighing, Kosaka Kyosuke could only sigh, and he didn't know what to do to persuade Kurosawa Kazuta for a while.

Kyosuke Kosaka did not speak, and neither did Kurosawa Katada.

The room fell into silence again, and this time the silence lasted longer, only Kurosawa Kazuta's uncontrollable sobbing was left in the whole room.

This stalemate is not a solution. At this moment, Kosaka Kyosuke inexplicably thought of Tamura Manami. When he encountered any difficulties that could not be solved, he would always ask Tamura Manami to help with suggestions, but now Tamura Manami is no longer by his side. Then he thought of Kosaka Kirino, and then skipped it directly.