I Will Be the Son of Man

The other party's words, as if saying that it was not her, made Hill frowned.

"No, put it another way, Travis H. Pisman is actually sick."

"Whenever he saw images of war, he was overwhelmed by unspeakable anxiety."

Tevez's expression didn't change at all, as if he was talking about someone else's life.

"It can be said to be throbbing. The blood flowing in the heart is really painfully active."

However, he continued to speak as if he felt the same way.

"After that, my anxiety became heavier every day, turning into uncontrollable pain."

"After becoming a scientist, it was the pain in my chest that led me to the battlefield to save lives."

"So, what inspired me before was neither a sense of justice nor a sense of duty, but a question of why I was the only one who hated war so much."

"I'm sick. In the final analysis, I don't have to go to the battlefield. I can do a lot of rescue in the rear."

"But why is it necessary to experience war? Why do you want to know about war? Mere abhorrence of war cannot explain this."

"Although I had doubts about this irrationality, I still didn't stop going to the battlefield."

"And then, in 1990, in a city somewhere in the Far East, some kind of brain disease happened."

"From the previous symptoms, it was speculated that it was a disease caused by some kind of chemical weapon. Because there were several terrorist attacks in that city, and I was called to the city as a doctor, and then encountered a large-scale attack. "

"According to the records, the official death toll is 5000. To be precise, [Mooncell]'s record is 8000."

There was a little tiredness in Tevez's eyes, but he continued to speak.

"My former self, no, the human data that became my source ended there. In other words, Tevez was also one of those victims."

"The scene of the ruins I saw when I was dying, but it was not the first time I saw it."

"At that time, I recalled the memory of my childhood, which I have always forgotten, the memory of my childhood."

"In the 70s, there was an ethnic dispute somewhere, it was actually a proxy war by a big country. I was born there as a war orphan."

"Looking back, it was a hell, everything dissipated effortlessly. Whether it's value or meaning, it has nothing to do with the weight of those things. It's like saying that life is something like that."

"And, because of this, life shines. Being alive is such a miracle, and I should have remembered it when I was young."

"After that, it was the same as I said just now. I became an adopted son, forgot the past and grew up, and became a scientist."

"That's how I held a proposition in my heart that couldn't disappear."

"I hate war twice as much as others, and I have murderous intentions towards war itself. That's why I want to be a party involved."

"But the thing at my core is not negation."

Tevez's eyes became darker, but his face remained expressionless.

"I have witnessed numerous wars, constant hell, and constant human viciousness."

"A team of recruits who repel and return despite being surrounded by enemies with multiple times their experience and supplies."

"A 5-year-old girl who went deep into the jungle to escape the raids of the guerrillas in a dense forest where even skilled people would suffer, and broke through in just two days."

"The existence that will be reduced to rubble, the innocent people who have spent decades to revive without the help of civilization."

"It's really strange. I went to the place because I hate war, but I found a lot of power there."

"When I think about it, I was like this before I was alive. My great career, everything was born because of the war."

"Many inventions, many lives saved, that is not to get rid of that hell. I just brought many things back from hell."

"Then, [his] end was the victim of a horrific disaster. That dying moment, I recall."

"The scenery seen in the burning wilderness of my hometown. In all the dead lands, the tenacity of life that still wants to survive."

"That's right, under the condition that my heart will stop after three seconds, I finally got the answer to my question."

"It turned out that it wasn't a denial. I wanted to know about war so much. I, who have been in hell several times, I, a victim, can't deny that behavior as a fault more than anyone else."

Speaking to contradictory conclusions, Tevez uncovered his own nature.

"[Mooncell] watched everything, recorded everything, and recorded my thoughts when I was dying."

"Then time passed, and based on that record, I was born as an NPC. Just like those NPCs you saw before."

"Although they showed a very human reaction, the result is nothing more than a doll who has been given a job. I used to be like this..."

"However, the doll has a heart."

"I don't know the reason. Is it affected by being in contact with too many masters as an NPC? Or is it because of the talent of a spirit hacker? Or is it just a pure coincidence, an abnormality that occurs with a probability equal to zero? "

"I don't have the technology to know the mysteries. However, now that my self-awareness has awakened, I can only act as Tevez H. Pissman."

"The last dream I saw in my lifetime, the unformed ideal. In order to realize it, I exist."

"Is the ideal of the dead...... What is your wish?" Hill understood the contradiction in front of him and asked with a frown.

