My Name is Kosaka Kyosuke but I Don't Want to Be Pushed Down by My Sister

"—Why do you help me like this?"

The sound of a lighter came from the opposite side, it should be Editor Tomita lighting a cigarette.

After a moment of silence, he spoke.

"I see the shadow of me and Kurosawa Ida in you. At the beginning, like you, we were high school manga works that were selected for the Tezuka Award and started serialization, but we didn't have your boldness at that time. Said At the time, we were taking care of manga and school at the same time, it was very hard-but it was really fun.”

"When I was serializing, the competition was far less brutal than it is now in Jump Weekly. From the beginning, my comics have been singing and my results have been getting better and better—"

"It's just that, both studies and comics are not things that can be taken care of at the same time."

"Academics are like reality, and manga is a dream. I struggled hard between reality and manga. I only slept four or five hours a day. This lasted for three months. My family's support from the beginning turned into opposition. The praise turned into doubts, and that's it - I fell, my studies fell, and the comics were cut in half."

"--Ha ha."

"Even I thought I was so funny at the time. But I haven't regretted it. If I could do it again, I might be more courageous and courageous like Kyosuke-kun—just give up my studies and devote myself to my dream. Now I Maybe he has become a very popular manga artist in Jump!"

"However, there is no possibility in this world—the reality is really cruel and helpless—"

"Since then, I thought about giving up my studies and putting all my energy into manga. However, manga was cut in half, as if my soul had been slashed. I was timid. Until now, every time I pick up a brush Trembling non-stop——Obviously I have already thought about the plot, but the moment I pick up the paintbrush, my brain will go blank—”

"I don't want Kyosuke-kun to be defeated by reality like me—"

"Comics are not just comics, but scrolls that carry our dreams—it is the materialized aftermath of my dreams. Once the comics are cut in half, it is equivalent to the dream being broken by the cold reality. That feeling is too painful. Every time I think back to that feeling, nothing but fear remains in my heart, and my body trembles uncontrollably."

"I don't want your dream to turn into a nightmare like mine—"

"I have always wanted to escape from all these things related to comics, but——I can't let go!"

"Even if I feel pain in my heart when I see the comics, I still can't let it go!"

"Compared to the pain after the dream was broken, the huge emptiness of escaping from the dream made me feel like a walking dead, just like what Kyosuke-kun said to the teacher, I didn't know at all during the time when I gave up the dream. What do I live for, what do I insist on, my eyes are clearly open, but I feel that my eyes are dark, and everything is becoming more and more blurred—"

"I can't see anything till the end—"

"I don't want Kyosuke-kun to lose the courage to pick up the paintbrush like me, and struggle in the same hesitation as I do-and the reason why I became an editor is because I don't want anyone to go on the same path as me, repeating my The failure——” Editor Tomita laughed wryly at this point, the voice was bitter and wailed——

That is not the mourning of the five senses, but the mourning from the soul.

A cry from broken dreams.

"However, I was wrong again. When I worked hard to become an editor, I was admitted to Jingdong University and became an editor after graduating. Guess who the first author I was in charge of? That's right - he is Kazuta Kurosawa At the beginning, he was just like you and me, he was also selected for the Tezuka Award and won the manga serialization—"

"Looking at him, I felt like I saw my past self. At the beginning, I was at a loss and didn't know what to do—"

"Later, I couldn't bear it anymore. After telling Kurosawa about my affairs, I asked Kurosawa to choose between studies and manga. It was too difficult and hard work to balance the two. In the end, he didn't listen to me. Like me, I am obsessed with both, and I can understand that it is impossible for my family to agree to his suspension of school. If he dares to suspend his studies, the comics will not be serialized—”

"Later, when his grades began to decline, his parents directly burned all his drawings, threw away all his manga tools, and froze all his pocket money, and he, like me—"

"They all cry and kneel in front of their parents—"

"Begging, crying bitterly, promising that I would never fall behind in my studies, and forcing my parents to compromise, I had another chance to pick up a paintbrush."

"Back then, I knew he'd be like me—"

"But at that time, I couldn't do anything! I couldn't do anything! I couldn't help anything—I could only watch him step by step on my old path. Until now, I still remember the moment when he was cut in half— —His painful expression lying on the hospital bed, empty eyes, unstoppable tears—I thought about not being an editor anymore, but he encouraged me—”

"I still remember the sentence he said to—"

"I haven't failed yet! I will definitely succeed, you have to be optimistic! My uncle will definitely succeed! I will definitely prove it to everyone!"

"So don't quit—"

"Who else can share the joy of success with me after you leave your job? I'm afraid I won't be able to hold on if you're leaving my job. Please! Please don't leave my job. It's rude to say this, but really please don't leave my job , as long as I see you suffering so much but still persisting, I can feel the courage—”

"I really don't want to give up—please! This is my Kurosawa's lifelong request—"

"Please hold on, please help me hold on—"

"please!!"

"Hehe - it's really funny to think about it now, in fact, I'm the one who didn't want to give up the most!! It was he who gave me the courage - Kurosawa persisted, but from the moment the manga was cut in half, his The dream has already been torn apart, and his manga has lost its soul, and it can no longer carry the dream to sail—"

"So please! Please accept my request—"

"I don't want to see you fail again like me and him. I really don't want to experience that feeling again—and I don't want to see people like me go down my old path again."

"If you can't continue serializing in the weekly magazine, then serialize in the monthly magazine—"

"You are more courageous than us, but please believe me - when the manga is cut in half, you will really not be able to hold on!!"

"You'll become, like me, like Kurosawa—"

"Dreams are torn—"

An hour of telling, an hour of listening.

Editor Tomita's story and Kurosawa Kazuta's story made Kosaka Kyosuke feel unprecedented pressure, but—he!Not editor Tomita!Not Kurosawa Kazuta!

He's not someone else, and he won't be someone else, he's—

Kyosuke Takasaka! !

"Please allow me to refuse! Dreams should not be compromised-whether it is drowning in dreams or dying of thirst in reality-since it is death! Then I would rather be smashed to pieces in dreams than drunk in reality-your old way , I will never repeat it, I will never let it happen to me again, I will step on your failures to climb higher and go further—"

"Since—your comics are too small to carry your dreams and go further—"

"Then let me take them on a long voyage with these hands!"