Plural Apostles

Leiden Mei was panicked, so when Ziegfei came out to eat lunch the next day, she asked other topics for the first time besides the daily greetings: "Qi Jun, what happened to that little boy after that?"

Siegfried, who was eating the takeaway, paused, looked up at Leiden Mei with a blank expression, and Leiden Mei stared at him closely, then he lowered his head in silence and finished eating the takeaway, then threw the box into the trash basket, Standing up, ignoring Raiden Mei, walked to the door of the bedroom.

Raiden Mei thought that Siegfried would ignore her own existence as usual, but she heard a response.

"Oh, who knows."

"Uh... what do you mean?" Leiden Mei hurriedly asked, out of curiosity, but also wanting to seize this rare opportunity for Siegfried to take the initiative to talk to him.

"There are all kinds of people in the world, and people are the same everywhere—a pet who doesn't know how to get along with people, how to live as a human being, how can he survive in human society? Is it self-change? Is it meeting a good person? Unable to fit into social despair? Well, who knows."

Siegfried unscrewed the door lock, and glanced back at Raiden Mei: "For money, you can do anything, no matter good or bad, with money, you can do anything, no matter good or bad, people are One thing."

"It's like a young lady who is happy and keen to play the image of 'a husband who takes the initiative to fight coldly but is still a virtuous and capable wife who will never leave her', huh."

boom.

The door closed, dividing the inside and outside into two worlds.

Lei Dian Mei pursed her lips, took a few deep breaths, and walked outside the bedroom door: "Qi Jun, do you think I'm deliberately pretending to deceive you?"

After a moment of silence, the smell of cigarettes followed Siegfried's indifferent voice.

"This kind of thing doesn't matter. I only know one truth: people can expect the world to become kind, but they can't believe that the world is kind, because they can't afford to lose."

Leiden Mei was silent for a while, and then said softly: "Then...why can't people make themselves kind?"

"...Isolation from the world is the greatest kindness of a person."

Chapter 730 Seven I want to be close to him

After a brief conversation, Leiden Mei pursed her lips slightly, and said in a low voice, "Well, I'm very sorry...I have no malicious intentions..."

"Your behavior is the greatest malice. Miss, are you tired? Please leave my life when you are tired."

"No, what I mean is...can you try to live with me for a while? I don't have too many demands. You get up early on time, and eat the three meals a day I cook..."

Siegfried inside the door fell silent, and a few seconds later, Mei Lei heard the sound of a lighter being ignited, and a little smell of smoke wafted out of the door's analysis.

"Aren't you tired of 'role-playing' games yet? Then go ahead and play on your own."

Leiden Mei rubbed the center of her brows, feeling a little annoyed, and subconsciously spoke according to the closeness of her previous relationship with Siegfried. Considering Siegfried's character and current relationship, what he just said probably sounded like a A proclamation that would piss him off... Think carefully about what to do...

"That..." Leiden Yayi raised his hand and rubbed his face, trying to make his tone tense, appearing a little lower and colder, but it didn't seem to be effective, and before he could speak, he subconsciously slowed down his voice, "You don't Play with me, ahem... Then I don't have the so-called time to get tired of playing, right?"

"Play? I'm not interested."

Leiden Mei frowned slightly, and couldn't hold back the tone she was holding up. She always felt that there was a more indifferent tone in Siegfried's voice just now. This was what Bronya said that drove Siegfried into a hurry. ...

So, how did you meet Qi Jun?Relationship improved?Doing it all over again now feels really exhausting.

"...Time will tell, Mr. Qi, I didn't mean to make fun of you."

Raiden Mei silently looked at the door that separates the inside from the outside... Why is there such a thing as a door in human society?Lei Dian Mei couldn't help feeling at this moment, because people's self-awakening and having themselves, people are different from each other, and there are differences between people, so there are barriers between people, closeness, distance, and privacy.

The door is just a kind of object produced after this kind of psychology.

Slightly moving her lips, Leiden Mei originally wanted to get straight to the point and express her thoughts, but she hesitated for a long time before giving up this idea. This door is colder and stronger than she imagined, and the words she said will only be in the door. After being filtered by this door, it becomes lies and hypocrisy in the other party's ears.