"Of course—it's war."

After speaking firmly, Tevez's eyes never wavered.

"Let all human beings fight each other on the same stage as equals."

The young man's answer was concise and decisive, his eyes were extremely natural, and he uttered the wild words without arrogance.

"Yes, this future is wrong. This is my conclusion after seeing [Mooncell]'s human history."

"Everyone should understand that when they come to their senses, human beings have already lost their maturity."

"During the growth period until 1990, consumption and prosperity were balanced. But the maturity period that will come after that—"

"After the age of immaturity, the golden age that should have come simply did not exist."

"You should understand, right? The benefits of this planet are simply not worthwhile."

"A stagnant spirit and a helpless world are like the rotten fruit itself."

"It was supposed to be the most delicious period, but it fell off completely. Don't you think that history is wrong?"

Hill remembered what Rin Tosaka and Leo said, although the development of the world here is stable, it has completely stagnated, as if it is about to age.

"But why war?"

Hill could not understand the means sought by the other party.

"Because that's the most efficient way forward! Stability and stagnation are only used to preserve seeds."

"Human beings are unnecessary if that kind of thing is the purpose. As an animal, we are far too sinful."

"In the past, many lives and many resources were consumed for their own convenience. Why? Naturally, it is for prosperity."

"Prosper for what? There's no point in questioning that. Just prosper because that's what life is about."

"You'll agree that humans are creatures that grow, and that eat away at many of their dreams."

"The qualifiers of the Holy Grail War are its symbol. In the false peace, there are no self-conscious saboteurs who live without doing anything."

"Across their inaction, humans grow for the first time, just like you."

"Thinking about burnt mustard seeds eats away a lot of the past, and the loss is too huge. It is something that is never allowed, and civilization at this level will end."

"That's right? If we can't create a future that matches what we've paid so far, humans will be nothing more than mere killers."

"As a human being living in the distant past, I absolutely would not identify with this future."

"This future is wrong and we are not wasting our lives for such a society."

"However, time cannot be reversed. Since there is no way to go back, the only way to go is to move forward."

"So, go back to the era of struggle again, and recreate the history of a hundred years ago."

"No matter who has to become the party involved in the struggle for survival, the human consciousness will advance to a different path."

"That wish has now become a conviction."

Tevez stood up, watching Hill.

"Victor of the Holy Grail War, because your existence just proves this."

"Originally, the Holy Grail War was just one of [Mooncell's] intelligence gathering activities. Of course, there is no such thing as the Holy Grail War."

“[Mooncell] just needs the best samples, and the competition for survival is just a test of competitive performance.”

"However, at the end of the self-explanation so far, all the magicians were eliminated by fighting each other. Isn't it too much? Until I won, this space was full of piles of corpses."

Tevez's words made this emerald green space seem to be filled with the smell of blood.

"But because I am an NPC, unlike you, even if I die, there will be a next time."

"As an NPC, I watched their battles, and I soon awakened myself, and repeated the battles again and again with the weakest body."

"After dozens of battles, I arrived here."

"The next step is very simple. From here, I manipulated the superficial rules and created the Holy Grail War. Only one victor can survive the severe competition for survival."

"I transform it into places of unimaginable possibility that push people up."

"Then you appeared. Although you didn't know anything at the beginning of the official match, and appeared in a very abrupt way, you were obviously the weakest master, but you defeated the king of the world at the end."

"Not someone who, like me, was adaptable from the start."

"From an ignorant ordinary person at the beginning, he has grown into a representative who controls the destiny of the world."

"That's right, the battle has tempered you, and the hardships have turned your flesh into steel. That is something that shows the possibility of human beings."

As Tevez said, he made way out of the way in front of the [Mooncell] core.

"Come, connect with the Holy Grail. You have the right to let the earth know your growth process."

"Then, I hope you can shout loudly that fighting is necessary, and human beings need to evolve as soon as possible."

"You only need to enter a sentence in [Mooncell]."

"[Don't stop]. After that, it's up to you."

"Whether you become a god or become a king, that is your freedom. I will give my blessing, because no matter what, your decision will be the end of the battle."

"Humanity has experienced many wars and lost countless lives. No matter which scars are deep."

"But the lack has to be filled with results, otherwise there will be no meaning of loss. If it cannot be filled, there will be a new lack."

"Having to fill, many sacrifices, deep scars on top of that, that's necessary for humanity."