Sister Hui Ye Wants Me to Be Reliable

But when Bai Yin paused, Shi Zhu continued to talk about another topic:

"Our mother passed away when we were very young."

"...I've heard of it a little bit." Bai Yin was puzzled, why Shi Zhu said this, he could only try to follow Shi Zhu's words.

"After my mother passed away, that person...that is, our...blood father, ignored me and my sister, and left us in a separate residence in Tokyo, where we were taken care of by a group of people. From the perspective of outsiders , actually there is nothing wrong with it, right?" Shi Zhu tried to force a smile, but failed.

"It's not like that..." Bai Yin shook his head.

If there is really nothing wrong, why is Shi Zhu smiling so ugly.

"Who knows. At least for me who don't know anything, it's very bad. My mother just passed away, and my father didn't care about it. There are only a group of servants who are obedient." Shi Zhu lowered her eyes, "So I felt , I am actually an unnecessary existence, it is better to die."

"Eh?!" Bai Yin was shocked.

"It's true, I was desperate at the time, and then I committed suicide." Shi Zhu parted her forehead hair, revealing the scars, "The scars here are only appendages, and the more serious scars are on the torso."

Baiyin nodded hesitantly, he was a bit overwhelmed, but he also understood the reason why Shizhu had to wear sun protection clothing when going to the beach.

"But I forgot one thing—" Shi Zhu laughed self-deprecatingly, "There is one person who will take care of me, and that is my most important sister."

"Hmm..." Bai Yin nodded, "Why did you say this all of a sudden?"

"Because I can't forgive myself for my stupidity and mistakes, and I can't forgive my behavior for hurting my sister. Even though my sister never blamed me." Shi Zhu turned her face, "I started to play the role of a good boy."

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Chapter 12 Similar but not the same "hole" ([-])

Shi Zhu's words made Bai Yin's brain a little bit overwhelmed.

Even if you have been forgiven by everyone, you cannot forgive yourself.

"Brother Yuxing, you should be able to understand this feeling." The withered grass at Shizhu's feet said softly, "It's not that someone deliberately asked me to, but because of a certain reason, I forced myself to hide my original self. Show your better side to others..."

"..."

"Even if there is pain, it is impossible to stop this behavior..."

"Why did you tell me this?" Bai Yin asked suddenly.

Shi Zhu showed a quiet smile, "Of course it's for a secret exchange. I'll tell Brother Yuxing my secret, and then Brother Yuxing, you should also tell me that what you worry about is about yourself."

"I don't suffer as deeply as Dianthus." Bai Yin denied.

"Well, I thought we had a little bit of similarity." Shi Zhu smiled apologetically, "Because Brother Yu Xing is always burdened with heavy burdens. So I feel that it will be a little easier to express the things that are suppressed in my heart." Take it easy. Just pretend I didn't say it, sorry, I'm too—”

"Because there really isn't one." Bai Yin continued to deny, "I just tried a little harder."

"I don't think it's 'a little bit of effort', can it be summed up?" Shi Zhu said seriously, "That's already... the level of working hard."

"I'm worthless if I don't work hard...so I'm working hard all the time..." As he spoke, Bai Yin suddenly held his head, and his voice became much more gloomy, "This kind of thing...doesn't matter. Who did you discuss it with?"

"That's right. Unless someone knows it from the beginning, otherwise...it's really difficult to expose the one you deny..." Shi Zhu nodded, "And people who already know it, can't even Let's discuss it... because I understand the weight of bearing..."

Even if you can't compare them equally, you can understand the hardships involved.

Because of knowing too well, the people around me can't bear to say anything...

For Shi Zhu, it is sister and love; for Bai Yin, it is father and sister.

"I...with my mother's hope, I took the entrance exam for kindergarten." Baiyin pressed his forehead hair, lowered his head, and his expression was a bit ambiguous, "but... I didn't pass the entrance exam for...primary school at all. Also failed. My mother always wanted a smart child."

"Mother's expectation...well..." Shi Zhu nodded, hiding her untimely envy.

"I can personally feel that because I failed the entrance exam, my mother diverted all the attention from me..." Bai Yin's voice began to choke, "When my mother left home, she only took away the younger sister who passed the exam... ...I firmly believe that my mother will come to pick me up sooner or later, and concentrate on studying hard..."

The words were blocked by the handkerchief handed into view, and Baiyin realized that he had become teary at some point.

"It's enough..." Shi Zhu's brows were furrowed, "I was too arrogant to think that I could empathize with your pain."

Guilt and powerlessness are two different things, even if it leads the two to what seems to be the same situation today.

But that can't be discussed together at all.

Shi Zhu thought so.

He could have chosen a better outcome, but he only randomly filled the hole that satisfied his heart, and then left a bigger and deeper hole.

But Baiyin Yuxing had no choice but to work hard, that was the only way he had left.

"But at least... you don't have to be great by everyone? Maybe—"

"No matter where I am, no one can accept the original me." Baiyin clutched the handkerchief, "For your sister, she only met me last summer. But before that, I have actually dated her several times. words. But they were all ignored..."

Unexpected facts, let Shizhu sort out what he knows so far...

President Baiyin's grade ranking has rushed to the top of the grade from the original upper-middle ranking, squeezing his sister down, and has never wavered.

Sure enough, it's because my sister's academic performance has fallen behind that I started to notice him?

"I challenged your sister to take the exam and defeated him." Bai Yin said, "After that, not only Sigong, but the whole school began to pay attention to me as the next president of the student union."

"And be respected by everyone." Shi Zhu laughed.

"During the cultural festival, I prepared very hard, but I worked very hard. And this hard work was not in vain. Your sister is very happy." Bai Yin turned her face and looked at Shi Zhu, "But what she kissed was hard work. I, the me who always try my best, the me who is bluffing...I am definitely not the other half of Sigong's fate. Let her fall in love with the original me, this kind of miracle will definitely not happen..."