There are very few people who easily speak out their inner words, and people who easily believe in others' words, whether it is the former or the latter, and they are always decreasing, because they are too stupid, their EQ is too low, they are too naive, they are too stupid the...

"Qi Jun, good night, sweet dreams."

Leiden Mei finished speaking softly, then returned to the dining table in the living room, ate the already cold meal absently, washed the dishes and chopsticks as before, cleaned the kitchen, and chatted with others on the current situation and progress on the sofa , and then looked at the chapter Siegfried updated today.

This time Siegfried is describing a woman, a woman seen from the perspective of a monster. In a sense, the protagonist of this story is this woman. She is gentle and virtuous, beautiful and housekeeping, hardworking and thrifty, and she is full of kindness in dealing with others. , Chapter 1 portrays such an image, while Chapter 2 depicts the inner monologue of the woman based on the woman's daily behavior in Chapter 1.

I am full of ridicule and excessive teasing to everyone I come into contact with, and I have a realistic interpretation of what I do, imagining a kind of pleasure of disguising myself and deceiving everyone, and enjoying a kind of self-disguise. Behavior is disguised, the distorted pleasure that runs counter to what you want in your heart... It analyzes the filth and darkness of a perfect woman's heart in the eyes of outsiders, and writes things that completely analyze human psychology that are impossible to do in reality, and directly shapes the previous one. The up image breaks.

The separation of behavior and mind, the gap between material and spirit, between the surge and squeeze of reality, creates an individual called human being...

"In Qi Jun's eyes, is this the image I have..."

Leiden Mei couldn't tell how she felt, but it was very complicated and subtle. There was a feeling that Siegfried would take it for granted, but also an urge to kick the door to vent her feelings, and more of it was slightly dazed and a little bit sour.

This Siegfried is like a lonely and irritable hedgehog. If he is too close, he will forcefully erect all the spikes and stab anyone who wants to get close. He will look at the problem rationally, because some things give way , but will not give in to the end, still a hedgehog ball.

After all, Siegfried is now 30 years old, and has no shortage of money... Then, is this the way he chooses to spend his life?

Leiden Mei sat on the sofa in a daze.

It wasn't until her biological clock reminded that Leiden Mei went to the bathroom to take a shower, passed by the door of Siegfried's bedroom, and when she saw the light shining through the crack of the door, as usual, she whispered good night and went to bed early , went back to his bedroom and lay down.

However, she felt like she couldn't fall asleep anyway, maybe because she touched Siegfried at close range just now, and she felt a tingling pain as a result.

I thought that living under the same roof during this period of time could barely be regarded as an acquaintance who could speak a few words, but it seemed to be another matter entirely...

Wearing pajamas, with blue-black long hair spread under her body, Leiden Mei, who was neatly covered with a quilt, opened her eyes and stared blankly at the ceiling. She was introspecting and thinking, and at the same time, there was a chaotic emotion in her heart that made her She couldn't fall asleep on time.

This Siegfried who is indifferent, rejects others, lives in his own world, chooses a way of life away from the crowd, and has no smile...is he really Siegfried?

Raiden Mei knows that the world of mental imagery is the embodiment of certain aspects of Siegfried's mind. If a certain aspect is reflected, then this aspect of character will become dominant, and the trajectory of life will not only conform to the perfect development of this character, but also be influenced by this Character drives development.

The giggling, irritating and laughing Siegfried, who always wanted to make big news and make some shit, but never really made people feel too much and heartache...

This person is always expressionless, rejects people thousands of miles away, rejects any form of interpersonal relationship, stays in his own world, lives alone in the way he chooses, and will erect spikes when someone approaches, words and deeds extremely hurtful...

Reason knows that everything happens with logic and cause and effect, but Raiden Mei feels very uncomfortable emotionally. She inexplicably feels that what Siegfried said before has some truth, and various external factors lead to two people who are far away from each other. , living under the same roof, each other is each other's hell, each other is torturing each other.